<human>: Can you provide a brief overview of the text?

So there's this guy that I've had my eye on for a really long time, but getting to know him one on one has proven to be really hard. We're friends because I frequent a shop that he works at and I always hang out there. One time I sent him an anonymous message basically telling him what I wanted to do with him, and he seemed into it. The problem is that I'm concerned that if he knew it was me he would be like "ew, she's fat" which is something I've always felt self conscious about. So my first issue is that I feel like I'm probably not attractive to him.

My second problem is that we haven't ever had a good conversation one on one. The last time we were together and it was just us, I tried so hard to make conversation with him, asking things I didn't know about him like how he ended up in my area and things like that, but the conversation just died and I felt really defeated.

I want to know how to truly communicate to him how I feel without being overbearing because I think that's a place where I've screwed up a lot in the past, but I also don't get the jist that he's thinking on his own "oh, this might be a nice option"... I get that sometimes you have to make yourself obvious and then people will click with that and realize that they had something awesome standing right in front of them. I don't know.
<bot>: I dig a dude but I don't know how to get over my issues with being fat and not knowing how to communicate with him, or let him know that I like him. HALP.