<human>: Can you condense the text into three sentences or less?

I'm a gay male in my early 20s. I've been with guys quite a lot but have never entered a relationship. I'm at a stage now where I want to meet a really great guy to settle down with. A boyfriend essentially.

Here's the catch - I live in the UK (since 5 years ago) and am moving back to my home country of New Zealand in about 1.5 years to go to university for 3 years.

Does that mean I can't have a relationship, since there's basically a limited lifetime on it? There's no question that when I move back to NZ the relationship wouldn't be able to survive as I wouldn't be able to afford or have the time to return back for a visit within the 3 years I'll be studying, and I wouldn't expect the boyfriend to either.

Has anyone ever been in this situation? I feel really sad about it all. Even if I did go out and try to find a relationship, I'd be lying to myself and them, since I know it has a finite lifespan. Ugh, what to do? I've grown to hate hookups and don't want to settle for a FWB...it seems so futile.

Just a clarification about the reason I'm not staying in the UK. Due to not having citizenship I can't access student loans in the UK and would have the pay the money upfront to study. But since I'm a New Zealand national I can begin studying immediately there by taking out an interest-free student loan. There's also more financial support for me there. It's only logical that I go to my home country. The wait of 1.5 years is so I can save up enough money to pay off some debts here and have a nest egg to take home with me to get set up.
<bot>: want to get into a relationship but am leaving the country in 1.5 years and feel guilty for thinking that I could have a relationship that has a guaranteed short life