<human>: I've had issues with addiction, anger and depression since I was very little. I have a very predicable pattern in that I go to counseling, get on meds and then after a few months I convince myself I'm "better" and stop therapy and meds and then a few months later have an "episode."

I had been good since meeting my boyfriend Tom about four years ago but about at xmas I convinced myself that I no longer needed my meds and went off them. Fast forward to last week and Tom stayed out way later with his buddies than he said he would. I could see on findmyfriends that he was at a friend's apartment he agreed he wouldn't hang out at (Toms ex crashes there quite a bit) and he was not answering my calls or texts. When he got home 7 hours late I came unglued with yelling and he was mostly ignoring me. When he told me to "chill babe" I freaked out and started hitting with everything I could find in the room. He ended up with a huge gash over his eye that required stitches.

Of course I apologized and apologized and apologized and took him to the ER where he told the staff and the sheriffs deputy who showed up that he'd had a with a friend and was not going to press charges or cooperate in any way. We got out of there and his reaction since has been basically "let's smoke a J and chill." Whenever I try to bring up that we need counseling or I need to make it up to him it's litterally "smoke a J and chill." To him what happened is no big deal but I know it's a HUGE deal.

As for me I've made my appointments to her back on my meds and back into counseling but Tom is not at all interested in this saying I just need to smoke out more and it will all fix itself. I love Tom to death but with my history I know this isn't true. How can I communicate this to him?

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<bot>: I hit my boyfriend in anger last week. He's not talking this seriously and it scares me and need help talking to him.