<human>: Long story short, I was in a long term, monogamous relationship with a virgin, he went down on me, and I contracted oral herpes genitally. Google it if you're interested, but I've been told (by multiple doctors, and the Internet) that because I have oral herpes at its "non preferred" location, chances are extremely small that I'd be able to transmit it to anyone else, and almost infentesimal that I'd be able to give it genitally to anyone with oral herpes themselves, which 60-80% of the population does. My particular strain is especially mild- what it boils down to for me is a vague mildly irritating itching sensation for a few days. I've had two outbreaks, spaced over a year apart from each other. 

TBH though, though it may sound as if I think everything is fine, I'm pretty emotionally devastated. I've worked through a lot of it, but it's been over a year and I've been unable to bring myself to open up to anyone enough to get to the point where I would have to tell them, meaning anything below the belt. I'm ridiculously sexually frustrated and worried that my (sex) life is over at 22. This is especially true because I have always been interested in BDSM, and even explored the lifestyle somewhat seriously in my past relationships, but now I feel like I will never get to explore that aspect of myself. I've read a lot about this, both medical and personal narrative stuff, but most of the people posting about this topic seem to be fairy emotionally invested in this topic in one direction or the other, and I'd really like something of a general barometer for how big of a deal this would be for the average guy.

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<bot>: I have oral herpes on my genitals and I'm looking for some feedback on how much of a dealbreaker this could potentially be. Here's hoping.