<human>: Can you give me the gist of the text in a nutshell?

Hello reddit, I've been a lurker of this sub for quite some time and I'm really in need of some advice.

Despite our age gap, we are both seniors at a very small New England University. On the first day of classes, August 26th, She broke up with me. She had feelings for another guy back in her home state which led to problems in our relationship that basically led to me not trusting her. But I still wanted to work through it. She didn't want to of course and now I feel like shit. We are both on the same club team. I have to see her every single morning for practice. It is a team I created and invested a lot of time into. 

The problem is that she wants to remain friends. And I was okay with that, at first. I should've known it would turn sour. I guess I'm just ranting, but she is all that I think about. And it is driving me crazy. Now, shes been hanging out with this new member who happens to be a freshman. I feel so ashamed to be jealous over this. I commute, she lives on campus. Last year, she was essentially the only reason I had any connections on campus. Sure I have a few friends here and there but nothing really close. 

I feel as though she is shoving it in my face that we aren't together anymore. I've cried every day for the past 2 and a half weeks and I'm at my breaking point. I'm seeing a university counselor but it isn't anything special. I'm even tearing up writhing this. 

I can't explain why I still want her. I've spoken to one of the guys on the team and he said that she was really abusive towards me and that is was very one sided where I was putting more into the relationship. But even still, I can't seem to hate her. I still love her. Please reddit, I feel so emasculated, so alone, and so weak.
<bot>: GF dumped me. She's moved on, treats me like shit, and is seeing a freshman. I'm in pain, and can't seem to get over her