<human>: I'll keep this short, I was with a girl for 7 years or so, much stuff happened with her family, I had a lot of anger and issues to deal with (she had ended the relationship 5 or 6 times in this period, directly due to her nutcase father, nonetheless each heartbreak took more of a toll). Eventually, I simply had a want to escape, I still loved her (at least, I thought I did) but was suffocating. I ended the relationship. What followed was not my finest hour, as people do in a breakup - words were exchanged and then, with my first taste of freedom and opportunity, I (stupidly) started a relationship with someone new whilst in the rebound, confused, and following the guidance of my peers and father -- not to blame them, but more neutral advice would've helped with the scrambled eggs which were my brain.

When I told my ex that I was in a new relationship, I saw her heartbreak in her facial expression. So did mine, I knew that this was wrong, but couldn't work out why -- put it down to nostalgia.

Fast forward to today, I am working abroad, due to return home around September, new gf is coming to visit me but I do not want her to, no feelings of love have developed and I am going to use the opportunity to end the relationship as nicely as I can. Conversely, the break I needed from my ex has served its purpose, the anger and frustration have both gone and all I remember is this fantastically beautiful, intelligent, talented soulmate whom I miss dearly.

When we broke up, she said she would always love me whilst in tears, I was her only boyfriend and we shared experiences which the vast majority do not. I know what I have for her in my heart is genuine and true - I have hurt her by dismissing her feelings so frivolously and jumping in with another woman, but how do I beg forgiveness for my stupidity and once again have the woman of my dreams? I should have married this girl when she was asking, now I want to more than ever. Why is it I can forgive a multitude of heartbreak that she bestowed unto me but she cannot do the same? Your advice could change the direction of my life.

Can you give me the gist of the text in a nutshell?
<bot>: Broke up with awesome ex due to bad relationship circumstances, got new gf within 3 months, ex hate(s/d) me for it, woke up, realised issues -- want to win ex back.