<human>: It's been about 4 months since she broke up with me for the second time. We were together for 3 years total. She left me for someone else. That guy dumped her after a month, and she made me think she wanted me back, but ended up changing her mind when I told her we'd need to work on the relationship instead of pretending like nothing happened. She asked me to be her friend while we both explore. About a week later, she's in a relationship with another dude she met on a dating app after one date. 

I have been NC for 2 months. I have a job during the summer, and am trying to talk to/meet new people. I workout, and basically just do whatever makes me happy. However even after all of it, I can't get her out of my head. I have her blocked everywhere, and I don't stalk her social media or anything. I do check my email hoping to see something from her though. I filter emails from her to the Trash folder, but end up looking there to see if she sent me anything. When I see that she hasn't, I feel horrible. 

I just want to know that things will get better for me at some point. I know that she's not good for me, and a relationship between us would never work, but I still would give anything to be with her again. I want to stop caring about what she's up to, or if she's thinking of me. Help!

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<bot>: 4 months since she broke up with me for the second time. 2 months of NC, but still curious as to what my ex is up to, and feeling like things will never get better.