<human>: Can you condense the text into a few key points?

So after 5 great years together, we broke up almost 2 months ago. A week afterwards I was sent out of town to work on a local disaster about 4 hours away, and wasn't able to return home for almost 50 days. 

When I left I was feeling okay with everything,and just wanted her to be happy with the rest of her life. Since being away from everything for so long, and having insane amounts of work stress I realized that the reason we broke up was always my fear of taking the next step. We were going to move in together in the middle of September, but I was wavering on making a final decision and now I live in a hotel by myself. 

I started txting her again, and pretty much hit rock bottom with everything two weeks ago. She's been great and still talks to me, but has also apparently moved on both emotionally and with someone else too.

I know all signs say "just move on", but for whatever reason, I know she is someone worth fighting for. My fear of moving in or getting engaged have just seemed so childish and not myself any more. Being away from everything for so long and beginning to understand myself a hundred times more than I did during our 5 years together have shown me the priorities in life, and shes definitely at the top of that.

Have I gone full emo? Or is it okay to still want to know if you have a chance with the girl you love? As long as Im not driving by her house or spying on her of course! And remember, Ive been alone in a hotel dealing with all of this solo.
<bot>: Broke up with girly because we werent taking the next steps, and after two months of self-introspection I realized I was a child about it all. Need advice, because Im still in love.