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This has been going on a while. It started as a coping mechanism in college ....which was ten damn years ago. Sometimes I don't need alcohol - specifically when I have weed. NO desire to drink then. I don't have that currently and feel the need, you know, five or six times a day.

Needless to say, it has caused some pretty big problems in my life. I lost my roommate after raging on her letting my cat out. (Which I feel partiall.... FULLY justified in. I just turned into an asshole, though. Couldn't communicate my complete duress in an adult way.)

When I got laid off without warning (sorry, 4 hours notice) from my last job, which I was good at and liked, I raged at my totally inept agency rep, who knew .... blah blah. 

I'VE HAD TRIGGERS IS ALL I'M SAYING. NOT THE LEAST OF WHICH WAS BEING DUMPED BY MY LTR *two weeks* before moving into a luxury apt in NYC. Since then, I've spirar .... I'm really going on. Let me shut up. I'm coming off as a whiny, excuse-ready bitch. Sorry, now is now.

I have acted inappropriately many times when drunk. and I'm frankly surprised no one has killed me. There were outside causes in all these events, so it's not as if I'm not culpable in all of them. I am, I had a hand. (EXCEPT the lay-off.)

I don't know if I identify as an "alcoholic" (and I don't mean those quotes offensively!), but I am dependent on alcohol right now.
<bot>: Are there any drinkers out there that have found a good program that works for them? I'm particularly interested in strategies outside of AA.I know it works for some people, but it has held about zero appeal for me.