<human>: I had an episode of pure selfishness on new years,  to call it rage would be appropriate but it wasnt. 

I wanted a way to stop feeling so pressured and to just be calm. I broke up with my girlfriend for no reason other than i was stressed and lashed out and now i hate what i did.

 She understands it was the depression and she knows because she has depression as well but she  is still hurt by what i did. 

We are starting again seeing each other  but now im more lucid and less self hating its not enough i just want my girlfreind back to talk to. 

We cuddled last night and watched tv but when i asked her where we stand she just said we are going in the right direction and nothing else. Im having  trouble seeing this as a good sign. 

Do i keep this person in my life? Do i cut her out for her sake as well as mine? 

I respect her decision and I am learning my lesson more and more every day, this wont happen again im seeing a councillor for the first time in an effort to control myself to be a better person. 

Any advice on how to carry on? What do i do? How do i fix this? Can i even fix it?

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<bot>: Broke up with girlfriend over depression, we still seeing each other but im having trouble dealing with how slow its going. Just want to deal with it until we are in a better place.