<human>: My "boyfriend" and I have been together a few years now, but three months ago we decided we needed some space and I moved out (we had a drunken fight and my insecurities came out).

We've since been trying to reconcile, but he won't make things official with me and I feel my self-esteem diminishing. I have never loved someone so much and his lack of effort is making my heart break. 

I don't know how to get over my insecurities with him, I'm meant to be going up to stay with his family in a couple of months and I've bought the tickets and everything ($500)... I'm starting to regret it.

What do you do when you feel you're fighting a losing battle? How do I cope? I feel so broken knowing he isn't putting much effort into making this work.

I've talked to him about this and he says he wants to make things work, but then doesn't do anything to do so. 

I guess I don't know what point I'm trying to make, I just wanted to write my feelings out somewhere.

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<bot>: Feel like I'm fighting a losing battle with my boyfriend but love him to much to end things. Is there anything I can do to better our situation?