<human>: I currently live in the US with part of my family. The rest are still back home and are very muslim. My father is also back home. He had cut me off for a long time but recently came back into  my life as a means to pay for college.

I have two fears for this child. One, he/she would grow up hated by a lot of people because I am not married to my boyfriend (thought we love each other very much). This is similar to how I grew up. Nobody wanted me and it caused a lot of issues. I don;t want the kid to have the childhood I did, Secondly, I am worried my dad will cut me off from college tuition. then I can't go to college and I'm really fucked.

The side of the family here will be easier to convince and the baby daddy will stick around. Money for the kid is not a problem either as he is done with college and has  full-time job, and I am a junior in college, and also work a high paying job.

Disclaimer:
I am not sure I am pregnant or not yet. I have been on birth control for months and have not missed a pill. He has also pulled out every time. This baby is not planned for at all, but he/she is welcome in my opinion. I got pregnant about 2 years ago under the same unlikely conditions. and was convinced into abortion. I don;t really want to kill two babies in my life time.

Can you condense the text into three sentences or less?
<bot>: I might be pregnant and having the child may cause a lot of issues with the muslim side of the family. Abortion and wait for later to have a child? Or say fuck it and keep the baby?