<human>: I treated the relationship in a very unhealthy way. We were together in person for a few months before it became long distance. When that happened, I spent all of my time waiting near my computer for her to come online so we could talk. I didn't take care of myself (I have severe depression, anxiety, and OCD), and I relied on her for all of my emotional support.

I'm having trouble trying to move on or let go. I'm not ready for it to be over, but it is. She's already looking for someone new, almost instantly after we broke up. That's like a knife in me. Every hour or so I get flashes of images in my hand of her with other men, and it hurts a lot.

My depression has become even worse since. I barely eat, I barely drink, I'm sleeping maybe three hours a night. I have no interest in anything anymore. My books don't do anything, video games don't do anything, I don't have the energy to even cook anymore. 

I keep looking at her social media and okcupid account, over and over again. Then I just sit there crying. It's more pain than I thought I would experience.

Part of the problem is I have no friends here. I have no job (I had just started and then was fired the day before the break up). I have no goals, no long term plans, no idea of what to do at all.

All I can do is listen to lectures and read about Buddhism, go on bike rides, and write constantly. I've been writing five or six journal entries a day. I don't know what to do.

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<bot>: I can't move on from my break up, and I'm in a severe depression. How do I find the colour in life again?