<human>: I am/was head over heels for this guy. 

He broke up with me. Wanted to stay friends. Okay. I saw it coming. For a while he kept trying to talk to me and I would have to reject his attempts at conversation, even though desperately talking to him was all I wanted to do. 

It KILLED me. I would try to avoid eye contact but everytime he spoke to me and I practically ignored it, we'd lock eyes and it'd make me internally break down. The hurt that would flash in his eyes burned like a hot iron in my chest. I wanted to hold him and tell him that, I love you. It's okay, we can be friends, whatever you want please don't look so hurt, God you're so important to me.

But then, I'd have my brain also yelling from the sidelines - Fuck him! He made this choice. He doesn't deserve my affection. I know it's better for me - I deserve better. He hurt me (emotionally) all the time, even during the relationship. 

It was his decision and he needs to live with the consequences of losing a great person like me. It sounds so vain and conceited but, all I did was give and give and give to this boy and it always took away a little piece from inside of me.

I also know that he's listening to a lot of music (from a friend) about regrets in breakups, love, and lyrics about the girl leaving the relationship while the boy is so much in pain. It pisses me off. 

It bothers me that all I can do is worry about him and his feelings even though my own mind is chiming in for self-preservation. 

Does anyone else feel like this?..

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<bot>: I had to reject my ex's attempts to talk, and everytime his eyes would burn into my soul. Made me feel bad for him when I know I should be worried about myself.