<human>: We had decided long ago that marriage is weird, and that we would never think of it because love and commitment were enough. We scoffed at it. It was a joke between us.

Within these two years, I helped her through stress, depression, tangible help with her career. 

She went through alopecia and for four months (yes, fourth months in a two year relationship), I received only and only this message from here every single day every other hour - "My hair! My hair is going! Why are you not doing anything! You are useless and pretentious." (Not exaggerating) All this while I put my academic and professional career almost on hold, did not smile for four months, cried every other night, all the while helping her through doctors appointments, delivering medicines to her, taking her for tests and what not.

This routine was repeated through her exam stress (when I was also giving my exams, yet only helping her), and every stray thing that bothered her.

Yesterday night, she told me she would eventually want to keep the option of getting married open. I said that love is what is the present and the future for me. She said, for her, it was being settled. 

And then she told me I had used her, that she should have known I was a bad person who physically and emotionally took advantage of her. We never even had sex through our relationship because she wasn't comfortable with the idea, and I never pressured her into anything beyond what she herself proposed. 

I feel as if I have wasted two significant years with her. But I am not a vengeful person, while all my smallest mistakes are reported to all our common friends. I will be completely deserted by everyone in a few weeks. With her, I went through severe depression twice but I held on because I love her; I started stammering with no prior history of it.

It is hard to understand this as emotional abuse. I am having a hard time understanding that she could say, after all we went through, that I used her. I am doubting my own self. 

How does one get over this.

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<bot>: Girlfriend after two years of infinite care rejected everything as me having 'used' her. I am doubting myself.