<human>: My boyfriend and I have been together since the 10 grade. Before we started dating, he had been my best friend since 7th. He broke up with me out of no where telling me that he "Don't feel the way he used to, he's still in love with me but not wrought to pursue a long distance relationship" and he won't change his mind. I honestly right now, feel like something just killed me.
I can't eat, I can't breathe at time. I'm afraid to sleep because in my dreams he's always there talking with me. 
I just came back from my summer semester in college, my FIRST semester in college, so he didn't even have the decency to break up with me in person. He broke up with me 2 days before I came back home. 

We never argued in our relationship. We always talked things out the minute they happened. We loved all the same things. He was my best friend and my boyfriend and we would always talk about how we would get married and have children and have puppies.
I'm honestly just in shock because all I can think about is why. I can't come to change my relationship status on Facebook because everyone will start asking me what happened especially since we were the couple everyone was "rooting" for. Telling my family has been hard enough because everyone will just start off their sentences with "Where's your other half?" Or "Where the giant bean stock?" 
Its also important to note that he was my first everything. I lost my virginity to this boy, and also my first kiss, my first "boyfriend". 

Please Reddit, help me. I feel like I'm about to go through one of the darkest times in my life.

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<bot>: My boyfriend of 3 years ( each others first) dumped me while i wasn't home right before we both embark into our college lives in different states with no warning.