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I'm gonna try to keep this brief but will likely fail.

My girlfriend of almost 2 years broke up with me last Friday. This really didn't come as a surprise to me as I could feel us drifting for a while. She explained to me that she didn't have that spark anymore and we more or less came to a mutual decision to just cut it off. And while it felt good for a few days, the depression really started settling in after that. I've kinda dealt with the whole insecure, anxious, under confident thing my whole life so of course I convinced myself there *has* to be something wrong with me.

To understand why we are no longer on good terms I have to step back a few days before we broke up. I was at home, bored, and I got a call from a friend, girl, to come over with her friend and hangout. So I did. And my girl friend was asleep so I decided to just not say anything. And that's when I fucked up. 

Anyway she found out after we had already broken up and she can't fucking stand me anymore. Even after I assured her nothing happened between us and how I was only over for 30 minutes or so, she called me a "pig", a "liar", a "loser" (the list goes on). She even told me I deserved to feel depressed about this. This fucked me up big time. I have never hated myself more than this moment. I know I'm not the most attractive guy in the world and she's loved by everyone, beautiful, and way out of my league. Trust me, I know how petty this shit is. I probably sound like a child I just don't even know where to go from here. She was my first and she was the only person I ever loved. I'm really down and I need some advice here:(
<bot>: Girlfriend of 2 years breaks up with me. She then finds out I lied to her about something and now she can't stand me. I don't know who hates me more: her or myself.