<human>: Can you provide a brief overview of the text?

No throwaway cause amazingly I've woken up buzzed.

(I plan on asking the guys I was with about this but I suspect they're hungover as shit right now.)

So I'm completely a lightweight/rarely drink and over did it last night with shots and an enormous vodka cocktail. I don't recall spilling the beans with my feelings or whatnot. I'm pretty sure I went from buzzed to puking and incoherent at the same time and went to sleep.

Here's the thing though; it gets more complex.

Most of my life I've thought myself to be a lesbian. M19 has been enamored with me for a while. The whole two weeks before this, I've been mulling over what I should do, and came to the conclusion that I'm emotionally attracted to him (and on occasion, physically). We've got loads in common and I really enjoy his company in a slightly-more-than-platonic way. I figured he's sorta my exception to make.

But last night I remember very vague flirtation only: he made me hold his hand because I was practically piss drunk. Also feeling up my leg under the table, but he did it to everyone to be silly.

I also wonder about his actions because he was drunk as fuck as well. Lately I suspect he's been trying to get over me, but I have no idea what goes on in his head.

The fact that this is all that happened (that I recall) with him last night makes me wonder. And maybe that's because I don't do enough drinking to understand my behavior, but I'm starting to wonder if my feelings are just out of sympathy or something, and if we're over it.
<bot>: Though I'm mostly a lesbian, got drunk with who I believe to be my first male crush. Next to nothing happened. What gives?