<human>: 29/f and 26/m together for 1 year and 8 months.  Living together for 8 months.  My bf knows I would eventually like to get married and have kids, as would he.

  Yesterday he said he's just not ready and is 98% sure we won't sign another lease at the end of ours in 5 months.  He said he doesn't want to be with anyone else, and left the ball in my court if I want to stay with him for the remaining 5 months and possibly if we do live seperately staying together then.  He told me he doesn't want to hold me back since he knows I do want kids and marraige.  I was clearly upset but he told me that I could talk to other people but he would like to know if I was sleeping with someone else so that we could officially end our relationship.  Later in the day he was feeling my face as I was laying down, squeezing me like crazy while we were laying there, and told me he loves me a bunch.  When he left for work he kissed me like 10 times(it's normally once) and squeezed me and told me he loves me.  I also found $25 in my purse that he had put there this morning probably because a mini fight over money initiated this whole conversation of long term.  (I pay utilities and phone and he pays cable, but I just lent him $100.)  He then kept squeezing me this morning in bed.  He kind of pulled this about 3 months before he finally realized he wanted to move in with me in the first place.  Men... have you ever been so terrified of "forever" that you act like a little baby... or is this him just being nice since he wasted 1 year and 8 months of my aging life?  Thoughts thoughts?  

So why say that you don't want to hold me back, but then act like you don't want to let me go?  Could this be his pattern because he's afraid of change since he pulled something like this before we moved into our place.
Thanks for reading the wall of text.

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<bot>: bf is acting like he's in it for the long haul.  One day speaking of our future apartment and the next acting like a scared cat.