<human>: Can you condense the text into three sentences or less?

Reddit, I'm hoping you can help. 

I found out my husband talked to women on different occasions throughout our marriage, one of which was his ex and he said things that hurt me ("I wish we were still together, don't get married, etc"). Another he talked to on the phone for a month for about 2 hours a day, and a third he was sending pictures to. 

When I found out about this (recently), I tried to confront him on it and his response was "get over this or I'm leaving you". I made him leave and now we are living separately. He has texted me he wants a divorce, and then in the next message said how he can't live without me, misses me so much etc etc. 

We have been going to counseling and the counselor said this would take a few months before I could even know if the marriage is salvageable. The ex doesn't want to wait and doesn't seem to put in any effort aside from constantly texting me. 

I am not necessarily proud of this but I slept with someone else and I think I am starting to get feelings for this person. He told me he is scared of committing and we have slept together a few times but he's cool with 'getting to know each other'. i don't want anything serious right now regardless so it's just fun and games so to speak.
<bot>: I am worried that if the ex and i ever make it work (who knows I guess), am I going to feel awful about this?