<human>: Can you condense the text into three sentences or less?

So my now ex-GF just broke up with me today, and I don't know how to go forward. So, we've had a VERY strong relationship, but have NEVER been a sexual couple for the most part. This was because my SO had sexual issues in her past that caused her emotional trauma. So, today after 4.5 years and literally no heads up or even signs of wanting to break up, she tells me that she thinks it would be best for the both of us if we broke up. She said that because she isn't into sexual things and is put off by even the slightest sexual instigation, she thinks it isn't fair to me (which I told her I didn't care if I could never have sex again, I just wanted to be with her) and she said that its not fair to her because she feels guilty and bad about the fact that she can't accept something that's so normal and healthy in a relationship.

I'm literally crushed because I love this girl with every ounce of my being. I am that guy you hate because he's always attentive to his GF and I literally lived to make her happy. But she basically said "I just want to take a break and then in a little while see where I'm at". But then an hour ago she deleted our Anniversary from Facebook. She's not a social media consumed person so she only does stuff when its serious. So I feel like she basically just said, "We're done".

So now I don't know what to do. I love love love this girl and now without any forewarning, she just blindsides me. I am so angry, I want to die, and I don't know what to do. I'm not going to kill myself, but I just don't feel like moving, operating, living. I just feel like I was hit by a truck. What do I do? I'm angry at her now that it just seems like our 4.5 years together were just for nothing, but I feel like I'll just unleash my anger and say bad stuff and become that shitty ex-bf that said mean things when we broke up. I just don't know how to handle or address the situation.
<bot>: My gf of 4.5 years ended our relationship out of nowhere, and I'm really upset. How do I talk to her, or address the situation? I am very sad and upset. She was my life.