<human>: Alright I guess it's finally time to post this. I've always been a tomboy, all my life. Never thought much of it. Absolutely love my boyfriend to death. Have been dating for 2 years, solidly. Whenever I even think about leaving him I just curl up and die inside because it seems unfathomable. I want to marry this man, have kids, etc., have a happy life. 

But I cannot stop obsessing over trying a relationship with a woman lately. I was terribly unstable before my boyfriend and he helped make me stable and now for the first time in my life I feel I am stable and know who I am/can function on my own like a normal human. With this has come the realization that I wished I tried a relationship with a lady at some point. I don't know why this is my obsession as of late but it is. And I'm only attracted to girls that are also very tomboy-ish, not butch per se, but basically girls that are just like me. No more no less. it's oddly specific but it's driving me batshit.  

I'd appreciate any help or personal anecdotes please. Will this pass? I wish I had been able to get this out of my system pre-boyfriend to see if it's the real deal rather than maybe an idea that i've built up in my head.

Halp.

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<bot>: in a loving, hetero relationship but suddenly obsessed with the idea of being with a girl and feel lost/sad.