<human>: Could you distill the essence of the text into 1-3 sentences?

I'm recently self-diagnosed with Aspergers after thinking for the longest time that I was just really introverted and now I'm starting to question staying in my marriage of 8 years. There are 3 kids involved.

Background: every 5 years or so I go through a bout of depression where I turn away from the real world and get sucked into an online community where I can be myself and no one judges me. In the past, these were harmless and I lived alone so who cares. This time, it was a Kik chat group and it evolved into a lot of side conversations with guys who are not my husband and it was really fun and I let down my guard a lot. Yeah, I sexted.

Fast forward: my husband found out and is very hurt. I, on the other hand, became somewhat addicted to the attention I was getting from much younger men. I then set up fake email accounts and posted personal ads and even met two guys for lame hook ups (basically making out in a car).

I realize all of the above could probably be symptoms of depression or seeking a new connection or something, and I'm making efforts to find a therapist to talk to about it. But it's led to the bigger question: do I still want to be married? Am I even cut out for marriage?

I miss living alone. I miss waking up in the morning and making all the decisions about what to do with my time. I hate having another person tell me how to do things, question how I spend my time, account for my every moment. I love my kids and don't have any resentment toward them, but I don't feel love toward my husband and I'm not sure I ever did. When he brought up divorce my brain instantly lit up and I started to obsess about it, getting the process started, and how great it would be.

He loves me and wants to try and I wish I knew what to do but I have almost zero emotion about any of this.
How should I even approach this question?
<bot>: married, cheated a little, liked it, not sure I'm cut out for marriage -- how do I know for sure?