<human>: Can you provide a brief rundown of the text in within 3 sentences?

I feel like this is gonna be suoer long so I'll try my best to keep it brief.. Basically I thought of myself as forever alone for ages and although I could attract guys it was always just sex, no-one wanted to commit. My last 'just sex' relationship went on for a year with a guy who was 20 years older and the sex was amazing and it felt like we really connected and I thought maybe I am actually capable of a normal relationship.

Anyway skip ahead a few months and I found out he had a gf. I stupidly got all my self worth from him and I slept with him one more time after finding this out. After that we would talk and flirt via phone convos but I dated and then became official with a really nice guy.

Its been a few months since I've spoke to 'the ex' but I dunno if I'm over him, I think about him all the time and my boyfriend is so lovely and kind but he just isn't the ex and it makes me feel like there is no longevity in our relationship and a part of me feels like if I could just be alone for a few months I could get my self together! 

What do you think?
<bot>: basically I keep thinking about my ex and I met my bf shortly after we broke up so I can't help thinking I didn't get enough time to mourn the relationship.