<human>: Can you condense the text into three sentences or less?

So, not really sure if I'm asking for advice or just a small rant. We got engaged March 2, 2013. From day 1 we've been struggling through the planning. At first, it was arguing with his parents about us getting married in a church. And then it was an argument about which venue to have the reception. We finally have the venue booked and the church matter settled. Now that's out of the way, I suddenly have this pit in my stomach

My mom left me when I was 14. I've basically done everything on my own and I have really been ok about it. I'm sure it's not of the norm for me to feel so disassociated about the whole thing, but I am. I'm suppose to go look at wedding dresses this Friday. I am feeling super anxious because I don't know if trying on wedding dresses is going to turn me into a blubbering baby about not having a mom. 

My future mother-in-law is suppose to come with me to help look. I worry about turning into that blubbering baby and offending her. I don't want her thinking that I don't appreciate her being there. 

Aside from me worrying about becoming a giant baby, I've also been having issues with my bridal party. While I haven't made any official choices, I have ideas of who I want involved. That would be my best friend, my sister, and my future sister-in-law. My first choice for a MOH is my best friend. However, she lives out of state, and is in a medical program for school. So her visit time is severely limited. My sister feels entitled to be the MOH, despite the fact that we are not close at all. So getting people together to get any kind of wedding stuff done is almost impossible.
<bot>: I'm worried about being a big baby and am basically ready to walk down the aisle in a pair of jeans and with no bridal party.