<human>: Give me a shortened version of the text

I've been with my SO for two and a half years now. For the most part, it's gone swimmingly and it's safe to say that not only is my SO my best friend but he's the beat roomate I could ask for and I never feel embarrassed or stupid saying or doing anything around him. 

With that being said.... I have feeling for a friend of mine. I've had these feelings since the day I first met this guy which is nearing on four years, maybe five. There's something about him thats always drawn me to him and kept me hanging around for better or worse even if he was a bad influence which I dont think is the case. I have since gone no contact with him about a month or two ago because my bf found out that he professed his love for me and we kissed at a party that my SO and I hosted at our house (yes very stupid and disrespectful, I was shitfaced and didn't remember much of that incident..... What's fucked up is that I wish I did because I want to remember my last kiss with this friend and hear him say I love you). 

He's moving soon, about 900 miles away, and asked me to move with him. I so desperately want to take him up on the offer because I want to see how we will fair as a couple. But our rocky past with weird intermittent "oh lets be together", then one of us ends up with an SO and it's put off. I just need to make a decision and stick with it, but because we're no contact its hard not to think about him and let these already deep feelings fester into an unhealthy obsession. 

I want to talk with him and see where we stand in general, it's like I just need to hear his voice. Maybe it's already an obsession? Do I break no contact? If I do I wouldn't even know what to say, let alone how embarrassed I would be. So reddit am I being crazy? Do I dump my faithful and take a literal leap of faith? Do I forget this guy as best I can and try to move on?
<bot>: I'm I'm love with my friend who's moving soon and want to take me with him and I don't know what to do