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after lots of family troubles and a need for space/individualism and personal growth (we started finding that our identities were so intrinsically wound around each other) our relationship started getting a bit toxic. sensing this, I broke up with him in October and explained why I was breaking up with him. A few months later he said he felt the same way but didn't have the guts to break up with me, though he's wanted to for a while. The breakup was amicable but painful for both of us. The feelings have never really gone away and if they have, only for a week or two maximum. I've tried to implement a long NC before being friends again (a few years) but he insists he doesn't want to. Recently, we've started to say 'I love you' to each other again though he feels that he isn't ready for a relationship yet and says he doesn't even know whether he wants to get back together, since he doubts whether we will have a happy future. This puts me in a grey area and I'm not sure how to respond. On my end, I do love him very much and would pick him over any other guy. But I can't keep waiting for nothing too, say if he eventually decides he doesn't want to get back together. When I ask him about his plans he says he doesn't intend to date anyone else and would rather be a bachelor than be with someone else he doesn't love. Any advise? :/
<bot>: ex and I broke up half a year ago, feelings never left, he doesn't want to try again at the moment. what now?