<human>: I just had a rollercoaster of a 6 month relationship end 2 days ago (he's 23m, I'm 24f.) We fought, we couldn't understand each other anymore, and it was too frustrating to try, so I gave him back the key to his apartment and left, dying inside. He cried too. I was fucking devastated to the point of nausea. He's got a whole hell of a lot on his plate right now and basically no time for a relationship. I hold hardly anything against him. It just got to a point where communicating became literally impossible. 

Today, about 48 hours later, I think I got the closure I sought, which I realize is impressively soon but I feel sort of guilty and here's why:

I called him at 4ish and he sounded like shit. But I had to know that he didn't love me, or that he didn't think it worth trying to fix this anymore, because I felt like I couldn't function. It was never openly clear how much he cared about me, so I had to know. I fearlessly told him for the first time that I loved him, and I was prepared to not hear it back. But I needed that to move on. So it happened. It was awful, like a thousand bandaids ripped at once, but necessary. It's strange how soon thereafter the tears felt so much more manageable than before. I'll be sad for a good while, but not blubbering like Diane Keaton in Something's Gotta Give anymore. I don't think.

The part I feel bad about is calling an old guy friend. We talked for like 2 hours and I feel about 80% better already. He made me realize some things, made me feel better about myself, and it was refreshing as a frozen pair of shorts on a hot day to talk to him. I feel bad for feeling good again. I just hate hurting and I hate hurting other people. I don't think/I hope this doesn't actually turn into a rebound thing at all. It just comforts me to hear a male voice other than my dad's to tell me I'm gonna be okay. Is that... stupid? Am I... selfish?

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<bot>: I feel bad for feeling okay again after 48 hours of mourning over the end of a tumultuous relationship because I called another guy to talk it out. I will miss the ex tremendously, but fuck... my head :(