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First time ever on reddit but this is what it's come to. I'm 19 and female by the way.

I was in an abusive relationship for just over a year and it's finally come to an end. It was more verbally and emotionally abusive rather than physical, although there was some of that too.

I know I should be happy that it's over but I'm left so completely messed up. I've blocked his numbers, Facebook, all that, which surely helps but it's not enough. I'm half upset that I've lost my best friend that could be so sweet to me, and half terrified because he was often so controlling and cruel to me.

I'm excited to move on with my life and know that although it's awful now that it's for the best but it's SO HARD.

What doesn't help is that before this relationship I was with the same guy for 4 years, and during my last relationship I lost all my friends. I'm normal I swear! I like going out and socialising but unfortunately I've been so involved in my relationships that without my boyfriend my social life is dead.

I've got pretty much no one to talk to and it's making me feel so utterly alone and hopeless. There are things I need to get off my chest but no one to talk to.

I don't know how reddit popped into my head for help. Honestly I think it's because I watch Catfish and people meet really nice people online who help them get through hard times. So I've got no idea what I'm looking for on here but basically I need support.
<bot>: 19 year old girl in need of support from anyone after break up with abusive boyfriend. Has anyone been through this and come out the other side better off, or known someone who has?