<human>: Can you provide a brief overview of the text?

It's been almost two weeks since he told me that he didn't think we should be together anymore. We have been pretty long-term and were planning on getting married within the next five years. 
About a month ago is when things started heading in a bad direction. He started acting really distant with me, he broke up plans to move in together (we had lived together for a year, ran out of money and were saving again at our parents' houses), and just didn't talk to me the way he used to. He was always very affectionate towards me and that stopped very suddenly.

He told me we broke up because he wasn't happy and he thought that he didn't love me the same way anymore. I did not take it well. I'm very embarrassed about what happened that night. I threatened to kill myself, I smacked him, I threw things, I overreacted. (not happy with how that ended at all, I feel like someone else did these things, not me)

He hasn't talked to me at all during this time period, not even when I dropped his stuff off at his house (I made sure he wasn't home). I'm going crazy trying to figure out whether or not we really are done forever or not, or whether he needs me to reach out first.

I also don't know how to deal with not being with him. I am already sort of trying to figure out if I want to date someone else, but I also don't know if that's even 'moving on'. 
I just need some advice, some perspective, and maybe just some kind words.
<bot>: I got blindsided and told my relationship of almost five years was over. How do I start to either move on or try and patch things up?