<human>: Meh, i dont like telling stories but here goes. I'm 19/f. Grew up in a nice family, except i have severe emotional issues with my mother) she has issues that go back to her abusive father and the fact she had me at 40. 2 years ago i met a nice guy, who doesnt like me. I am completely infatuated with this man ( he is 8 years older)I thought he liked me but he likes everybody. I can't stop dwelling on the past when he "seemed" to like me. He speaks no english and needs a greencard. I feel horrid because of this. I hate myself for even thinking about him. I cant get a ride to college (literally, in a car) so i am having trouble getting there. My parents refuse to help me with insurance for a car. I had a job where my boss would yell at me for being "so stupid and having no common sense." quit that after having a nervous breakdown on a bus coming back home. I can't stand myslef. i went to the doctor, got diagnosed with severe depression, psychosis/schizophrenia. I got meds. I sleep all day. I dont want to wake up.

I volunteer full time. I give back as much as I can. Ironically, everyone thinks i'm the happiest person alive because I have a VERY lively personality.

What the hell happens now? How did you escape this dark hole? Should I take my medication? Do they help? Should I go see a therapist? What did you do? am i just crazy?

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<bot>: I know sh*t happens, but damn i must be walking in a park full of dogs with high-fiber diets.....