<human>: I'm a 20 year old woman; I met my ex-boyfriend (now almost 24) when I was 17 and he was 20. We loved each other very much and talked about getting married eventually, but I broke up with him about eight months ago when I realized our religious/moral views were incompatible. He wanted a chance to talk about it and for "one last kiss." Against my better judgement, I went to his room (at his request) to discuss this. One last kiss turned into him taking my clothes off; THIS WAS NOT A RAPE - although I asked him not to, I didn't resist physically. However, I was very upset and ashamed of myself for not protesting more. I sent him a letter explaining my feelings and didn't contact him for over five months.

About three months ago a mutual friend was slandering him and I had to step in. He heard about the incident, contacted me, and we started talking and again became very close. I tried to maintain my firm position on not entering again into a relationship with him. However, we were both very affectionate. 
Recently we fell into an argument. I was feeling very upset, and I felt that he was belittling my religious beliefs and insulting my culture. I said I had trouble understanding that he could love someone who he clearly felt was so stupid and misguided and insinuated that I doubted he really did love me as he claimed. 

I realize that this was a horrible thing to say and I deserve everything I got. He is still talking to me, but he was hurt deeply by what I said, and every time I speak to him, he seems cold. I begged for his forgiveness, but nothing seems to help. Should I just wait and see what happens? I'm afraid asking him about it directly will just make him more angry with me.

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<bot>: Broke up with boyfriend due to religious reasons, still very close and love each other. Got in a fight and accused him of not loving me. Don't know how to fix it.