<human>: Could you distill the essence of the text into 1-3 sentences?

My wife and I were 14 years together, of which 9 married. We have a daughter of 8, and a son of 5. 

From March to December 2014 I had an enormous stressful work life (being an entrepreneur) which I projected on my wife. Fights were frequent and I became very nasty toward her (not physically!). 

In December 2014, the day after I bought a plot of land to build a new house on, she told me she wanted a divorce. My world collapsed, I lived at the office for a while and had to take anti-depressants. These pills allowed me to see my stress life, calmed me down and in march I rented my own apartment. 

I have been living more or less normal since then. Over the summer we completed our material separation (money, house, shares, arrangement for the kids) in relative ease. I stopped taking pills in August.

In September we were supposed to appear before court to get a final separation. Two weeks before she mentioned the idea of following relationship therapy, which we don once 2 weeks ago. 

We were both crying in front of the judge, which promptly judged us "not fit for divorce" . 

We planned a diner shortly afterwards, where she told me she slept with somebody else (me too), which  caused a shock for me. The next day we met with the kids, but was still freaking out. She went home, and left me with the kids

I am on pills again (which calmed me down again), my wife doesn't communicate with me outside  of the relationship therapy we are still following every two weeks. 

She says she feels trapped in a relationship, tells me she doesn't love me anymore, but seems unwilling to go through with the divorce. I, on the other hand, still love her. 

This is killing me, and I don't know what to do. 

Any suggestions or similar stories ?
<bot>: Wife wants divorce, goes to court, starts crying in front of judge, wants relationship therapy, does not try very hard, feels trapped in relationship, I don't know what to do.