<human>: Summarize the given text in a few sentences.

So just tonight I screwed up by asking my girlfriends best friend if she bitched about me, I understand big no no, I didn't know that. You see I've dyslexia with attention deficit and  social anxiety, so I don't have the best grammar or 'filter' when talking. 

I received a text moments after texting her friend asking why I said it, etc. I immediately apologied and explained it was whole hearted me however I didn't know it was wrong and now I'm extremely remorseful. 

I then began to cry on the phone she didn't, she did drink some alcohol but wasn't intoxicated, she was however in the more honest stage. You see I'm a terrible boyfriend I trust her, but I only. Realised I never showed it to her, only the opposite. 

The idea of this break being infinite is terrifying to me, I discussed over the phone about the duration but I was told "as long as it takes for you to trust me, and for me to get over all this" but I'm afraid we'll just drift apart like I've seen so Many couples on 'breaks' do. I did screw up, I'm aware but how do I go. About initial contact again, how do I cope with it all. Saying something like "just move on" isn't good enough I can't, I've literally had my life turned upside down by all this and I fear it'll never recompense itself. 

She did say "if it's meant to be we'll come back together..." she finished there in the sentence. Simple goodbyes, I nearly screamed I love you in a last ditch hope in which my heart bled for forgiveness and my bones with anguish at what I'd done. 

How do I cope with all this? 
How do contact her again? 
Will I ever be with her again? 
How Long before I consider it, over? 

Regard, gibbo151.

Rhank you.
<bot>: I screw up, girlfriend wants break I understand but I don't know. If it's a 'break' or break up.