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Hey I'm a 19 yr F who just went through my first breakup with my first ever bf who I was with for many years. We broke up because quite simply I wasn't ready for sex yet. I don't know why but I never felt the spark that said I was ready for this with him, I don't blame him for leaving at all, I'll do it when I'm ready and not before them. We were just very different people. He made me feel my position was a handicap and there are 0 guys out there that would accept me, is that true? How do i even begin to start again and how do I find a good one? and ultra religious is cheating. I'm super athletic and love learning and I'm one of those people that's up for anything.
<bot>: Out of first ever relationship (mny yrs) because wsn't ready for sex, understand why broke up but don't know how to start over, feel handicapped