<human>: Can you give me the gist of the text in a nutshell?

My ex is also my best friend, she is doing her own thing and has a lot of friends but I don't and only really have her. She is an amazing person and really my only friend. Because i have been relying on her so much, and her on me, it put a strain on our friendship. That coupled with hooking up frequently led me to develop feelings for her I know she doesn't have for me.

She knows I have feelings for her and it hurt her because she felt whenever she hooked up with someone that she was a whore and a bitch as it would hurt me. We talked about it and agreed to take a break from talking for a while as me having feelings for her and relying on her emotionally hurt her and constricted her. Which is not what I want to do.

The problem is I now think when she said we should stop talking "for a while" she meant forever and I can't stop freaking out. And now I don't know if she ever wants to be friends again or even misses me. She has troubles of her own and I feel I was unfair to rely on her as much as I did.

Before her I had huge social anxiety and did not have a friend for over 2 years, just working out and studying all day. And I am worried that it is starting to happen again.
<bot>: I need to get over her and stop being so overbearing so that we can be friends again, what can I do?