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Hi there. Little background on me: I'm 18 years old and struggling with anorexia. I recently got put on Zoloft to combat it, but this has left me with depressive tendencies. I'm currently seeing a therapist to try to normalize out.

On to the problem: I don't believe in mushy gooshy feely stuff when it comes to myself. I see these images and quotes saying things like 'it gets better' or 'recovering from anorexia is a time to love life and yourself!' and all it does is make me angry. I don't cry because I think it shows weakness, and I don't express emotion around people that aren't my boyfriend for the same reason. I only am mushy and feely and really myself around my SO and my best friend because I really trust them and love them. When I'm around school-mates and by myself, I'm harsh and unfeeling.

This is getting to be a problem because it's starting to affect my relationship with my boyfriend. I'm becoming more distant from him, which is killing me. I'm looking for advice on how to be less 'tough' or 'strong' as he puts it.
<bot>: My belief that being emotional = weakness is starting to affect my relationship when it hasn't before and I would like some advice.