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I'll keep this short, I was with a girl for 7 years or so, much stuff happened with her family, I had a lot of anger and issues to deal with (she had ended the relationship 5 or 6 times in this period, directly due to her nutcase father, nonetheless each heartbreak took more of a toll). Eventually, I simply had a want to escape, I still loved her (at least, I thought I did) but was suffocating. I ended the relationship. What followed was not my finest hour, as people do in a breakup - words were exchanged and then, with my first taste of freedom and opportunity, I (stupidly) started a relationship with someone new whilst in the rebound, confused, and following the guidance of my peers and father -- not to blame them, but more neutral advice would've helped with the scrambled eggs which were my brain.

When I told my ex that I was in a new relationship, I saw her heartbreak in her facial expression. So did mine, I knew that this was wrong, but couldn't work out why -- put it down to nostalgia.

Fast forward to today, I am working abroad, due to return home around September, new gf is coming to visit me but I do not want her to, no feelings of love have developed and I am going to use the opportunity to end the relationship as nicely as I can. Conversely, the break I needed from my ex has served its purpose, the anger and frustration have both gone and all I remember is this fantastically beautiful, intelligent, talented soulmate whom I miss dearly.

When we broke up, she said she would always love me whilst in tears, I was her only boyfriend and we shared experiences which the vast majority do not. I know what I have for her in my heart is genuine and true - I have hurt her by dismissing her feelings so frivolously and jumping in with another woman, but how do I beg forgiveness for my stupidity and once again have the woman of my dreams? I should have married this girl when she was asking, now I want to more than ever. Why is it I can forgive a multitude of heartbreak that she bestowed unto me but she cannot do the same? Your advice could change the direction of my life.
<bot>: Broke up with awesome ex due to bad relationship circumstances, got new gf within 3 months, ex hate(s/d) me for it, woke up, realised issues -- want to win ex back.