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We were high school sweethearts; dated from age 17 to 21. We had our share of trials (abortion, my friends didn't like her, ultra-religious parents) but we loved each other very, very much. Or so I thought; she left me 3 months ago because she was, "...tired of the struggle, the unappreciated effort, the inability to help, the loss of friendships..." I had also been out of work for several months and consequently moved back in with my parents.

I stupidly googled her username and found a post from a month and a half ago where she talked about her new boyfriend. I was absolutely crushed. I couldn't sleep, I couldn't focus, no appetite, the whole deal. 

I still carry a torch for her, and I feel like I've repaired my situation (job, school, etc) enough to be the partner she deserves. I've also distanced myself from the friends I accidentally turned against her. I frequently feel like drafting the love letter of the century for her, or calling, or visiting with flowers, but with the news of a new boyfriend I'm just ill.

I'm a young guy, obviously, and I have plenty of chances to meet other people. However, I feel like I will always regret not knowing if she would take me back.
<bot>: Lady left me after 4 years, quickly began dating again, I feel like shite, would like to know if I should just move on or continue chasing windmills