<human>: * *Background of myself:* I am a college female. When I do not have to worry about my classes or transportation, I enjoy going to house parties and drinking socially.  In regard to hookups, I just want to have fun, but ultimately I would like to stop the hookups and find someone I want to be with. I do not want to be pretentious; this is just for informational purposes: I am a natural platinum blonde with blue eyes. My looks attract lots of attention from men and jealousy from women. I do not hookup very often in comparison to how often I have an opportunity to because of the internal struggle. This is not because of a religious observance, I am not religious. I do not wish to bring that topic up in this thread.  

* *Internal Struggle with hookups:* How can I feel good about myself with these casual hookups? I truly enjoy the flirting, the attention, the kissing, the touching, etc. Then my brain (or imagination) starts to question: I feel like I am just an object that the man is using for his pleasure (especially when they are overly-touchy or the subject of blowjobs arises.) Should I feel this way? And then… am I just using him for this hookup as well? Where is the line? 

* Note: In a casual hookup, I do not have sex; that is not part of my morals if not in a relationship.

Can you condense the text into three sentences or less?
<bot>: Should I feel like an object during hookups? Am I using him, is he using me? As a female, where is the line of being an object and having fun in casual physical relationships?