<human>: Hey /r/GetMotivated,

I've been subscribed here for quite a while, and recently, I've actually turned things around for me. I won't go into specifics (although I'm sure there are some to be found in my history), but I truly cannot thank you all enough for being a supportive community and getting me off my ass.

One of the things I wanted to accomplish was daily journaling. I've been doing well, and it has lead me to a lot of introspection, which I would like to share with you and hear your responses about.

My primary motivators are others' doubt and self-guilt. At first glance, this seems unhealthy. Is it? 

I feel like my family constantly doubts and belittles me, even if they don't intend to, I can read it in the language and tone they use. I want to be successful (and improve in my various habits) to prove them all wrong, not to make them proud. I want to shove my degree in my uncle's face and say, "This is a lot better than your fucking art history degree. It only took me a year longer than you." Is that so terrible? I want to make my grandmother proud, of course, but she is probably the only one that I feel positively towards. 

Should I just let go of the bad feeling and work towards my goal in a positive way? I feel like this sort of negative focus could lead me down the wrong path but at the same time, it's very effective.

I feel a lot of self-guilt when I'm lazy and that motivates me a lot. If I feel guilty about sitting on my ass, I'm much more likely to go and do a few exercises, pick up the stuff on my floor, or even just journal a bit. If I allow myself to be content with my laziness (even if it's just for a break), I'm very likely to not get remotivated until the next day when I think about how lazy I was the previous day.

Could you distill the essence of the text into 1-3 sentences?
<bot>: Others' doubt and my own guilt are my two primary motivators. Is that unhealthy? Does anyone have suggestions on how to turn these emotions into positive ones?