<human>: Can you condense the text into a few key points?

I'll try and keep this succinct. 

I'm 29F. I haven't dated in a year, after the end of my 12y relationship. 

I'm 5'6"and weigh approx. 187lbs/85kg. 

My mother, in a moment of alcoholic brilliance, told me again last night when visiting her that I'm repulsive and will not find love while I'm this fat. She said she would rather be honest than me be happy. 

I would like to mention I have a fairly active lifestyle - I walk about 10km/6+ miles a day... I play team sport three times a week when work allows. My blood tests are above average, I'm not at risk of diabetes... I'm just fat. 

Can someone be real with me? Is it likely I'll end up sad, fat and alone? Do guys really care that much about fat women? 

Help me out reddit, I feel miserable.
<bot>: my mother said no one will love me because I'm fat and therefore repulsive and undesirable. I don't know what to think, aside from that I want to put a bullet in my brain.