<human>: Can you give me a shortened version of the text?

My ex and I dated for about a year and a half, we broke up about 3 years ago. Our relationship was sorta rocky from the start, which led to permanent trust issues on my part. It didn't help that he continued to do shady things. I have no proof that he cheated on me, but I'm pretty sure he probably did based on multiple things I found on his phone, and the fact that he tried to cheat with me on the girl he dated after me. Instead of trying to reassure me he would never cheat he often just got mad at me for snooping, but often times I wasn't snooping I was using his phone for a legitimate purpose and just found something suspicious. He could always talk his way out of a the situation. But thinking back on the whole relationship it seems pretty clear he was likely cheating most if not all of the times. We probably broke up 3 times before our last "permanent" break up. Obviously the relationship wasn't all bad, we had fun times and he was often sweet, but overall he wasn't the best bf in the world or even the best I've had.

Anyway a couple years ago we hung out a couple times( mostly just hung out and had sex) but we ended that arrangement do to a fight over something that happen right before we broke up the year before. Recently I had been thinking about him alot so I got in contact and we hung out for a few days, it was okay, but nothing great. I found myself wondering why I had been thinking about him so much after all these years. But now thats its been about 3 more months since I last saw him I have these feelings for him again. Why can't I get over him? I have dated another guy for about the same amount of time since we broke up and the relationship was  five times healthier... but I can't shake these feelings of longing for this ex who often didn't treat me well and probably cheated on me.
<bot>: can't  get totally over my ex from years ago, even though I know he's bad for me, and wasn't a great boyfriend