<human>: Can you summarize the given text in a few sentences?

Dramatic I know...

To be honest I just hate this relationship so much. I've been with the same guy for ten years married for seven. I was ignorant and told myself a lie that things could get better. It's not, I know he won't change and that was my first mistake. Now there's no way that I can leave him. Things at work isn't picking up, I can't just go back to my parents. I've tried...and it's not going to work. I don't want our son picking up his habits. I'm not attracted to him anymore...what am I gonna do? I just feel so trapped. The worse part about all of this is that I've been using a dating profile to just talk to other people. I've never hooked up with anyone or even gone on a date...to be honest I wouldn't want to get into a relationship. I'm no prize winner, I have my flaws I'm just so unhappy and have no place to go. I'm just feeling so...just...just...I don't even know how to describe it.
<bot>: I feel stuck and I feel really shitty. (if) I leave this relationship because I know he'll fall into a deep depression.