<human>: Could you distill the essence of the text into 1-3 sentences?

She has seen pictures of me, including pictures of me naked (I have a tattoo, so she knows it's actually me), but I censor my face. I was burned in an accident when I was a child and the top-left section of my face (almost half) is disfigured. I used to think I looked kind of cool in a way, probably just as a way to cope with this, but it's still bad enough that people stare and make comments or ask personal questions. It COULD be much worse and I should consider myself lucky though.

I have been with my long-distance girlfriend for a year. She knows I'm disfigured and doesn't care but seems to think it's the same as her being overweight and me not knowing what her body looks like (she only sends face pictures because she's self-conscious). It's not at all the same thing to me and I'm terrified that she's going to leave me when she gets here.

I would send her a picture so she has fair warning but I think that at this point she will come anyway because it would be awkward to cancel her flight. I really love this woman and feel like I've waited way, way too long and that it's going to bite me in the ass. 

To make matters worse I always tell her it's "not that bad," and maybe it's not but she might think it is.

What should I do?
<bot>: I'm fucked up and my long-distance girlfriend (who's coming to visit me) has no idea how bad it is because I'm a coward who won't send her a picture.