<human>: Can you condense the text into three sentences or less?

I am such a hypocrite and I feel so guilty.

I have been dating my boyfriend, whom I love so much, for 1.5 years. Prior to meeting my boyfriend I had strong feelings for my neighbor, Ryan. We would hang out, get drunk, and hook up (never more than just kissing since we weren't monogamously dating). Well, things ended with him and I met my current boyfriend.

When my current boyfriend was out of town I was invited by a mutual friend of Ryans to come over to watch a football game with a bunch of other people. I never even spoke to Ryan directly about it, nor did I even speak to him while there.  I told the mutual friend before even showing up that there was no way in hell I would hook up with Ryan- and I meant it. And I didn't. I left after 20 minutes. And that's it. Haven't had any contact with Ryan or anything.

I know I didn't cheat- physically or emotionally. But I do feel
like I betrayed my boyfriends trust. I feel like a hypocrite because I know I would NOT be happy if my boyfriend did the same with his ex girlfriend.

I don't know. I just feel guilty and it is eating me up. I should not have gone there at all.
<bot>: I went to an old flings house to watch a game with a group of people, I didn't even talk to him, but I feel guilty because I never told my current boyfriend about it.