<human>: I don't know if this is the right place to post this. But i assumed i could find help here.

I'm from a European southern city. It's not a big city so there aren't a lot of black people. Until college the only black guys in my life were those of my family and family friends. Obviously i've always ended up crushing on other races growing up. Except once in elementary school i remember ''liking'' a black guy whose parents were friends with mine.

I guess it's okay to have a preference but the issue is that i don't actually really have this preference. I know i can be attracted to black guys since i had a serious crush on my neighbor when i started college. My problem is that even if i'm romantically attracted to black guys, i'm repulsed by their sexuality.

This observation is based on when i watch porn. Everytime there is a black guy involved i get somehow ''disgusted'' and if i force myself to watch it i feel bad and dirty after. I do not get this feeling when a black girl is involved. It's seriously irrational. How can i be romantically attracted to someone but disgusted when it comes to sex? Sometimes i think if i really love the guy i won't feel this repulsion towards him but then again how could i really know? (Please note i'm not sexually active and wouldn't want to ''try'' )

I know it's a rather unimportant problem in the grand scheme of things but i'm worried i would miss on some great guys because of this. I don't want this weird reaction to black men's sexuality to reduce my dating pool. What if i fall for a black guy but in the end cannot be sexual with him? 

Do you guys have some suggestions? Should i force myself to watch porn with black guys in it until i break this mental wall?

Could you distill the essence of the text into 1-3 sentences?
<bot>: I'm a European black girl who is romantically attracted to black guys as in i can find them hot and fall for them, but somehow end up being disgusted at the idea of them sexually