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I was seeing someone that I met last year and we hit it off amazingly. We had a lot in common and he brought out the extrovert in me. We had amazing chemistry, but my heart wasn't healed yet from a previous relationship that was going sour and making me miserable. I probably should have waited, but this boy was too good to be true. Later in our relationship I was fumbling because I could sort out my feelings which left this guy feel really inadequate and unwanted which isn't how I wanted him to feel at all. I really did like him and he pointed out my faults so I tried to piece together myself and try my hardest because I didn't want to lose him.
Long story short he avoided me for a solid week after I started making vast improvements. He called me to break it off and told me we'd talk when he got back from a trip, but I never heard from him again. Recently I ran into him on an outing and panicked, so I left without him ever seeing me. Since then my feelings for him are intensifying and I want to contact him to see how he's doing and maybe talk about how I'm feeling or at least apologize for my actions making him feel negative about me.
My question is would you ever want someone who you left contacting you months later to talk? Would you rather you never heard from them again even though things were left on a cliffhanger? Part of me wants closure but part of me just wants him to be happy, even if that's without me.
<bot>: Guy left me after I became unsure with my feelings and now I want to contact him because he's coming up in my life more often than I'd like to admit.