<human>: Fell in love for the first time last year, unfortunately broke it off because he had doubts about how he felt. Had a really long and painful break up for both of us since we live in close proximity and have a lot of mutual friends. 
We've hooked up a couple times about 2/3 months after we broke up, but that also ended (about 2 months ago). I thought I was over him but I still have feelings for him and find it really difficult to be just friends with him; he has hooked up with new people and I feel like I also just need to see someone else will like me in order to get over him. However, I really really don't want to kiss/be with anybody else but him. 
Sorry it sounds kind of stupid like that, Why would I do something I clearly don't want to, but I guess I just want to move on (but am not over him). Any advice or words of wisdom?

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<bot>: Fell in love for the first time, had a really tough time with the break up, afraid that I'm not open to meeting new people even though I want to, don't want to kiss/be with any new guys