<human>: I guess this is more of a personal problem than anything else, but I'm embarrassed to talk to anyone in my real life about it. I went through my boyfriends "following" list on Instagram a few weeks ago and looked at every single profile that looked like it belonged to a girl. I know this is psychopath behavior, but I couldn't help it. I was curious. Most of the girls he follows are his friends, but I also noticed he's following a few accounts of models (Alexis Ren, Cami Moronne, Etc) I checked out their profiles and it pretty much shattered my self-esteem. I consider myself decently pretty and have a petite body, but I feel like a deformed monster when I compare myself to these women. Their bodies are so perfect and they have the most naturally pretty faces. I've been trying so hard to get my body how I want it but I feel like it would be impossible to look even half as good as these women. I'm prone to low self-esteem and feelings of inadequacy already, but knowing that this is what my boyfriend is attracted to just makes those feelings a million times worse. 

I decided to follow these accounts and a few similar ones for motivation, but whenever I look at them I get extremely depressed. I love my boyfriend, but what's the point in being with him if he is constantly looking at women who are a thousand times better than me? It doesn't help much that he doesn't really compliment me often or really at all, it's just not his personality. I put a ton of effort into my appearance every time I see him, but he rarely tells me I look pretty.

I guess I just need advice on dealing with feeling inadequate next to the models that my boyfriend finds attractive. Obviously every guy looks at pictures of hot women and porn and whatnot, but I guess it just makes it worse that I now know *exactly* what he likes and that I'll never measure up.

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<bot>: I've been very depressed ever since I looked at the girls my bf follows on Instagram. How can I deal with these negative feelings? Thank you.