<human>: Give me the gist of the text in a nutshell

I got a new job a few months ago. It's my dream job, my career is finally on track, I wanted to play it safe and not do anything to screw it up. My new boss is more of the "traditional" type and although my coworkers are cool, I couldn't be absolutely certain they would be cool with my sexual orientation. 

So I played myself off as straight. My wife and I "look" stereotypically straight so it was easy when my coworkers asked what I did over weekends, I'd just say I was hanging out with my roommate/best friend. I don't wear my wedding ring either so tbh nobody at work knows I'm married. I wanted to keep my professional and private life separate. 

Here's where I fucked up. My wife is the most intelligent, gorgeous, kind, selfless person I know and I didn't know how to tell her what I was doing, so I lied and told her I was out at work, that everyone's fine with it, etc. 

Well she caught me red-handed in the lie tonight. The company is throwing a summer party next weekend and I wasn't planning on going. My wife has a friend from college who works at my company in a different department and he had somehow mentioned the work party to her. 

She asked me about it, I acted like there was no party, she kept saying she'd like to meet the coworkers i keep talking about, she eventually figured it out that i've been lying to her about being out at work. 

This is the lowest point we've ever been at. She broke into tears, took the car and is god knows where. She's not answering my calls, have tried texting her, etc. no response. Can't reach her. 

I don't know what to do. I feel so shitty for doing this to her. I'm terrified she's going to leave me even though I might deserve it. I'm terrified she's never going to trust me again. I feel like crying but I can't even emotionally react right now. Is the lie really this big of a deal or is this just blowing up because of the heat of the moment?
<bot>: I lied to my wife(31f) about being out at work and she caught me(28f), I think I just destroyed our marriage and I don't know what to do