<human>: I had a great upbringing and amazing childhood, but after some significant life events, money always seemed to be the lingering elephant in the room. 

I'm 20 now and I have two jobs I need to consider and while one pays more than the other, I feel like I would enjoy the less paying job a liiitle more. 

job 1: 11 after training

job 2: 12.50, maybe more DOE.

They are both hospitality/cooking jobs. 

Job 1 is definitely going to be more challenging/engaging, but at the same time more enjoyable. I'm hoping at least... 

Job 2 is most likely going to be much easier with a lot of downtime, since it's a speciality coffee shop, I feel like I would get bored too easily even though I'd be making more money than I have before.

My dad's business is getting better again and I don't really have to worry about money, other than student loans that I am aggressively paying down. 

As hard as I try to not think about money and convincing myself that I shouldn't consider money a deciding factor, I can't help but think about it...It's driving me crazy!!!

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<bot>: need to choose between 2 jobs, one which pays significantly more than the other. can't stop myself from ignoring money as a deciding factor.