<human>: We were friends for 3yrs before he told me how much he liked me AFTER I moved out of state.. We tried long distance for a while, but when I was supposed to go meet him, he back out and dropped all communication with me days before the trip. I later found out he was back with his ex ( that just broke up with one of his friends).

I was truly in love with him and he claimed to feel the same (we were talking about moving in together this year, marriage, kids, etc.), but he chickened out at possibly the most important part of our relationship and it broke my heart.

So it's been 8 months and I'm over the emotional pain and haven't thought about him since, but today I was just sitting on my couch and was struck with this wave of arousal for him. Nothing triggered this, no pics, no smells.. But now I feel sick and angry at myself.

I haven't felt true arousal for anyone since him and I hate that I'm even considering having sex with him when I visit for a holiday. A part of me thinks it's okay because I'm emotionally numb and there is no second chance for a relationship, like a "get it out of my system" kind of thought.

I won't be looking for him, but he'll know I'm there since we have mutual friends.

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<bot>: Broke up, but got hit with the feels. Is it a good idea to do "one last hurrah"?