<human>: Can you give me the gist of the text in a nutshell?

I've never been pregnant before... Right now I'm incredibly ill (I also have Celiac disease which I'm sure is a contributing factor in my current state) at just under 9 weeks.  I'll say, while I am pro-choice, this decision is incredibly hard for me.  I never wanted children but I never thought about having them either.  

My boyfriend and I have always admitted to not wanting children and if we faced this day, we'd cross that bridge when we get there.... and we're here, now.  The decision to have an abortion was almost immediate, due to the fact that we are not in a financially comfortable position to bring a child into, along with upcoming ambitions we are reaching to achieve.  We also are ending our time with my boyfriend's grandfather, who we care for - he has dementia.  We both work part-time outside of caring for grandpa and ~~are~~ were saving to travel abroad.  

My boyfriend has been so kind to me during this time and very supportive.  But... I'm battling this.  I don't want a child but I feel so bad about having to abort.  I know where I'm at in my pregnancy and I know that I'm not aborting an actual baby.  I just can't escape this depression.

I also greatly fear that my boyfriend may resent me afterward, despite his support and our mutual decision.  You know, you can't really predict the future... He's the love of my whole life and if he said to me a couple years from now that he wanted a child, I'd be more than happy to give him one.  

I shamefully admit to suffering from chronic depression, so I'm really trying to prepare myself for the feelings that may come.  Though, I don't know what to expect.  How do I cope with this decision?  Are there couples still together who've been through an abortion?  I'd really just like to hear from someone who's been in a similar situation.
<bot>: Boyfriend and I are pregnant; I'm worried he may regret our decision to abort, after the act.  I'm paranoid this will hurt my relationship.  Help?  Advice?