<human>: Hey there. I posted in askwomen but they don't allow you to go into personal detail, instead I was directed here.

So I'm a pretty burly guy, large, bearded and whatnot, but I think I might not be what I look like. I don't feel like I'm a guy, or something. It's very strange.

I'm fighting with myself constantly, a small part of me wants to.. experience what I'm feeling, but the majority of me is telling me I'm a freak and that I shouldn't be thinking these things, how could I ever pull that off when I'm so huge and look like a guy.

I don't exactly know what kind of advice I'm looking for here. I'm super confused and in all honesty I find that I'm not a "tumblrina" type of person, not a SJW, nothing like that, so I feel out of place asking those kind of scenes.

a few things while I was writing this out, don't have to answer them specifically but it's what's going through my head right now

- could I ever pass?

- AM I a freak? I mean I've lived 21 years being a regular guy

- I feel like a pervert for wanting to wear.. like, girl clothes.

- but at the same time, drag queens / cross dressers freak me out

- I'm usually a very accepting person (have gay friends and other non-norm people I know) but I just hate this whole situation with me!

- Dating will obviously be off the table for the foreseeable future (which I guess is fine, I don't really date much anyways)

- I don't know anything bout being a girl

So yeah, again not sure what I'm asking, just advice or thoughts on this topic..?

Thank you for any replies!

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<bot>: Fat/burly bearded guy thinks he's a girl sometimes, fights with himself  and doesn't know what to do