<human>: Can you condense the text into three sentences or less?

I posted in December about my ex who went from apparently loving me to erasing me from her life within a week and not speaking to me again, well now I feel like I don't want to try and fix anything or try to be friends, but I feel guilty, why is this? (I got our ages wrong when I made that post too, oops!)

She hasn't been in my life for a little while now, I know deep down it's not repairable, what I want sometimes is a time machine to go back to when it was good because in reality I know even I couldn't stomach being with her again knowing she can change her mind so recklessly, but these feels continue to nag me.

Has anybody else felt similar? I feel quite spineless because she deleted me and blocked me on everything within an hour of dumping me, so why the hell should I be the one feeling guilty for just moving on, I guess emotions don't like to follow logic very often.

We sort of cleared the air and we had an 'okay' goodbye recently which gave me closure, I think this is the last step to really getting over things.

I get stuck in the past too often. I used to have bad skin which distorted my confidence and self worth, the confidence is coming back day by day but I can't deny that it makes me feel negative about meeting other partners in the future. Wait, I just realised my ex was with me when my skin was at its worst, why am I worried about other girls when acne is totally gone now? I'm so stupid.
<bot>: I want to move on but I feel guilty for it despite knowing she doesn't even want to be together or friends, and that I don't truly want it either.