<human>: Can you condense the text into three sentences or less?

Briefly say, 
we were friends and built a good connection before he told me he would like to develop our relations.
I thought friendship would be better, and I told him so. He said he was very disappointed.
And things went wrong after that.
We didn't contact each other for over a month (it's winter break and he went back home), like there was a "general consensus" thing.
Neither of us is good at starting a conversation. 
I will feel very sad if I lose a friend in this way,  Or it is clear enough that he don't want to keep the friendship? I heard he has started seeing someone-but I only care about friendship.

Is it good for me to ask whether we are still friend after "no contact at all" for over a month?
Like if you were him, will you feel weird about this?
<bot>: embarrassment emerged in friendship after confession, didn't contact for over a month, is it good for me to text him whether we are still friend?