<human>: Hey reddit, long time lurker on my other account. This is the sweetest girl in the world and we both love each other very much. But throughout various points in our relationship where i was going through some really tough stuff in my life: I've broken up with her three times now. Not becuase i didn't love/like her, i jsut needed to handle some stuff alone. Last fall, we left for college(quite far apart) and i broke it off in my attempt to be rational. We each slept with one other person, regreted it and got back together for most of fall and winter quarter. But then my studies in hard engineering were killing me and she was taking up way too much of my time, so i broke it off again. I wanted to take a break but she insisted we enver talk again. Well here comes summer and were back in our home town and were sleeping with each other and were filled with emotions. 

Today, after some good loving, she asked me if I'm clean and tested...I was clean of course because i hadn't had any other partners, she on the other hand had some drunken sexcapades while we were broken up(she took teh break up quite hard, as did i). I know i can't be mad at ehr for doing what she did, but Im very torn up inside. VERY TORN UP. When I'm with her/ talking with her it becomes ok and I've communicated everything with her(we have a very open honest relationship), but I dont know how to handle all of this. Everytime, I close my eyes...well you can imagine. Our history brings me way too much pain, but for the time being. 

How can i stop thinking about this and cope with it? Is this a healthy relationship? Do these things past, or do they continue to huant?

Can you give me a shortened version of the text?
<bot>: Ex gf and i took a break, she slept around. I didn't. I'm broken. help fix me.