<human>: Hi /r/relationships. 

I'm a 21 year old female. I work 9 - 5:30 in a job I love, earning myself a decent enough wage for my age to both spend and save money. I am a regular gym user, with a love for outdoor sports. I am open minded, honest, kind and wear my heart on my sleeve. I am otherwise very happy and healthy with my life with everything...

...apart from men.

When I was 18 I was finally diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder and with this diagnosis was able to seek the appropriate treatment. I am now free of medication, hospital care and am somewhat free of any mental issues. The only place that my illness truly grips my life is in relationships. I have an ugly view of men, relationships and what a healthy relationship is. I am unable to call quits on a loved one despite how damaging the situation gets and often will self destruct rather than confront the individual. I have a fixation with sex and lately have discovered that I would be likely to sleep with anyone if it meant affection and this has terrified me. 

I am reaching a make or break point in my life. I clearly depend on others for my own happiness and I want this to change, but with all other areas of my life already on an up, I'm stuck for what to do. I'm forever told 'just take care of yourself', 'love yourself' and/or 'remove bad people from your life' but I would argue I already do these things.
I'm aware I'm not bad looking. I'm aware I have a decent personality. I'm aware of the circle of men that surround me, interested. Yet I am so drawn to and fixated to an unhealthy relationship that even if I walk away from one, I only stumble right into another.

I'm really at a loss here. I'm not sure what advice I expect, perhaps just a murmur of 'I've been there, don't worry'. 

I don't know how to end this.

Can you succinctly summarize the text in 1-3 sentences?
<bot>: I'm a silly 21 year old girl who can't seem to choose what's good for her even when it's infront of her.