<human>: Our 1 year anniversary is in 17 days, and her birthday is in 2. She is always saying how she wants to have a future, and that never bugged me before, but lately, I haven't been feeling attached. I told her that I didn't feel a spark like we used too, and that I don't know what it means for us. 

She suggested that we try and see if we can make it work, and I agreed, at least until after her birthday. She told me that she would prefer I stay hers, but would understand if we took a break.

Reddit, this is the part I need help with. I feel like it is in both of our best interests if we break up, (me, so I can make sense of myself and not hold her back any longer), and her (because she doesn't deserve a relationship where I don't love her as much). So, why am I so god damned upset ever since I told her? I have been bawling my eyes out over the thought of losing and hurting her, yet, I know it's something her and I probably need to do.

Can you give me the gist of the text in a nutshell?
<bot>: I don't love my girlfriend as much and think we should break up, but I cry at the thought of losing her.