<human>: In the very beginning of our relationship, I found out that he came extremely close to cheating on me with his ex. I only have his word that he didn't do anything with her.

A few months later I catch him flirting inappropriately (i.e. just below sexting and just above casual flirting) with two different women and in one of the conversations he called our relationship a joke.

A few months after that he goes to a party with a sketchy friend of his (I asked him to instead spend the rest of that night with me) and after promising he would be home by a certain time he ended up not coming home until the next day claiming that he had to help his friend out and stay with him.

Because of this I have a lot of trouble trusting him and I have, with his knowledge and permission, downloaded a tracking app that will tell me where he is located (provided he leaves location on). I do my best to only use it when I'm having a panic attack, but I still hate that my trust issues extend that far.

It's difficult for me to believe him when he tells me what he does when I'm not around/when he's done with work (before coming home) and it's extremely difficult for me to believe him when he says I am the only one he wants to be with and that he loves me.

I don't like not trusting him with my heart. I trust him with my life, but I don't trust him with my emotions and it is tearing me apart. He says he understands why I have these trust issues and I'll be honest, he truly doesn't put up a fight when I get panicky about it. But I feel that this is taking a toll on our relationship and I want to know if anyone out there has any advice on how to get over myself and move beyond these trust issues.

Can you give me the gist of the text in a nutshell?
<bot>: Over the course of our relationship, my bf did things that broke my trust. He's been trying to gain it back and I have no idea how to get over my trust issues. Please help.