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My parents refuse to let me out of the house most of the time, gaslighting me into believing I had severe mental disabilities (all of which I have been tested negative for), a faulty memory, and no skills in anything, because they don't like the idea of me moving out. My siblings have ganged up on me as well. I'm treated like a useless idiot a lot of the time, not allowed to speak or interact with others. My mother also discouraged me from dating or expressing an interest in sex, saying that if I had sex, everyone would know I was a filthy whore.

When I was in school, I was bullied a lot, told I was undesirable sexually, that I was ugly, and told I would probably be eventually raped by someone "taking pity" on me. I never had many friends, and those who did express sexual interest in me were only interested in condomless random hookups, usually so they could have a "desperate virgin" to cheat on their girlfriend with. I declined. I still want my "first time" to be meaningful and safe. At work, my bosses basically treat me like a warm body that can fill whatever shift nobody else wants, extend my hours even when I cannot work, and make fun of me when something goes wrong.

I was seeing a psychologist, but she decided to stop taking our insurance, and I haven't found a new one yet.
<bot>: I want a nice, quiet, safe, monogamous romantic and sexual relationship, but after years of abuse, how do I become confident enough to look for it?