<human>: Summarize the given text in a few sentences.

So my friend of some years confessed that that he liked me. And wanted to pursue something more... I like him  but I'm unsure if more than just friend. He's attractive, smart and we share a lot in common but I'm not sure if I want a relationship.

**Background:** Ive never really been in a real relationship  Looks wise I'm attractive enough but my personality is intensely awkward and introverted. I have a past of when guys express an interest of me, of suddenly becoming hyper aware and becoming extremely anxious. To the point I'm unable to deal with it, I avoided the dating situation altogether. I feel abnormal especially when I see friends dating and getting married. 

At one point  I wondered if I was a lesbian. Until I compared my reactions to seeing a attractive guy vs. attractive girl. 

*Attractive guy:* Oh wow he's good looking those are some really nice looking arms...

*Attractive girl:* I wish I had a butt like that. 

But no matter how attractive the guy looks or great personality, I'm not sure I'd want to pursue a relationship with him. I enjoy being single. Having no one to tie you down is more comfortable. When I tried dating in the past I became a mess of thoughts of anxieties.

 My friend and I actually briefly dated before until we both admitted that it felt too awkward romantically and that being friends was better. (I was secretly relieved)

**Present Day:** Until now..... he wants to give it another try. We get along great, objectively he's a great catch. Any girl would be lucky to have him. But I'm unsure and I don't want string him along with my uncertainty.
<bot>: We tried it, it didn't work out because I'm too awkward to actually function in a relationship. Now he wants to try again.