<human>: Give me the gist of the text in a nutshell

Bit of context, we've been dating nearly a year and have had very few hiccups, everything is super awesome and I love her.

However I can't help myself from getting ridiculously jealous or worried everytime she does something without me. For example, I'm currently travelling with my family overseas, and we haven't seen each other for about a week and a bit. During that time she's been working lots and not doing much else. Last night she went to a work Christmas party, and even though I know she works only with women (mainly older too), my mind kept wandering, and I kept thinking about if she was chatting with some guy at the party, and if they hit it off and so on.

I hate feeling like this because I know that she wouldn't do anything like that, or at least I'm 95 percent sure. We both love eachother and tell eachother everything, and she's an terrible lier too.

We did have one hiccup in our relationship where she kissed a guy when she was drunk a few months back. That really hurt me, but the guy who kissed her literally only preys on girls with boyfriends, and she (unfortunately) has very little natural assertiveness and gets pretty flirty when she's drunk (which I hate).

She's told me she doesn't want to go out without me anymore, which I think is her acknowledging that she can't really trust herself, which is where I think this jealousy/worries come from. At the same time, she's totally amazing and I know that she'd never cheat on me intentionally. Yet I still worry that she does, even to the extent that I start obsessing that she deletes message conversations from her phone before she sees me, even though I'm positive she doesn't.

I don't want this to impact our relationship. I'm very aware of what I say to her in regards to my stupid worries, because I don't want her to start thinking that I'm controlling her life due to my unjustifiable jealousy.

Should I just force myself to stop worrying about her and let her actions disprove my worries? I'm not sure :/
<bot>: I get worried and jealous about my girlfriend even though I shouldn't be, usually about things that people wouldn't generally worry about. Don't want it to impact our relationship.