<human>: Can you give me a shortened version of the text?

Reddit I'd appreciate your thoughts on this one.

I love my gf dearly and we work well together....family connection, interests, humor, values (mostly) etc. She's gorgeous and everyone comments that we are/look great together. In all honesty I believe that however there are two things I'm really struggling with.

Firstly, she is a VERY independent person which I think is awesome. She is very smart and is able to hold her life (house, job, social life) together really well. Now this is where it impacts my life. Something she's always had trouble with is planning into the future with her SO (her previous bf had the same issue it seems).

Whenever I bring up the idea of living together/spending our lives together she can't respond. She tells me that it makes her anxious and it's something she has always struggled with / avoided. She sees herself as really young and doesn't want to change her relationship with me...keep it fresh etc.

Secondly - and this reallllllly sucks for me - she gave me a strain of hpv (genital warts) which she has no symptoms for. She's super supportive about it and it hasn't affected our sex life. To be honest they are minor and have disappeared after treatment. Underneath I'm fuming because this stays with me for life and means I'll have to let potential sexual partners know before hooking up. Shitty situation and potential deal breaker for a lot of people. The fact that I'm even thinking about this probably isn't a good sign.

How do I make sense of all this and what can I do? Feeling pretty shitty.

I still love her a lot but I'm scared that I'm wasting my time.
<bot>: I'm (30/m) feeling unsure about relationship with my gf (28/f) of 5 years. She's struggling with long term commitment and it's getting frustrating. Need your advice.