<human>: I had posted something similar not that long ago, but asked the wrong question.. With out absolute evidence of infidelity, is it better to assume? Or not to? She and my relationship has been rocky for quite a long time, but we both sincerely and deeply loved each other. I have issues with addiction that I am currently trying to surmount (I know focus on just me and ONLY me), severe bi-polar disorder, and a tremendous amount of stress.

She never really talked very much about our future which made me come to believe I was just a rebound from a previous relationship she was very unhappy with. I've been through a lot of shit in my life, and did inadvertently heap a good amount on hers, but we always stuck together and pushed through it. Call me what you will, but the lack of affection later in the relationship, or at least lack of display of it shook me to my core as being warning signs that I've seen in some of my previous relationships. 

It all came to a head when I was finding difficulty locating a job. Going from bread-winner, to bread-beggar seriously fucked up my psyche and sense of self-worth, and I know that it bled through the our love. I'm an emotional train wreck, and I believe it was starting to get to her. I'm not calling myself a martyr, nor do I want any sympathy, I just wanted the best route for her to be happy. I've been gone less than a week and the soul-wrenching pain that envelopes my entire being only tightens and I find it more and more difficult to breathe. 

Should I try and reconcile? She wanted to leave state with me previous to this kerfuffle.. should I save up and perhaps rekindle that glorious time we had in the hot Arizona summer? Or should I just bask in the frigid winter of the East and just follow that easy spiral downward?

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<bot>: Agonizing over if I made the right decision to abandon my heart and soul so at least one half (hers) could find some semblance of happiness I don't think I ever will without her.