<human>: Can you provide a brief overview of the text?

I'm really numb, because I know it was my fault. He told me that he's my loss, and he is right. I fucked him over, because I'm fucked up myself. I keep going from numb to crying to numb to crying. It just happened a few hours ago. 

I think what's gonna be awkward is not only moving on, but figuring out how/if/when our families find out...I don't want to be bombarded with questions, and I don't want his family to do that to him, either. It's embarrassing, thinking about letting people know "oh yeah, we broke up". I want to be spared the damn reactions, so I'm probably going to hide it for as long as possible and act like we are still together.

I should be focused on winning him back. But I want to just quit my job, postpone starting college, and kill myself tbh. No joke. He was my support system after all, and I fucked that up.
<bot>: Boyfriend broke up with me because of what I did, and now I'm here wondering what to do. How/if/when should I let my family know? How should I cope? I don't know.