<human>: Can you condense the text into a few key points?

She's going to au pair in France for a year and go to school in a different city when she's back. We desperately love each other. I can do the things I want in life and stay with her. That includes living in France.

I don't want to stay here and take another gap year from school (had some registration problems). I want to experience something new. And I could do that and be with her. She said she can't do it because what if something happens and I've turned my life around then it would suck for me and because we don't know if we'd break up. Nobody knows if and when they'll break up right! We did, then said I love you, and if we can make it through that certain break up then why be worried about a maybe sometime in the future breakup? 

She also can't spend her time worrying before I would move there if we are going to breakup and she'd miss me too much on Skype. 

With plenty of opportunities to date, and looking for the right girl, I haven't dated in 3 years. She wasn't looking, but it ended up being right. 

I have been able to be happy all three years and now suddenly I'm scared and sad. Why can't I keep repressing my feelings?

And after we talked about this last night she thinks maybe we should just break up now a month in advance because now we can't see each other without being sad. 

Please. I don't feel the same way about her as I feel about anything and my gut is wrenched and I have that choking, drowning feeling I had when I was a kid and didn't get what I wanted and that's what I feel now. I need to right this sinking ship, at the very least until September if not past it. Everything hurts. 
Thanks.
<bot>: we have to break up but we don't want to. How can we stop it from happening? Why can I and she can't?