<human>: Hello reddit! I recently went through my first break-up with my first girlfriend and I am feeling very conflicted. I did have, and still do have feelings for her but I felt as though I couldn't handle the serious relationship she wanted at this age. We dated for 2 months and those two months were awesome! Its an amazing feeling to be so intimate with someone.

But there were quite a few red flags that jumped out to me. The first one was that she wanted a child. I do not want a child until I at least graduate college and get a steady job. I had a horrible feeling that she would become pregnant during our relationship. The other red flag is that she would tell me all the time that fate brought us together for the rest of our lives. This really would bother me because I dont want to be tied down like that the rest of my life. I feel at my current age and maturity level, I cannot be in a relationship like this. She was actually engaged to her last boyfriend.

 And I would also have these bad feelings of paranoia and anxiety (for no reason) that would overtake me occasionally, which scared me because I never had excessive anxiety or paranoia in my life.  I had to break things off before things would have gotten bad. 

So when I did decide to break things off, she didnt take it so well. There were a lot of tears from both parties. She insulted pretty much everything about me, called me horrible names, kneed me in the testicles and then physically restrained me from leaving for about 2 hours. After all this, she still thinks we are dating because she believes in this whole fate thing and "the big picture." I have not had contact with her in 5 days.

Is there anything wrong with what I did? My common sense tells me I did no wrong, but why do I feel so terrible?

Thank you everyone, it means alot to me

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<bot>: I conducted my first breakup because things werent right in my mind. I feel bad but I feel it was for the best