<human>: My boyfriend and I mutually decided to end things about a week ago after a couple months of trying to patch up our relationship. I'm not sure why or at what point we lost our way, but I'd seen this coming for a while and think I underestimated/forgot just how painful a break up is. While I know for quite a while I felt unsure of the relationship and our fundamental compatibility, I am having a very hard time accepting that it's over and that I've let go of the first actual loving, caring, supportive guy I've dated. I'm feeling responsible for our problems and badly for not truly appreciating him for all he is or opening myself up to a healthy relationship and fixing our issues. I keep going over all the things I never fully accepted about him and his personality, family, etc. that stood in the way of our getting along, because he truly is wonderful. 

I know it is still very early, I'm just struggling with the inevitable post-breakup fear of 'what if I never find somebody who unconditionally loves me, makes me feel beautiful, and supports me like he did', the thought of being alone while everyone I'm close to has a special someone, and just not having the support of that person being by my side all the time. Mainly, I'm fearful that I made a mistake and that I won't find someone again. It's silly, but I can't help it. 

I don't even know what I'm looking for here, as I know that I will look back and realize it was the right thing to do. I'm just having a much more difficult time than I anticipated and it's making it hard to even get through my day.  I have moments where I recognize this is a good thing and I need to learn more about myself and what I want, but moments later I'm in tears. It's been a few years since my last break up so I'm just having a hard time processing these feelings and I guess am looking for similar experiences, positive stories, or words from other people going through the same thing. 

Thanks for reading.

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<bot>: Broke up with boyfriend of a year and a half and am having a hard time dealing with the sadness/inevitable regret; looking for any support I can get