<human>: Give me a shortened version of the text

This is a throwaway as I'm too embarrassed to post this on my main.

I'm a female in my late 20's. I live alone (but have a boyfriend) in a small house in a middle class neighborhood. All the gardens are extremely well attended, and there's always someone mowing grass, even in bad weather. I myself work 25%-50% (on educational leave from my usual 100%) and study 100%, on top of chronic depression, Asperger syndrome and ADHD. I'm totally exhausted every day. 

I've tried to keep on top of things, but at the same time, I feel angst when I think about mowing the lawn or doing anything in the garden. The grass is quite high now, and the front has lots of weed. I can't bring myself to do anything about it because I feel so ashamed of it. I don't want any rude comments by people passing on the street (which is EXTREMELY close to my house). I even procrastinate throwing away trash, as my bins are at the front of the house. I do it at night, and fast. 

When I leave for work I run to my car. In the car, I have four boxes of stuff that I meant to take inside. But I haven't. They have been in the car for almost three weeks now, as I panic at the thought of carrying them to my door.

I don't want to live this way. I tried telling my psychiatrist, but he just says "What's the worst that can happen". It seems as if I can't really explain to him just how bad it is. I guess I don't want to look like a mad person, which I, if I look at myself from an outside perspective,  seem to be.
<bot>: I don't work in my garden because I'm afraid of bad interactions with neighbors and only throw away trash at night when no one can see me. I need help.