<human>: Well, we dated for 16 months in high school. Each other's first everything, you know, cute stuff. We were really comfortable around each other(we still are) I took the break-up really hard, and it led to depression and drug use. We tried no-contact a few times, and it worked for the most part 

   In 2008 we had an amazing week together, but it was doomed. She went on to college and travel the world, I did nothing. We did no contact again.

   We tried again in 2010 but she felt I was trapping her, and looking back at that I totally see it. I was still depressed, and I was trying way too hard to make it work, when I should have just gone with the flow. Cue no contact.

  So now its 2015. We had dinner the other night, then we went to her place and had wine. We talked about our last few years and again, it felt really comfortable and natural, for both of us. We didn't kiss, but we hugged. Long ones, tight ones, ones that make you feel really safe. We talked about going to see the a movie and go skating. She had to work in the morning so I went home. 

   Last night night were alone together, we had made dinner and were sitting on the couch. The feelings all came out. We hugged, we cried, we held each other. I said I don't want commitment, I don't want labels. She told me she **loved me but was not in love with me**, and I took this as rejection. 

   As I was getting ready to leave, she came up and hugged me from behind, I turn to her and whispered "I love you so much" and we starting kissing. The kissing lasted maybe 30 seconds before she pushed me off her, and I told her I'd leave. I told her as long as were doing "this" to not sleep with anyone, and she agreed it would hurt her if I did the same. She hates sleeping in a bed with someone, and sex wasn't happening tonight. I kissed her on the way out, and everything seems okay.

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<bot>: Basically reddit, I just need some advice. I really love this girl, but she's still got dreams and I don't want to hold her back.