<human>: I recently came out of a serious relationship. We were planning on getting married and he left for someone else. He's still with her. A month before I met him, I left a 7 year relationship. For the past 8+ years I've been part of a "couple". 

Now that I'm single, I'm having a hard time being alone. I'm constantly trying to find male companionship even though I'm not emotionally ready. I know I need to be alone and get my stuff together. But I'm so heavily reliant on the male presence that I feel like I'm wandering aimlessly through the day trying to figure out why the hell I'm even here. I have no idea what I like to do with my free time, I have no idea how to socialize. The other day someone asked what I like to do for fun and I was completely stumped. 

I'm hoping someone out there has some advice for me. I have a great job and I'm very put together in every other area of my life. But right now my confidence and emotional health are a jumbled mess.

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<bot>: I keep searching for a new relationship even though I'm not ready. I have no identity outside of being in a relationship.