<human>: Being manipulative has ruined a couple relationships for me. I'm great at it. I'm great at getting what I want, and making others feel guilty. But eventually, they (obviously) get sick of it.

I'm trying very hard not to be that way this time around. This guy I'm with, he's really who I'd like to build a future with. And he feels the same way. We're very comfortable around each other.

But I'm still toying with his head. It's not even a conscious effort at this point, it just happens and I don't realize it until I've already made the mistake. It's as simple as getting way more frustrated/upset with him than I should over something minor. Making myself seem visibly stressed so he'll feel bad, apologize, and fix the situation.

It's a disgusting habit, I know this. I've talked to a couple different therapists and they've basically just said told me "Well, you have to try harder not to do that." Woooow really? What helpful advice! -_-

Anyway, sarcasm aside. I don't want to do this anymore. He means so much to me and I don't want to upset him if I can help it. I shouldn't be whining when I'm not getting something I want. I shouldn't be so bummed out over such little things. This is how I treated my first boyfriend when I was 15. I'm 21 now, I should be past this behavior.

What do I do? I've definitely gotten a hundred times better at not being manipulative over text (as in, it happens once in a blue moon and only when I'm incredibly upset. Not perfect, but I used to be WAY worse, and he knows this), but in person, I haven't improved as much. This is stressing me out.

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<bot>: I'm very good at victimizing myself with my boyfriend over insignificant things, and it's going to destroy my relationship if I don't stop.