<human>: Give me the gist of the text in a nutshell

Hello all,

I feel very confused and just need to voice my thoughts and get some input from another person. I have people I'm close to that I talk too, but I'm just having a hard time vocalizing what is in my brain. 

So without going into too much detail, 2 years ago my gf at the time ended our relationship. We had been dating for a little over a year but we both thought it was very serious. We had purchased a ring together(she picked it, I paid) and I was going to propose soon. It was a good thing it ended, there were alot of problems in our relationship. But despite that I took it really hard and Im not sure I have ever gotten over it. That has been my only relationship before or since. 

So this brings us to now, there is this girl that I have been hanging out with mutual friends for a few months now. She is definitely into me, I can just tell plus some of her close friends have told me. Here is where it gets complicated, at least in my brain. Maybe its really simple, it probably is. idk. Anyways, she is a cool girl, we have some stuff in common. She is attractive, and this may sound douchey, but my last exgf was more attractive to me. But maybe Im basing that off how I grew to think of her. Maybe I could have the same perspective for this girl? Im getting confusing sorry, my brain is confused right now. new paragraph.

Im not sure what Im really asking I guess.... I think that my last girlfriend was kind of bossy and sometimes mean. And for whatever weird reason I want that in my next relationship as well.  

Is it wrong to look for the same qaulities in my next girlfriend as my ex? IDK. Im sorry people. maybe you guys can probe some clarity out of me with additional questions or pms? sorry guys. thanks.
<bot>: Im very confused about how I feel about this new girl and I think my last exgf is impacting how I feel about my next gf. Is that bad? is that unavoidable? idk. confused.