<human>: Can you give me the gist of the text in a nutshell?

This may sound weird but I am still in love with my ex from a long time ago. We met a couple months before we both turned 16. We talked constantly and dated for about eight months despite living two hours away from each other. Our parents were happy to drive us to see one another. He was my first love and the more I think about it, he has been the only one I have ever truly loved.

I made a huge mistake and cheated on him eight months into our relationship and ruined everything. Him and I still talk occasionally and he seems like he still likes me. We have hung out recently and plan on seeing each other soon. 

I am not sure where to fit this in but when I have been in a relationship since him and I broke up I know that if he said he wanted to try again I would have left whoever I was with in an instant. I am not looking for a relationship right now but if he said he wanted to be with me now I would jump on the opportunity. I feel stupid for not being over this almost eight years later but he is perfect. He is everything I ever wanted and I messed up. 

Do I try to get over him or just bide my time and see if he finally comes around? I have tried to get over him for almost eight years and it still hasn't happened. What do I do?
<bot>: still in love with my ex boyfriend from when I was 16. Can't get over him no matter how hard I try. What do I do?