<human>: Give me the gist of the text in a nutshell

I [21/F] have been with my boyfriend [22] for 4 months. He's an amazing person and doesn't deserve a mess like me. When. I get drunk, I've been known to make out with people. This has happened twice and I feel so fucking terrible. After this happened, I told him about it and for some reason I said I wouldn't go out anymore. I still go out
Occasionally, but I've cut down on the drinking so that this won't happen anymore, except that last person I kissed [25] I have a huge crush on. A crush is a crush and I know it's natural, but he decided to tell me he likes me aswell. I feel sick about the whole thing. I guess I've been freaking about the relationship and chose an easy target. I also work with both of them so hooray. I want to stay with my boyfriend but I can't get this out of my head. Any advice?
<bot>: In a relationship, kissed someone drunk, now I have a crush on the kisser, but want to stay in my current relationship. Fuck.