<human>: First of all, I'm easily embarrassed and awkward, also I have no experience in dating, yeah, I know, what have I been doing whole my life. I did have 'friends' who I think were dating me, but it was never exclusive, its like more than a friend but not yet a couple, and it always ended up with me running away from it.

And now for my problem, we [23F][22M] are in the same 5 year course. We have been friends since the beginning and he was the one who suddenly decided to be my seatmate, its been 1 1/2 years since then. He is friendly and popular, but I didn't have any feelings for him at first. Of course I see him everyday during classes, and we often went out together with friends and sometimes just the two of us and after awhile, I think I develop a crush on him.

I thought there were signs that shows that he was into me, but then again, I'm not really sure, and since he's friendly with everybody, it makes me feel like I'm just imagining it. I wanted him to know how I feel about him, but I just don't know how. I tend to ignore him when he talks with other girls, and it makes me feel miserable. I consider him my bestfriend, and I also like him very much to the point that I hate him if he's being overly friendly with other girls.

Now, for my question, should I confess? but I really want him to be the one who confess. Well, I mean, I don't want to mess up our friendship if he ended up not feeling the same about me (It had happened before, so I really don't want to experience it again if I could.) But its so frustrating to feel this way. What should I do? To be honest I'm even getting confused if I'm just being obsessive over him or just genuinely like him more than a friend. :(

Can you give me the gist of the text in a nutshell?
<bot>: having a crush on bestfriend, don't know what to do. a little confused about my real feelings. help!