<human>: 22 F. Last spring I broke up with my first boyfriend (2 years) based on not being able to trust him, and major ups and downs almost our entire relationship. I had also met someone else who I was fully able to trust and enjoyed being with. We dated for almost 8 months and it was great because there were major ups but no major downs. We ended up doing long distance for 3 of those months and it caused a lot of communication issues as well as just drifting apart, to the point where I don't really feel anything now that it's over, except maybe relief. Something I never fully realized throughout the relationship was that I wasn't sexually satisfied. He was more physically attractive than my previous boyfriend and their size was almost exactly the same, creepily enough. But there was something missing that my previous boyfriend had... and now that I've become interested in someone else, I'm already terrified that I won't ever be sexually satisfied because my ex set the bar so high. I mean honestly, my first boyfriend turned me on constantly and did everything right. After him, my next boyfriend trying to dirty talk just made me cringe sometimes and sex was enjoyable but just not... as wonderful of an experience as I'd had before, never short of amazing. I'm scared because my sex life fizzled with someone who is extremely attractive and we did have a connection, and now the guy I'm interested in... while I've had a crush on him for some time and really like him as a person, I'm not sure I'm sexually attracted to him. How do I ever get over what I had with my first boyfriend? I feel like he ruined me.

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<bot>: First boyfriend was amazing sexually and our chemistry was amazing, afraid I'll never have that again based on the next relationship fizzling sexually.