<human>: I've been dating my bf for a year. I fell madly in love with him, but he was a bit of a slow mover. He wasn't saying the L word at 10 months, and I felt genuinely concerned. I looked up tons of silly articles on how to tell if someone loves you, or if they don't feel in love by a particular point should you end it. I guess I just wanted some outside perspective. I eventually brought it up (which was hard- I was expecting a conversation about how he's not quite "there" yet). Turns out it was fear of rejection, he does love me :)

So I still have all that crap in my browser history, I feel embarrassed and have made it clear I don't want him to look stuff up on my phone (I fear what Google might suggest, or whether my search history might pop up). He seems to think I'm up to no good, and doesn't understand what I want to "hide" from him. I've tried to explain it's not nefarious, I'm just embarrassed. But he doesn't really buy it. Do I come clean? I'd rather not, but maybe it's preferable to him thinking I'm doing something sketchy.

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<bot>: looked up dumb stuff online about relationships and feel embarrassed. My boyfriend thinks I'm "hiding" something negative from him.