<human>: Can you give me the gist of the text in a nutshell?

This is obviously a throwaway account as I dont want this coming back to bite me in future. I knew this girl like since 2005, had a fling with her. Unfortunately you can say I fell in love with her and I havent spoken to her in ages as such. But for last few months, every night I dream of her. Last night I dreamt that she got married to someone but still wanted to be with me. Every night I dream of her and cant get over her for some reason. I also know we are 2 different types of people and probably wont get along with in long run but that doesnt stop me thinking about her. I am also not even on the same continent as hers anymore but I might return to USA in some time. Am I becoming just desperate to have her ? or that I really love her and want to be with her. Have any other people ever experienced this kind of thing ? How did you guys who did get over it ?
<bot>: I think I love this girl and dream about her every night. Dont know how to handle this situation knowing I cant be with her for now (and may be forever).