<human>: In before "emo kid/ grow up/ stop being a drama queen" I assure you in the next paragraph I will convince you I am not so.  
  
I have had a wild adventure with relationships in the past, ones that make me think the endeavour is not worth it. My first serious relationship was when I was 17. We were quite fond of one another, but she was soon diagnosed with an incurable genetic disease that caused her to die months later. I never left her side and was with her until the end, it definitely affected me, and since then ive felt detached from every relationship ive been in.  
  
Relationships since then have included bulimic emotionally unstable women that despite my support, refused to seek help, and women that got seduced by my so called friends.  
  
Despite personal issues my exes have faced, that does not deter me as I believe everyone has issues and support and care can help them through tough spots. Unfortunately, since nearly all of my relationships have ended in tragedy, I have become completely distant from the whole affair.  
Im beginning to question if I will ever find someone.  
  
What do I do reddit?

Could you distill the essence of the text into 1-3 sentences?
<bot>: past relationships include incurable diseases/cheating/self harm that have left me heartbroken, will I ever find someone?