<human>: Could you distill the essence of the text into 1-3 sentences?

Dear Girl I loved,

     Well I've refrained from saying a lot of things I would regret to you. It's probably naivety to even admit this but I really miss you. I wouldn't dare say I love you because those are social implications I think none of us are ready for but it'd be a lie if I said I wasn't head over heels for you these last few years.  Regardless I've grown to understand that something to that extent would require much more time.

 I can't think of a closer connection I've ever had with anyone else. I have talked to a few people but I can never relate to them as much as I could you. We had an almost surrealist relationship where it always felt balanced despite my faults. It was a balance that I appreciated as long as I could and due to my own faults we were never really able to enjoy. I can't say anything of you or your ex, if you still carry feelings for them or if you've met someone else. BUT I still have feelings for you and I know what I feel to be true. I've stayed away from all the things that I think that make me feel and act bad/rude; drugs, smoking, arrogance, lack of consideration.  I'm constantly looking for a job not to please you, for some sort of meaningless retribution, but for the sake that someday I'd like to have a meaningful relationship with someone, maybe you, like we almost once had.
<bot>: I'm very sorry. I wish we could start again. I won't run up your bill but please let us have a decent conversation like the good ole days. Please just reply.