<human>: we met when i was still 17 and i was a very innocent and naive girl while he was this extremely smart and interesting guy that i someday started hitting up online(we have a lot of actual mutual friends). I used to be very shy and insecure and he helped me a lot to get to know myself and grow. He cared for me a lot, treated me like a princess and only wanted the best for me. 

we've also been through a lot. since i live in a somewhat traditional family, hiding the fact that i went to his house every now and then was a lot to handle. i also didn't really have much of a social life outside my relationship which i slowly hated and affected the way i saw what i had with him. he already had his personality figured out, was pretty social, pretty cool parents while i was still struggling with my own doubts about love, life and who i was. 

so after my mood would go from great to bad quite often because i wasn't satisfied with anything that's going with my life and he'd have to suffer through that with me which i felt extremely guilty for, i decided it was best to break it off. but he was truly an amazing person to me and i don't know if i'll ever find someone who'll treat me and see me the way he did. what makes it worse is that there's never going to be a second chance. once failed, a relationship won't ever be the same again.

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<bot>: needed to grow on my own so i broke up with my first love, which was also a serious relationship and i'm having cold feet.