<human>: Can you succinctly summarize the text in 1-3 sentences?

Okay.  I've always had dreams/nightmares of someone touching me. Inappropriatey.  Like since I was little.  20 years later, I still hate sleeping if I'm not alone, any kind of physical touch, and most men intimidate me.  Can't tell if I'm just that messed up from that one event, imagined or otherwise, or if I'm transgender and my past is unrelated.  I like to think I'm strong, but if I'm here typing this now I'm definitely not.  Sometimes I feel so much pain the only way I can feel safe or sane is by drinking.  I have no human friends; only my dog and some drugs.
<bot>: keep dreaming I'm getting molested, have no way of knowing the truth, men scare me, might be trans, booze is my best friend