<human>: Give me the gist of the text in a nutshell

I feel really awful for feeling this.  I've never smoked anything and I've never had marijuana in my system before.  He used to smoke with his friends right after he graduated from high school and hasn't done it in a while.  He's been wanting to do this with me since we started dating and lately he's gotten more excited about doing it with me. 

Last night he told me he wanted to get high with me after work tonight.  We live with his parents and they're out of town for a few days so he thought this would be the perfect time.  He bought a couple grams and since I have asthma, he suggested we make brownies and then he proceeded to get all of the stuff ready last night and finished this morning.  

I'm really really nervous about this.  Marijauna is the only drug I've ever considered doing but I've never done anything before.  I feel a little bit pressured into it right now because of how excited he is about it and I'm considering not trying it yet.  I'm scared or nervous, I can't tell which.  I still want to do it with him but I'm not sure if I want to do it today.  I thought I'd be more into this than I am.  I really want to talk to him but I don't want to crush his spirit either.  His parents don't go out of town much so we wouldn't get another opportunity for a while.  (They would be furious if they found out we were even interested in using marijuana even though it's legal where we live.)  

How can I bring this up to him or should I bring it up at all?
<bot>: My husband wants to get high with me and even though i want to do this with him I feel a little pressured into it.