<human>: It was an intense 9 year marriage with lots of sexual passion, but personality wise, it was oil and water.  Very messy divorce after finding out she was having an affair.  We have 2 kids that we share custody.  Whenever I pick up/drop off, I find myself lusting for her, every.single.time. Thats the weird thing.  Whenever I see her, I have that primal, sexual feeling which I do my best to hide/surpress it.  

You know that saying, she's not a 10, but is in my eyes?  That pretty much explains it.

Even after 5 years, I miss the intimacy with her.  I tried dating other women to help fill in that void/need for intimacy, but it always fails because I wasn't physically attracted to them, no matter how pretty they are (judged by friends).  Unfortunately, I end up treating these women like crap (relationship wise) and find myself comparing them (physically) to my ex.

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<bot>: Can't get past the sexual attraction with ex-wife. It's been +5 years, and I still miss the intimacy. It's ruined new relationships because I don't find other women sexually attractive.