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I'm at a loss. I don't know what to do. I love my husband so much. We've been married 4 years. Been together for 6.

The other night he went out with his friends and didn't come home until super late. I had been calling and texting him because I was worried (it's not like him to not check in). When he finally did come home was really drunk and kept apologizing. He said he woke up at his friends house and freaked out because he had "blacked out". He had called a cab and came home. The next few days I knew something was weird. He was acting unusual. I kept pressing him, and he finally confessed what happened that night.

He actually had blacked out from drinking, and woke up in some random girls bed. He said he doesn't remember anything and that he doesn't even know what she looks like. I asked if he was wearing his clothes. He said no. He said that he doesn't know how it happened. That it was like a nightmare. That he thinks that maybe he could have even been roofied (sp). That he was "insane".

I'm glad he told me, but I wish he wouldn't have lied initially. When he told me he was crying, I've never seen him so broken up. I've never seen him cry. He does seem legitimately apologetic.

However, I feel so hollow. I'm angry, and sad, and lonely. He says he loves me, and he wants to make it work.

How do I trust him again? I really want to, but all I can think about is him in bed with some random woman. I saved myself for him. IT FUCKING HURTS.

He's calling to get us into marriage counseling. Can we ever get through this??

he's a redditor, so he will probably see this... even though it's a throwaway account.
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