<human>: I left my job in october with the hope of finding suitable and less mundane work, I couldn't really find anything so reverted to applying for the military (it had always been something I wanted to do as backup). They processed everything and basically set me up to go but at the last minute my medical came back saying I was not eligible to join (osgood schlatters). 

Everyday since I have been up until 5-6am, just lying there listen to music for some sort of motivation or maybe I'm just using it to escape.

I have nothing really going for me apart from a loving and supportive girlfriend but I don't really discuss these things with her, I don't want to bring her down, she too lovely of a person to need my shit shoved on her lap. 

I am just a waste of space and I think I always have been, I have no friends, I don't have any significant qualifications, no experience in a "useful" work environment, I have no talents to pursue. I am just stuck in this rut and can't find a way out! Any help or guidance to this matter would be much appreciated.

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<bot>: Waste of space that can't sleep and philosophises about his existence needs help or guidance on how to get out of rut.