<human>: Could you distill the essence of the text into 1-3 sentences?

... I don't want to do this anymore, because I will never get to see the children I help bring to this world grow up and be a part of their lives. 

For those of you who are unfamiliar with this, mixed race babies are a huge thing in Asia (or China, where I live and work). I've been living in Shanghai for the last five years and kind of stumbled into this scene as it's not my main profession. I have a "real" career here and in the last two years I've sucessfully impregnated 21 Asian women on the side of my main career.

A guy at work brushed upon this subject two years ago and told me there was a lot of money to be earned, while simultaneously "having a great time at work". I'm a white male in my late 20's, considered very attractive and quite tall. I was introduced to this matchmaking kind of agency that seemed like a regular escort service at first glance. But the business concept was basically this:

Rich women, some single and some married, want a mixed race baby and a date at the same time. So they decide upon a man in the portfolio and he has sex with the woman and attempt to make her pregnant. There were five guys working like this when I started, and right now we are four guys in total.

Lately this has started tearing into my conscience. I know the babies I create will grow up in to a good life with lots of opportunities. As I said, the clients are financially stable and very good people in my experience. But I still can't help feeling like I want to have some part in their upbringing, which is a big no-no of course. 

Anyway, sorry for just blurting this out. I just needed to vent. I guess this will be buried among the countless of posts around here, and it's probably for the best anyway. Thanks to those of you who took time and read it.

Quitting is no problem, but how can I process this new realization in a healthy way?
<bot>: I want to see the babies I create grow up, and it hurts that I will never even see what they will look like.