<human>: Summarize the given text in a few sentences.

I completely and utterly respect that she isn't ready for sex. It's her body and I don't want to pressure her. 

However, I am ready for sex, and while I'm not frustrated on an intellectual level, I certainly am on a hormonal level. 

She's a very smart girl, and I don't want to lose her just because we are at different stages sexually.

I have a friend who I engaged in casual sex with before this started. I was wondering what the go is with that. Can I see her to tie myself over till my girlfriend is ready?  

The fact that I wouldn't be comfortable telling either of them I am seeing the other is a big hint for me not to do it. 

However, I am starting to watch pornography which I really feel uncomfortable about, but I need an outlet,  and I seem to be losing a grip on things a little bit, because her not wanting to have sex is a little damaging for my self esteem. She doesn't have any religious or moral reasons to not have sex she simply just doesn't want to yet. 

What should I do?
<bot>: Casual sex with someone I'm not that into, or wait for the girl I am into at the expense of my sanity.