<human>: We began by talking to each other using Tinder. I didn't know what I was looking for, I guess I was just sad and lonely. He asked for a date after about 3 days of talking, and I was super excited about it. Generally I am the one who has to be forward in online dating as no one pursues me. Let's fast forward to how things have been going.

So texting each other has been a guessing game for me. When do I text, how much is too much, should we alternate who texts first, should I not text conversation questions? I've kept it in check and text about once a day, even though what I want to do is just chat randomly all day. I'm telling myself guys don't like that.

I'm actively avoiding sexual acts, in an attempt to prolong his interest and know if this'll not be a one time thing. We make out and tease each other, like horny teenagers I guess, and it's just as hard for me to stop as it is for him to make sure it doesn't go to far for my sake. He's been mature, doesn't pressure or beg, and it's really kept my confidence up. But am I bad for doing this for my own reasons? Will it infact make him avoid me because I always leave him sexually frustrated? I screw up all the time with sex because I'm eager to have it and it becomes a defining characteristic of my personality taking priority over what I want to be important. I havn't had sex with a real boyfriend in 5 years, and I really want to be cared for in that way.

You see, I am scared too fall on old habits that have constantly left me unfulfilled and alone. My "normal" is seeing and talking to the guy all the time as that makes me happy. But I hate to be distant because of that.

Can you condense the text into three sentences or less?
<bot>: I don't want to be labeled a clingy crazy bitch. I don't want to mess up this good thing I got going. It's a building block to being normal.