<human>: So im the kinda girl where i like to play a gane first on my own to get the hang of it before i try it with anyone else. I dont mind trying new foods unless it just smells or looks horrible. I just dont like being put on the spot... 

Im currently on vacation with my bf (of 7 months) to meet his family for the first time. His family has a thing where they love scrabble and he doesnt understand that it would be highly uncomfortable for me to join all of them without knowing them all first. I consider is to be a form of performance anxiety. I just would rather sit and watch and join the conversation them be a participant. He wants me to play games with his brother (18m), but idk him. So i cant just do that. Ik its a lil dumb, but its just the way i am. Im willing to try new things on my time. One day i hope to skydive and i want to get married, im not a recluse. I just dont like attention in a moment where i feel awkward. 

Ex: he was teaching me how to play yugioh. I was still trying to learn my card and understand the rules when he wanted to play with me. I kept telling him i wasnt ready but he insisted. So i agreed. Bad idea. I ended up in tears. He crushed me and i had nooooo idea what i was doing or even what combos to use or what my cards even did.  Which is something that touches a nerve. I dont like being incompetent in front of people. 

He cant seem to support me. He says im letting my fear control my life. Basically that im being dumb. I just want him to understand that its not a fear, its that id rather be bored and not participate then be uncomfortable and will most likely make a fool of myself. ... (when im nervous i get tongue tied and sound rediculous).. 

How can i explain this to him to make him understand? Or do you think i should buck up and just do things anyways?

Can you condense the text into three sentences or less?
<bot>: I feel uncomfortable doing things around people idk and or trying new things infront of people and my bf wont understand. =(