<human>: This could be fault of lack of communication and being uneducated on both parts. He's my first sexual partner, while he's had 5 in the past. I talked about him getting tested early on in the past and trusted him to do so. We had protected sex before him getting tested and he told me he was cleared when he was with his previous gf. Ok no prob. I just need him to make SURE with ME (as we got more active after 4 months of being together). We kept on being sexually active. I shouldn't have, but I wasn't educated enough then. Then I did more research and found out that condoms don't block against all STI's + they could be dormant in your body without showing any symptoms until later. So I asked him to get tested again. He said ok, and that he would if he had time that day. Fast forward, I flew to him on my holiday (we're LDR) and we were sexually active. This whole time I thought he had done it, but found out last night he didn't. I feel so upset that he's putting me at risk. I don't even think he may have any STI's because he's careful about protection, but who the heck knows right? 

I feel pretty sick right now (not physically, but because this whole time I was feeling good and enjoying myself to find out that he did not get tested). Of course, I'm refraining from sexual activity until he get's tested. I feel disgusted and don't want to talk to him. But I can't because we need to solve this through communication. He's such a sweet person and our relationship is great ASIDE from his sense of responsibility. He even asked me "well did you get tested?". Well yes I've scheduled an appointment with my obgyn as soon as got more educated, but they are 4 months packed with clients so I can't until next year. But why did he asked that like he's trying to avoid this responsibility? I know for sure I wouldn't have spread any infections to him because I was not born with a STD and he is my 1st partner. 

How do I not turn bitter and what are my next steps to do?

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<bot>: BF did not get tested even thought I thought we did. I feel  as though he doesn't care about risking me/ isn't responsible / or just isn't educated enough.