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Back story

This was our second break up. The first was because I found out he'd been unfaithful. The second was three weeks after we'd gotten back together because my heart just wasn't in it any more and I was unable to truly trust him.

I knew upon calling things off last weekend that he'd already bought me flowers for Valentines' Day. I figured he would have cancelled the order or something. Nope. Maybe he forgot? Who knows.

Anyway, I felt terrible about calling things off again. He seemed so happy, we were being open and honest and things were going well. For him. I had to keep trying to convince myself that I could be happy in the relationship. But it just wasn't there for me anymore, I didn't see a future for us, and staying just felt like I was using him or settling. He had really been trying though. I knew it would break his heart to leave, but I couldn't stay.

So the roses come in today. With a cute teddy bear. But what got to me is the note that came with it. It was cute and he said something along the lines of wanting to grow old with me. I've been in tears since they were delivered. I miss him and I feel like I should reach out and say something, but there's really nothing I can think of to say.

I would love nothing more than to tell him I love him and I'm sorry and I want to grow old with him too. I do love him, and I am sorry it didn't work. But he's just not the one for me and I can feel it.

Today is a rough day.
<bot>: I got a sweet love note from my ex and it's brought back a lot of feelings. Feeling guilty and depressed. I miss him and still love him but he's not the one for me. Knowing this is killing me.