<human>: OK, so, as most people seem to say, this may be a wall of text and I am sorry in advance.

I have been dating a girl for 10 months, 6 months of which was long distance while I worked ina  city 3 hours away. In that time, things were great, we chatted almost daily and messaged and met most weekends and did some fun stuff in our respective cities.

I get a job back in the city she is from on a 5 year contract and we make plans to move in together. Nice flat down by the bay. 

Here comes my problem: I have issues with emotion and my brain hates anyone trying to get close to me, however, before it knows that someone likes me, it wants to do everything it can to get them attached. I feel feelings but I do not really feel emotions the same way as most other people it seems.

So, now I find that I am freaking out when she tells me she loves me, is excited about X or looking forward to Y and I turn physical affection into a game, i.e. her trying to kiss me involves me opening my mouth super wide or some shit. Sexually, I struggle to perform because all my brain wants to do is get out. 

Before this switch flipped, I genuinely believed I wanted a life with her, that she was great etc. 

Finally, on top of this, she is not a fan of me being in regular contact with my ex [26/F] whom I dated for 4.5 years but we have been apart for a similar amount of time and just pretty good friends with very similar tastes. The more it comes up as a problem, the more I seem to miss that relationship but that may be another problem.

Give me the gist of the text in a nutshell
<bot>: Moving in with relatively new gf on year long contract, freaking out at any sign of attraction/future or attachment. Is this the norm?