<human>: Can you condense the text into a few key points?

I (23f) think I'm falling for my friend. (26m) except it's complicated. we dated in the past, then split due to timing and stuff, then met up again and gave if another go. catch was I was moving, and was in a relationship that ended 3 weeks before I moved. we never had sex, so we thought it'd be fun to fool around while I was there. Things were great but I wasn't ready to be in a relationship and after I moved it kind of just kept going... it got messy and I questioned a lot so we recently changed things to definitively friends with benefits. I told him part of that was I can't trust him... but he's really changing and I trust him a lot more. we've got a 5 hour drive between us, but we see each other pretty often . I know I have feelings for him and have for a long time. but now I'm wondering if it's a he's not mine Soni want him, since I know he's meeting new girls, or if I genuinely want to be committed to him. the distance would make it hard but I think we would probably make some sort of open ish relationship. I don't know.... it's really hard to figure out what I want.. and I feel like I shouldn't really be in a relationship but at the same time I really really care about him. plus he has a lot of qualities I want and care about. he's amazing and is exactly what I need in life- he's reliable and caring and has a great job and grounds me. but he's got this crazy whimsical side that's funny and we have this amazing sexual chemistry... I just don't know what I really want and it's frustrating.
<bot>: timing is basically finally right and I can't tell if I want this guy or if I want him because he's not mine.