<human>: Can you succinctly summarize the text in 1-3 sentences?

My SO and I have been together for almost 2 years now and we have always talked about meeting someday. We have always been happy together and love each other very much, but lately I have been very pressured about us meeting.

I live in Mexico and he is in the USA. In order to come see him, I will need a tourist visa, but I know it is very hard to and they keep your money (over $100usd) even if they dont approve your visa.

I really want to come see him, but every time I have talked to someone about wanting to get my visa have been telling me it is unlikely i will get it because :
1. I don't work 
2. I havent started college
3. Don't own a house
and therefore I cant really show that I have no intent on staying in the USA...

He is in college and wants me to visit him THIS winter break (Dec-Jan), but I am afraid I will spend my money in vain to try to get the visa for next month.

I have explained this to him, and even asked him if he would be okay with visiting me in Mexico, but he says no because he doesn't know Mexico and would like to be able to take me out to eat, movies, etc..

I love him so much, and he loves me, but he has been saying "If we keep pushing the date, what if we end up not being able to meet for years? I don't want to wait that long" because we have been wanting to meet for the past year(and it has always been me who had to visit, but I have had various good reasons why we havent been able to meet yet).

**Question:**
Is the risk of losing the $100usd+ for the visa worth potentially getting it? And if I dont get it/choose not to take the risk, how can I explain this to him?
<bot>: Boyfriend wants me to visit him this winter, but it is unlikely that I will get my visa approved, but he refuses to come to Mexico to visit me.