<human>: For the last 8 months I've been dating a girl that has brought extreme joy in my life. We have our differences and can argue over mundane things, but for the most part, we are great for each other and are inseparable. A month ago, I screwed this all up by finding a list of her sexual partners while looking for a file I had saved on her laptop. What bothers me is not the fact that she has a sexual past; it's the number itself. It is close to thirty. She's only had a couple of boyfriends before me, and the rest were one night stands. I confronted her about it and she tried to explain that she was going through a depression (which I was aware of) and that getting picked up by guys at a bar was a way for her to feel wanted. It wasn't the sex that motivated her, it was the temporary relief from her own self esteem issues (which are still evident today). 

We've talked about it at length,  and I've come to terms with the reasons behind her sexual exploits, but knowing the number of men that had her before me is driving me insane. It is a nagging thought that I can't seem to kill. I can't help but feel  insignificant and insecure. The idea that so many other men had the ability to persuade her into sleeping with them makes me feel like getting her to love me was not much of an achievement at all. I just don't know what to do. 

Talking to her about it is fruitless,  because we've already dived into the reasons behind her past decisions at length. All that's left is for me to come to terms with it, and that is proving to be difficult. I absolutely love this woman, and I just want to see her the way that I did before knowing all of this.

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<bot>: found a list of my girlfriend's sexual history. Can't seem to get over it despite being madly in love with her.