<human>: Sorry about the bad wording, I'm a pretty bad writer.

Quick backstory, I've only had one relationship prior to this, and it was so horrible that I now dislike being in relationships. Long story short he was incredibly immature and borderline abusive, and I regret it because I was so unhappy the whole time and it took me four months to get the courage to break up with him. I didn't like the feeling of having a responsibility to do certain "relationship-y" things, didn't like the time it took away from doing other things (I'm in college and studying very hard), and didn't like the effort I needed to put into it.

I met this guy (19) a month ago and we immediately hit it off. We started flirting and even went on a date, and we get along really well. We both knew we liked each other and we were in that stage of almost-exclusivity. Honestly I was pretty happy to stay there, but yesterday he asked "Are you interested in a relationship" just as I was leaving class. I didn't know what to say, and I handled it pretty poorly- I feel like such a bitch. I just said "I haven't thought about it, can I tell you later?" ...

The problem is I really like this guy but I just can't get over how much I disliked my last relationship. I don't want to mess this up. I don't want this to end with us not talking because I think even if I didn't want a relationship, he would be a really great friend. I just can't make up my mind on if I want to date or not. I feel like a horrible person for all that leading on and then I don't even know if I want to go further. (I made it clear that I dislike relationships to him beforehand.) What are questions I can ask myself to make up my mind? Would you hate me in this situation if you were the guy? Thank you very much.

Can you condense the text into a few key points?
<bot>: Dislike relationships, but really like this guy. We hit it off, he asked, I stupidly said "I don't know." Any advice about anything appreciated.