<human>: [edited but probably still rant mode] 24 years old been pretty much single my whole life, been on dates but never got past 2nd or third dates (it was either them or me) never kissed etc. Met this guy (friend of a friends friend) we got along great but been slowly dating for around a year and talking alot. Last month of two started to see each other more often finally felt like things are going good and would get more serious. Things went back and forth we could be really close, brillaint and sweet one minute then kinda distant. Didn't say much thought I was just worrying too much, he was very respectful there were no real fights or arguments. However he took me out on relaxed date then had a talk and a hug. He told me before we met he got out of a long term relationship and wasn't completely over his ex. I told him i really liked him and was going to miss him badly feel sad it didn't work out and so forth. He said sorry too and then that I was great fun to hang out with and great looking and we should stay in touch and hang out soon. I haven't said any back since what can I say, it hurts no matter how nice he tried to be and I don't even know how much truth is in the ex story but it makes sense for few things, I don't want to dwell and just hope it is true. 

I really do miss him and keeps going back in my head that I should contact him and see if there's anyway to get back togther but then I can't because what if he says no etc. Plus being friend will hurt what if he gets back with his ex or starts dating others, i'd hate to sit back and see it happen. 

Sometimes i'm fine and i'm just happy I got out there and expereinced something and overall it was great, then I'm hit with a wave of depression that makes me feel like I can't do anything

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<bot>: Previously forever alone first big toe in in trying relationships and really liked them and they're still being friendly so hurt, but could do with tips to help move on more than anything.