<human>: I am not too certain if this is the place for this but nevertheless I am going to come straight out with it. For the longest time there has been a very special and beautiful girl in my life. There isn't much to say other than the fact that I consider her one of my best friends even though time has caused us to rarely see each other. But every time we do see each other it is as if we have never stopped talking and hanging out. 

Every time I do see her something tugs away inside of me that I know she does not feel, or at least assume she does not feel. I do not know what this tug is. I know it is not love because I do not know what it is on this sort of level (girl guy relationship). I do not know what to do about it, I am unsure whether to suppress it to protect myself from any harm, or to pursue it in vain, knowing full well that once I surmount the courage to address this tug I will slink away as a coward trying to protect myself. 

For instance, not too long ago I saw a Facebook post from her stating something like "Hello friends this compilation of "selfies" is my attempt to charm you to come and visit me at my work" without hesitation I instantly went to my university's library to print out directions to her work so that I could see her. In all honesty who does that? I mean I was exhausted from the night before and the day of classes I had just finished so I was in no condition to drive to a place I had never been to but I did so anyways. 

But here is the kicker, today I found out she is single and I do not know what to do with that information, for that matter I have no idea what I feel about her being single, all I know is that despite my attempts to suppress whatever it is I am feeling, I am unable to get her out of my head. So I guess in a sense I am asking you all what your take is on my emotions and my pseudo-dilemma of not knowing what to do?

Can you give me the gist of the text in a nutshell?
<bot>: I am unsure if I love one of my best friends, since I am willing to deny the sheer notion of it, but yet am willing to do anything to see her.