<human>: Can you give me a shortened version of the text?

I feel jealous towards her, and I know it's completely stupid and childish and I don't do anything that let's on that I am jealous. She's a burgeoning standup comic and as such get's to travel and do all kinds of cool shit with cool people and I have to hump it away at 2 part time jobs that suck ass but I have to pay rent and such. 

It makes me feel inadequate when she gets to talk about being on stage and any number of other exceptional things, and I don't have anything to say because what am I supposed to talk about? I feel like this is it for me, all I have to look foreward to for the rest of my life is a slew of shitty jobs and second hand awesome stories of travel and a fascinating life. I feel like a petty asshole, a real peice of shit and I don't want to feel that way towards her because I love her immensely. Any help or advice is appreciated.
<bot>: I am jealous because my SO gets to make money being creative and not have to work a real job, and I feel inadequate compared to her.