<human>: My girlfriend hits me whenever she wants. Last night she slapped and scratched me for 5-10min. She was upset and just started going at me with full force. 

Its not the physical damage that hurts, its her knowing that she can do this without repercussions. If I try to restrain her she screams at the top of her lungs. Making it seem like im hitting her. 

I called 911 once (we're in Ontario) when she wouldnt stop spitting at me and the operator was not only unsympathetic but rude, I was made to feel like an idiot for calling.

People have gotten involved in the past when she screamed, and they are quick to ask if shes ok even when there are visible bruises on me and none on her. There were multiple holes in our living room from her throwing objects, the landlord immediately accused me.

Shes a very sweet and attractive girl to outsiders. At home if I do something that upsets her, she can (not always) put me down, kick me out, or (rarely) hit me. 

Ive tried talking with her about this many many times. Im afraid to go to the police because I feel like they will believe her and I may get arrested. 

I try recording our voices so I have some evidence if her behavior but its hard to get her when she starts hitting me because its spontaneous and unexpected.

But even with evidence, I still feel as though the best result would be both of us getting in trouble with the law and I cant afford a lawyer either.

Im afraid to leave because shes threatened to tell things about me to my family and friends and im also afraid that she will claim abuse to the cops. She has fear of abandonment issues and she always goes a bit off the deep end whenever I attempt to end our relationship.

I dont know what to do. There seems to be no support for men on this issue, I feel like id get laughed at if I went to the police, not that id want to because id probably get a record myself due to whatever they choose to believe

Can you give me the gist of the text in a nutshell?
<bot>: in a fucked up relationship where gf feels free to hit me whenever she wants, afraid to involve cops because of gender bias, afraid to leave because of threats, what can I do?