<human>: Can you give me a shortened version of the text?

My weight fluctuated greatly when I was changing medication. I lost a lot of weight, and I didn't do it the healthiest way possible. People just constantly complimented me with the changes I went through. I starved and received attention. I took adderall and things to help. I see this before and after and I see me destroying myself and everyone else sees something positive. I did go to the gym regularly. The process I went through to lose weight felt like a disease and I constantly feel this expectation to infect myself with it to improve my image.

I started weightlifting with someone I like, and I'm getting into a good routine again. We even began meal prepping and tracking our macros and such. However, he wants to take before and after pictures now, as well as regularly weighing ourselves to tune in our calorie intake to stay on track. I do think these are all positive things but I also feel that disease creeping in and I don't want to view myself today as some shitty version of myself that needs to be fixed. I want to feel good about who I am, and I'm not sure how to consolidate that with wanting to change and what I've done in the past.
<bot>: Dieting and working out, don't want to view myself negatively now and think I need to fix myself. Hard to stay motivated with that mindset.