<human>: Condense the text into a few key points

My boyfriend and I are thinking about finding an apartment together in May. I feel like I'm going to ruin things if we live together. 

As far as our relationship goes, we get along very well and we like being with each other. We don't have any major problems as a couple. But I feel like I'm a little bit crazy and I want to get un-crazy before I move in with him so I don't mess anything up. 

By crazy I mean that I know I have irrational thoughts, self-worth issues, and obsessive thoughts. I want to tackle these before we live together. As I see it, if I don't deal with these things, they're going to drive a wedge into our relationship and ruin this wonderful thing we have going. 

Now, here's the tricky part. I'm afraid if I tell him these things, he's going to think they're just excuses for me not wanting to live with him. This isn't the case at all. I'd love to live with him. I'd just love to do it when I'm at least 95% sure I'm not gonna mess things up.

What do you all think? Does any of this make sense?

Also, I know there are 12 years between us and this is undoubtedly going to raise red flags, but please don't focus on our ages. I'm not dealing with daddy issues and he's not some creepy guy chasing after young'ins. I promise.
<bot>: I think I'm not stable enough to live with my SO without messing things up. Don't want him to think I don't want to live with him for other reasons.