<human>: So I broke up with my gf. We went out 2 months but we hung out for 2 years so we got to know one another. At first we both didn't know what we want then we decided to try going out. It was fun at first but soon I noticed that I was feeling irritated all the time, I was being more sarcastic and even mean with her at times. Not in any harmful manner but more like attitude wise. And I didn't know what was going on. At that time too I just moved out my house, graduated and found myself stuck on what I wanted to do next with an onset depression effecting my mood drastically. So I start to notice my behavior and thoughts... and the next day I go to my gf house and tell her how I feel directionless and don't know how I feel about all this anymore and how I'm not happy here. She suggested if I feel that way we should end it. There was a silent agreement... she didn't do anything wrong, she did everything right, I kept reassuring her. And without looking at me she said she'll need some time... that was a week ago.. 

Now I feel a bit free but at the same time, knowing the cost of a relation with someone I grew attached too...  and I don't feel happy at all knowing my choice ended up hurting her. I'm not happy knowing I hurt someone who liked me so much they'd put up with me. I'm not happy knowing I'm still directionless.
I haven't been able to be alone for almost a few months. Work has me 5 days a week. School is coming up and living with housemates makes things hard for privacy or solitude.

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<bot>: I didn't want to be with someone, knowing I wasn't in a healthy state of mind with myself. And I especially didn't feel right knowing she was taking my s### and just taking it.