<human>: Hey reddit. I am so sorry for any possible headache.

I am 19M. I am in a different time of my life. I'll write details if anyone interested. It may related to main subject.

>I live in Turkey. We have a shitty education system and I failed the university entrance exam at the last year of high school due to my laziness so I found myself in another country. I didn't want to waste another year to study just for one shitty exam. After 8 months couldn't stay in foreign country and came back to home. So here I am studying for same shitty entrance exam with wasted 2 years. 

Anyways, after all time I was alone I decided to follow some girls on twitter. There was one girl who is friend of my close friend also 19 y.o and looks super hot. So why not follow her? I did it and we had some mentions between me and her but that was all. By the times goes I was getting obsessive with her. Only thing that I know about her is her name and universty that she is going. I don't know what I feel about her. I feel like I fall in love. I cannot stop thinking about her.I study to exams for university entrance, but there are some times i want to quit. I don't want to study more. I say to myself "Stop. There is your crush. She is waiting there at your dream university." This is the only way i motivate myself. I have no fucking idea how did I come to this point. I haven't talked with her. We have nothing common. I dont know anything about her. I am also angry to myself. My heart is just like a slut. How is my heart fooled that easy, just by her look? I am also so afraid to lose her. I don't want to start to "having conversation" state. What if she gets bored? I'll lose my motivation. I'm not Casanova. I'll not find any opportunity to find another girl soon. I don't know what to do. What should I do? I don't know how should i feel. Please help me. Thank you guys for any comment.

Can you succinctly summarize the text in 1-3 sentences?
<bot>: I fall in love with a girl that I've never met. I get obsessed with her and dont want lose her even we have no real "conversation".