<human>: So I'm the SI for a course I took with a professor last summer. I had a little crush on him. He'd give me pretty normal compliments on my exams and assignments, and mentioned that I was "particularly awesome" once in the middle of class. I didn't think anything of it then, but now I don't know.

I am obviously middle eastern. Today in class, he talked about issuing fatwas against certain practices that he disliked in his class. Only 5 people out of 350 in the class would have gotten that reference. And then, when I was perusing my old exams from his class, I noticed that one of them was graded in Arabic numerals. I don't want to think that it means anything. I guess maybe he makes eye contact with me pretty frequently during his lectures. He also maintains eye contact (like, it's almost a little uncomfortable) when we're having a one-on-one conversation, but I would like to think that he does that with all of his students.

But I still can't get him out of my head! I crave interaction with him, but it rarely happens. I want to be realistic: he's a professor, he's probably married, or in a relationship, or homosexual (he's slightly flamboyant, but I really can't tell), and he *knows* I have a boyfriend that I am very much devoted to (we snuggled during his class last year). He's in his 30's, and I'm 21, but I look 17. He can't be into me. But then he does these little things that mess with me. ^And ^he's ^really ^hot ^so ^I ^totally ^fantasize ^about ^him ^sucking ^cock ^or ^fucking ^me ^from ^behind ^while ^I ^suck ^my ^boyfriend's ^cock. Yeah. I'm a lady btw.

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<bot>: My hot professor does little things that make me think he's into me. I know he's not, but I wanna do dirty things to him anyway.