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We come from different backgrounds (emotionally). My parents are far from perfect, I have had abusive boyfriends also, I have a lot of scars, therefore I am not so positive and balanced, but his presence in my life makes it a lot better.
He has a nice, christian family (I do not believe in god). He is the nicest and smartest guy I have ever met. He is very kind-hearted. 

In short, we have argued a lot, because I am impulsive. That's natural for me. However, for him it is something that creates more and more disctance. He only told me now, after a year how arguments make him feel, and that probably because of that he is not in love. 
He had been in love with me for short, but then we argued again and he couldnt feel it anymore. 

We agreed on focusing on talking about problems later, and not getting into arguments, hoping it will bring back the trust.

How fucked am I ?
<bot>: He distances himself when arguing, and I am argumentative, which brought us to a point where he cannot let me close. Now he says he is not in love, but he loves me and wants to be with me.