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I really have no boobs to speak of, if I had to say a cup size I suppose it would be AA. When everyone was buying bras, I just ignored it and was content with myself. But i'm 19 and this is starting to get to me how pathetic i am. I'd still be kind of okay with it if my nipples didn't show. So I've been taping them down for years. It works okay but now I feel like I want more shape.

The most pathetic thing about this is that i'm not independent yet and am STILL TOO embarassed to ask my mom, she has basically neglected me all my life so I wouldn't approach her anyway. And if I suddenly started wearing bras, she'd see and it'd be awkward and embarassing and I'd go out of my mind with anxiety about what she'd think. Basically I have a problem of acting grown up around her. Yeha, it's really weird.
<bot>: I don't really need a bra but I kind of want one, I wouldn't have to tape my nipples down everyday and I feel pathetic