<human>: I'll keep this concise. I need to know if I'm just being dumb and in love.

 

I live with my boyfriend. I have an eating disorder. I have been recovering for a few years. My boyfriend has known the entire time and has said he "really wants/tries to help." He is in college, about to graduate. Isn't a huge fan of the town we live in. He wants to move closer to his home. I can't move with him because his home is my home and is SUPER triggering for my eating stuff. For me, meeting him is is like, "I wanna be with you forever" type shit. I've dated so much, never loved anyone this much. Never was so certain I wanted someone for life. He's like, "yeah, totally...but I hate this town." Never asked me to move with him because he knows I wouldn't. He is leaving in a month and a half. There is nothing I can do. We constantly fight about it. It's the only thing we really fight about. He says he is super conflicted and "doesn't know what to do". I interpret this as "you're super expendable to me and I just don't know how to tell you without hurting you". The feeling of seeing the expiration date to our relationship is killing me.

What do I do? Am I being a slave to my oxytocin here? Is he just not "the one"? I'm absolutely heart broken. My eating is getting bad with the anxiety of losing him (not his fault).

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<bot>: Boyfriend who I want to marry is moving away from me, knowing we'll break up in the process but still says I am his "soul mate". Am I a huge fucking idiot for not trying to move on?