<human>: Can you provide a brief rundown of the text in within 3 sentences?

(20, Male, University, busy with academic work and a couple of hobbies, good friendship circle etc.)

It's really hard to describe my feelings towards relationships. I've had plenty of crushes, have acted on them, and have been turned down or used emotionally (I was very naive at the start of university). Now, this isn't going to be some pity-party. That'd be silly. But I must admit that the prospect of relationships is kind of drifting out of my head as a possibility. To me this seems perfectly logical - if the only thing I've experienced has been, at most, girls who really can't decide whether they like me 'in that way' or not, then why would I see things any other way?

But here's the kicker. I know plenty of people drift quite seamlessly into relationships, even if these opportunities are rare. I know they're quite simple and straightforward, but my past experiences have left me quite jaded and cynical to the possibility of this being true.

I'm not a virgin, and have had a couple of flings earlier in university. When I lost my virginity, it was enjoyable (in a 'finally!' kind of way), but ultimately embarrassing (including her telling me I'm 'weird', then sort of kicking me out of her flat (have no idea what I did wrong...)); and I guess I kind of have a negative experience. The second fling was a bit messed up too (was with a long-time friend), but far more enjoyable/awesome - only her being 'on the fence' made everything really awkward after the fact.

What I'm trying to get at is, I have yet to actually have any kind of decent, 'normal', genuinely nice sexual relationship. Coupled with some memories I'd rather forget, I am left probably worse off than having no experience at all.

I'm sure all of this doubt will kinda vanish once I'm actually *there*, *in* a relationship and I get to find out what the fuss is all about, but naturally, the process of getting there (e.g. meeting new people, and so on) is made harder by a really rocky start to relationships.
<bot>: Bad sexual experiences make me in a worse position than I would be without any experiences at all - this makes me cynical about what a 'true' relationship would be like. What do?