<human>: C & I were together for 1.5 years, we were off & on a couple times, then I broke up with him, dated someone else for another 1.5 years, got back to talking to C & now we've been together for another 7 months. 

We're in college. We were sort of having problems getting back to reality after the winter break, so I gave him some space & went home for a weekend, he got wasted & got a blowjob from a random girl. I didn't find out for a week until my best girlfriend up here told me.

I've forgiven him, just working on trying to forget. But we had sex last Friday night which was NOT a good idea, since then he says he's not "in love" with me because he feels so guilty all the time & doesn't want me around, & doesnt know what he wants. But he hopes we can get through this & he wants to keep trying. 

He doesn't kiss me. & I feel like shit. & I've been raised in a Mormon household where it's ingrained in me to always be looking at marriage potential. I love him so much. & I feel like shit about myself for feeling so needy. I think I'm going to wait 2 weeks to see if there's any improvement & leave him if not.

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<bot>: boyfriend cheated while drunk, I believe it was really a one-time mistake but now he says he doesn't know what he wants & he loves but isn't "in love" with me. Should I try giving it time?