<human>: Can you give me the gist of the text in a nutshell?

My husband and I have been married for about 8 years now. We have been pretty rocky the entire time. Lately his issue is paying any attention to me, being romantic, things like that. A few years ago we made a friend on Reddit, under a gaming sub. He's a great guy (30m) who has been friends with us for just about 3 years now. 

The past year my husband has been ignoring me and my needs. More romance, in the bedroom, nearly everything. He has said he will work on it many times. I've been trying to be patient I really have. But my husband's friend and I have been getting closer. We have been playing some games together just us. The only reason why is because my husband has been working odd hours. Unfortunately, I have realized I have feelings for him. Maybe because he gives me attention that I really desperately crave, I think this may be it. I don't know what to do. I still love my husband, but I keep getting these ideas in my head about leaving him for this other guy. Please note that he hasn't expressed any interest in me other than playing a game with me or friendship. It's purely me in my head with my own fantasies. Even if I distance myself from him, there will be days where I will have to be around him because we all play a certain game together (think World of Warcraft). There WILL be days where my husband also will ask I play with them. 

I don't know what to do. I don't want to lose this little friendship I have because it's the only thing that makes me happy anymore, but I don't know what else to do. Any advice? 

By the way, I know this is wrong. I am not trying to justify myself by any means.
<bot>: I have feelings for a friend of my husbands, he doesn't have feelings for me that I know of. I'm lost and alone and I don't know what to do.