<human>: My boyfriend has been my ex for about two weeks now. He was my first for a lot of things: first boyfriend, kiss, sexual partner, hiking partner, etc. etc. We've had arguments before that resulted in breaking up, but it never lasted for more than a week. We've dated for about five years now since college, so I'd like to think we're both adults. Recently, we got into an argument about how I've been suppressing his "real" self since we started dating, and I haven't tried hard enough to relate to his druggie friends.

We have separate beliefs when it comes to recreational drugs - I don't like to associate myself around them, but am fine if: 1.) it isn't around me 2.) you don't call me while you're doing them. Anyway, he used this as a reason of me 'suppressing' his identity, ended up telling me he doesn't love me & wants nothing to do with the relationship anymore. Which makes me wonder who I've been dating for the past few years . . .

So now I'm an emotional wreck that's stuck in the middle of graduate school 1,000 miles away from home. All the advice from friends has been that it's only my first relationship, and I'll work through it . . . but it's been pretty hard lately. Any advice on how to handle this? I'm trying to move forward without him in my life anymore, but it's difficult recovering from a relationship that's lasted this long and ended so abruptly. I don't know if I'm supposed to try and recover the relationship either or what . . .

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<bot>: My ex chose a different lifestyle from my own, told me he didn't love me anymore, and I'm trying to figure out how to move on without a lot of support from home.