<human>: Just seeing all these Valentine stories just makes me mentally tears me apart, figuratively speaking. It makes me want to ask this girl I like out, let's call her J. But then I get cold feet and just avoid it. I don't even have that much time at college left, hell I barely even see her since she changed majors. 

And then the other is that I don't know if I really like her or am I forcing this obsession on myself. I don't know J that well, I've never even in a class with her before. But just seeing her walk by is mesmerizing. She's just a normal, quiet girl living life as it is in the painting studio, there's nothing exactly special about J, but that's what makes her so interesting and mysterious in my view.

And every time I wanted to ask J out, I don't even know what will happen. If I get rejected then I guess it'll be like my what...8th time? And even if she accepted I wouldn't know what to do. Most dates I happen to be in were accidental, I don't know about actually planning one. What then? What do we do together after if we get serious?

Oh god my ADD and anxiety is kicking in

I mean is it so wrong to just have like a night out? An ideal date or something? Like go out and watch the new Lego Movie, maybe smoke some ganja beforehand and enjoy. Then I'd take her out for dinner and then back home. And just have a few more dates 'cause I like things slow.

*sigh* I'm just lost, lonely, and feeling bleh

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<bot>: Just ranting after seeing all these valentines post. And how I feel about this girl and all these possibilities.