<human>: Over the course of five years my boyfriend has fully supported me for most of those years and has also given me thousands for various extra needs which I can't describe publicly. I'm disabled and will come into a little bit of money soon.

My boyfriend is emotionally abusive & has narcissistic personality disorder & I have been unable to leave. He has also shown kindness. I have exhausted all attempts to change the dynamic and make this a healthy relationship. I don't want him to suffer and appreciate everything he has done for me. It hasn't been easy for him. I want to repay him but I also need to be able to leave and support myself .

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<bot>: My boyfriend has supported me above & beyond for 5 years.  He is abusive.  Should I pay him back or use money to support myself?