<human>: Can you succinctly summarize the text in 1-3 sentences?

So my boyfriend and I have been together for almost 3 months now, nothing too long but i have waited a long time to date him. I'm still really young but I'm still struggling with this. A few weeks ago my great grandmother (yes she was still alive) was taken to the hospital and due to complications was put on hospice. Because she had been a major part of me growing up and i spent 75% of my childhood with her at her home playing with my younger cousins, this bothered me greatly. 

I fell into a depression and it only worsened when she passed away on the 12th this month. We buried her last week on the 24th and the day before that i was woken up quite rudely, rushed out of the house, and driven an hour or so away to visit a great uncle of mine who i care about dearly. He delivered the news that he has leukemia (his dearly departed 1st wife died of breast cancer when my cousins were still young) and it killed me inside to know all this. A few days prior, my friend had also tried to kill himself (he lives far away so i couldn't do much except call the cops.He ran away from them and is in a halfway home now).

So these past few weeks have been emotional torment and my boyfriend, though loving and supporting, has been making me feel bad. We both have emotional issues and right now i need someone emotionally stable to deal with my bullshit. I'm planning on breaking up with him but i'm afraid of the repercussions. He doesn't want me to hurt myself and he also used to heavily abuse drugs before he went to rehab...we are both pretty fucked up. I love him but i want to act out right now and i'm not wanting to settle down any time soon like he wants to. Am i a bad person for wanting my freedom? I was in a relationship when my great grandfather (had been married to my recently deceased great grandmother) and I did the same thing of pushing away the people I loved. Is this normal?

p.s. I'm a 5'5 mexican chick dating a 6'0 white/mexican guy so if anyone had questions about him being 14.
<bot>: Family deaths, tragedies, and friend trying to kill himself drove me into depression. I want to be alone. Am i a bad person for wanting to at least take a break from a relationship?