<human>: Me F28 married to husband M30 for almost 4 years and have one child together.

This is more of a "me" issue than a relationship issue, so I apologize if this is the wrong subreddit. I love my husband. I love my family. You know how people say to wait until your 30 to get married because of the many changes that people go through before then? Well, I should have listened. I have gone through a ton of personal growth and realization in the last few years and I cannot help but know that had I only waited a year longer, I would have never married him or any other man. Marriage is just not for me. My ideal relationship is friends with benefits, or even an open relationship. I am constantly, and I mean constantly thinking about and wanting to be with other men. I don't want to cheat on my husband, but I don't want to spend the rest of my life wanting to either.

We have discussed these things over and over again, and while he is open to me finding another woman, he is very opposed to men in the same role. I love sex and I love men and I that is the life I want to live. He is not going to change and neither am I, so realistically, is this over?

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<bot>: Married too young and now realize I don't want to ever be married or in a relationship again. Husband is great and I love him, but I don't want to cheat and that's where this is leading me.