<human>: Can you give me a shortened version of the text?

My ex left me because he wants freedom and I want commitment. I didn't want to open our relationship which ultimately ended in breaking up. That was the last thing I wanted... I just couldn't handle the idea of sharing him with someone else. I do respect that he is willing to talk about how he feels rather than just go out and cheat.

But now we're broken up. We still talk. He still says "I love you" and calls me baby. It hurts though. I feel like if he really loved me, we'd still be together. He basically said we could possibly get back together in the future, but now isn't a good time. I'm devastated. He'll still see me and we can still go on dates, but I've been with this man off and on since 2007... I'm completely lost. I depend on him emotionally. He's the person who talks me through everything and has for almost 8 years of my life... 

I want to save myself for him. Wait until he's ready and rekindle our relationship. I want to continue to see him on the weekends... BUT another part of me wants to let him go since apparently I am disposable. He said he wouldn't stop talking to me or being my friend. I appreciate that, but if we hang out I already know it will lead to sex and I'm never going to get over this.
<bot>: boyfriend left me to have freedom, he is my best friend so I can't just let him go. Idk what to do.