<human>: Can you succinctly summarize the text in 1-3 sentences?

Using a throwaway as my boyfriend regularly uses reddit.

I have been with my boyfriend (M21) who we'll call Chris, for 4 years on/off. I do love him but sometimes how he treats me makes me feel so low and isolated and basically just like shit.

On Saturday night Chris and I had a massive fight on a night out which ended in us breaking up and him storming off.

 I stayed behind at the bar with my friends and got talking to another boy (M24) that we'll call Dan, who I have a few casual encounters with at different times when I was single. Anyway we kissed and he walked me home and I ended up back at his. No sex just kissing and a bit of fooling around.

The next day Chris txt me looking to meet we talk I tell him what happened with Dan crying apologising and he says that he fprgives me because he started the fight and broke up with me. 

He wants to move past all this but here's my problem. I don't know whether I want to we've been together so long sometimes I feel it's out of habit and while I don't have any strong feelings for Dan other than thinking his good looking I feel like what happened with him could be the final nail in the coffin.
<bot>: Had a fight with my bf who doesn't know who to treat a girl. I fooled around with another boy. Now bf wants to put all of it behind us but I don't know what to do.