<human>: Can you condense the text into a few key points?

I have never asked Reddit a question, the answers always occured to me before posting.  Even now, some of the answers occur to me about the question I am going to ask, but I would appreciate the input of the hive mind in this matter, nonetheless.

I love a woman, we grew up together.  My life has been in a rut lately, living with her.  We had been together for 11 years, no children, just work and play.  I am very socially withdrawn, I dislike people in general and have had no urge to socialize, not even with family.  I have goals, I knew I had to get my head straight, get a plan for myself (I didn't see it quite like this at the time).  I decided to break up with her, citing petty BS (I know now).  After 2 months of hearbreaking loneliness and insane solitude,  I figured out what I wanted, and how to get there.  Already on it.  Unintended side effect- suddenly socially awesome as well.  After my epiphany, my new perspective informed me that this woman is virtually perfect, especially for me.  A missed opportunity perhaps,  but as the man i am now i would make her my wife.  I talked to her, it sounded promising, but nothing definite.
  My dilemma:  I start actually hanging out with friends, socializing, etc.  Today I hang out with someone, we have some drinks, get tipsy, I end up sleeping with her.  I am not technically still with my former woman, but I do still want to be with her.  I made a mistake I never thought I actually COULD make.
  This is not the man I want to be,  I ask for your honest advice that I may try to mend my faults and proceed with integrity.
<bot>: 29, Broke up with woman of 11 yrs, realized need her, slept with another woman, don't want to be that guy.