<human>: Throw away

There's this drop dead gorgeous brunette that works at a local bank, that I go to for work a couple times a week. We smile and chat with each other here and there, when I pull up to the drive up window, but its only a few minutes here and there.

Im always choking after I get my stuff back, and wind up driving away angry at myself. Every.Single.Time.

she gives me my receipts back, tells me to have a nice day and walks away, I feel awkward trying to get her attention to ask her, and keep trying to find that moment where it can fit in at the right time.  The days where I do go, all confident that Im going to, theres always something, like other customers so I have to deal with someone else, or she starts to help and then someone else comes in to finish because the phone rings. 

I sit there , reciting over in my head "hey, would you be interested in grabbing a drink one day after work?" Or anything else similar, then its just Here ya go, have a nice day SpewedFood, and I say thanks you too and leave, and then get around the corner and call myself a pussy. 

And then I feel awkward to turn around and go back there just for the main purpose of asking. or to go there if I dont have a reason to go to the bank

Can you give me a shortened version of the text?
<bot>: havent asked a girl out in years, theres this pretty girl at my bank, but too pussy to ask her out after many attempts, and keep choking, fuck me right..