<human>: Can you summarize the given text in a few sentences?

I've been complaining about being dumped for a fair amount of time now. I've been allowing bread crumbs to rule my life.

She was abusive to me. Hit me, stabbed me twice, and was overall controlling and rude to me. 

My actions post being dumped are definitely obsessive. I was obsessed with what she was doing and that she was moving on so quickly. I broke no contact occasionally, as recently as today. She would basically give me 5 seconds of hope just to pull the rug out from under me.

I need to get in control of my life. I can't live this way. I just don't know how to get her off my mind. No matter what activity I think of her. My mind can not escape the want to get back with her. First love and all that bullshit. I know I'm holding on to something broken but it's like fuck man I love her.
<bot>: Recognize that I've been obsessed with my abusive ex who dumped me. I accept it was a bad relationship but I don't know how to stop holding on to the relationship.