<human>: Can you succinctly summarize the text in 1-3 sentences?

Hey guys, a few weeks ago I posted about my BF and I having some trouble,
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Now I am trying to get to a GP to figure out what the hell is wrong with me but I couldn't get into contact with him two days ago when I really wanted to tell him some things to feel better. I have resumed my bad habits because they make me feel better even knowing they don't help longterm. 

We went on a mall date on Monday and I had so much fun, got some new shoes and a hat.

He says he feels responsible for my utter brain shutdown last Friday; lately I have had this epic feeling of dread at all times and I can't breathe or think or anything and it is awful.

Last night I told him about me cutting again, he says he isn't surprised but I was really pissed off and texted him some stuff. I told him because I trust him, and I want to be with him. So after revealing what a clusterfuck my brain has been I invite him over and he decided to play the new Wii with his buds, saying they asked at two. Am I shitty for thinking "but I tried getting into contact with you two days ago to tell you?" 

I really, really like him you know?
<bot>: Boyfriend feels responsible for ditching me frequently but then always disappears or his phone dies. should I shut my mouth until doctor's visit or what?