<human>: I have never been a social butterfly. All of my life I have been to myself and have a difficult time having many friends because of my bluntness and social awkwardness. It's not that I cannot be social it's just that to be honest I kinda enjoy being an asshole to people. So I enjoy being an outsider and seeing things from a different perspective.

I have done well for myself as a young man, acquiring much money and living a simple life. The thought of opening up to a relationship has always been my least favorite topic. During family functions I am teased for having so much money in the bank, but being unable to have a girlfriend. I have been called gay and weird because I don't want to have one. However, I have shrugged it off because i think of the people who are telling me this ( miserable in their own relationships) and laugh.

This past week I have been attempting to do my daily and weekly Pc gaming with my younger cousin and he has been preoccupied with work and mostly his girlfriend. I have always respected that he has one, but have been feeling like such a loser and a freak because he is with someone and my main priority has been to game and do childish things.

At work, the company idiot  who has been dying to have a girlfriend and has been rejected by many has finally got one. After a while it was getting sad that he has not gotten what he wants and I was thrilled to find out he did. i shrugged it off knowing that if someone puts effort in something they should get it. 

My other good friends are all in relationships and it is difficult to have any spare time with them. I have been thinking about this all day simply because I feel alone. i feel like that one kid that no one sits with in lunch.

Could you distill the essence of the text into 1-3 sentences?
<bot>: Am I coveting what my social circle is having or have I come to the realization that there is more to life than what I am doing?