<human>: Hello Reddit, I have come to my wits end as of late. I have attended an apostolic Pentecostal church since the age of 17. I am now 20. When I first went to this church I felt like a new person and was baptized and "spoke in tongues". I had a new mindset and shunned my past. I cleaned up my act and quit smoking the occasional weed. Fast forward a year or so and I meet this girl who was born and raised in the same faith.
We began to date and soon after we began I expressed to her that I felt like my church had some judgmental aspects to it. I scared her as she thought I wasn't sure in my beliefs. 

Anyway, I ended up reassuring her that my faith in God was strong. I play guitar for the band in my church and my main social circle is in this church. For the past 2 or so years I have known that I do not fully believe the doctrine that is being taught in my church. Lately I have seen a change in my personality, I'm more irritable and when I'm alone I don't act the same as I would if other people were around. 

If I stop going to this church I will lose my friends and my girlfriend of 2 years (whom I have told I want to marry). She has told me plenty of times that she will not be with someone that is not 100% about their faith. 

Also I wonder about my future kids and how I will raise them. My religion believes women should wear long skirts in public. I don't know if I could force my daughter to do that.

Loneliness is creeping in lately and it's been weighing on my mind. 

HELP REDDIT!

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<bot>: I'm not happy with my religion and leaving it will mean losing my friends and girlfriend (whom I'm on the brink of marrying).