<human>: I should start off by saying it was an open relationship of almost a year. He was everything to be and got me through some really bad times in my life.

I have a attention fetish, I love attention far too much. He was okay with it though, he would let me show off and show my body off to other guys, even encouraged it at times he would often let me get sexual with his friends and he would watch.

So I play an online game and im very flirty with guys and once we knew them he would allow me to get naughty with them as long as he knew them and he knew I was okay, until one day last week. So what caused the breakup is he came home drunk and he saw i had no top on. this has happened many times because but he never usually has a problem with it but for some reason this time he did. It started with screaming about how I am a worthless whore and a bunch of terrible things, this led to him throwing me out of my computer chair and destroying my laptop and hitting me in the stomach when i tried to get some clothes and leave.

Honestly I'm still really shook up about it all, I know I caused it with what I like to do :( but what hes done isnt right either. basically all my belongings are ruined from him and the most messed up part is i still miss and love him :(

I dont really know what advice im looking for, i just wanted to get it off my chest because i lost the guy i love and i just want someone to talk to :(

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<bot>: Open relationship, I like to be slutty he encourages it. Catches me being slutty one day and goes berserk destroying everything I have and hitting me.