<human>: I'll make it short. I've always been really bad at socializing with everyone when I am somewhere with people around. I don't really care for meaningless hanging around, but I always want to get closer to someone.

It's pretty clear I really want to have that one good friend who wants to be with me as much as I want to be with her. I'm saying her, because I just find their company that much more interesting. However, one does not simply find that kind of a friend. I thought I had one, but lets just say she backed out.

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<bot>: Should I attempt to become closer friends with someone (I already have at least one in my mind) or should I try to find enjoyment out of casual hanging around?