<human>: Can you provide a brief rundown of the text in within 3 sentences?

I wanted to put a story here, but I have so many thoughts swirling around in my head that I can't put across properly.

I have a straightforward personality. I speak what I think, and sometimes I aggravate people, because I don't like lying. Although I'm a good liar and I can lie to protect myself, I avoid doing it because people get hurt by lies.

But this always ends up in altercations in my family, and several times, they say explicitly they wish I were dead, and that they wish they could swap me for another kid. Sometimes these end up in specific details and descriptions of what they hate about me.

The thing is, Redditors, I have always worked hard. I earned money when we had issues (I was 14 or 15 then), and I have always watched my cash flow. I have never spent money on a game, I don't  buy new clothes (all of mine are hand-me-downs), and I hate splurging on anything. My biggest purchase was the laptop I am using, with money I earned myself over years.

I think I have done as much as I can, but I still end up in this situation where I have no one to talk to. I'm not really a looker so I don't find myself drawing attention, and while I score good grades, I don't really expect people to be drawn to me for that.

I have few friends because I trust few people - trust issues that arose from a bad childhood that, for all purposes and intents, have nothing to do with this situation. I can't talk to any adults because I either don't trust them or they are unavailable. Medical professionals are out of the question because they cost money, and I don't like spilling my heart out to helplines because I can be traced (and they do do that kind of thing here).

I have tried to man up, but it's too much to deal and I'm only 17.

What should I do now?
<bot>: People, even family, hate me. I can't talk to anyone - I have no mouth, and I must scream. What do I do?