<human>: I moved a lot as a kid/young adult. I have always been able to find a few people whom I could nominally call a friend. I always feel like we get off to a good start but something feels like it's missing, even after we've hung out or done things together. 

I am a very charismatic individual, I talk to everybody and everything and I am a very friendly person. I am also pretty confident that I'm not a *huge* asshole when I drink. I have rarely had any serious problem with women outside of normal teenager girl problems.

I have a very difficult time connecting with males despite doing things "correctly". I feel like there is a certain "trust" missing and I really don't know how to build it up. I should probably also note that I absolutely do **not** talk behind people's backs ever unless it is clearly positive. I don't tolerate it when it's around me and I call people out when they're doing it. Despite this I always get a horrible feeling that people are talking badly behind my back, especially after I've just walked away to go to class/study/xxx. It seems that one of the first things that pops in my head is the worst thing they could say about me after I'm gone.

Sorry for the great wall of ~~china~~ text

Can you give me the gist of the text in a nutshell?
<bot>: I'm some fucking kid who's good at making acquaintances but absolutely awful at building the "trust" necessary in a friendship, have any of you dealt with this before and if so how did you deal with it?