<human>: Give me the gist of the text in a nutshell

(Not too sure if this is the right place for this thread. Sorry in advance if it isn't.)

I love buying gifts for my boyfriend. Gifts for holidays and just random "thinking of you" gifts. I love to see his face light up.

For some reason, I freak out when he buys me gifts. He likes to give me nice gifts and everytime he tries to surprise me with them, I freak out and ruin everything.

I don't know why I do this. I want gifts. When he shows me the gifts, I feel so happy and excited on the inside. I don't know why I freak out, but I always end up saying things like "take it back" or "I can't accept this".

For example, a few hours ago he tried to surprise me with Backstreet Boys tickets. On the inside I was so fucking excited. But when I responded to his message, I completely ruined everything. I told him I didn't want to go and that I couldn't accept it because I would feel horrible. It led to a huge argument which is still going on right now.

What's wrong with me? Why can't I accept gifts from him? Gifts that I actually want?
<bot>: I can't accept gifts from boyfriend. I freak out and ruin everything. What's wrong with me? Is there anyway I can fix this?