<human>: Give me a shortened version of the text

I've known this guy for over a year now. He's liked me for awhile, but halfway through that year I began dating someone else and ended up getting my heart broken. The problem is that I had the same problem I'm having now. Actually, I've never not had this problem.

Recently we began hanging out just us two and watching movies. We are always flirting, kissing, and cuddling. I really enjoy his presence, but I can't help but be nervous. I did this with my last two boyfriends, too, except I handled it better with my last boyfriend. 

It's taken me this long to even agree to see this guy who I have liked for a long time, and I don't know what's wrong with me. I REALLY like him, but I'll agree to hangout with him and when the day comes I will instantly talk myself out of going to his place. I have gone to see him maybe three times so far, except I have to have had something to drink to get myself to go. I have low self-esteem and social anxiety which has effected my first relationship, but this new guy and I hung out all the time last year. I was able to go to my friend's place without make up or getting dressed up and just hangout. I didn't need to impress anyone so I didn't. He obviously didn't care because he's pursuing me, but why can't I get over the anxiety? I'm pushing him away. 

I've talked to guys online before and set up dates but the same thing happens. I'll never end up going out of pure and utter fear of the situation. I just don't understand what is wrong with me and why I can't be like everyone else. How can I have such strong feelings for someone and then back out on plans with them? Why does my subconscious not want me to go hangout with him? He's one of the first guys I can really be myself around, but I can't get out of my own head. 

Any advice? Should I get therapy?
<bot>: Undeniable attraction and feelings for my friend, coupled with the inability to go and see him. Not the first time this is has affected me.