<human>: Summarize the given text in a few sentences.

I'll start by saying what's probably obvious, this is/was my first serious relationship. We met through a mutual friend in January while she was in town on Winter Break and became fast friends and made it official on Valentine's day. The relationship was long distance, with her living over a thousand miles away.

Things seemed perfect for the longest time, and it wasn't until maybe a week and a half ago that I started to notice something was off(taking longer to text back, sometimes seeming more and more disinterested in conversation, and just seeming less affectionate in general). 

The night before last I even began to think things were making their way back to normal, but last night she broke it off and now I feel broken. She says she just doesn't feel the same anymore, that suddenly she just couldn't find it in here to keep things going feeling like she was lying to herself more and more everyday. I haven't talked to her since last night, I keep finding my mind wandering convincing myself that I can save it, I've never met anyone like her and now I just don't know what to do.

To add a little more although she doesn't live here now, she will very soon and thanks to mutual friends it's highly unlikely I can completely avoid her. She gave me the entire "It's not you, it's me" and "I still want you as a friend" routines which if I'm honest are only making things worse. I almost wish she had a reason to hate me, or at least that I had a reason to hate her, but I don't, I still feel the same, and the longer I do the worse I feel about myself.

(Also I'm really sorry if any of this is hard to understand, I'm still in some emotional distress and I'm having trouble separating my thoughts)
<bot>: My girlfriend just ended my first serious relationship, and now I can't help but hate myself even though she was adamant it wasn't my fault, please if you think you have advice that might help me I need it now.