<human>: I love my boyfriend dearly.  We've been dating almost two years.

We were both virgins when we met and very slow to do anything sexual, at least by modern standards.  Our sex life is handjobs/fingering, though we've had PiV a couple of times and I've given him oral sometimes.  

We're currently long distance for the summer (both in grad school and living with parents in different states).  Recently (the last six months or so) we haven't had much of a sex life.  I feel like I have to beg for him to do anything, and he's said he's felt coerced.  

I decided to have one last talk with him about it.  He says (and he's been saying this for a while) that he's not interested because I have low self-esteem and cry about myself a lot.  It's true, I do, but most of that low self-esteem is caused by him not wanting me.  How am I supposed to feel pretty or worthy?  It's a vicious cycle.  Also, I find it really hard to believe that this inhibits his sexual attraction to me.  Is sexual attraction about attitude and self-esteem as well as looks?  Because I've always felt like he's just saying this because I'm ugly.

Now, about the porn.  I've never watched or read porn before.  He used to watch it before we met, but gave it up when he started dating me (he saw it as infidelity).  However, after hearing this from my boyfriend, that he keeps insisting my self-esteem is the reason for his lack of sex drive instead of telling me the truth, it makes me want to shelve sex forever and replace it with porn.  Would this help me satisfy my urges?  Is it a good long-term replacement?  Or is there a better way of going about this?

P.S. I told him I was considering watching porn and he didn't say anything for or against it.

I've been to counseling, it's helped a little, but not very much.  I'd like to solve these things myself without going back.

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<bot>: Boyfriend isn't into sex with me, breaking up is not an option, can I replace him as a sex partner with porn?