<human>: Can you give me the gist of the text in a nutshell?

So I'm stuck in a rut. Way back when we were first dating she said that she was asexual - sure, I'm fine with that. A few months after she self-identified as aromantic alongside asexual though "had an exception for me" and "couldn't really imagine dating anyone else". That's sweet and all but she mentioned she wouldn't have gone on a date with me in the first place if she wasn't so lonely and hadn't had a friend for a few years. I also don't believe in exceptions in cases of romance when most are highly idealized fantasies.  

I said I love you a couple months back and she said it back. She never initiates it though she does sometime give me a kiss on the cheek. I don't really want to be just pals to the *extreme* with her if it means not being loved back. She says she can go without talking to me for week but *maybe* not for a month. I treated her a night out for our anniversary she forgotten and think that, with all things stacked up, she's not really into me and is more into me being a filler so she won't feel so depressed. We talk about her depression openly (she's being treated) but usually it makes her even more depressed so I don't like to engage further. What do you guys think?
<bot>: Don't know if my girlfriend is putting up with me because it's better than being alone. Either way, the thought hurts.