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Hey lovely people,
Well, I'm absolutely sick of being overweight. I'm currently the biggest and most uncomfortable I've ever been. Most... actually all of my problems have stemmed from my unhealthiness and lack of confidence. Its getting to the point where I hate being outside and I'm really not looking after myself. I've been missing out on a lot too. I've also been diagnosed with depression and I'm really ready to begin my new life! I started the gym last year and got really into it. The trainers there set up a program for me to use in the gym and i also did classes. The change in my body and health was incredible, I felt amazing. Well I didn't keep it up and I've put on 40lbs since then. I've got a gym membership but I've been really nervous about going and I can't afford a personal trainer. Its different gym and doesn't give as much support or offer programs like my last one. I don't want that to stop me though. I'm just wondering if there are any programs I can find online to use with the machines. I'll be doing classes too. Any advice on starting the journey and keeping up the motivation would be amazing too. I'm fed up with giving up. Please help :) My life may just depend on it xx
<bot>: Currently worst condition of my life, mentally and physically. Any advice on motivation and what to do when I'm actually in the gym (programs etc) would be much appreciated.