<human>: Let me start by giving you some background information. I have been dating the same guy for two years, since my last semester of my senior year of high school. He's was first and only boyfriend, my first kiss, my first everything, so I have never broken up with anyone before. Our relationship has for the most part been long distance with the exception of summers, seeing as we go to different colleges, about 2 hours apart. There have been some pretty blatant red flags in our relationship, but I am ashamed to say I let them go for so long because I was desperate to be in a relationship, and I was afraid of being alone. He holds me to a double standard about hanging out with the opposite gender, where I can't hang out with guys without him getting upset and making me feel guilty, while he frequently hangs out with girls. He resists any attempt at having a serious, adult conversation, talking to me in almost exclusively cutesy talk (calling me cute, cutie, and playing the "I love you", "I love you more" game). He also gets upset if I don't constantly give him kisses or let him grab my butt, and has complained about it multiple times. I've tried talking to him about all of these things and more, but every time I try he gets angry and claims that I hate him and other terrible things (he has a really bad temper). Overall, I feel like we no longer have much in common, and I'm done turning a blind eye to these red flags and have accepted that he's not capable of being in a mature relationship. I don't hate him, there's no bad blood between us, but I do not want to spend the rest of my life with him. I don't know how to end this or any relationship, and I know he doesn't want it to end- he thinks that everything is fine, and tells me he wants to marry me someday. I want to break up with him sooner rather than later to spare us both some pain, but I honestly don't know how to go about it if the feeling's not mutual. I'd like to stay friends, but with his temper I feel like that is never going to happen if I end it..

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<bot>: I want to break up with my very first boyfriend, but I have no clue how since he doesn't want the relationship to end and thinks everything is great.