<human>: Can you give me the gist of the text in a nutshell?

throw away due for obvious reasons,

my now wife of a few years admitted a few months ago that she cheated on me within our first few years of dating, and it wasn't a one night stand type of fling, it lasted " a couple of months "

hiding this from me for 7+ years. after asking and asking and going through an entire wedding, and 1 now 6 year old son.

I feel destroyed and i can't get over it.

to make matters worse for me, I'm pretty sure i love her still, and i can't see my life without her, but i feel like i lost alot of time i could have spent finding someone that wouldn't have done such a thing,

Some point next year her best friend is getting married. To a guy i think is a total tool shed, and treats her like shit.  i wish i could have had my chance at a relationship with this woman, i've known her forever, and i have some feelings for her.

My job is in the shitter and i hate going there everyday.

and to make matters worse, we think were going to have a second child.
<bot>: ? my wife cheated on me before we were married, i'm having a second kid, and i think i like my wife's bestfriend. i want a chance to start over.