<human>: We lost our virginity together and this is both of our first real relationships. We have went on dates/kissed other people before we got together but this is our first real long term.

Everything was so great in the beginning. But, after our first year anniversary things went to poop. I suspected something was going on. But he only called me stupid and crazy for thinking so. Just a couple of weeks ago, I found out the truth. 

There was something going on. The girl(s) were in other states. He was talking to them like they were better than me. Saying things to them that he hadn't said to me in months. I confronted him about my findings and he begged me to stay with him. He told me I was everything to him and he cried.

So I'm still with him. We were also in a long-distance relationship for 6 months last summer so he could be with he family.(This was after he emotionally cheated on me) Those months in which he mostly got mad at me and fought with me. He broke all the promises he ever said he would keep.

Now things are okay. They were really great until my pets all died a month from each other. Right after they died is when I discovered what was actually happening a year ago. I just don't know what to do. I want him to tell me sweet things constantly, not just when I am upset. I feel like he only feels bad for me and is afraid to leave me because he won't know what to do. He hasn't even tried to break up with me....it is always me trying to go on a break.

It is great to act like friends together, but sometimes, that is all I feel I am to him. He will have spurts where he will talk about getting married and moving in together..but then other days he acts like a dick. We have a great sex life so there is no problems there.

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<bot>: My bf has lied. He was horrible to me last year. Idk what to do. Is our relationship dying or is it just fixing up from last year?