<human>: I pretty much range from noir to destitute these days.  i'm one of those depressed gits you run into, but in my younger age i was able to sort of hide that.

Things used to balance out after a few days at first, then later, months.  As time has passed, this has turned into years.  Lately, it's been over 3 since i've been happy, or even able to truly function.  This worries me, since my depression is getting worse.  I don't want to take drugs, i've tried that before and it didn't work at all.  it made things worse.

Don't feel the need to jump into /r/suicidewatch or anything, but i'm really not happy.  i don't need a personal clown to cheer me up, but i'm pretty tired at this point, and after so long i just don't know what to do.

Could you distill the essence of the text into 1-3 sentences?
<bot>: I'm an old emo (31), minus vampire sparkles.  i don't go out much, i do have friends, but i don't hang out much with anyone either.  My life isn't really enjoyable.