<human>: Some background first, my husband and I started dating almost 5 years ago while we were still at school. My parents didn't approve as he was always in trouble with the police or school. He was my first real boyfriend and I am very much in love with him anyway. He left school at 17 and joined the Army before commissioning as an Infantry Officer a year later. While he was away I left school and gave birth to our son. My husband managed to secure a posting at the nearby Army base. We got married young with our parents and a magistrates permission as it allowed us to get military benefits for myself and our son. We've been living together ever since with him working and me looking after the cleaning, laundry and cooking. His recent posting resulted in us moving to the other side of the country from our parents and family.

He is deploying in a month and I have no idea how to handle it as he has always been with me through everything and is always the one who makes important decisions. I'm not good with people and he normally does all the talking when shopping, paying bills, finances or trying to book appointments on the phone. I don't get out of the house much as I can't drive and I have a baby. He also has a good job with a 6 figure salary and benefits so I've never needed to work. As we've only been here about a month I have no friends or nearby family. I want to seem strong and in control for him otherwise he will worry about leaving me alone. But on the inside I am totally clueless and scared that I'll mess up without him.

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<bot>: Husband is deploying overseas and I am lost and don't think I can handle it but I can't tell him.