<human>: Can you give me the gist of the text in a nutshell?

Hey Doctors of reddit.  I am pretty drunk right now, which I am sure is part of my fucked-up-ness.  I had a pretty deep conversation with my roommate today about myself.  I feel like I am over analytic about a lot of things, and I really can't let things go.  I can't let something hang in the air without it being completely clarified/explained or the joke is just over.

Another part of my psyche is afraid of success and what it might mean to succeed.  If I do "this" then I will have to do "that" which is slightly more difficult.

Also I have a real problem with girls.  I can't say that I am as bad with them as some here on reddit, because I have read some stories where I have been dumbfounded...but I really can't get over not being good enough.  I really don't care right now so I'll tell you about where I live...I live in Ithaca, NY.  Cornell University and Ithaca College girls...that is all I should have to say.  I have visited Seddit, and frankly I can't find something that works.  I just don't have the connections or money Cornell/IC girls expect.  I don't come from new or old money, like these Ivy League or Private college kids are used to so I always feel inferior, and I really can't get past that because how am I supposed to show them a good time on a date if I can't buy things that "Fraternity John" hasn't already done/bought...I know I sound like a real AFC right now, but it's reality.

Last night we went to a strip club.  It was enjoyable but I couldn't help but think about why I wasn't drinking...I think I might need some help in that department.  I like drinking more than actual socializing.  It scares me because alcoholism runs in my family, but I don't feel like I've reached alcoholic status yet.  I'm 21 and I go out to drink once maybe twice a month.  When I do I usually am pretty drunk, then I get home and drink whatever is left and sit and think/brood/wallow in whatever I'm feeling at the time...
<bot>: At 21 I feel like I have already failed at life...PM me, question me, and analyze my answers please.