<human>: Obv. throwaway - my friends know my account name:

I just don't know anymore. I know I have friends who care, but the problem is I keep getting crazy and making it so that they care less and less. And by crazy let me expand: I used to smoke a lot of weed, I don't do it much at all anymore - but we started raving, and rolling, then we started getting mixed up with blow which we had decided to stop messing around with this past weekend, but only after its been like a month of on-again, off-again abuse and control. 

Friend group issues led to 'allegiance' issues, even when I wanted to stay in the middle and out of the picture - mix that with living with part of the main problem [relationship issue between friends, I live with the gf, but am male]

Mix that with personal problems, part of which being a failed relationship, only due to reasons stemming from her previous relationship [I'll probably get dv'd for this, but her whole issue was legit and is not something I could've changed, so I be as legit as possible about it]. Also included: all family live on the East Coast and want me to move out there to 'fix/find myself', Money issues slowly getting fixed, life spiraling downwards as a result of decisions I have been making.

Not in school, working full time though. Don't really know my plans and don't know what opportunities to take.

Just wanted to tell someone without sounding like a whiny kid.

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<bot>: I have problems, just like everyone else does, and I know it can be a lot to hold in sometimes too, so I'm just opening up