<human>: So, it's been two months since the break up and I find myself feeling the exact amount of pain I felt on the first day. I was completely in shock when we broke up because I thought we had the perfect relationship. This is what I believe is the worst part because typically people have something bad to say about the person after the break up. He was absolutely perfect for me. I was so happy...
We were best friend for almost 6 years, dating for almost three. He was my rock.

I've taken up hobbies. He broke up with me right before we left to our respective colleges. I've taken up everything I love from acting, to music, to shooting films. 
I've exercised. I've lost some weight, and will continue to do so.

But I'm literally empty inside. I would think that after the break up, which was a good one because he claimed to have just stopped loving me and I claimed that it was just a phase, I would still keep my best friend... But he hasn't attempted to speak with me in two weeks! And every time we've spoken before in the past two months it's been me attempting to keep our friendship.
The pain of him not speaking to me hurts so much. Almost as much as when I do speak to him and he's happy without me. 

I've tried to be strong in not texting him for some time but today I caved in again. How do I cope with these flip flop feelings? I'm happy and fine when I'm doing hobbies, but when something reminds me of him I tell myself that I would be having more fun if he was there with me. Or at least there to talk to about my days. 
I'm scared I've lost the love of my life.

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<bot>: My ex-boyfriend/best friends lack of caring is putting me into depression. And I don't know how to cope with it.