<human>: Well I hope someone will read my rambling, I just have to get this off my chest. I've been losing sleep over this.

After the summer I will do two things. I will start my Bachelor of Education (Theology) and I will be starting at the National Reserve. Both these things interest me so much, I wanna be a teacher really bad. Almost everyone on my mother's side of the family is a teacher or has a function in a school. I love teaching, telling stories, learning and just talking about interesting stuff. On the other hand, I really want to join the army. Yes I love to study but at the same time I find it hard to study and I always have to give 200% to pass my finals.

I figured I would join the National Reserve so if I decide to bail on my bachelor I could more easily flow into any function inside the army.

My parents don't want me to join the army, they don't want me to be in any kind of danger. I know they will accept my choice at a point in time, but that doesn't change the fact that I will break my mother's heart.

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<bot>: I am starting as a student at college and as a soldier at the national reserve. I will see which suits me the best, but I'm leaning more towards the army.