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I have known her for years, 5 years to be exact and for about 3 of them I have been in love with her. I never said anything, except one night where I confessed due to a mixture of sleep deprivation and alcohol (this will come up later). 

Anyway, recently we were texting back and forth and just talking about embarrassing moments and my dumb ass brought up that moment, which obviously had her asking me questions and had me remembering repressed feelings. 

That night I told her I wanted to talk and just up and told her I was in love with her. I did this hoping that she would tell me that we couldn't be friends anymore, or that she didn't want to talk to me. I guess I thought it would be some kind of closure. However she told me that the feeling was mutual.

 At that moment things fell apart. We don't live in the same state, haven't for about a year and a half. She visits on holidays, but time with her is scarce, which I guess made repressing emotions easier but due to recent events everything has unfolded really terribly. 

Now that the backstory is over I need advice on how to do what I want to do, which is fall out of love with her. I just told her that I needed time to fall out of love, but I'm damn near positive that in about a week I'll snap and text her in fear of her having some kind of anxiety attack without me to help.
<bot>: I'm 15 and unable to fall out of love with the person that could very well be the love of my life. Help.