<human>: I am not one to typically share such intimate feelings or thoughts but I have been struggling lately and thought, why not? My story is not unlike many others. Boy and girl fall in love in college and think that the bliss will never end. My ex and I dated for over four years. After college we made the move and difficult transition to a different town and a different place. At that point things took a sad turn as she began to drift apart. She no longer loved me which came as a huge blow. Although I have made strides as a person and professional since our breakup over two years ago, I am still struck on a daily basis with deep sadness and depression. It scares me that I still struggle with coping with the loss. I have dated but I have yet to call another woman mine since. I struggle with attraction and intimacy now which is even more terrifying. The last few days I have had several spells of horrible heartache (that old fashion feeling when a chill rolls down your chest when a thought or memory of your ex creeps into your mind). I feel weak for writing this right now but it feels good to put feeling and emotion into words. I consider myself an open individual so I figured putting this here cannot hurt. 

I am so scared this feeling will continue to haunt me.

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<bot>: Still hurting after two years and at a loss to find passion in my life when I continue to dwell on the past.