<human>: Some of you might have read my thread on my problematic relationship with my now ex bf. The short version: He was taking on a job in "his" city behind me back although we had different plans, was aggressive (punshing walls, breaking phones...) whenever I wanted to talk about important things and basically never cared much about my feelings. Whenever I shut up and agreed on everything, things were good, but he started to slowly give me less and less of love and affection, betrayed my trust twice and from that time on started to freak out on me and call me a jealous and clingy freak whenever I felt something was not quite right.

We ended things over text a few days ago and I'm so sad although I know I should be glad that I got out of the relationship. He seems to be doing fine, he's already busy with parties and telling his friends that my jealousy ruined the relationship. I feel betrayed and given up on. Just Wednesday he wrote me that he loved me and would never leave me. Wednesday he spent at his friends' house, talking about me, ignoring me for more than a day and then finally telling me that he's following his friends' suggestion on not continuing this relationship. I'm still in shock and sad and also angry. But I'm relieved as well.. The LDR thing with him would've been a living hell. 

Besides dealing with the loss and mourning the relationship, I'm also scared I'll never find somebody who will love me again. I'm turning 31 in a couple of weeks and for whatever reason it makes me so insecure. I'm also not very self-confident when it comes to my body.. I'm not fat or overweight or anything, but I don't like myself naked that much. He used to like my body and it made me feel so confident and beautiful :( I miss him when I know damn well I shouldn't.

How can I get past that? Is it normal to mourn an unhealthy relationship?
Are there any people who met their SO after the age of 30?

I'm glad for every reply, every advice, help and nice words. Thank you SO much!!!

Can you give me a shortened version of the text?
<bot>: Got out of a toxic relationship with verbal abuse and aggression, but now I'm so sad and afraid of the future.