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I've been single for almost a year now after one of the toughest times of my life. My breakup was awful as we had been together for five years, lived together and he said and did awful hurtful things during and after our relationship. I'm pretty sure there were elements of psychological abuse.

I'm now travelling the world and feel wonderfully free and happy with myself and my life. I don't want a relationship any time soon and I really enjoy my own company.

My major concern is how I view men and how easily I can shut off my emotions. Prior to my ex boyfriend (I lost my virginity to him) I wasn't interested in being intimate with anyone who I wasn't emotionally invested in. Since we have broken up, I've only had a handful of one night stands and basically view the guys I sleep with as a piece of dick, for lack of a better description. I typically meet guys on tinder and I go round to their house for sex and I often hate having conversations with them - I just want to have sex and leave, nothing emotional as it feels artificial and strange. I've had two fuck buddies and I felt nothing for them, apart from friendship.

I would like to find the love of my life and I consider myself a very loving and romantic person, but I find it strange how cold and unattached I can be. I guess I'm just not looking for a relationship and I'm able to see things for what they are, but I just hope it changes when I do want a relationship! Is this a normal reaction to a breakup and has anyone experienced anything similar?
<bot>: nasty breakup, now only seeks out one night stands with no emotion whatsoever. Worried I'm becoming incapable of feeling emotions for men.