<human>: Give me the gist of the text in a nutshell

To preface, I have never, nor have I ever wanted to hurt, harm, or damage my girlfriend or anyone else in any way. I love her very much and we have been a couple for 4 years now. As I'm writing this, I just woke up crying. 

I dreamt that I tried to seriously hurt her. I don't want to get into specifics because it hurts too much to even say. But I've never wanted to do anything like that. I'm terrified. 

What do I do? I know dreams can't be controlled very easily but many times they're part of your subconscious right? I just don't know how to deal with this. We live in different houses so she wasn't here when I woke up. I don't know if I really even want to tell her. What should I do?
<bot>: I dreamt that I hurt my girlfriend of four years. I'm scared because that's not like me. Idk what to do.