<human>: This is my last resort at getting some help. Maybe a nice honest rant is what I need now. 

My ex and I broke up just over 2 years ago after dating for just over one year. (lets call her Candy) It was a pretty messy break-up. We were just drifting apart and she ended it. I wanted it to end at the time and as we talked post break up well relations went soar, mean things were said and we stopped talking. No Facebook, No texting.

I started seeing new women right away, I had a lot of fun. Whenever I stopped seeing the new women I would feel sad for a normal amount of time. But instantly as I got over them, I would miss Candy all over again. 

I did therapy, mediation, distraction. I have lots of hobbies now and more friends that I hang out with than ever before. My life is really on an up swing and has been since we broke up, and still she is on my mind.

I don't even know what I want from her, I just want to talk but I know that only bad things could come from that. I am to vulnerable about her and she could flatten me with just a few words. What can I do reddit?

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<bot>: Broke up with girl 2 years ago, dated a lot since, way better life. Still it haunts me.