<human>: Sorry I wasn't sure which subreddit I should've put it under. It was either this or /r/depression.

We've been together for a little over a year. We live roughly an hour away but we would make the commute to see each other 3-4x a week around my work schedule. We usually text and call each other to make sure the other is ok and be supportive with anything.  My friends, family and I love him. He made me feel super special and no matter what we did we would always have a good time. 

Earlier last year around November he was in a dark place and would get very moody. He would always apologize to me and mention that he's upset that he didn't realize this sooner. He feels like he failed at life. He realized what he's been preparing for his whole college life he doesn't want to do anymore because of the stress going into graduate school, time, and his youth.

In between this time he got better and started going to therapy and taking an antidepressant. He seems like his pleasant old self and I really can't tell. He's not going to therapy anymore and is only taking the antidepressant.

He told me recently something is wrong but he can't pinpoint it. He usually stays in his room playing video games or watching Netflix. He's been trying to cope with his depression after he lost his passion and everything like his hobbies. 

He stopped communicating with me for a few days. I tried calling, texting and no replies. He's done that a few times recently too. He keeps telling me he's sorry and I tell him how I don't like it and a simple text back would suffice. It just scares me because he lives so far away and I don't know how to justify my feelings of being lonely without him and the idea of not knowing what's going on in his mind terrifies me. I'm trying to be supportive and not be mad at him for not replying but at the same time I want to cry and rush over to him. I just really want to help but I don't know how. Please someone help us.

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<bot>: Bf has depression and stopped contact with me. I don't know what goes on in a depressed mindset and if my feelings of loneliness, anger, abandonment, and sadness are normal.