<human>: Can you give me the gist of the text in a nutshell?

I've never had crushes like this before. My professor is literally everything I wanted in a SO before I met my current boyfriend, who kind of threw me through a loop. He's incredible smart, handsome, and we have a lot of conversations outside of class about common interests. I know he's attracted to me, and given different situations we would probably go out at least. 

However, as mentioned before, I am dating someone and this guy is awesome and perfect... and totally within university rules to date. 

And I know most of why I'm attracted to my professor is because he's forbidden, but it's a little more than that considering he fits my "list" and I've always been attracted to older men.

Basically, how do I get over someone I have a crush on, when I see them so often? 

I know my boyfriend is the guy I want to end up with, that I'm truly intimate with, so why do I want someone to have fun and hook up with? 

Ugh... it's just frustrating when I don't want to feel this way but I'm so attracted to him.
<bot>: I'm attracted to my professor, but I don't want to be. Nothing has happened physically, some flirting outside of class.