<human>: I'm so conflicted.

I haven't been doing so well with my own startup but as of lately, I've been taking much needed steps to fix that. And I was really making progress.

Then, because it seemed attractive and the boss was a good salesman (he sold the position to me), I accepted a job in my industry.

Thing is, I took it on a whim 3 weeks ago and I'm fucking *hating* it.

Disregarding me being far from friends, family and my long term girlfriend, the boss might be screwing me over. 

It's a small set up, but in this job, I'll be working on average around 40 hours a week and paid below the minimum wage. I've been told more than once that any sort of creative input I have to the job shouldn't happen, because it goes against what everyone else is doing in the job and that means, the client gets a different experience which means no congruency, which means I suck.

I told the boss 2 weeks ago I'd take the job but at the moment I'm covering for a friend right now who is recovering from surgery, so I'm stuck here until she gets back. 

When she is back, it'll be 4 of us and we'll be working more or less similar hours. I can't deal with this.

I feel like a failure for not wanting to stay barely a month in, and I feel like a prick for wanting to leave because if I do, it means less business for my boss. It's a small business as I said, so me leaving could hurt him.

Also me and the boss are both in a close knit group on FB for our industry and they were delighted I took the job in the first place. I'd HATE to know what they'd think if I left.

Also now that Christmas is coming up, they'll be getting extremely busy. Imagine if I left during then. Instant black book from everyone I know probably.

I'm actually crying over this, and I don't cry ever!!

Can you condense the text into three sentences or less?
<bot>: On a whim I took a job 3 weeks ago after my own business was just starting to pick up. Absolutely miserable with it, and am so conflicted.