<human>: Can you succinctly summarize the text in 1-3 sentences?

I was 16 when we met. I was attracted to him immediately in my teens, but we had a brief friendship and lost touch.  Last year I ran into him and we began hanging out.  Again.. I found myself attracted to everything about him.  I let him know that I liked him.  He said he wasn't looking for a girlfriend.  He had just come out of something 6 months before we met up and so I understood his hesitation.  I put my feelings aside for the most part.  We had a great time together.. attending concerts and movies and dinners.  I respected that he didn't want to date me.  I continued to keep my romantic feelings to myself and enjoy the friendship.  In the last few months however.. things have become complicated.  We began cuddling at the movies instead of just eating popcorn.  He seemed to find excuses to touch me in public (hand holding..light touch of the waist.  That sort of thing).  Suddenly we were spending time together at night and showing some major affection (no sex).   I of course still felt something for him, and brought up the idea of dating once more.  To my disappointment.. he gave me the same line.  "I just don't want a girlfriend right now."   Now when we hang out he says things like, "See? This is why we can't date.. you like that and I don't."  He will laugh and call it a joke, but of course it hurts.   I'm not sure how to continue this friendship, or if I even want to.  I'm fairly sure I'm in love with this man and maybe that is why it's time to end everything.  I'm afraid to hurt him and never see him again.. but I feel messed with.  Like a girlfriend he can have without having to commit.
<bot>: I'm in love with my friend.  He seemed to show signs of feeling something back, but turned me down again and now seems to be making fun of the situation.  Still just friends?