<human>: Sorry for all the backstory! For reference, I am female, he is male, and we are both 22.

Two winters ago I had a romantic/sexual dynamic going on with a boy I'd known since high school. "Dating" dating wasn't really a prospect because during the school year we live far away from each other, and plus he is friends with my ex. When the semester started up in the spring, I realized that I still had feelings for him, and he seemed to feel the same way, judging by our correspondence. But when I came home for vacation, he had gotten a girlfriend. 

It was my first bad breakup (though it couldn't really be called a "breakup" since we hadn't been in a relationship), so I took it pretty hard. I resolved very quickly to get over him and get on with my life.  But it has been nearly two years now, and I am very much not over him. He and the girl broke up after a couple of months, and we have both since graduated from college and are living at home in nearby towns.

This extended crush takes its toll on my life, because I see him all the time (it would be hard to avoid him without isolating myself from my other friends). I find myself dressing with him in mind, and when I'm with him I'm very conscious about how I am coming off. I get antsy when he takes too long to text me back. All stuff that is cute and fun at the start of a crush, but after feeling like this for more than 100 weeks, I am exhausted. By now a lot of these habits are just that: habits. And I have joined dating sites twice, but with little success (I couldn't bring myself to meet anyone in person). I suspect that on some level, I still believe we might someday get together again, and this is holding me back from a full level of commitment to the get-over. But *how* do I make myself think otherwise? Believe me, I've been telling myself to "give it time" for the past two years.

Can you provide a brief overview of the text?
<bot>: I can't get over my feelings for a boy I used to see, even though it's been two years. I feel like I'm not being my authentic self because of it.