<human>: Summarize the given text in a few sentences.

Before you read this I understand that I'm the bad guy here . I know I didn't make the right decisions and I feel absolutely terrible for it . 

My gf and I just broke up . I cheated on her and but she told me she wanted to forgive me and move forward. I was convinced I didn't like her . She kept chasing me for a month but I still wouldn't give her a chance . 

After trying to move on and seeing other girls I quickly realized how much of a mistake I made . I really miss her . 

She's still willing to give me a chance because she says "I would rather try again than lose you forever."

Things are good sometimes however  she lashes out on me daily because she's so angry over what I've done ( rightfully so ) 

The things she says make me feel like I'm not even a human being .  I just take it because I feel that I deserve being treated this way . 

Is this healthy ? Can this lead anywhere or are we both wasting out time ?
<bot>: cheated on gf , broke up but she's still willing to give me a chance . I'm not sure if this is a healthy route to go down.