<human>: I have a conservative Muslim family that's extremely controlling when it comes to relationships with the opposite sex. My parents value education and support me going to college but it's been drilled into my head since I was little that the most important thing in my future will be getting married. My parents are both immigrants and marriages in their culture are mostly arranged or semi-arranged, where the couple is allowed supervised "dates" after engagement (the most liberal situation).

When I was in high school my dad repeatedly threatened to send me back to our home country in the Middle East if I ever got a boyfriend. I didn't date then but mostly because I was working hard to get away from my family for college and didn't think the trouble was worth it.

I'm now a junior at a college about 1500 miles away from home and I've been dating a really respectful and kind guy for the past two years. He knows about my background and we've talked about him converting and us potentially being married in the future. If my parents found out they would flip and probably try to take me out of college or something.

The issue is that being in this relationship makes me incredibly guilty and uncomfortable even though I know objectively nothing is "wrong." It's not that I'm not ready to be in a relationship because I think our dynamic is really healthy and I've never felt more supported or loved. I just can't shake this sense of shame that I know comes from me being told all my life that premarital relationships (just realizing how ridiculous this sounds) are sinful and wrong. We haven't had sex yet because I'd like to wait until marriage but we've been physical in other ways and even though I enjoy it it makes me feel guilty after.

How do I get past this? I know I don't want to meet a partner the way my parents met but I can't get over my discomfort. And how do I eventually break it to my family that I've met someone I want to marry (preferably from anyone who has been in a similar situation)?

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<bot>: I'm uncomfortable being physical with my wonderful boyfriend and I feel guilty about the relationship because of my sexist and controlling family.