<human>: My boyfriend and I have been dating for almost a year and a half and he has never had a problem with my body, to my knowledge. Recently he's told me about dreams he's had about me in which I am thinner. Because of this, I've been feeling really insecure about my body. I am "moderately fat" as he puts it, at 5'6 and 235 pounds, but I thought I had a decent figure for a fat person. I have no cholesterol/blood pressure/other health issues aside from huffing and puffing when I exercise.

The other day, I was feeling incredibly bad about myself and asked him if he would be happier with me if I lost weight. He wouldn't give me a straight answer and started avoiding the question altogether. I think he was annoyed that I was feeling insecure, so he went to bed. Half an hour later, he came back online and told me he was sorry for avoiding the question and that he does wish I wasn't fat. His reasoning for this is that he's afraid he'll stop being attracted to me in the future, which would suck for both of us. He told me that if this happens, he would still stay with me because I'm his soulmate and he loves me (all his words).

Since this happened, I can't stop feeling like shit about myself. I feel like the only way to fix this is to lose weight and now I'm pretty terrified to eat. He told me that he's attracted to me at the moment, but I don't understand why this would be something that needs to be brought up if it isn't an issue right now. I'm ashamed to even take my clothes off in front of him now, much less have sex with him. I'm afraid that those insecurities on top of the original issue is going to strain our relationship even further.

I'm just so lost honestly. I have no idea where to go from here and breaking up just isn't an option for something like this.

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<bot>: Boyfriend wishes I wasn't fat because he's afraid he'll stop being attracted to me, I'm ashamed, scared to eat, and don't know how to fix this.