<human>: I met him 4 years ago, we got along great, like all the same things, and he was finally someone I can be myself and do everything I like with. I haven't really met a best friend before, just a few people I can do some things with.

But then I started to crush on him and have had feelings for him since.

I don't ever act on it or act creepy. I just act like a really good friend.

I just get scared I don't know where my really good friend gestures end and trying to make him my boyfriend begin and get scared its getting all mixed up.

But then I think maybe I'm over reacting and paranoid.

My feelings have stayed the same and aren't getting worse, I just get more paranoid.

I want to say I see him as a brother, that's why I care so much, but I don't know if I can trust that.

If I think about it I know I could do better and find someone that will be better for me in a relationship and I'm just taking my energy out on the guy I see the most.

I do feel like we'd be more useful and meaningful to each other as best friends in the long run.

But that doesn't matter because the truth is it will never work because he will never like me that way. Hopefully my brain learns this.

I get paranoid lately that I need to leave him behind. I don't want to. But other Redditer's and the paranoid part of me thinks I do.

What do you think?

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<bot>: I have feelings for my best friend but he's not gay, I'm scared the truth is I need to leave him behind, by not sure.