<human>: On Thursday night I went to a goodbye party for the seniors on my team. I was a little nervous to go because my ex was going to be there. Making it even harder is the fact that this ex is my best friend. We had tried a relationship and it just really didn't work for a bunch of different reasons. We'd agreed to try to continue the friendship but instead we ended up ENTIRELY ignoring each others existence. 

Well on Thursday we were both really drunk and at one point as he walked by me, not looking at me, I just grabbed his arm and said "can we stop this? I know we can't fix anything but do we have to pretend like we don't even know each other?" Well that led to a very long conversation about what had happened between us. He told me that he feels terrible and takes most of the blame on himself (he doesn't deserve all of it which I told him but the apology was great). He also told me that he still has nightmares about how he handled things and treated me. We ended (after a lot of hugs and apologies) saying that we'd watch game of thrones together on Monday. I know that I want to try to be his friend again but now I'm scared that the only reason we made up at all is because he was incredibly drunk.

The question is, do I email him this ( or just leave it alone? My inclination is to email because being unsure is driving me crazy.

Can you give me the gist of the text in a nutshell?
<bot>: Unsure whether a reconciliation with my ex/best friend is genuine or just because of alcohol and should I contact him to find out because not knowing drives me INSANE