<human>: Give me the gist of the text in a nutshell

Been a lurker for a long time and created an account just to seek help and advice and also just to vent. This is my first post, sorry if it's super long. I am an emotional wreck and starting to slip into what feels like depression. My situation feels really complicated and I might make it sound even more complicated because I suck at explaining things.

I have been together with this girl for 4.5 years. I've known for her for quite a long time even before we started to date. While we were dating, she became my best friend and I felt that I could do anything with her by my side. She moved in with me because her family went away to other parts of the states and she had nowhere else to go. I was really thrilled because I could finally spend all the time I wanted with her.

About two nights ago, she approached me and told me that she wanted to break up. Her reason was that she sort of just fell out of love with me and was tired of putting up with some of my habits. She also said that she had been wanting to break up for quite a long time (about a year and a half) but hesitated because she did not want to hurt me. Never in my life have I felt this amount of heartache and devastation.

She still wants to be friends and hopes that everything could go back to the way things were before we started dating. As much as I would like that to happen, I am having a hard time trying to filter out my feelings of love every time I think about her. Everything in this house just reminds me of her and it is very painful to think about, but I am having trouble just letting go of her in general. What makes things even worse is that she is still living with me and a part of me is glad that she is still here, but every time I see her, the feelings of sadness start to take over me. I felt like she truly was my soul-mate and it pains me that I will never ever experience those feelings of love with her ever again.
<bot>: Just got out of a long-term relationship. The pain is so crippling that I just don't want to do anything anymore...