<human>: Can you give me the gist of the text in a nutshell?

Reddit, my mum abuses me, in every way possible. She beats me, talks down to me, and makes me feel like I don't deserve to live and that I live to only please her. She pretends she's doing it for my own benefit, but all that results in are emotional scars and pain. She says she is embarassed to be around me, and that I will never be capable of anything in my life, and that my future is bleak. All of this makes me want to leave my home and my past behind. How do I go about this, and do you have any tips/advice? Please don't give me the "don't do it, it'll get better" bullshit. I've held out for 6 years, and it hasn't gotten better. I'm tired of putting up with this. I don't want to call child protection services. Its just not an option. I am fourteen years old in Canada. Before you judge me because of my age, I gave this a lot of thought. I probably won't be able to be convinced not to do this as I have before because I just won't put up with this. Thanks for your thoughts and help.
<bot>: My mum is an abusive, selfish bigot who doesn't want me to be in her life. Advice on what I should do would be helpful. Thanks.