<human>: Cross-post from /r/ihaveissues, sorry if this isn't the correct category to submit. 

I'm a 16 year old female. I recently broke up with my boyfriend of three months and have gotten over that well enough. But the reason we broke up was mainly my fault; as soon as I get close to someone I push them away and become disgusted when they touch me. I have issues with intimacy, however, I can be very affectionate in the beginning of the relationship. It just deteriorates at some point. I realize that this may be because of the abuse I experienced as a child. But the main problem here is that I have feelings for someone right now and I think that this will lead to an eventual relationship. I just don't know how I'm supposed to function in a normal, long term relationship. How do I get past my feelings of fear when it comes to affection? Or rather, how do I prevent this from happening in the first place? I'm sorry if this is a weird question.

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<bot>: Fear of affection lead to a recent breakup, but I have feelings for a great guy now. How do I stop myself from messing up another relationship?