<human>: Where do I even begin? I, 23F, feel extremely relieved that I no longer have to be self conscious about my virginity and having that talk of being gentle for the first time. Many people advise against losing your virginity in a one night stand but for me it wasn't a bad decision. Ya the actual sex was awful but it was actually kind of perfect in a way in that I wasn't into him at all meaning there is no emotional attachment, and the whole bleeding thing was masked by my excuse of being at the end of my period. I warned him beforehand though so that was his call.

You know what's really funny? All my good friends from high school and college know that I'm (was? am?) a virgin while my college friends think that I'm this promiscuous girl that wouldn't mind sleeping with different guys all the time. I have come across a number of opportunities where ONS were propositioned but I was too afraid to move forth due to my fear of other people's judgements. I think I was able to do it this time around because I didn't think too much about anything and just went with it. Perhaps the fact that I didn't find him very attractive helped me calm my nerves. 

I'm not a prude. I'm very self-aware and I know I'm a fairly sexual person; I freaking love porn and masturbating and I'm not ashamed of that. There are so many intriguing things I hear or read about that I wanna try. I honestly felt that the stigma of being a virgin was holding me back from freely expressing my sexual desires. 

I still don't think I can be truthful to my friends about it because of what they might think, and I'm okay with that. I don't think it's necessary to share the details of my sex life with them anyway.

Woohoo, I feel liberated!

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<bot>: I fucked a guy I'm not into just to lose my virginity and now my inner sexual demon has unleashed making me wanna have real sex all the time.