<human>: Could you distill the essence of the text into 1-3 sentences?

Hello all. 

The break up is obviously a little hard for me. I have conflicting feelings about everything. Some days I know I did the right thing, some days I feel like I should have stayed with him. Then, out of nowhere there is a little part inside of me that is like a wild animal. I've been wanting to drink and...not to be graphic or anything, but I've had...a lot of sexual tension lately...and something inside me just wants to bust out and go crazy.

I'm not like that at all, for starters. Only been with my ex and gave him all my firsts. I'm quiet, I'm shy, I'm very awkward. Not a nun in training or anything, but I cherish my body and love the thought of giving it to a unselfish guy that will love me unconditionally for the rest of my life (im a bit of hopeless romantic). Thing is, I don't think i am going to find that guy so quickly. lol Would it be wrong of me to mess around or at least find a trustworthy friends with benefits partner, when it isn't something I would ordinarily do? I'm just a little confused about this and would like to know some of your experiences.
<bot>: Broke up with selfish boyfriend of 7 years, feeling horny and craving alcohol. Would it be wrong to indulge in these urges? Is this normal? What should I do? Would like advice/experiences.