<human>: Background: met overseas, got involved in casual relationship, fell in love got married. Ignored signs of PTSD, alcohol abuse because of the butterflies etc... Three years later, after the first few having verbal/physical abuse (usually alcohol related), and after a somewhat open marriage (based on his "rules"), two deployments and almost a divorce...I just don't really like him anymore. He wants some form of sex almost everyday. Threatens (jokingly) to get a girlfriend. 

I am not perfect, obviously. When I was gone, I hid things from him because I didn't think his "rules" regarding sex with other men were fair. He would make me send pictures (which he now holds as blackmail tools) throughout the entire event, which really ruined it for me. Got mad when sex lasted longer with other men (because it was new and exciting), and still holds it against me. But eventually he knew the whole truth. And he ALWAYS tried to get me back for it, in some form or fashion.

The whole event really turned me off to him. I still love him, but don't like him. He is still manipulative and somewhat verbally abusive. He is a good dad to our kid, but does not really help around the house. He said he supported me continuing education (while still military full time), but then turns around and berates me for abandoning my family to do homework at night. He's a trigger to my newfound anxiety from Afghanistan. He says he's open to counseling, but I think he'd just placate for a short time.  

I'm not happy but I don't know at what point getting out for my personal happiness is more important than my child having a dad around. He's upset that I don't want sex as often as I used to, but after a baby, a deployment, new birth control, and the "newness" wearing off...I just don't know. Spicing things up isn't really an option, because we've both been there done that...and now I have issues with it.

Can you give me a shortened version of the text?
<bot>: Military couple, dabbled in open marriage, some abusive tendencies, I don't like sex with him anymore, and I kind of just don't even like him, but love him. What do I even do?