<human>: Can you condense the text into a few key points?

As title. A list of sites I've been frequenting

and more. Suffice to say TRP is one, as is AskMen, many are PUA and 'inner game' style

I have also been reading an erotic lit site NSFW! which provided many erotic stories involving infidelity, cuckolding, transformation into sexier people, BDSM etc. along with some stranger fetishes such as fat fetish, bimbification of women, transformation into a cow and incest.
Generally speaking, one partner in these stories gets cheated on, abandoned or otherwise rejected in favour of someone who provides the protagonist's inner sexual needs. The emotions of those cheated on etc. are usually regarded as superfluous, indeed sometimes it focuses on how they deserved to be cheated on, how pathetic they were to be used as a doormat like that, etc.
Although itdoes not always use the 'alpha/beta' binary social dynamic, it appears to provide many examples of this.

Now curiously, in no way have these sites improved my 'game' with women, they've only made me feel shitty about my status as 'beta lover' (soon to become 'beta provider' with my degree and job) and scared me from talking to girls, who now apparently have the tendency to wrap beta males around their little fingers and suck their wallet dry until the man has his life awakening (usually through heartbreak e.g. being cheated on) and becomes dominant (alpha). Indeed, I am positively anticipating women to be mocking me with comments like 'aww you're so sweet' or 'you'll make a girl lucky one day' etc. as obvious code for 'alpha fux, beta box'. This includes future girlfriends, secretly pining for their night-time escapades with the alpha lover.
A little part of me thinks there's something wrong about this, obviously quite anti-women, and it might not be helping my…instability. It hurt my ex very much when I thought she was cheating on me with her guy friend, and that was only the milder edge of the spectrum.
<bot>: Lots of people are saying I probably need relationship counselling. Does that sound like a good idea to you? I'm waiting for a psychological assessment this Wednesday.