<human>: Give me the gist of the text in a nutshell

Long story short, about 4 months ago I blew up at her about something and then apologized, explaining that it was other stuff on my mind. Instead of us resolving things she waited 2 more months for a reason to break up with me, instead of letting me know how she felt. Fair enough. She lost interest/fell out of love/found someone else. I can't change that.

I've been NC for 2 months, during which she's "checked in" on me twice. She claims she wants to remain friends. Both times were equally jarring. The 2nd time I ended it quickly and deleted the conversation.

We work relatively close to each other and I nearly ran into her about a month ago. She was at a restaurant I normally go to at a time when she doesn't usually eat. Since then I am petrified of leaving my office. I don't venture anywhere that she might be. When I'm out in public I'm constantly worried that I will run into her or see her with someone else. I'm going to see a therapist next Wednesday to discuss this further. Has anyone else had a similar experience?
<bot>: After 2 monts NC I feel much better, but am totally paranoid about seeing my ex. Anyone else experience this?