<human>: i used to be an manipulative person, i only thought about me and how i could advance my goals. I was by no means a perfect cackling mastermind. But i strived to be. I wanted to be the perfect successful person i thought you were supposed to be. Blunt, Rude, Mean. I was what you would call "alpha" or just basically a douche bag. But i didnt think i was bad i thought i was confident and successful. Well Long story short and a lot of soul searching i realized i needed to stop. I was wasting my life living under false pretenses. I become really spiritual and emotional. ( i cry hard 3x a week) i love talking about peoples problems now. I love connecting with my species and making other people feel empowered and good. I meditate everyday. My life seems meaningful. But people i talk to sometimes avoid connecting and  ive been labeld pussy or weak by some of my ex friends. Are people just shallow or ignorant? i use to hang out with a lot more people when i was a douche and sleep around a lot. I dont have a girlfriend but i have a few close friends and am really close with my mom. But dont really get shallow girls (which is okay)
I feel like im both sides of the spectrum, i dont get pushed around and can be assertive but im also caring and not a heartless douche.

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<bot>: why do people like being treated poorly and seek the acceptance of other people they truly dont like. Why are emotions and feelings bad? Are most people unconnected with themselves?