<human>: My wife (34f) and I (32m)have been married for several years (9+)and have an only child who's in the early elementary school. Our marriage has been through emotional cheating (both of us) and physical (wife) and figured out ways to make it through. We've been through Counciling and succeeded to break some ground. 

At this point in our relationship things are rough again.  We don't talk, our finances are in ruins, our sex life is rare and boring. I feel like we've tried everything and nothing works long term. 

She suffers from bipolar with depression and I've struggled with depression and mixed other things my whole life as well. Our son is smart but as most only children are is socially stunted and quick with anger. 

I spoke to her recently about ending things and she was floored asking how could I want to break up the family to who are you leaving me for. She went from nasty to angry to calm anyone who's dealt with someone who has bipolar should know how hard it is. She takes her mess but that only mitigates the issue. 

I don't know what to do. She wants me to check with my doctor to see if I'm stable and try counciling again. I don't see a point to trying and wasting our time and energy. Seeing her breakdown was hard and she forced me to tell her I don't love her as a way of getting me to not leave. She has no job, sick constantly and I take care of all our finances and work to keep us barely afloat.  

I felt terrible as she tried to explain how I was breaking her heart, how she still loves me, doesn't understand where this is coming from, and generally thinks things have been good. 

I'm hoping someone can help me see if I can truly try and do this again or need to throw in the towel and fly solo. I have mixed emotions especially after our talk. 

I did eventually tell her I loved her as a friend but no longer how I once did. I used to be madly in love with this girl but the years have not been kind to either of us.

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<bot>: I'm married and want to end things but my wife wants me to try again. I'm not sure I have it in me to try again.