<human>: So my best friend is leaving the country (indefinitely) to go find himself, in Europe. 

I see him almost everyday and talk to him quite often. I have severe anxiety and having the knowledge that we see each other on set nights actually helps to keep grounded. (the stability helps so much)

he is the only one that can relax me within minutes -when experiencing an attack-

He is also my ex bf (we broke up because his life turned into a shit storm last year and there was no point being in a relationship when he doesn't know what he wants out of his personal and family life) it was hard but we got through it and we are closer than ever.

Anyway. i'm just not sure what i am going to do with myself to keep me distracted. He's my best friend the one person that comes through for me when i am having a shit day, or cant sleep and its 3 am, when i am stuck in the City at 4 am and need a ride or when i just need a hug.

I'm so proud of him. So proud that he was able to make an active decision to go off, throw himself in the deep end and see how well he swims and if getting away from all the shit, that surrounds him here, helps him clear his head.

I've had friends leave the country and go away for months/years travelling and i haven't batted an eyelid. but this is different for me. I don't know how well i am going to handle it. knowing that the one stability in my life is leaving.

I know it sounds selfish, that i am just talking about myself. but i figured reddit would be more understanding than most people i know IRL.

Could you distill the essence of the text into 1-3 sentences?
<bot>: My best friend is going away indefinitely, i suffer from severe anxiety - my family makes it worse- i need to get this off my chest...i don't think i am going to cope well at all.