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At the very beginning of my freshman year, I had a crush on a guy I thought was perfect for me. He's cute, funny, and we had so much in common. We never became close, but I definitely had a typical girly crush on him, even though he probably just saw me as another face in the crowd. We said hi when we passed each other, but never talked on a regular basis.

Fast forward to the end of my first year. I meet a new guy that I INSTANTLY click with. We're currently in a relationship, and I'm positive that I see myself with him for a long time. We've been dating for almost a year and I really do love him.

Now rewind to the beginning of the second semester of my first year. I join a club as exec- and hey, the first guy I mention is also in the club. We work closely together, and now we actually talk and are good friends. 

The closer we get, the harder and faster those old feelings are coming back. He was everything I thought he would be. He makes me laugh and I get really excited whenever I get to spend time with him. I think I'm starting to develop feelings for him again, but at the same time, I love my boyfriend, and he definitely is special.  

Even if I break up with my boyfriend (which I don't want to do), I don't think I would ever be able to go for the first guy because of a complicated situation. But I feel horrible that I think about the first guy so much while in a happy, healthy relationship... I even have dreams that we're together sometimes. I wake up happy but at the same time sick to the stomach that I'm even thinking about it. 

Is this normal? To be so attracted to someone while deeply in love with another person? Am I just a horrible person? I don't want to end things with my current boyfriend because we have something really great going. But I don't want to spend the rest of my life thinking the first guy was "the one that got away".
<bot>: Met a guy I thought was perfect for me. He disappeared out of the picture. Met another guy I'm currently in a relationship with. Guy #1 appeared again and now I think I'm developing feelings.