<human>: Summarize the given text in a few sentences.

I have been seeing her and texting her since the day we met. I told her that I do not date and that we shouldn't get too serious because our generation rushes into love... she agreed. 
I absolutely adore her too bits, but because I am so fucking insecure, I don't know how to go about telling her I am mad about her… So I didn't. 

Anyways we booked into a hotel this weekend, and she was on her period so we kissed and cuddled, laughed and huddled. We had so much fun… 
 as time passed she then started speaking about her ex and saying that she is confused, is this really a bait for me to get serious with her?
Or is she really confused about the whole thing and how can I assist her in gaining clarity?
 On Sunday morning however she said that she was going on a date with another guy (who I presume is her ex) and being the emotional wreck I am, I freaked out and left the hotel room in the early hours of the morning without notice to her and suffered with my overwhelming pain. 
Am I also good enough for her? How do I truly know she will not leave me in the dust? 
How can I confirm that she likes me? How do I even approach this relationship thingy these people do? 
I had no right to get jealous, but I did, and she asked me why I left, I lied and said it was family issues. Perhaps she wants closure from me? If I truly like her? And I do… a lot… too much I think. 
What if I fucked up already? 
Ughhhhh… I hate emotions, fuck.
<bot>: I was made an option and I'm not sure if it's because I told her I don't do relationships or she is really confused about this other guy of hers.