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This crossroads I'm at is even more stressful due to the fact  that if this relationship continues that would mean we'd either have to move in together or have a ldr. I'd also have to go back to school in his state and with the way things are going im not sure if I'm ready to do that. 

I'd be so willing and ready to commit more if I felt more sure about him but as of lately I have so many doubts and insecurities. He is such an amazing guy but with every shining quality is a bad quality that just manifests in my head.

For example, we agreed that he'd go out and get a real job by April 1st (hes had since november to achieve this) and still hasn't done that. I help him with job applications, send out online resumes, and try to be helpful in any way he needs... and he still hasn't done the one thing that I've stressed is crucial to the success of this relationship. He does try and go out often to drop off resumes... but it shouldn't be that hard to get a job as a cook. He actually did get a job but didn't go to work the first day because I had accidently hit him in the balls the night before (which seriously was nothing more than an accidental swing) and he wasn't "at his 100%" so he felt he should wait. I know I'm not a guy and don't know how bad that kind of thing hurts but that was a sorry excuse.

I argue with myself every night about what I should do vs. What I want. I WANT to spend my days in his arms and be each others partners. I SHOULDN'T be having to make constant excuses in his slack in so many things, I could go on and on but really I'm just wondering, is love enough to push past these obstacles and doubts that I'm encountering?
<bot>: I love bf very much but there are many bad qualities in him that I don't know if I can get past.