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Super romantic human who was raised by parents in an unhealthy relationships and molested as a child by a relative. I used to equate sex with acceptance or something maybe, which led me to have a lot of sex and allow myself to suffer through any one form of abuse in each relationship. And there were several. 5 serious I-love-you-let's-live-together kind of relationships. I've grown up a lot, had many realizations, smartened up, turned my life around, etc. I have two children whose other parent want nothing to do with, and I want them to learn what a healthy relationship is. To be happy and respect life. I don't want them to be like I was and end up alone like I am. Because of my moments of epiphany (the last one occurring when my youngest child's father turned out to be a sociopath), I cannot let any relationship get past a point where I see the red flag and erase them. The mistakes weren't medial, anything from withholding information to ditching me for booze to sending me surprise pictures of their genitals to getting close then going back to their ex. I just remove them from my life and continue on. 
I will be 30 soon. I've stopped having sex altogether, as it just seems unfulfilling. Fucking is fun, but I want to make love. I've stopped intimate physical contact with anyone other than myself completely, and it's been nearly a year since I've done it. I've had many almost relationships, but nothing ever works in my favor. I've begun to feel unlovable. Had my heart broken again a few weeks ago, and I think I'm done? Maybe I'm too fucked up from my past to understand human relationships? Maybe I'm past my expiration date? Maybe today's hookup culture is completely destroying real love? I'm tired and old ish. I think I give up.
<bot>: kind of old ish single parent/former ho can't find love because i love myself and children too much to let us be treated like shit ever again. Wants to give up on love altogether.