<human>: Can you provide a brief rundown of the text in within 3 sentences?

I've been a chronic smoker for over 6 years now, and after about the first year it became apparent that I am badly addicted. I compulsively abuse weed through all my waking hours when it is in my possession (and i usually make sure it is). I have failed more attempts at quitting than I can begin to count or remember. I seem to be stuck in some sort of mind loop caused by my lack of short term memory and my complete inability to maintain focus and motivation through the withdrawal process (and trust me, there is one if you have been a chronic pothead for years).

The longest I've gone without weed since I was 16 has been 45 days, and since then I have already quit and relapsed multiple times. It's not that I even like smoking or being stoned any more, its just that when I don't use it, I feel empty.. Like there is an empty hole in me that eats away at me until I finally find some excuse to fill it with THC again. I don't get even get high anymore, I just sedated and numb the cravings and discomfort caused by withdrawal!

Every single aspect of my life is suffering because of this, and I am so tired of struggling with my own mind day in and day out for years on end. I am depressed and anxious every day because of this problem. My relationship with my fiance is strained (to say the least) when I am smoking, and even though it gets infinitely better when I am sober, I just can't manage to stay off it long enough to break the cycle. I feel like I have become some pale, dull fragment of my real self, and I don't even remember how it felt before I became this way. I started smoking because it was fun, but now it has completely enslaved my mind and my life.

If anyone has been through this and has any perspective or advice to share with me, I would greatly appreciate your help.
<bot>: I can't stop smoking weed for a significant amount of time, even though I no longer enjoy it and desperately wish to stop. I have failed countless attempts at quitting or cutting back. Need advice.