<human>: Long story short. I've been waiting for this guy to make up his mind on whether he wants a relationship or not since January. He started dropping hints that he's "waiting for the perfect time to ask" me two weeks ago.

So I guess he's done thinking.

My problem:

I dont think he's really committed to the relationship and I dont trust his decision will stick. If he's that indecisive that it takes months to make up his mind I don't understand what's changed and if that thing will change again? I'm also kinda bitter about being held on grass and now just don't enjoy doing things with him because the fact that I've been waiting is boggling me.

Im wondering if it has ever really worked waiting for someone to make up their mind? Will that person honestly try a relationship for real after or am I just being taken for granted?

In additional:

I tried to talk to him. He doesn't understand its hard to wait and said he's got no idea how to make me more secure and says the decision should be much more secure now because it has been thoroughly thought trough.

He's also the friggin love of my life, I think I felt kinda a similar feeling 25 years ago but it's not even close to how I'm feeling now and that is the whole reason I cared to wait at all so I will probably hate myself the rest of my life if I don't try with him even if it fails.

Can you condense the text into three sentences or less?
<bot>: He finally made up his mind if he wants a relationship with me after 5 months. Is someone like that honestly able to try a relationship for real or is he just not that into me?