<human>: Can you give me a shortened version of the text?

Throw-away...I'm in a horrible situation and really need advice. My gf wants to get married and I'm not sure I'm emotionally ready. She's an awesome person in the sense of compromise, taking care of the house, and other places like that. The passion / thrill of a marriage? I love my current lifestyle and my ideal lifestyle...well I'm not sure (really, just not sure) that it meshes well. Worse (and this is partially my fault...so I feel guilty), I have until the end of the month to decide or most likely, we'll break up (again, I've been pressured a few times into making a decision and I partially set a deadline (ie: end of month)).  

I'm getting the 'ruining my life' speech. We've been dating for 3+ years. Did I really ruin someone's life? Should that play into my decision?

I get that this is a really emotional post and probably incoherent. Sorry...I'm kinda not thinking logically right now. feel free to ask for any details.
<bot>: gf wants to get married, I'm not sure if I'm ready. She's great, but am I ready?