<human>: Can you give me a shortened version of the text?

So. My dad was kind of an asshole growing up. Throughout my highschool years he would alternate between telling me I wouldn't succeed (and telling me, before studying abroad, that everyone would disapprove of me) and telling me I was pretty and smart. It really fucked me up. In addition to this he was dating a woman who spent all her time berating me. She said I was "ugly" because I was fat and I would never find someone who loved me. And, they both would inquire about my sexuality and ask if I was a "queer". Surprise. I turned out queer. Sigh. Anyways. Basically, my dad was a bipolar, emotionally abusive asshole growing up. 

Naturally, I moved out at 18 and distanced myself physically and emotionally. At this point our relationship became manageable. He would often bribe me with lunches and dinner to hang out, and as a poor student, I would. 

Over time, he moved out with his emotionally abusive girlfriend and moved to a different state (somewhere sunnier). At this point, he constantly tries to give me gifts and help me through school and a lot of good stuff. I am kind of ready to forgive him except the fact that he lied about thing huge to me. 

He told me my mother died when I was younger. When, in reality, she is just comatose. So, I haven't seen my mother in over 10 years, thinking she was dead, when - in reality - it was a lie. He told me she died when he started dating his emotional abusive GF; so I think that is why he did it? 

So. Now I'm at this moral dilemma. Can I allow him to keep helping me with school? Should I still talk to him? Should I even change anything? He is old and probably going to die soon. He is sad and old and alone. Hating him seems like a waste of time. But, I feel so angry about him fucking up my childhood and lying to my about my mother and gah. I don't know what to do and I don't know how to feel. I could really use some guidance.
<bot>: My dad lied about my mom being dead. He is kind of an asshole. Is forgiveness worth it? How should I even feel about this.