<human>: Hello fellow Redditors,
Throwaway because I know he reddits, anyway I have known a friend of mine since we were about 9 years old. We have always gotten along with no issue, we reconnected more so in college about 5 years ago. Even when we lost contact for a few years here and there it didn't affect us we just always got along. We started hanging out more and more during that time. Naturally, I fell in love with him. He's always there when I need someone to talk to, always willing to help out when he can, and we can finish each others sentences. If I make a joke he instantly gets it and will play along and we do so well together. There is only two problems here. He is germophobic which puts a damper on him ever kissing someone, which honestly I don't think I'd mind and he's improved much since school to the point where I feel he could get over it some day, even if it's years from now. I poured my heart out to him one evening. Told him everything I felt, how much I cared about him and felt we'd be amazing together. He did mention to me that he is asexual, never had interest in girls, or men, but he was neutral and happy as he is. He did consider it but after a few days told me no. I accepted this and we were fine remaining friends. We still hang out, I have been in 2 relationships since then and have been doing well. In the back of my mind though when I see him I always wonder 'what if?' I want to stop having feelings for him and I don't know if anyone has any tips. It's hard..because I don't think I could function without him being a friend, and I'm lucky I didn't screw things up when I poured my heart out to him. I just need to know how to get my mind off wondering if he'd ever change  his mind because I feel like he is the one even though it's impossible. ....stupid scumbag brain huh?

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<bot>: I'm in love with my asexual friend and need help to find out how to start getting rid of the feelings.