<human>: My boyfriend and I hate been dating for a little over 8 months now. We met on the Disney college program and spent every day together from January until August. We would get in some arguments and bicker but at the end of the day we just wanted to be in each other's arms.

At the beginning of August I moved about an hour away from him for school but we still see each other at least twice a week. Shortly after I moved, I found out that at the very beginning of our relationship he had been talking with his ex-gf about how he still loved her and she was the best thing that ever happened. Since then I just feel so mad at him. Not even about that, just everything he does makes me mad. I turn into this psycho bitch, I'm rude and hurtful, and I constantly feel unhappy and even depressed.

The thing is I'm unhappy with everything in my life right now. I stayed in Florida to be with him, so I'm away from my friends and family. I haven't made new friends yet. My classes aren't as good as my old college. I'm a nanny so I don't meet new people at work. He's the only person I have down here and I'm horrible to him.

The hardest part is trying to figure out if I'm unhappy with the relationship or if I'm unhappy period, and ruining my relationship.  Every time I see him or talk to him I get excited but we end up fighting and "breaking up" and I don't know how we became so unhappy. Whenever we try to break up we just end up crying and holding each other. This makes me think we don't want to end it, but maybe we should? I'm so lost in my own head that I can't tell if I still love him or if I just don't want to let go to my one friend down here.

I'm not sure what kind of advice I'm looking for.....I just need someone to give me insight on my crazy thoughts. I either need to break up with him (because we're making each other's lives a living hell) or figure out a way to make myself happy and see if the rest of my life is the problem.

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<bot>: Not sure if depression is causing me to feel hatred towards my bf or if I really don't want to be with him anymore.