<human>: My SO and I have been together for three and a half years, and we have been living together for two. He was my first. I absolutely love him - he's sweet and silly and I love growing up with him and exploring the adventures of young adulthood. 

For the majority of our relationship we have been very sexually active - usually every other day. Lately, however, I don't even want to be touched by him. If he goes into hug me, I cringe. When he touches my stomach, I cringe. Even when he leans in for a kiss I find myself not wanting to, and I feel like I'm forcing it. He is a very touchy and intimate person, and I know eventually this will turn him away. 

This isn't fair to him - and I'm not sure it's anything he is doing. He gets on my nerves, sure, but I still find him very attractive. I've been dealing with stress and depression - I'm about to graduate from college, I have suffered from depression for years and may be relapsing into a depressive episode. Because of this, I've been caffeinating myself heavily to make myself feel happy - and at night I have been drinking wine. For the past week I've been drinking almost every night. I'm a small woman, so two glasses gets me feeling it pretty hard. 

When I'm drunk I don't mind when he touches me. It feels good and raw, and I feel relaxed and in the moment. We had sex the other night when I was drunk, and it felt incredible. Because of this, I have been drinking much more lately. I'm a healthy person, I don't want to drink because of sugars/calories, but it helps me feel much better and less guilty when my SO wants to touch me. 

Could this develop into a problem? Should I tell my SO that I don't want him touching me? Should I hold my tongue until I'm out of this funk, and hopefully go back to "normal"?

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<bot>: I no longer like it when my SO touches me. So I don't feel guilty, I've been drinking each night to tolerate it. Should I tell my SO how I feel about it, or keep tolerating it?