<human>: Can you give me the gist of the text in a nutshell?

Up until I was 14 I was just a normal kid. Kindergarten, elementary school and middle school. No problem, same path for everybody. After that I had to make a decision. I could have gone to high school to get my diploma. Or I could have gone to a "professional school" to get schooling on a specific area, for example electrical engineer. I should mention that I live in Italy.

I chose to attend the IT classes. More specifically application development. I made my degree on that 3 years ago, but it doesn't interest me at all. Not one bit. I hate programming. I can see why people love doing it, but it's just not for me. So why did I attend those classes? My father has an IT background and I was a stupid 14 year old kid without any guidance. 

1 year ago the "professional maturity certificate" was introduced. Basically you are allowed to catch up on your high school diploma, if you have the degree I made. The hook is: you have to pass an entry exam, which determines if you are allowed to attend this class. I wrote the exam yesterday and I have a bad feeling about it. So what I need is a plan B, in case I failed.

It feels like I wasted the last 3 years, because I was so deep in personal problems like depression and anxiety. At least I have that under control now, but I don't have any skills that would be useful on the job market. My degree isn't really worth anything, since I haven't coded in years. I live with my dad and I hate to feel dependent on him. I'm willing to work hard, but I need to figure out where to start.

I could move to Germany to start an apprenticeship. I could wait another year to do the entry exam again (in case it failed) and go to university after that. I could do an internship and hope they school and keep me. But the bottom line is: It feels like I'm running out of time and people around me expect me to finally amount to something. I guess I am my biggest enemy, since I pressure myself a lot.
<bot>: How did you figure out what you wanted to do with your life? How did you achieve it? How did you deal with the pressure?