<human>: So, about 3 months ago I was under a lot of stress with university deadlines and without realising it I started drifting away from (lets call her Laura) emotionally.

Before this me and Laura had been together for almost 4 months and we were actually really happy. We started off as casually dating and after a while kind of accidentally started becoming a couple. Which, at the time, terrified me. Because I hadn't been in an actual relationship for over 4 years before her.

I think this fear, combined with stress and the fact that summer was on it's way so I was going home and we'd be long distance for the whole of it made me emotionally muddled to the point where I just straight up noped out of there out of nowhere, told myself she was more into me than I was into her (turns out, not true) and threw her a complete curve ball when I broke up with her for (what I told myself) was her own benefit.

But, we parted on good terms and have still got each other on facebook where every now and then we'll like each others posts and whatnot.

However, the problem now is that the past 2-3 weeks i've been thinking back more and more about how much I liked talking to her, spending time with her and just how well we meshed together and got on. (The sex was pretty great too) and well, this is where I want to know what you guys have to say.

I'm kind of lost here. I don't know if she's the one (because I don't really believe in that) but I do know that she's pretty close for now.

Any word on how I can apologise for ending things and try and get her back?

Can you condense the text into a few key points?
<bot>: Inexperienced idiot panicked and threw away the first real relationship he's had in years and took stupidly long to realise how great what he had was.