<human>: Can you succinctly summarize the text in 1-3 sentences?

We've been living together 2yrs.  I know he's stressed over this past year with  work issues, but it is now to the point where I'm constantly stressed as well.

To sum up our relationship:  I think I love him more than he loves me.  But he "needs" me more.  I help him a lot (because he works so much).  I keep our home running smoothly and make his favorite meals and look after his bills and laundry and dogs.

He treats me like a buddy, but I don't feel like he's passionate about me.  He'll do strange things like ask me to give him a blow job. While I am doing so, he's acting ridiculous (singing, telling jokes, talking about work).  It's weird.  Then he'll suddenly stop me (after a couple of minutes) and suggest we go run errand. ????  I feel so --- humiliated or ashamed I guess.   Like I'm not hot enough for him to get excited.  Maybe I'm not very good, I don't know.  I've asked him what he likes and I've watched enough porn to know I'm doing things more or less correctly.  He never gives any feedback.

So I already don't feel sexy with him.  And then he will yell at me if he thinks I"ve done something wrong.  I forgot to take his suit to the seamstress, or I forgot to call for service on the tv or any various things -- he gets so worked up and stressed that he shouts at me.  Asks me why I never use my brain.  It hurts my feelings (and my stomach) when he shouts, and then I always seem to start involuntarily crying, which just makes him more stressed.

THIS CAN'T BE NORMAL.  I can see once in a while, but weekly?  It can't be normal behavior.  I know he has anger issues and is very stressed, but my self-esteem is really low now.  Does anyone else experience this or is it abusive?
<bot>: Common law partner doesn't seem overly attracted to me and shouts at me when he thinks I've screwed up, pretty much weekly.