<human>: Can you give me the gist of the text in a nutshell?

So this is how I feel. I broke up with my LDR gf while out of the country. I'll be coming home in a month. We share all the same friends. 
We have been trying to be friends, and it seems to be working. But that's over long distances, just through text. 
I can't shake this feeling that I don't want to see anyone from back home. I want to see my ex, but for some reason the idea of seeing everyone again just makes me want to kill myself. 
My plan is to become an alcoholic hermit until I can leave my hometown again. I just don't know when that will be.
<bot>: I'm coming back home after breaking up with my ex while out of the country. Has anyone been in this situation? It's not my ex I don't want to see, it's all of our friends. Help.