<human>: Can you condense the text into a few key points?

Hello reddit, in order for you to understand where I am coming from here is a very short background of me. I grew up an only child, my parents never got married nor have I ever lived with them. Growing up I was very happy and loved attention, fast forward to 6th grade I started becoming VERY interested in girls. 

fast forward that I realized they were not very interested in my, became a class clown for most of middle school for any attention from girls. Didn't get away with That clown shit in high school, had gained weight since middle school, was bullied, didn't fit in and was very self conscious.

During those years of high school I met my wonderful girlfriend, we didn't go to the same school just the same church. I had my first kiss with her at 17 she was and is still my first love. We have not had sex yet and she thinks I am a virgin which brings me to another part of my life

I went into the Airforce straight out of high school, about this time I had gotten into pretty good shape and I started getting attention from girls, I really didnt and still don't know how to take this attention, since I've been away in the Airforce l(1 year 3 months) I have had sex with 9 girls, I fucking know this is horrible, and it's making me wonder if I even love the girl I am officially with. I hate this feeling I know she deserves better, but I just feel so horrible with those other females it's just like an impulse. Anyway I don't expect anyone to like me for this post I just need someone to talk to.....
<bot>: Grew up with horrible self-esteem, met my first love, went into the Airforce better looking, sex with 9 other women....do I love her but have issues? Or do I not love her at all?