<human>: Can you condense the text into three sentences or less?

It's been over six months since my first love left me. I'm not over her. Since her leaving, I have had one other girl who I felt close to, she abruptly ended the relationship due to "commitment issues". Which was really her wanting to do all the things she couldn't do with me around. Despite that relationship I realize now that I was just trying to replace what I had with my first love. We will call her Jessica. Jessica and I dated for around 2 years, we had our struggles and we broke up for lengths of close to a month twice during our relationship but always came back. The difference this time is that Jessica was the one who ended things in January of this year. Jessica is now happy with another guy who seems to make her happy and by all accounts is a nice guy. I still love her though, and I'd be willing to start all over, but I can't for two huge reasons. We aren't even able to talk because she never forgave how hurt I was by her leaving, and I could not take her away from someone who's making her happy knowing I may no longer be able to...what do I do Reddit?
<bot>: summary: my first love left me in January and now has a bf but I still love her. What do I do?