<human>: Give me a shortened version of the text

Yo reddit,

I was with a girl for 5 years, broke up when I was 22, now 26. Barely even talked to a girl in the interval. 

I feel like i've trapped myself in a cage of some kind, i can feel myself stressing up and getting confused when a situation gets too intimate. 

I've had opportunities but passed them, consciously thinking that I wasn't really interested, but I feel there is something else. 

I'm looking for 2 things in a relationship, that are quite opposite, let me arrange them by priority, at least what i'll admit to : 

1. a strong, intelligent personality, a "weirdness" that's compatible with mine. 

2. relief to sex drive... it really gets in the way when the first thing i think about is sex with a person :/ Sorry to all the girls my gaze might have made uncomfortable.

I have a history of being self-deprecative, borderline depressed, you see the picture... My view is that there are only 2 types of relations, stable intimate long-term couple, as opposed to one-night stands. 

In my mind, i can think of very strong valid reasons for me never to get a long term relation (geographical instability, unsure about monogamy), but also absolute no nos for one night stands (unsecure with sex, need a lot of intimacy, generally prude and introvert).

Not sure where i'm getting with this ? in the words of a famous lady : "you are my only hope".

Let me try to sum it up to at least try to focus to conversation :
<bot>: I feel my lifestyle and conditioning set me apart from the rest of mankind and I feel destined to be the loneliest guy on the planet. Could use some advice, anything really thx reddit you're a pal <3