<human>: Can you provide a brief overview of the text?

Kind of a strange situation. First of all: I'm currently single, broken up with my recent long-term girlfriend since Janurary. I had to let her go because I had a number of severe anxiety attacks going through fall and winter, and I had realized that her - or more precisely the relationship - had been the source of all my stress, and I had to let it go (after a weekend where I was curled up on a couch because my back was so incredibly knotted). This basically came out of left field for her, and it was really painful for both of us.

Cut to a few months later. I'm still trying to sort out my feelings about her, and about myself. I have been seeing a therapist about my anxiety issues, and have recently started medication for them too. But for the past three months I've been torn whenever I see her post online, even just her name. I know I loved her (which is why me breaking up with her was so hard), and I'm still having a LOT of the same longing feelings now, but I don't know if it's still love that wants to work things out, or guilt that wants to make up for my mistakes. And while we never had sex (both Christian), I know that I'm missing the physical side, just even hugs and sitting close to her.

As of last week, I asked her to stop chatting with me for a little bit while I heal and adjust to the medication, but it's been so incredibly hard just to leave things alone, and it's not clearing up my "love vs. guilt" question in my head?

Is there any advice to help settle my mental dilemma? I've been going back and forth for a few months and every time I feel like I make up my mind, I (usually within an hour or two) immediately feel indecisive about it all again.
<bot>: Broke up due to stress and anxiety among other things, 4 months later still wrestling with whether or not to try again considering changed circumstances.