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I've been on the road of attempted weight loss for awhile. I've been overweight for as long as I can remember. When I got to college two years ago I was so excited to loose weight and get healthy. After 10 weeks of intense marching band practice and performances nothing really changed. Once Spring rolled around I was committed to getting in shape. I started at 194lbs and got down to the 180s, but after a few weeks with counting calories and exercising nothing changed after that and I got very discouraged.

Now this school year rolls around and the commitment started again. After hour and a half band practices I would run up to half a mile. I felt great and healthy but I wasn't losing weight. My family said it looked like I was but I didn't really feel like it. In January I weighted myself several times and it was all around the 180-185 range. Because of some sickness I didn't work out for about 4 weeks. For uniform measurements about 3 weeks ago I was weighted at 184lbs (wearing shoes, jeans, etc.)

I started up running again about 3 weeks ago and two weeks ago I started counting calories again. I use fitbit.com to track my exercise and food intake. I kept my food intake with to at least 750 calories less than I was burning off (For the last week I burned 21090 and only ate 13185). I've really been trying. But 20 minutes ago I went to my school gym to weigh myself (wearing light athletic clothes and no shoes) and the scale said 188.5lbs.

I don't know what to do. I was so crushed to see those numbers. Because I'm eating less I'm hungry ALL THE TIME and I can hear myself sounding more cranky and bitchy. I try to not snack and when I do it's very light vegetables or fruits. I only go out to run a mile 4 days a week is that's what is causing it? 

I'm so lost. I can't really go to my friends for guidance because I mentioned my trying to get in better shape and they don't really think it is necessary. I'm trying to hold back tears as a type this. I'm just so lost and confused....
<bot>: After really cutting back calories and exercising, scales tell me I've gained at least 4lbs. I'm just really lost and depressed about everything.