<human>: Hey everyone, so I've dated this girl since Spring and we were apart kind of over Summer but got back together before I went abroad in Fall. A week or so into studying abroad, she was upset that I wasn't talking to her as much as she felt I could've and began doubting whether I had feelings for her. This hurt me and we broke up. 

We talked constantly through the rest of abroad however, and I started to get over what happened. Also, I kissed a couple girls, and had one hook up while over there and never felt anything special for those hookups. Fast forward to end of study abroad, my feelings are stronger again for my gf but I'm still unsure. She and I saw each other, made out, it felt like being a couple, then I went home for winter break. In the few days that followed, I ended up kissing one of my exes and realized that I wasn't attracted to that ex, didn't enjoy it whatsoever and that its because I was back in love with my now gf. 

Then gf saw texts about the instance with the ex and found out about the girl abroad that I hadn't mentioned because I didn't enjoy it and never brought it up. She's understandably pissed, I'm at a loss because I love her and don't want to lose her. I never have feelings to cheat or any other thoughts. She's all I see as the beauty in this world. Side note: i have never felt so strongly about someone and if I didn't love her so much, I probably would just let this go. But I refuse to. Do any of y'all have advice for me?

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<bot>: I hooked up while abroad and not together with gf. She found out and now I'm scared I'll lose her.