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Fellow Redditors (throwaway account here), I have a dilemma.  Three years ago I was diagnosed with Genital Herpes (2008).  I had my first outbreak after I'd been seeing my girlfriend for over six months; we'd started dating in the late spring and I had my outbreak in December.   When I went to the doctor he told me that I would have had an outbreak sooner if I'd contracted it prior to dating her as the majority of people have an initial outbreak within 6-10 weeks of contracting the disease.  Having shown no signs, I'd not gotten tested as I hadn't been that sexually active in the months before we started dating.

That being said, she was very accepting of it immediately and supportive but denied that she could have given it to me (and refused to get tested).  Now obviously in my mind that screams she was aware she may have had it prior to me having my first outbreak.  We broke up a year later for different reasons.

That's water under the bridge, regardless of how I got it.  I felt horrible (and still do) if I'd given it to her and accept that she probably gave it to me.

My problem is, what do I do now?  I'm a very confidant, attractive, outgoing guy but I don't pursue romantic relationships any longer.  I have a huge fear in rejection and I wouldn't knowingly try to sleep with anyone knowing I have this and not tell them first and let them decide.  Does anyone have any experience with this?  Prior to contracting it, I would have had to seriously think about dating someone with herpes.  Now, I know what its like to live and deal with (I have only had 2-3 mild outbreaks each year since that last about a week) and I prescribe to Valtrex to take when I have them-as opposed to taking them full-time as a once-a-day alternative.
<bot>: I contracted herpes.  I no longer can get close to women for romantic relationships for fear of rejection.  Any advice?