<human>: We met online and have been in a LDR together for nearly a year and a half. 

We were both each other's firsts and we've had sex maybe 10 times during the three painfully short visits we've had. 

We both have a lot to learn sexually and are both eager to have the freedom to do that when college starts. 

The thing is, I don't want him to miss out. Part of me wants him to be my one and only, and vice-versa. The other part of me wants him to go do whatever he wants so he doesn't have the feeling that he never got to experience all he wanted to. And part of me wants to eventually experiment with new partners as well. 

I think he would be fine with the arrangement, but the problem is me. 

I'm scared. I'm scared that after sleeping with others, he might compare me to them or even find a fuck-buddy relationship developing into something more... That he'd fall in love with some girl he was having sex with and leave me for her. 

He's completely fine with staying monogamous. The whole open relationship thing was my idea. I've brought it up with him and he said he'd be cool with it, but doesn't think I could handle it. 

Are my fears justified? Considering my fears and insecurities, is this something I should even think about? Is there any way for us to test the waters to discover if this really is something we could do? 

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<bot>: ]: I'm considering trying an open relationship with my boyfriend at some point during college, but I don't know if I could handle it. Any advice would be much appreciated.