<human>: Could you distill the essence of the text into 1-3 sentences?

My parents divorced the year I went to college (2008), but had been occasionally fighting years before that. At times my dad would leave for a couples days. I heard my parents fighting often at night. When the divorce actually finalized, my parents moved into different houses, but the complications did not diminish, instead they intensified. Now every single expense my parents pay for (for me) has to be communicated to each of them and then divided equally. This is emotionally draining as often I will unintentionally get sucked into the middle of it.  I am constantly being pressured to choose a side. This whole situation is incredibly complicated, and the details don't matter. 

What does matter is how it's effecting me. I have been in a loyal, committed relationship with [24,M] for 6 years. He has been there throughout this entire process. I have been to therapy 4 times since my parents divorced. all related to its effects on me. I can't think about my future marriage without an overwhelming sense of doom. I try to control every aspect of our relationship in the event that I can prevent a divorce, but its starting to make things tense. I fear my boyfriend will become like my dad, or his dad and he'll end up walking out the way my dad did. I've read tons of books on creating a lasting marriage, and Im not even engaged.  Me becoming another statistic and failing and getting a divorce  is my worst nightmare.

 I don't have any positive marriage models in my life. Those marriages I did look up to and idolized, fell apart and now they divorced. My SO's parents are still together but I don't find their marriage to be the type of marriage I want. 

I need to know that its normal for me to be struggling 6 years later after my parents divorced. I would even be comforted to know that I'm going to struggle with these issues for years. I am going to begin attending counseling, even though I'm currently attending a masters program in Mental Health Counseling, which also fuels my concerns with divorce because I learn about it every day in class. 

can I get some reassurance? advice from veterans? Just...anything. Please, I need validation.
<bot>: Parents divorced 6 years ago, still feels like just yesterday. Struggling with commitment issues and future optimism because of it.