<human>: I'll give more info if needed

We have been together for 5 years, are getting engaged soon, and are usually quite happy together. We half-way live together, and have lived together on-and-off for the last few years. The only reason none of it was permanent was because his family is deeply religious, so it'd be bad if they found my name on a lease.

Back in Fall 2010 we lived in the northwest and were having issues. Lots of fighting, and I kicked him in the back while he was laying down before fleeing out of the room. That was the last time I hit him. Until last night. Please help.

Can you condense the text into three sentences or less?
<bot>: I have kicked my boyfriend twice in rage in the last 5 years. Please help me figure out how to handle this. SPECIFIC - How can I stop hitting my love?