<human>: Can you condense the text into a few key points?

I recently went to India to do school for nursing which means my bf and I would have to be in a long distance relationship for three years. I came to India in September and I could tell how much the distance has taken a toll on him. He would talk to me literally all day and he really made me believe that he could do this. Maybe I should have seen the signs.

In December, he had to do boot camp for the Air Force and we couldn't talk for two months. I wrote him about 60 letters and got 7 back. When it came time for graduation he seemed so distant and acted as if he didn't even care about me.

I mean.. I guess I should have seen this coming. He meant so much to me. He was my first everything. We spent so much time talking and spending time together. I know that this relationship is probably over for good because we messaged each other the other day, but he said the most fucked up shit to me and I said the most fucked up shit back. I know we both didn't mean it, he was saying it so it would be easier for me to move on since he couldn't so long distance.

I can't stop thinking about him, and I have the urge to message him and just apologize and ask for him to give me another chance. Our relationship had some problems but it wasn't anything that couldn't be fixed. Neither of us were perfect but I saw perfection with him.

The mean things came from me saying that I wanted to remove the matching tattoo we have. But it's like what do you expect when we aren't together. Why would I want it? He said things like he's already fucking around with other girls, i don't know if I should believe it because I know him and it's not him to be messaging me for a while and talking to someone else at the same time.

I miss him and I want to believe that we can make it
<bot>: I want to know if I should message my ex and talk to him about our relationship or just let it go... He was my first everything and I miss him. I just want him back because I love him.