<human>: So a little back story.

I am in my early 20's [M] and I am a virgin. This kinda bothers me but it's not a big deal it will happen when it happens. I used to be religious and even had 2 "girlfriends" in high school but I never did anything with them other than just make out. It seemed like, at the time sex wasn't even an option. I didn't even feel them up or anything I just kept my hands to myself or on their back. 

The last time I kissed a girl was in June of 2008, until the other night.

The other night I went out with some friends and got very drunk and somehow managed to make out with 2 females at the bar we went to. The only problem is I only remember kissing one person that night, and even then that is a *very* fuzzy memory. 

I don't really remember what I said to this lady (she was like 30?) but the next thing I remember I'm sitting next to her and we are kissing. I don't remember for how long or when we parted ways. All I have is a faint memory of her tongue in my mouth and me thinking, "this is awesome I can't believe I am making out with her." And that was the last thing I really remember until the bar closed and I'm on the street, by myself. 

The moral of the story is I got way too drunk...

Cut to the next day and my friend tells me that I made out with 2 chicks that night, the one that I vaguely remember and apparently a *very* unattractive girl, according to my friend's description. **I just really wish that I can remember what happened.**

I have been depressed and lonely lately because I feel like I am living in a bubble. I only go 3 places: school, work, and my home (parent's house). I just really think that I want interaction but I don't really know how to talk to people (females specifically) and end up doing anything other than panicking b/c I think that they are just really trying to get the fuck away from me. I just wish I knew what happened and I feel like shit b/c I blacked out at the bar.

Could you distill the essence of the text into 1-3 sentences?
<bot>: I haven't kissed a girl since 2008 and end up making out with 2 girls in one night but I was so drunk I only remember ~15 seconds of kissing one of them. Also I feel bad