<human>: We talked it about it recently. He tried to put it on a scale. I personally didn't see love on a continuum because it's sort of a yes or no thing IMO. My relationship with my first love was the most magical yet destructive thing I've ever encountered. 

I have not been in love for about 4 years now and I've been with this guy for 3 months officially. We started seeing each other 6 months ago. We had a rocky start with him changing his mind on me twice, and even suggesting a casual relationship which hurt me so much.

Things got better.He's great, I really like him, really attracted to him. Two weeks ago I was in bed and I questioned whether I loved him or not and then I got really upset and started crying because I realised that I was scared to fall in love with him. 

Our relationship is definitely more independent as my last one. We are different people, not many common interests but we have great chemistry, amazing sex and really attracted to each other. I'm a fairly neurotic person, always stressed with work and my degree. So when I'm with him I feel so calm and almost 'at home'. When we are together we can just order pizza, watch videos and cuddle and i would not want to spend my day any other way. 

When we part ways after hanging out I feel so reluctant and a bit sad and miss him. This normally lasts for a day or two where I'm constantly wonder what he's doing and a bit anxious that he's going to meet other girls (cause of the rocky start we had). I see him in my foreseeable future. I probably can see myself moving in with him- but I don't see myself marrying him or starting a family or spending the rest of my life with him. He said the same to me.

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<bot>: Do I love him but too scared to admit it? Or do I not? How do you know? Can you love someone that you don't see yourself marrying? (bare in mind we have only been official for 3 months).