<human>: My boyfriend and I have been together for 4 years since high school. I was very inexperienced with guys back then, so he is my first serious boyfriend until now. He is a nice guy, we rarely ever fight and get along with each other's family.

My confusion started because I am afraid of intimacy. At first, I was okay with doing it. But I started to feel that he is not the right guy for me. Whenever he wants to do it, I always say yes, but when it comes to my need, he often do it half-heartedly. I was raised in a religious family also, and I don't want to betray my family trust any longer.
So I tell him about it and and he was disappointed at first. There are several times when we kiss in his room, he tried to groping me. I stopped him and it ruined his day. He will be silent to me most of the time, but we always reconciled on the next day. It makes me afraid of being alone together with him until now.

Our physical intimacy has stopped for 1,5 years now and our relationship has changed much. We don't really go out a date often unless there are a nice movie in the cinema or he will come to my home just to talk. We also never really discussing this matter until now.
Sometimes, I feel lucky that my boyfriend is willing to wait for the right time for me. On the other hand, I feel like this is not a kind of relationship that I wanted with my boyfriend if he will be my husband in the future. I even feel like I don't love him anymore sometimes.

Can you condense the text into three sentences or less?
<bot>: Should I breakup with him or keep this relationship going? I don't want to hurt his feelings, but I just couldn't handle this with my self for any longer.