<human>: Hello /relationships!! This is a throwaway account just in case someone i know reads it.

English is not my native language, so i apologise for any mistake. I am also on my phone. Thanks for reading this btw.

situation: Ex bf broke up with me some months ago, now he wants me back. In this time i was single i loved the new me: i had a lot of energy and became very  active.(travelling and going to different places , not staying in my apartment, being more excited about my future, etc.)

I also realised we were not very compatible and that he was like an anchor for me because he has depression but didnt want to do anything about it because it was so difficult, he is not ambitious, and he basically sucked all of my energy... not to mention that i stopped doing things in case he would think i was cheating (he is an amazing guy just a bit insecure because of past experiences).

Still i feel terribly guilty!!!!!! sooo guilty that i don't want to go back with him, he says i crushed him . I just considered going back with him because of this gilt i have. I also think i am a b-word for making him more depressed.
But i know he deserves someone who loves him and is sure about him.
Reddit, i need your words.. why do i feel so guilty ? he now blocked me everywhere but  can't fight this feeling of gilt. I feel like a horrible person

Was there a way i could have avoided making him more depressed? I dont know what to do or how to proceed with people with depression.

Could you distill the essence of the text into 1-3 sentences?
<bot>: bf broke up with me, now wants me back. I didnt want but i feel SO guilty specially because he has depression so i think i helped it by refusing to go back with him.