<human>: Can you summarize the given text in a few sentences?

I have been with my fiancé for the last two years and they've been the happiest of my life. He kind of swooped in and saved me from my apathy and rather large baggage. He's repaired me in ways that I didn't know were broken. I never once doubted our relationship. Then, we got engaged about 4 months ago. Ever since the engagement I've been having extreme cold feet. 50% I'd know without a shadow of a doubt that he was the love of my life and that I'm beyond lucky to have him and 50% of the time I want to break up and do all these fun and single things. I'm also rather low on cash. Good enough to make it (and if I didn't my fiancé would help cover it. We live together), but just barely. I looked into cam modeling quite a few times and would love to try it. I talked to my fiancé about it and he said he was fine with it (in a way that suggested that he wasn't) and after prodding him, he admitted he wasn't too sure of it (he's decently jealous-- not extreme though). I waited on it awhile and then finally applied to a non nude cam modeling agency. 
That was last night. I didn't tell him. After feeling completely sick of guilt today, I told him. He just left for work. He kissed my forehead instead of my lips and avoided eye contact. 
I don't want to break up with him. I love him so terribly much. I'm shaky on whether we will actually get married or not. Which is why I hesitated to tell him. I don't want him telling everyone I know because we break up. 
I could always just not do it, but I really have no moral objections for it and think I could do well (when responding to my application, the president sent the email himself and gave me his cell phone number to text him-- I don't know if that's regular, but he said it wasn't. Who knows though)
<bot>: I told my fiancé I want to try non nude cam modeling and he was not happy about it. Any personal experiences, advice, or opinions?