<human>: Can you give me the gist of the text in a nutshell?

A two months ago, I got a rather large crush on one of my friends. Soon after, I told him as much, and he turned me down because he's straight.

A little background on myself. I'm a MtF transgender, pre-op, pre-HRT, pre-everything, really, mostly to do with family reasons.

Now I understand that since I've not done anything to make myself more female, as of yet, and that I present as male, that when I said I had a crush on him, he said he was straight, despite knowing I was transgender

Honestly, I was fine with that. He, however, hinted at how he'd consider a relationship once I've made the transition. This was fine, honestly already better than I expected.

However, since then, we've been talking more. And... flirting more. We've been in video calls where we were both shirtless by the end. Shortly after he started adding little x's at the end of messages. Then one day he said he loved me.

Now, obviously, I was ecstatic. But this was all while talking online. In person, he doesn't show any signs of affection. He said to one of my online friends (who ship me and him) that he'd kiss me on the cheek. He never did.

I also have the sneaking suspicion he might still be with the girlfriend he had before I told him about my crush. 

When I asked him about what we were, he said we weren't "official official", but that he didn't mind people thinking we were a thing.

I don't know how to go about bringing any of my concerns up with him. I want the physical affection, but I don't want to force him into a situation where he's uncomfortable. I want to know what's going on with the old girlfriend, but I don't want it to seem like I'm accusing him
<bot>: Dude says he's straight, but still says he loves me despite me presenting as male. However, he shows no physical affection and may be with someone else. Help!