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I had stage IIB testicular cancer last year. I had three surgeries and went through four cycles of chemotherapy. After all that was over my friend threw me a surprise birthday party to celebrate my beating cancer. After the party she and I became very close. We went on walks, we held hands, we hugged, we talked all day and all night. I started getting feelings for her and I told her I liked her and she liked me. The problem we couldn't go out or be in a relationship because she is younger. She is 13.

Time kept going by and I I knew it was wrong to like a girl that young but I started really loving her. I would do anything to see her happy and I would love her to the end of time. I was pathetic too. I always asked her if we would be something in the future or if she really did like me the same way I loved her. One day in October she and my brother started dating and that drove me insane. I called her a Cunt and a bitch for playing with my emotions. I called a 13 year old girl a Cunt. I was a mess then because I the cancer took all my mental health away. I said sorry to her and apologized profusely and my brother and her broke up.

Her parents found out what I called her and talked sense into her. They said I was a bad influence and to stop being friends with me. She listened. Now she and I don't talk. I still love her, I'm a pathetic mess, I can't get her out of my mind and she and my brother are a couple. I have no idea what to do.

Any help that reddit gold. Please I'm desperate
<bot>: I fell for a 13 year old after beating cancer and called her horrible stuff after feeling betrayed. Now I need to revive the relationship