<human>: So basically I frequent /r/relationships and I am a relationship advice friend to anyone who needs it. I love relationships and love. I am a romantic emo or a hopeless romantic (same thing) so I just adore this kind of stuff.

However most of the girls I have been with have cheated on me. Even on this subreddit so many people cheat **it disgusts me**.

I am deathly afraid of my relationships (that I also adore so much) because I am afraid of my SO cheating on me, or worse cheating and not telling me and we stay together. I always immediately cut it off with cheaters. It soils them to me. 

So therefore every time I am in these relationships I am terrified of the girl cheating. The more I love her the more terrified I am. It really gets bad, and causes paranoia and jealousy. Girlfriend on vacation with family for a month? I will be hoping and praying nothing happens. *I just cant trust people*.

Anyone have any good stories maybe to brighten my mood? Anything to help with my problem?

Can you give me the gist of the text in a nutshell?
<bot>: I am afraid of cheating to a point where it gets in the way in relationships. This isnt all the time just in moments.