<human>: I feel like an idiot sometimes. I have a mad feels for this guy I work with. He has a serious girlfriend that I know he loves but hints that it's not perfect and marriage is way off in the future BUT a possibility...and normal stuff. And if they broke up, it would still be complicated for us to ever have anything.

ANYWAY, we have so much fun together. He tells me I am awesome, funny, gives me little compliments, tells me he hasn't been this honest with someone in awhile and stares holes into my eyes. We BOTH try to make plans to hang out but they haven't been working. He never contacts me first outside work, so I am the creep texting him occasionally or initiating. I AM FINE BEING FRIENDS, HE IS AWESOME SO IT WOULD BE AWESOME but I need some help here. But then again, I think about him way too much. He probably goes home to his gf and doesn't think of me, while I imagine him throwing me down and having his way with me ALL THE TIME. Like fuck these feels. Fuck my head for not getting over this.

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<bot>: Mad feels for an awesome dude with gf that I get along with very well. Mad at self for hanging too hard on it...but OMG I WANT HIM!