<human>: Can you condense the text into three sentences or less?

In the recent weeks that have passed, I thought that maybe my condition was beginning to improve, but now I'm not so sure. I'll sum up the best I can about myself and lifelong struggle with procrastination.

Here's the skinny:
Throughout my life I've always been a fun loving guy, who struggled with doing anything largely productive. This has been evident even from a very early age (I'm talking, kindergarten years.) I can remember the first time this was really a problem. The teacher was telling my parents that I had a huge problem with concentration. Well, this would continue all the way up through today. I'd be able to get things done, but with much slower progress because of my extreme lack of concentration. I was diagnosed with ADD and we started medication around grade 2 or 3. From then on it had become a little easier with the help of my parents to stay on track. In recent weeks, I thought maybe this isn't a condition, maybe it's just me being lazy. Maybe if I just push myself a little harder to get things done, I won't have a problem. Well, I tried to do just that and... lets just say that the results were less than promising. I took my meds today and had an immensely noticeable difference. This should probably have me feeling productive as hell, but instead it has left me feeling ashamed that I can't do this on my own. I understand that this is why I am on these medications, but I just want to feel like I can do things on my own. Understood if nobody wants to read about me wallowing in self-pity, but I just wanted to know if anybody has had similar feelings and how they deal with it.
<bot>: Have bad ADD all my life, want to know if I'll ever be able to be productive without help of meds. Also want to know how you deal with it if you have these problems.