<human>: So I'm just having a hard time with this and need some reassurance or something.

I broke up with my girlfriend of over 3 years a couple days ago. At first, I was numb and didn't really care, but now it's starting to get to me.

We broke up because of communication issues that likely stemmed from the fact that we've been long distance for the past two years. We've tried to fix it multiple times to no avail. My biggest problem was that she didn't really show affection anymore (at least, from what I could see). She straight up told me that she wasn't going to show anymore affection than she already was. On top of that, she was always *mean* to me. Always being sarcastic and would call me names sometimes. It bordered on emotionally abusive.

The thing I keep trying to tell myself is that I miss the girl that disappeared a year and a half ago. Not the girl I just broke up with. She became something different entirely since she went away to college.

I've only broken up with someone one other time before and that was a disaster. It was a 5 month relationship and it took me almost the same time to fully get over. I became chronically depressed and just completely lost all interest in everything. The only emotion I felt for months was that feeling of my stomach doing flips.

I'm so scared of that happening again.

I have like two good friends, but we're all adults and can't see each other all the time. My mom and stepdad just moved half way around the planet, so its hard enough to talk to them, let alone actually see them, and my real dad works nights, so I don't really get to see him much during the week.

I feel so messed up. I tried so hard for so long, gave over 3 years of my life to this, and it all boiled down to her not willing to show me anymore affection? What the fuck?

I miss my old girlfriend. The one from two years ago.

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<bot>: I just broke up with my girlfriend of 3.5 years because she completely changed and became someone else. I'm so scared I'm going to lose control of my emotions and don't know what to do.