<human>: I broke up with my girlfriend of 2.5 years last year around this same time. Though I loved this girl, I wasn't feeling completely in to the relationship anymore. This despite the fact that she was extremely sweet, trustworthy,caring, and just a good person. However, I hadn't been interested in sex for a while, which indicated to me that there was an issue, but I couldn't figure it out. I broke it off, and it hurt severely, but I was pretty sure I had made the right choice.

I didn't have the strength to try no contact, so I kept responding to her attempts to contact me. We spoke almost everyday and I saw her every couple of months when I came back home from college. This had been going on for a year. I still felt that getting back together would be a mistake.

For the past few weeks she hasn't been contacting me as much. We had a plan to get breakfast this morning, but she broke it off. She called me later that morning to explain. Here is her message in a nutshell:

"I'm so sorry I broke our plans for today, it really pained me to do that. I've been seeing someone and it just recently became official, so I don't think it would be appropriate for me to see you anymore and talk like we were. I don't think you're going to change your mind about us anytime soon, are you? (I said no, probably not). It hurts so bad to imagine my life with you not in it, you know I still love you. I didn't want to just stop talking to you, so this is why I'm telling you now. I never wanted to be friends with you, and we were never going to be. You are still my number one. I love you and I'll miss you, goodbye Ben."

At first, I wasn't too upset about it as I expected that eventually she would move on. I thought I was ready for it. I was a little off, because now I am very upset. It feels like we are breaking up all over again, and I'm really starting to panic about the thought of not being close to her on that level anymore.

What the hell is going on with me??? What do I do now...

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<bot>: Broke up with gf a year ago but still talk constantly, she still wants to be with me but I'm not ready, now she's seeing someone new and I'm starting to panic.