<human>: I was emotionally abused by other children and friends from the beggining of grade school at age 5 until roughly after graduating highschool at age 18.  Also during that time I was abused by an alcoholic step-mother.  I've had past substance abuse problems, severe panic disorder and anxiety, severe depression, and have now been diagnosed with a personality disorder because of this.  I've only begun dealing and letting these memories and thoughts out in therapy recently.  It's been really tough but very enlightening.  I'm still friends with some of these people and see them regularly,  but we don't have any problems like that anymore.  When I would repress the memories, I would lie to myself and say I had forgiven them for everything they put me through.  But now that I'm facing my problems I'm starting to realize I'm really fucking angry.  I still have hung out with them pretty regularly and things are generally good, but I've started avoiding them.  I'm not sure how to handle the situation.  Should I cut them off?  Confront them and try to fix things?  Just take a breather for awhile and stay away from them?  They are kind of unhealthy relationships either way.  I would love some new and better friendships, but for now they are all I have.

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<bot>: Current friends bullied me for the entirety of grade school and caused long lasting issues that I'm starting to face.  I haven't forgiven them, so how should I deal with the friends?