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My fiancé and I are planning a small wedding in October of this year. We'll be doing it in a park with immediate family and close friends and then having dinner at a gorgeous restaurant after. This is 100% what I want and what he wants and my mind feels at ease when I think of this as my wedding. The problem comes when I think of friends and extended family who won't be invited but who I love and adore and don't want to make feel bad. When I put myself in their shoes I know I wouldn't be offended but it's kind of intimidating in the world of BIG WEDDINGS to do something small and different. 

We've considered having a bbq next summer and inviting everyone but a) I worry about seeming gift grabby and b) the thought of planning a big party makes me feel totally freaked out which is why we scrapped our original 100 person, $30,000 wedding plan. I'm driving my fiancé NUTS because I'm going back and forth "well maybe we SHOULD just invite everyone" "but I don't want to have a big wedding!"
<bot>: I have anxiety about excluding people and going Nontraditional even though it's what I want. Can someone advise/tell me to sack up and grow a pair?