<human>: I'll try to make this as short as possible. I met a guy a few years back(4/5 years ago), online, and I quickly fell for him. We talked a lot, and I tried not to get to attached or really even open up at all. I knew how I felt, and I didn't want things to end badly. I was probably 17 or so at the time. He was about 23/24. I'm now 22, and he's 28, as far as I even remember.

Well, I got a new computer, aaaand.. I ended up completely running away. I stayed away for two years, and he was on my mind a LOT during that time. (I deleted his number from my phone as well. I just didn't know how else to handle it.) I decided to get in touch with him again, after talking to a mutual friend.

Welp. Same feelings are back. I decided I'd take a running leap and just go for it. You know, "Do the thing you fear and the death of fear is certain". this time around. Things got kinda sexual, have pics ect. Buuut, now he's shied away. I know he is, so I'm trying to do the same. I'm pretty much fucking miserable but I've only been talking to him since the start of August.

I want to say something, but I fear it's to soon, or there's no point. I'm certain we're both fearful of relationships. He's been hurt before, I fear everyone's just going to leave me as usual.

I've sought out counseling because I've felt so crappy about the situation. I don't know how to handle any of it. I was going real good in life, getting out of a depressing point, and now I feel like I've slumped back in. I want to run again.

Is waiting this out even an option? I've really never felt this strongly about anyone. :/

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<bot>: Never had a good relationship. Life was getting better, now I have an unexpected crush. I don't know how to deal with it without being miserable.