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I've only jut started going out drinking with my friends, and we frequent a bar at night which is open till late, like early morning late, and the place is very well... The bar men are on a first name basis if you know them well enough. 

Well, my friends had been going a long time and they had started getting into some of the bar men, and there is this particular guy I like. Now, letme just describe myself. I'm not fat, but compared to his ex girlfriend I definitely has more meat on my bones. So I don't even know if I'm his type or anything. 

I'm just really bad at conversation and initiating it without seeming weird or too forward and what if he doesn't find me pretty, it's one of them places where the bar tenders will literally stop to chat with you, and my friends have already pulled the others when I wasn't out round town. 

Please help me
<bot>: Chubbier than his ex gf girl wants to start talking to a guy but afraid of rejection and can't initiate conversation