<human>: Can you give me a shortened version of the text?

As our wedding date approaches I'm getting severe cold feet. I'm the type of woman who thought I'd **never**, ever be married. I never thought the happy wife was a role I would play in life. To be honest, through my depression and mental and physical abuse growing up, I never thought I deserved anyone as loving and kind as my partner. I thought I would be too broken. And now it's feeling like a self fulfilling prophecy.

My betrothed is an awesome, loving, caring, kind, generous and gentle man. He is the perfect man for me (which is not to say he is perfect) and I love him a lot. But there's a feeling inside of me that our relationship is missing something. This feeling only started as the wedding preparations got underway. I think I'm trying to sabotage my "happily everafter" by reaching for things that will never happen and if they were to happen I still won't be happy. I would label this missing thing as "passion" but I'm not sure. We were so comfortable with each other from the beginning that we missed that dangerous passionate feeling at the beginning of our relationship. There was no "chase", we were just two missing pieces coming together. I think people would kill for how natural our lives melded...but here I am wondering if the grass is greener on the other side.

How do I deal with these feelings and thoughts?

I've already talked to him about my cold feet. I've been explicit in saying it's not about him or my love for him. He was understanding and has offered to hold off on the wedding. I don't want to do that because I know the problems are all in my head.

I feel so silly. I should be happy and here I am feeling miserable and probably bringing him down too. What do I do? :(
<bot>: I'm getting cold feet, I think it's all in my head, how do I deal with it without bringing my partner down?