<human>: Two months ago now he decided to end it. He didn't give me much of a reason until a month later. He said that he pushed feelings away for me so it wouldn't hurt him when he left. That he lost his mom years ago and he couldn't do that again.

About two weeks ago I snapped because I saw his tagged in a post that said date night. We were still talking and he said it wasn't a date and that the rest was none of my business. The girl that he was out with reached out to me and said she had a boyfriend. I still think the whole thing is way too strange. 

Anyways, I said some pretty horrible things that I've been trying to apologize for. He wants nothing to do with me and I don't entirely blame him. Before I said those things he wanted me around. We were still hanging out.They were pretty mean and over reacted but what's a girl going to do when three days before he admits to messing up. So then you have hope and then its just shattered in an instant. Also, then you get odd messages from the other girl involved saying she has a boyfriend already and she says she's put date night on everything. Not really sure about that but it seemed strange for her to reach out to me.

So I decided to write him. I have half a journal filled with some of our early conversations and my personal journal entries during the relationship.

I'm planning on leaving it at his door and just waiting to see if he ever says anything. 

Anyone think he'll actually read it?

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<bot>: came up with writing to ex to see if he would let me apologize how I last behaved. Thoughts on it working and him reading it?