<human>: So I never really had friends in high school and now I'm in college and I was able to make like 5 friends And a girlfriend which is crazy to me but I have pretty much lost all 5 of my friends after a month... this has happened to me in high school all the time and I don't know why this happens to me... Friends absolutely love me and want to hang out with them 24/7 for a month straight then just go distant on me....  I'm really nerdy and everyone says I don't look like your typical geek and the friends I made just drank all the time... and I didn't drink with them and now when I ask to hang out they say no... I've never had friends and now that I made some I hate the fact they don't want to hang out anymore.... it's depressing me because It took me 4 years of going without friends in high school to actually having some and now that I've experienced friends I'm just sad it's going to be just like high school again.... I don't have any passions either. Never picked up a hobby cuz I was alone in my room 24/7 after school in high school.... 

Do you think I'm the reason why they don't want to hang anymore? Somehow m awkward or something? I don't find myself awkward at all... I mean I just walked up to a girl I thought was cute and just asked her on a date and now I'm dating her so I don't  think I'm aawkward...maybe I'm just not passionate about anything?

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<bot>: can't hold onto friends for long. After I start to open up to them they ditch me. Happens all the time. 18 year old male btw..