<human>: I've always gotten a tremendous amount of help from Reddit and I know you won't fail me on this one. I was born in France and spent the first 6 years of my life there. My mom later married an American and we moved to California. I would go back and forth to visit my family, sometimes for a year at a time. My father shared a home with his brother and his brother (my uncle's) kids. Although they are my cousins, they were like siblings to me growing up. My cousin Niko and I were best friends. We stayed in touch all throughout our lives, and I would visit him regularly, until he passed away on Monday. His sister, Nikita, has always hated me. I believe it stemmed from jealousy. When I was 7 years old, my father (her uncle) passed away in a car accident. When I would go home to visit France, I was always the center of attention since I didn't get to see them as often as I would have liked. She hated that I lived in the US. As we grew older, her hate for me grew even more. She hated that I had a career (it's a lot harder in France without education). She always thought I was after her boyfriends (I'm friendly). As a kid, she emotionally tortured and bullied me, saying things like, "I'm going to bury you with your father." (That's one that obviously stands out to me the most). We tried to patch our relationship up three years ago and I thought everything was great until she pulled another asshole move on me.

The funeral is on Saturday and I would love nothing more than to be there to support my family. However, flights are very expensive, and I am VERY afraid of my interactions with her, especially in a moment of grief. She has threatened to kill me. She has done everything to try to alienate me from my family. I spoke to a mutual friend about this, who said it might be a better idea to stay home. 

Reddit, what do I do?

Can you give me a shortened version of the text?
<bot>: My cousin has always hated my guts. Her brother (who was like a brother to me too), has passed away. I would like to attend the funeral but I don't want to put more emotional weight on her.