<human>: Throwaway because my wife knows my main.

I've never had any difficulty with depression before, but a few months ago I began to experience several symptoms, including apathy toward people and activities that I typically enjoy, being more irritable and quick to anger, and withdrawing from loved ones, among others. Eventually, after a couple of huge fights, my wife and I agreed I needed to see someone.

I went to see a counselor that was recommended by a friend, which was a first for me. She gave me a tentative diagnosis of an adjustment disorder, and we discussed a plan to help me find some margin at work and home and begin to address my depressed mood. She said she would be willing to recommend medications if we agreed that was the best course of action, but wanted to try a strategic approach first.

Now, my wife has decided that since my depression has worsened in the last couple of weeks, she doesn't want to wait and see if therapy helps. She told me she wants me to find a psychiatrist or doctor to get an anti depressant now, something to "take the edge off" while I'm in therapy, and can ween off of later.

I'm not at all comfortable with taking something right now, especially if it could undermine my counselor's approach. I've seen family members spend years on anti depressants and I'm afraid of ending up the same way. My wife is basically demanding that I try medication, because my change in mood is so difficult for her, and she's accused me if not being willing to try and fix this. I understand it's not easy to live with someone with depression, but I don't think it's fair for her to ask me to do something I'm so uncomfortable with.

How can I help her understand that I want to work through this on my terms? Or am I silly to worry about medication, and should try it her way?

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<bot>: Been dealing with depression, wife is worried counseling isn't enough, and has demanded I try medication, despite my concerns. Now unsure if I should try to explain myself or give in to her.