<human>: Can you provide a brief rundown of the text in within 3 sentences?

I have had clinical depression for about 4 years, have had a few therapists and been on antidepressants a few times as well, so I have been trying to get better. I have been dating my bf for 11 months long distance. He lives literally across the world from me and I have seen lived with him for about a month and a half of our relationship otherwise we just talk over skype, or messages. 

Its not that I have fallen out of love with him, I just feel like im too depressed to treat him the way he deserves. I've tried to break up with him 4 times before, because I didn't feel any love or care coming from him although I know he does love and care about me. I just can't really feel it anymore, and I'm not sure if its only my depression or he is more distant. I have been cold and making excuses not to talk to him because I want to be alone and talking to him makes me feel guilty for not being a perfect girlfriend. What do you guys think? Sorry first time posting on here.
<bot>: Feeling too depressed to have a relationship now, and my depression holds me back from being a good girlfriend in the first place.