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So, to begin, I am part of a small circle of close friends whom live with each other, there are four of us including me. (All the names are fake).

I have this close friend whom I met at the beginning of my university course and we are considered very close as we have gone through a plethora of activities and greatly influence each other (I encourage her to sing and play ukulele more, she influenced me to try salsa dancing). Let's call her Violet.

Violet also has this other guy friend, Jerry, whom I am close with too. Me and him get along really well too and we have plenty of interests in common, which the girls in the house do not have an interest in. 

However, this is my problem. Jerry and Violet are also very close. Violet always seems like she's laughing more and having intellectual, **better** conversations with him. It actually makes feel like shit whenever I see them or I'm with them. It feels like I'm competing, even though there is nothing to compete for. I feel inferior and my self-esteem drops. I keep comparing myself to them and it doesn't stop. 

I've told myself that it's all in my head and there's nothing wrong at the moment. 

But the thing is, it's not just anger and jealousy I feel. For some fucking reason, I feel anxiety and panic. It's so bad I have to run to my room and take long breaths just to calm down. Most times I feel a searing pain in my chest and I can't breathe, sometimes my hands shake. 

Now I've talked to Violet and Jerry about this, letting them know that I feel inferior to them, but they reassured me that they didn't "prefer" or have favorites. 

I don't understand why I feel like this. It keeps coming back and I can't function normally without having to calm down and take breaths. 

Does anyone feel something like this?

I've noticed this also never happens with other friendship groups.... why is that?
<bot>: Jealous and get very anxious of the closeness of my friends, even though I am close to both of them anyways. I don't know why, don't know how. But it needs to stop. How?