<human>: One week since I told my roommates about the cutting. I'll back up- I cut myself on and off for nearly 4 years and I have type of anxiety that makes me want to literally rip out my eyebrows and eyelashes. Last month I finally caved and started seeing a psychologist. Last weekend I told two of my roommates about it. They were super supportive, but honestly, I don't want the 'it gets better' bullshit. I don't want to be coddled. I just want to go a few days without thinking about where I can cut where no one will see. I thought telling people would help the urge go away, but it didn't. I've also had some bad reactions to different medications and am absolutely terrified of being put on antidepressants. I don't want to be smothered; I want to be better.

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<bot>: I told my roommates about my depression. It's getting worse and I don't want to be medicated. Now I'm getting smothered.