<human>: I'm not even sure what it is I'm doing here. I'm very happy with my SO and he is a fantastic person. I've never met anyone like him. He recently started a new job though and even lost some weight (10 pounds! :D ) and his goal is to lose about 10-15 more. I am all for him achieving his goal weight and I love how being healthier is helping him be happier. 

I on the other hand and a piece of shit. Or I feel like one at least. I'm over weight, lazy, with no goals and have no talents (besides making some damn good food.) I feel like he's becoming this amazing person and I'm still pretty much the same person as when we met. 

I'm just feeling kind of down. Is this normal? The obvious answer is that I should change myself if I don't like myself. Right? I've been leaning on weed as a crutch to help with my emotions. I think it's just making me more self destructive. 

I guess I'm just wondering if it's stupid to think my boyfriend will leave me just because he is all hot and slim now?

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<bot>: Boyfriend is getting fit and I'm getting lit (stoner life). I know I should change but I'm lazy and probably depressed. Will he leave me now that he is all hot?