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why cant i tell my dad i love him. even more so, why cant i talk to my dad like everyone else in my family. i can easily talk about girls and relationship with my mother or brother, but when i comes to my dad, my brain literally draws a blank and i dont even know what to talk about. WTF?!?!!! We both have common interests like cycling and snow sports, but even then i can never have a DEEP conversation with him. i cant stand it. i want to be able to do this more than anything. 

i love my father infinity because he is the man that shaped me into what i am today, and i could not be any happier. what is the problem here?? is my dad just awkward and i havent realized it yet? am i awkward? am i subconsciously an egotistical asshole and i try to just be better than him despite my love for what he as done without even realizing it?

 i feel horrible that he is 66 with ever worsening depression and the fact that we barely have 20 minutes of dialog a week makes me feel even worse because i dont have a clue how to fix it. please help reddit. im sorry for my bad grammer but i honestly dont give a fuck. i want to have a solid relationship with my father. what can i do. PLEASE!!!!! I love him so much and his clock is running down. what can i do? i cant even say "i love you dad"without sounding sarcastic. i just cant help it. This is the absolute main problem in my life and any help would be greatly appreciated. i feel that if i dont resolve this problem, i will forever be un-happy.
<bot>: ive never told my dad i love him in a serious tone and now im mentally unable to do so. what can i do for him to realize that hes my hero?