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Hey Reddit, 
I (18 M) wish my first Post would be about an other (any other than this!) topic, but I have to write about this, because I need your help/advice:
Just some hours ago I broke up with my first love ( we were just about 2 months in a relationship and I still was in that I-Love-You-More-Than-I-Can-Describe feeling, because she was kind of my first big love), because she told me that she did love me but felt like more she should just be a friend.
Now I'm in a mix of feelings: on the one hand I'm very sad and feel like I should cry, but my body Holds back the tears and on the other hand I'm some kind of angry and depressed because I think she only faked the love.
I cant cry, neither I feel like reproach her. 
What can I do to clear my mind and my feelings?
Im like in a constant status of confusion.

I'm sorry for language mistakes, since german is my native language.
<bot>: Broke up with my first love, dont know how to feel, because breaking up in tears or Feeling angry wont work