<human>: Can you give me a shortened version of the text?

I gave him my virginity when I was 15. Throughout these past 2 years we've been friends with benefits and it's really quite great. I've been with him through thick and thin, consoled him through heartbreaks when the girl he really wanted didn't want him back and I've been inlove with him since day one.

He knows about my feelings and has always treated me kindly for them. I've often been sad and he's always been there for me. He's told me he loves as his bestfriend, he's said he never wants to lose me and that he'll always need me. 

Recently he's been acting kinder than usual. He told me he was thinking about getting a $140 watch I wanted for my graduation but I got it for myself before he could and he wanted me to tell him I loved him during sex. 

My problem is I've been feeling lonelier than usual and no matter what I do or how happy I am I can't shake this feeling that sooner or later he's going to find someone better than me and move on. 

I just want him to love me so fucking bad. It's been two years and he's had all the chances, I'm beginning to think it's never going to happen and I don't know if I should just move on already. But in moving on I'll ultimately hurt him because he's said several times that he gets jealous when I give my attention to other boys. He doesn't want me but nobody else is allowed to have me either. I just want to be loved.
<bot>: My bestfriend of two years who I'm in love with doesn't love me back. What some advice to lift my spirits?