<human>: I really wish I could get over my friend I had a crush on, I thought for awhile that everything I felt for her was slowly subsiding but now its all just coming back. I don't even know why I care so much about this girl, its not like we ever truly started a relationship. Maybe thats part of the problem for me, there was no real end. She said she had to work through some stuff and we should keep getting to know one another as friends, but everything else she said was too much for her to be just letting me down easy. No one I know thought she was letting me down easy, especially since she could have just ignored me for a week and gotten her point across and she'd had previous boyfriends in the past (so would go for a more direct option). When I told her how I felt, her response seemed to mean so much more than a simple acceptance of a compliment. What happened after that? I've accepted that she want to be friends, but part of me still wishes we had worked out, or at least I knew why we didn't work out.

She was the first person I'd ever even stood a chance at having a serious relationship with, and never having had one in high school makes me feel like I was so close to achieving something with this amazing human being, only for it all to slide backward.

I'd never do anything to hurt our friendship, even now she is a super close friend and means so a lot to me. At the same time, I just wish I could get rid of these feelings once and for all. A recent message she sent telling me she misses me somehow brought me back to this hope that I thought I'd managed to leave behind. She is too much of an important part of my life for me to just cut out, and I've liked people I've been close to before and gotten over it with time. Why is she so different, I was hoping my time spent pursuing other people meant I had gotten over her. Why do my feelings for her have to suddenly come back?

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<bot>: Redeveloping feelings for crush I had an almost relationship with, I need them to go away without cutting her out of my life.