<human>: Give me the gist of the text in a nutshell

If I try and break up with her, she flips out and starts making threats about how she'll 'tell everyone what I'm really like' etc. 

Despite abuse being prevalent on both sides (not justification), I fear this greatly due to the male usually coming out looking worse in this kind of situation. For example, when we argue, she'll really shout and scream in a manner that'll make other people believe she's being attacked. She also hurts me and makes threats to tell other people about what I'm like if I resist.

I've tried unsuccessfully to get her to understand that not all relationships are destined to work out. All I hear is stuff like 'if you don't make an effort, you've obviously never loved me'.

This has happened many times, always resulting in us giving it another shot. Rinse, lather, repeat. 

It's a situation I struggle to see a viable way out of. Of course, I could suck it up, and accept being labelled as an abuser for the rest of my life. I'm aware of how disgusting my behaviour was, don't get me wrong, I am fully committed to self-improvement in that department. 

I do feel that I'm deserving of this due to my past behaviour. I'm also well aware that there will be people who will say I'm scum etc. I don't deny it, but I'm looking to better myself. 

We have been together for 5 years.
<bot>: Couple are abusive to each other. Guy wants amicable breakup, but girl threatens to tell everyone about his abuse if he does.