<human>: The last 2 weeks or so I have been having a lot of dreams that I remember even long after I wake up. Some are cool, nice, weird and then some have my EX in them. For the longest time I completely forgot about him and now he's in my dreams every couple nights. It makes me really uncomfortable and 1 of them I even got back together with him which actually made me wake up crying. This is starting to bug me so much that he is on my mind more and more which is killing me. 

Yesterday I almost said "I love you [EX]" while making love with my current BF. That scared the shit out of me, I froze up, went pale, wanted to take a gun to my head at that moment (not literally). I will make it clear here that I do not like my EX even as a person and would rather live the rest of my life single then get back with him. My current BF is the greatest guy I have ever met and he has asked me to spend the rest of my life with him and I want to spend the rest of my life with him. Idk what I would do if one day I wasn't able to catch myself and called him by my EXs name, It would kill him, he would probably drop to his knees and cry and as would I. Is this simply due to the fact that I was with my EX for 3 years? Is there anything I could do to maybe help with this issue before I consider some sort of therapy? I haven't talked to my BF about this yet. Should I if nothing helps at all? Please help me!!!!

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<bot>: After 1.5 years I am starting to think about EX again and I hate it. Would never ever get back with him. I have found my soul mate.