<human>: The first paragraph will be used to explain who I am, who this person is and what they mean to me. I will mention some sexual references, be aware.

I am bamintheram, 19 years old, and I consider myself bisexual. However, I am particularly particular with my type of guy. Usually petite and overall a cute appearance. I'm in my current relationship with my girlfriend for the past 2 years but she does not know I am bi. Grant Howe has been my friend since grade 10 and I always fancied him. He always seemed to like me because he was very touchy with me, and loves to get right in my face. Grant Howe is known to be a womanizer; he has yet to have a sustaining relationship. Because of this, I always thought he swung for both sides. In addition, he is very private. He even deletes all of his text messages. He is funny, adorable, athletic; i.e. he fits my bill. It wasn't until recently that I really took a liking to him. I started to notice small things about him that I really started to enjoy. I noticed his eyes, his nose, even his legs. I will admit that I pleasured myself to his image plenty of times in that last six months. 

I have considered bringing him up to my girlfriend or even discussing it with him, but I was too afraid. Recently, he broke up with his first girlfriend (that lasted one week). I wanted to support him and get him to open up to me. I wanted him to trust me. He shot me down. He told me not to get offended and to realize that he has been burned in the past. I wanted to tell him then and there that I loved him but I can't bring myself to do it. I don't want him to reject me, I don't want him to be uncomfortable, I don't want him to feel awkward in our group hangout. I can't stop thinking about him. I am hurting on the inside.

In essence, I want to know what can be done. I want to just squeeze him and call him mine. I want him to share his past with me. I want him.

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<bot>: I fell in love with my long-time friend, and I want to tell him. How do I do it?