<human>: Can you condense the text into a few key points?

Please, someone be the voice of reason and talk some sense into me. I have no one else to ask.

I was married to ex (37M) for 13 years.I asked for a divorce 3 years ago because 1. He is an alcoholic 2. He wanted us to be involved in the swinging lifestyle, I did not.In both of these situations, he was not willing to acknowledge there was a problem. I said we should try AA/counselling but he refused. He was upset I wanted to go to AlAnon, so I only went twice. So we got divorced. Six months later I let him move back home, because he promised he would change. He stopped drinking for 6 months, then started drinking more than ever.The pressure to have others in our sex life also began again.We split again, and this time it was very ugly. I ended up hospitalized with a nervous breakdown.

Fast forward one year, I am (I think) in a good place, living alone and happy with our two kids (8F, 10M). This morning my ex asked to speak with me. I shouldn't have let him, but I did. He told me he still loves me, he wants to spend time together as a family, he will take it slow and prove himself. I didn't tell him yes or no, but we did spend the day together with the kids. It was ok, I didn't hate it but felt uncomfortable. I don't know what to do.

On one hand, maybe being away from me for a year has changed him. It will be nice to have my family back together. On the other, it will probably be the same shit show as before and he will start drinking AGAIN. I've been through this too many times. I just don't feel the same about him, and my heart isn't in it.I actually felt dizzy and almost had a panic attack while we were together today. So what do I do Reddit?
<bot>: alcoholic ex husband is asking for yet another chance, do I risk it again even though I know it probably won't work out?