<human>: Can you condense the text into three sentences or less?

I lost her and it was the most foolish thing I could have done.  I moved away and when I decided to win her back I moved back to her town.  I had lost my job but managed to find one with a salary that was double my previous job.  There is still a lot of tension but a lot of good too, we are dating but not in a relationship.  

It's just really hard sometimes because of how much I love her and her son (we're both 30 and he is 8).  Her son and I are getting along great but she's not on the same level as me in terms of feelings.  There's not a whole lot I can do besides my best and to enjoy the time we spend together.  We occasionally have some really tense talks and we just had one and I'm feeling down.  I could use some pick me ups or inspirational stories about people who went through a similar endeavor.

Some more info:  dated for four years, broke up in march, moved back in July after visiting on and off for three months.  I know you can't give specific advice, I'd have to tell the whole story, just looking for people to relate to.  Oh and I didn't cheat or anything like that, it was somewhat mutual.  She wanted to see more in me in terms of providing a secure future and I just didn't have my shit together enough.  I've lost 50 lbs, changed my whole schedule, seriously manned the hell up and on that side of my life I'm happier and better than ever.  I sorely miss being with her though and I'm doing everything I can to win her back.  Thanks for reading.
<bot>: Was foolish and lost her, turned my life around, moved back to her town, doing everything I can but could use a pick me up story/advice.