<human>: Can you condense the text into three sentences or less?

I have suffered from anxiety for my whole life. Leaving my house and comfort zone can always lead to panic and anxiety. My anxiety manifests physically for the most part and make me feel like I'm going to pass out, causes headaches/neckaches and changes in vision among other things.

 

   My doctor prescribed me sertraline (Zoloft) and the first time i took it it felt horrible. I felt panicky, my skin felt tingly and sensitive. I literally had to pace in my room for upwards of an hour without stopping. It felt like I had an adrenaline shot or something. So needless to say I hated it. I tried again a week later and had similar effects. I was anxious about taking the medicine and think it may have made things worse. So, for whatever reason I lied to my doctor and said I was still taking it. I didnt say anything about the side effects. A few months later she asked how things were and my plan was to say i don't think it is working so I could stop taking it. When I told her that she just upped my dose. 

 

   Months down the road I told her I wanted to stop taking it (I wanted to stop having to go pick it up/pretend I'm taking it). She weaned me off of it and I said everything is fine. I was actually feel less anxious at the time and was doing pretty good. Now I am starting to feel really anxious about a lot of stuff (I have general anxiety disorder). I want to actually give an SSRI a shot because it is ruining my life. I am not able to advance professionally and socially it has turned me into someone who likes to sit around and do nothing. I have lost most of my friends, because I honestly don't want to be put through the awful experience that is going out in public and hanging out. 

 

   What should I do? How can I get on an SSRI without losing my doctors trust? I am not a habitual liar it was just something I said because I thought it would work for my situation and I am stubborn. 

I appreciate the help. Thank you.
<bot>: I lied about taking a medication and was "weaned" off of it. Now I actually want to take this medication but dont know how to get back on it without telling my doctor I lied and losing her trust.