<human>: I have been very flaky when it gets to relationship. Different men I've dated and I always feel the same, at some point the excitement are gone and I'd be left with a totally neutral feeling for said person.

These were good men too and they 'ticked' most of my relationship box. It is not like I dated just anyone. I even sometimes waited until I am very sure that I liked them before agreeing to anything at all.

My fiance has been my best friend for almost 17 years. We finally tried to date two years ago despite him knowing how flaky I am. We have even tried living separately and not seeing each other so often to avoid feeling being crowded up.

I feel right now that it just delayed the inevitable.

How do I stay with this one? This time I feel really scared because I stand to lose mt live long bestfriend too.

Can you give me the gist of the text in a nutshell?
<bot>: Getting together with bestfriend of 17 years, I turned out to be still the same flaky person from years ago. Need help to stay.