<human>: Can you give me the gist of the text in a nutshell?

I don't know what to do. I feel like every day goes by I do worse and worse things and I feel like I'm going to scare her off or push her out of my life and her breaking up with me is only bound to happen if I keep doing this. I know I'm going to fuck it up if I keep acting like a mess but I don't know how to fix it. I just keep talking and saying more and more and eventually I just spew sentences that come together to form one absolutely insane wall of text like I just did. I don't know how to keep her in my life but I want her to be there because she's the only thing I've got going for me right now.
<bot>: I'm on my way to destroying the one thing I care about and I need advice on how to prevent that from happening