<human>: Can you condense the text into a few key points?

My girlfriend [19F] of ten months and I recently broke up. It has been a couple of months coming and we were fighting daily and it seems like nothing I did would get through to her. 

She began going to clubs without me and met a 35 year old club promoter who began inviting her out right before we hit the breaking point. 

Her best friend's aunt owns a famous nightclub in NYC. Said best friend was her counsel during our hard times and they want nothing to do with me so I can't ever attend.

I have not been perfect by any means, I have some very serious issues regarding trust which she knows about, and I tend to be very hurtful when she does something which upsets me.

The promoter I mentioned above began inviting her a lot, and I began to get a little weary letting her go out alone (plus the friend that hates me) with another guy. So I asked her to delete his number. She told me she did.

I realized that was a lie about a week later when I asked her if he was still in her contacts and she said no repeatedly to my face and I discovered him there later on.

She now is completely immersed in a club scene. She's actually on her way there now. And I'm a loser without a girlfriend who's ex left him for parties.

I just need to not let my hatred for what she's done here fade, I get soft and she takes advantage immediately.

Thanks for reading my story
<bot>: Girl left me for a partying lifestyle, want to either die or firebomb the club.. I won't really, but I need help coping.