<human>: I'm an 18 year old male and fairly attractive. I had a rough childhood and was emotionally abused and abandoned by my religiously fanatic dad, then my stepdad and stepbrother of 8 years. Being atheist has all but shattered my relationship with my dad. I have been very depressed at points and found drugs and alcohol to help numb the pain. I find that I use particularly when I'm lonely or sad and I've recently decided to stop using. I feel like I've been trying to fill a hole where love and affection were supposed to go, but never had enough to fill it with. I've been going to the gym and I went from a weak 125lbs to 140 of mostly muscle and very little fat. I've been told by several people I've known for awhile that I'm much more attractive and handsome than I used to be. But now I'm inexperienced and have only been intimate with two women, but never actually had sex. I would like to lose my virginity to a girl that actually cares about me and I actually care about. Relationships and trust are hard for me to handle, so I don't want to mess myself up more by banging random chicks and getting attached without them even caring about me. Where could I look to find intelligent women who might good dating material?

 Is this normal? How would you women feel if you learned that a guy you were interested in was a virgin and felt this way? Also would past problems with drugs/alcohol and emotional abuse make you respect the person less or be less attracted to them?

Could you distill the essence of the text into 1-3 sentences?
<bot>: Would past problems with being abused, drugs/alcohol, or sexual inexperience make you reconsider a guy's potential as a partner?