<human>: About a month and a bit ago, my (28m) ex fiance and I (24f) broke up because he wanted to explore polyamory right away and I was not ready to immediately jump into that sort of relationship. So, I was 3 weeks into NC, with 2 texts from my ex fiance (one telling me that he was sorry he hurt me, and the second wishing me good luck on my exams), and I'm doing pretty good. Made it through a tough exam period without breaking NC at all, although it was very difficult during the extremely stressful times not to turn to him (he was my attachment figure). I fly home and open my FB to a message from him. It's long, but basically says that he's sorry he hurt me, he still loves me but still thinks it's good for us to not be together so he can be with other women, and wants to be friends.

I decided to break NC for the first time by responding to him. Told him in a fairly long reply about how I was feeling, that I was still hurt from the break up, and not ready for friendship (I didn't say this part, but I didn't think that being his friend and knowing that he was running several emotional/physical relationships with other women would be good for my mental health and self-esteem). I can say without doubt that it was probably the best way I could have worded my thoughts, but still - I feel anxious, and sad, and depressed all over.

/r/BreakUps, have you ever become friends with your ex? And if so, how long did it take? Was it a good idea? Also, any cheering up/support would be great. Feeling pretty low right now.

Can you give me the gist of the text in a nutshell?
<bot>: Broke NC with my ex to respond to a request for friendship after a particularly messy break up. Even though I don't think I could have written a better response, I still feel like shit.