<human>: Could you distill the essence of the text into 1-3 sentences?

I was talking with her every night for a while and we had everything in common. She had a hard time trusting people but she trusted me. We could talk about anything and things were fantastic. She even told me she had such strong feelings for me she's never felt before. We met off a dating site & finally were excited to meet in person. We both decided to get a hotel room and hang out at the bar. She was constantly telling me even if we don't hit it off we should sleep in the bed together etc or just hang out and talk. It was both ideas.

Then I got black out drunk. I turned into the opposite of who I have been with her. I was blatantly rude, selfish, pushy and nasty. I don't even remember doing these things. I was everything horrible she could imagine. She left at 730am and I was constantly texting calling apologizing and finally she responded.

She said it was an absolute nightmare & she never wants me to contact her ever again. She said I was smothering, way too touchy and insecure, rude and the worst experience she has ever had.

The last thing I heard from her was to please get help so nobody ever has to go through that with a guy again. She sent me emails for a book "Men who love too much" & an article about smothering vs love. 

I've never felt more shame in my life. The person she saw is in no way the person I am. I wouldn't dream of disrespecting anyone let alone her.

I guess I'm asking if there's any hope for me. I wish I could prove it was just the alcohol, I don't ever act that way. I stopped contacting her but god do I miss her. I scared away the best match I've ever had. What do I do? Everyday hurts and the regret & shame is unbearable. I wish she knew how sorry I am & that the person she saw was not the same person she had feelings for. It hurts a lot.
<bot>: Fell for a girl I genuinely cared about, got black out drunk and scared her so much I was told to never contact her again.