<human>: Throwaway, because I know my brother in laws (M24 and M27) are on reddit. 

So, to summarize it all, I just don't feel that close to my family. I'm 20, in college, and home for maybe 4 months out of the year. This has been going on for years though, since I was 16. I never felt close, connected, bonded, etc. I'm on an edgy relationship with my mother (49 F), as in we don't really have deep conversations because it ends up with us fighting. I don't really have much with my father (49M) just because we don't see eye to eye. Both my sisters (24F and 30F) are married, and moved out.

I don't know what to do or really how to feel. I don't feel like a son, more like a long-term guest. I know that they love me, and I love them but I honestly feel that if I moved away to some foreign land for years, never had contact, I'd be fine. I never got close with anyone in my family, immediate or extended. I'm close with my friends from school, more so than I ever could imagine being with my family. I don't know what to think.

I feel like I'm missing out of something everyone raves about.

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<bot>: I 20M have almost no connection with my family, and unsure of how to feel about it. Any help or advice is appreciated.