<human>: Can you give me a shortened version of the text?

I've done the 'hard work.' I've been through counseling, I've upped my self-awareness, I've traced unhealthy patterns in my family that I wish to break, I've surrounded myself with good people, I've found a meaningful career and a great life partner.

But I'm still lacking that *fire/passion/engine/drive,* or whatever you want to call it, to motivate and rouse myself out of apathy to accomplish and enjoy what I know I can. It almost feels like some part of my psyche wasn't fully developed. 

Getting out of bed in the morning is still very hard. Creating my own opportunities are still very hard. Dreaming big is still very hard. Whatever the internal *thing* is that compels motivation, I don't seem to have it... or I can't access it.

The good news is this: I am compelled by external things. I'm a great problem solver. I'm intuitive, insightful, empathetic. I'm a great responder to circumstances. So it stands to reason that I'm stimulated/motivated by awesome things in the world around me. Art, music, literature, speeches, sermons, conversations... these get me moving. Especially when I'm reminded of the truth: that I'm valuable, I have great things to offer, etc. etc.  

If I was a car, I would have a working gas pedal, but a faulty ignition. I can't start it myself, but if given a good push, I can ramp up the acceleration. 

I hope this is making some kind of sense to somebody.

So now I'm trying to put a gameplan together for each day. What resources can I use to start my days so that I can dream big and live life the way I know I'm capable of? What's a good system/structure to accomplish this?
<bot>: I utterly lack internal motivation on my own. External reminders help me motivate. Looking for a consistent structure to stay motivated.