<human>: Can you succinctly summarize the text in 1-3 sentences?

I broke up with my boyfriend earlier this week for a variety of reasons, and I don't regret that. My reasons were valid and I know it's better for the both of us this way.

It was his first relationship, and he cared for me so deeply that I knew that the no-contact rule would be incredibly enforced in our situation. That said, he's eliminated me from every aspect of his (social media) life from Facebook to Snapchat (I understand why, I'm not upset about that), but I know he's also deleted my number from his phone in addition to this.

I've been thinking about him constantly since the end, and I hate this guilt that I feel. I know he's doing what he needs to do to move on and I don't want to interfere. I just wish I had an outlet, since he was my best friend for so long and I don't have anyone to turn to right now. I've been having outbursts too often this week and I'm worried about what this entire situation is doing to me (can't focus on grad school, work, family). 

I also hate not knowing about how he is. I know he's eliminated me from his life, and while I have his information stored in my head and electronics, I would never dream of contacting him when he's in the process of moving on. I'm not that cruel. I just wish we could talk. TO CLARIFY: I have no intention of talking to/contacting him. That's not what my issue is. I'm having trouble reintegrating into a life that isn't all about him and it's affecting my schoolwork/mood/everyday life, I lack an outlet.
<bot>: I broke up with my boyfriend and (guilt-filled) stand by that choice, how can I focus on other aspects of my life when I'm so unreasonably hung-up on how this aftermath is affecting me?