<human>: A year and a half ago, I was on the verge of becoming homeless. I had slight feelings towards my now boyfriend, but had my doubts originally. I could always tell he liked me. He let me live with him and his roommates and let me borrow his car to drive to my job. 

Now we live together and I feel really guilty for not having stronger feelings toward him, but I don't have any family or friends to live with, let alone a car of my own to drive and move my things. He is really nice, and I have grown in love with him, but as my best friend only. I am also depressed and need to see a doctor, and I have discussed this with him. We don't have a sex life and he keeps pushing me and pushing me. He is a virgin. I feel like a terrible person. I just don't know what to do, I'm starting to feel a little crazy. Things may blow soon. 

Sometimes I can't tell if our relationship is shit because I suck and can't seem to address my depression, or if I am genuinely just unhappy I forced myself into this. Sometimes I love him and have this bullshit mindset that everything is fine and that I'm going to work on this relationship harder, and the other half of the time I realize I am just harboring this huge secret.

 He is really clingy. I just want my independence, but I'm nervous I'm sabotaging a potentially great relationship and maybe I just need to open up more....?

Could you distill the essence of the text into 1-3 sentences?
<bot>: moved in with boyfriend to avoid homelessness, now in a loveless, boring relationship that I don't know how to get out of.