<human>: My boyfriend and I have been together for a little over a year and a half now and we moved in together 2 months ago. We've always had a bit of a rocky relationship, but we care about each other so much that we can't seem to stay away long. 

Since we moved in together, I've/we've never been happier. It has a lot to do with being where I want to be in life, I have a good job, good friends, and I live with the man I love. However, we have been having these idiotic fights, where I usually end up saying "sweetie, please talk to me" and he refuses to. I understand that we have a bit of a different communication style, but whenever these fights happen it's like I lose all rationale. I no longer care that I know he is not going to respond well, it's like I'll die (this is my brain exaggeration the situation) if I don't fix whatever the problem is right then and there. He's not a then and there kind of guy, he likes to let things settle and chill out, and if it still needs addressing we will. I feel like such an ass typing this out because I know when these fights happen I just fucking pick at him. 

So the other night I got drunk (I drink maybe once a week to the point of drunkness, I am quitting that now) and we were having a fun time chatting and doing our thing. Then I started to talk about my day, which was kind of shitty, and he made some comment about how I had been complaining about my job a lot lately. It snowballed and now, two days later we are still very much hurt and confused. 

Last night he told he was still upset about some of the things I said and that the fight made him question our relationship and he's not sure he can give me what I need. I have apologized for everything, and other than this fight I have not felt like I needed more from him. 

I am afraid that I have fucked things up forever, that we're never going to be the same again and it's a horrible feeling. 

Is there anything I can do?

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<bot>: I picked a fight with my boyfriend and said/did some stupid shit and now I feel like we'll never recover from it.