<human>: Can you give me the gist of the text in a nutshell?

It all began with one girl(let's call her Amy) in middle school - we have liked each other for many years and it never worked out for multiple reasons(bad timing, immaturity). I'd always imagined I'd lose my virginity to her, go to prom with her, marry her, etc. And every summer since high school, I hope that we'll get back together. So, in my mind, i know I'm leaving a door open for her.

Well, we didnt get together for prom or have sex, and Amy went to a university far away from home. The only time i see Amy is over the summer - and I'll go months through a relationship and not think of her, but at some point I'll begin to think about being with her, and I lose some part of the CURRENT relationship.

In my last two semesters, I had two different relationships for the whole semester (both originating from Tinder). Both great, totally awesome. But I feel like I can't fully invest into any relationship that I'm in, and that some part of my emotions are locked up with these previous relationships ( Java programming analogy: computer allocated memory to objects, but the pointer to the memory still exists. The allocated memory can't be garbage collected)

I assume that it is common for people to not completely forget their emotions/feelings towards their ex's. **But how do I move past these relationships so that I can live in the present rather than the past?**

I think that there is some issue with the fact that I've never ever gotten over Amy, and that every Summer I hope that we'll get back together. 

**So does everyone hold onto their feelings like this, or do I need to let go of Amy and grow up?
<bot>: I can't move past women once relationship has ended, and I feel that I can't invest into the current relationship well.