<human>: Pretty much as soon as I knew him there was a lot of flirting from his end, some of which I started to reciprocate. So our friendship was loaded as soon as it existed, and within 3 months we were dating. He graduated, I didn't, we did the long distance thing for a while. First time I stayed with him for a month he became gradually less affectionate and admitted eventually that he didn't know if he wanted to be with me.

For this reason and others I started to be prone to panic attacks / random bouts of crying, and I was not graceful about it, but brought it up every time I was terrified that I had cancer for some stupid reason or that he was going to break up with me due to lukewarm chat responses. Relationship limped on about a year before he broke up with me, though I'm not sure of the specific reason.

I am in a happy relationship now, but also have some lingering rage, and I am extremely embarrassed about how I acted, but obviously can't apologize. Now he wants to talk, and I don't know how to do it. All of the time I knew him we were kind of friends but I don't know how to interact with him as JUST a friend, since we never had a real friendship. I am also more than a little suspicious that he just feels like he has to talk to me for his conscience because I always said I'd hate to lose him as a friend, but again, I can't just say that to him in the midst of a casual conversation.

Things are awkward and overformal, and I am always embarrassed, angry that I am embarrassed, and tongue-tied in communications (facebook messages and skype IM's). It's also pretty awkward on his end, I think. But I DON'T want to give up on talking to him, because I really liked him for some time and he's part of a large group of friends that I've largely lost connection with, partially, I think, because I don't talk to him anymore.

So how do I relearn how to talk to him? What should we talk ABOUT? Do I reference past things ever or try not to?

Can you provide a brief overview of the text?
<bot>: Feel a little bitter and embarrassed about breakup, but want to relearn how to talk to my ex that I was never really non-romantic friends with. Right now it's awkward. What do?