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We knew each other since were young kids around 5 years old, when she was 17 and i was 20 . We discovered our feelings for one another and took it from there . Things went well at first i would say perefectly . It might have been going fast but niether of us cared . Fast forward about 2 years later and were living together and i eventualy ask her to marty me after some hints from her that she was ready to move to another level . A few months after this things started going haywire we werw constantly fighting over unimportant and nagging details. She eventually said she need time and space and we started living seperatley on and off she would come back and we would make up , things would be good then we would fight . Know the things i have to admit are , i was clingy at the time and not thinking clearly.  I was also controlling yet had no dirwction of my own . I know real attractive right?anyways i overheard her talking to a friend one day about how she was talking to an old crush of hers and thought about him alot. I kept quiet though and planted a text tracker on her phone . A couple of weeks later i found several text between her and him planning to talk when i wasnt there, i confronted her and told her i knew . She responded with digust and hate that i would keep tabs on her . Even though i told her i felt there was no option , we could not agree and she admitted she didnt want to be together anymore . I accepted this and we went our ways. A few months later she is with said vrush and they have a kid about ayear later .  Know i messed up and didnt handle things well and neither did she and that we could learn from this in the futurw with other people. I just to know why it still hurts , why i still dream of her , why i still go through everyday thinking of her and what could have been . Why cant i move on?
<bot>: longtime friends turned partners , get engaged and then gf cheats and dumps him . Although they were both full of issues he still hurts alot even years later