<human>: So Im 22 and graduated college in the spring. met this wonderful girl and everything was going well. But I havent had a more than temporary job in a while. It really takes its toll on me. 

Recently I had a job interview that went very poorly. It sent me into a tail spin. I also got sick at the same time. Im an athlete and my inability to train, loneliness over all my friends being back at school, and lack of employment made for severe depression. I treated her like shit, and threatened to leave several times. This all really hurt her, and today she decided she couldnt handle it anymore.

We broke things off, and to be honest for me right now it probably is a good thing. I need to regain confidence after the year Ive had, having lost a large research grant, a guaranteed job, graduating school, and being unemployed since.

I just feel horrible for having hurt her. shes really hurt. and she was understandably cold to me.The kicker is, Before this occurred I had taken a few days to realize what I had done, and try and fix the problems with myself, and our relationship. Now i feel really empty inside. I convinced her that in a month she should give me a shot, and we arent going to talk much til then. But there is a lot of uncertainty around it. It may be too late. How do I handle this? How do I better my issues with myself? Regardless of her I need to work on that, and I certainly wont get her back if I dont. She really did not want to work through it together, which is understandable I think because I need to better myself for my own sake. But I still am going to miss her, and want it to work out when this is said and done.

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<bot>: My depression caused me to ruin a relationship(albeit a short one) with someone I really really care about. Were on a month(?) break. I want her back, and I want to stay sane.