<human>: Can you summarize the given text in a few sentences?

I don't mean to direct people to another thread, but this gives a lot of context to my current situation

I want to stop shutting people out of my life, ironically if I grow the courage to try to reach out to my former friend I don't want to include her in any of my personally problems that may have caused this problem in the first place. What I forgot to mention in that other post is she technically ended our friendship once because of a similar break down that I had, sometime in April/May. I was able to patch things up later.

The only thing is now I don't know what to do. Another close friend of mine literally told me "I don't see what the problem is. She technically ended it once, now even though you might have said something you didn't mean, you ended it. You two are even, now. Get over it."

The slight hypocrisy behind this is he fucked up his relationship with his SO of two years and he didn't just "get over it" even though he was acting like he was just going to go about his business since things weren't working out. They've got back together not even 2 weeks after the break-up

I'm just confused now. The whole reason I never opened up about the type of situation that I had going on in my other thread to my other friends was because I *knew* they would give me advice like that, and it made me feel like they didn't care.

I felt like due to my grief and other things over the past years I've been making more selfish decisions than I had realized, trying to make things better for myself, but I made a lot of mistakes. But now I've lost a close friend and I don't feel like my other close friends around me can't understand what I'm thinking or feeling. I feel incredibly isolated and I don't know what to do anymore. I've been going through this for almost a year now and I just want it to stop. I just feel so weak now... I never feel like I have anyone to talk to anymore. 

I'm sorry for my ramblings but I can't keep all of this contained anymore... it hurts too much and I have no outlet...
<bot>: Confused, sad, feeling isolated. Feel like friends don't understand or care. Feels like my life has been spiraling out of control, don't know how to stop it...