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He's a junior, I'm a sophomore. Let's call him Evan. Evan and I are on cross-country together, and have been casual friends through my brother who has been his best friend since they were 9. 

Evan and I have gotten closer this past year because of cross-country, and the more time I spend with him the more I realize how much I like him. I have for a while (2ish years) but I sort of tried to ignore it and focus on other guys.

I dated this guy in my grade for a couple months, and then I was dating another guy in their grade for almost a year. Part of the reason I broke up with my second boyfriend was because I realized that I had feelings for Evan and I felt guilty for thinking about this guy that wasn't my boyfriend.

On top of all that, Evan practically lives at our house. He lives with his mom and she's got issues so he's at our house pretty much all the time. Pretty much every weekend and he will come over most days after school and usually spend the night. He doesn't actually live here but he might as well. My parents understand about his mom and are cool with it.

But it makes it way worse because I have to see Evan all the time and I can't just pretend like he doesn't exist. And he's seen me looking totally horrible in the morning and stuff.

I don't know if he likes me or not, I used to be sure he didn't like me but he's been friendlier lately but he could also have just been friendly to me. I felt like Evan didn't like my boyfriend but I'm not sure if that was jealousy or just a pseudo-overprotective brother thing since my brother didn't like my BF much either. I definitely feel like he's taken more interest in me but that doesn't have to mean anything other than him just being nice to me.

But I can't escape my massive crush on him.
<bot>: I cannot stop thinking about my brother's best friend, despite two relationships to try to move on. But we spend so much time together that I'm terrified of making things weird.