<human>: fter doing some serious reflecting on my life and looking at some of the patterns of my behavior, I have come to wonder whether or not I was sexuality abused when I was young? 

Get ready, reddit, this is gonna be weird. 

I have a pee fetish. It's pretty pervasive and I like it more than actual sex. I know it's weird and I am certainly not proud of it. I looking back on my life, there is a lot of evidence suggesting this has been pretty pervasive since I was young. It's gotten to the point where it's actually messed with some of my relationships throughout the years, both with guys and girls. 

After doing a lot of soul searching, I think I hit on something. I remember being young, like 5 or 6 when my dad suggested having "lightsaber" fights with our pee streams. As a 5 year old, this didn't strike me as weird, because, well, I was 5. This happened for a few years, and got to the point where some uncles would also have these "lightsaber" fights with me. 

This went on for a while, and that's when I began to become viscerally excited by the thought of pee. It started coming out in my drawings and doodles, conversations with people, fantasy stories... You get the idea. Even now, I get excited at the thought of pee. It's weird, and I know it's weird, and it makes me uncomfortable, but I can't help it. 

I was also emotionally abused for the next 10 or so years after this started, so I don't know where one timeline ends and the next begins. 

So I'm at the point now where I don't know what to think of it all, or if it's normal, or what. I'm looking for your thoughts. 

So, reddit, what do you think? Is this abuse?

Can you give me the gist of the text in a nutshell?
<bot>: Had "lightsaber" fights with pee streams with my dad and a few uncles for a few years. Developed a pervasive and intrusive pee fetish. Is this sexual abuse or am I misinterpreting normal behavior?