<human>: I have been dating, let's call her Amy, for just over a month. She will be leaving for her freshman year of college in a month. I am Mormon - though I have not lived a very Mormon life - and so is she. As of a month I was in the course to serve my mission in Argentina for two years. Amy was aware of this and we were both well aware of the potential difficulties with that. But as of last week I found out that I am not going, due to some moral issues that arrived. Upon this I felt like I should tell Amy that I am not a virgin (a huge deal for Mormons). She was understanding and forgave me and we figured things out. But simultaneously I had to to make a lot of very big decisions very quick: getting a place to live, getting into school, etc. We decided that I would move down near her and go to a junior college near her university. 
Here is my problem: I want to want to go down and be with her, but the past year and a half I  was living a very different lifestyle that I loved. I went to concerts all the time, I lived for music festivals and raves, and I used drugs (fairly wisely) throughout the course of such. I didn't really go to church and lived a very different lifestyle than the one I have planned right now, and I loved it. Amy does not approve of this lifestyle but it's in my past and I'm not involved with it currently so she isn't worried about it. I could go down to school with her and push myself through adapting to a more mundane lifestyle, which wouldn't be that bad; or I can move in with a good friend and continue my more riotous lifestyle except with school as a high priority. But I would have to leave Amy.

Could you distill the essence of the text into 1-3 sentences?
<bot>: The music festivals, raves, and drugs that I love - or the girl I have fallen head over heels for.