<human>: I've been talking to this guy for over a month. He's great, has a similar sense of humor, we like all of the same things, we find a lot of the same things interesting, I think his work is really cool and.....

 then that's it. My brain stops right there. Don't want to have sex with him. Not attracted. 

Then my brain fires back! "Hey, you were super highly sexually attracted to your last boyfriend and he was a fucking dick! Get with it! Give it a shot!" and then......

there's that same wall again, don't want to sleep with him. Don't get me wrong, I'm not superficial. I dated a handicapped man in a wheel chair for almost 2 years. But current man..... I just don't get it. I'm getting older and I feel like I don't have the luxury of being picky anymore (starting to age is a bitch). And picky? I mean this guy's great! But.... fuck.... I've never experience this before. I  mean, it's been great because every other person I've dated has scared me off because they've been so aggressive. I still have a high sex drive, but guys out here are all "hey I met you 2 hours ago let's fuck". Which is okay, but I really get off on relationships that anonymous sex. But this guy's been so respectful! What the fuck! 

What brings this up is that I went to his youtube channel to show some of his work to a friend. Then I saw that he had recently liked a video that was about getting out of the friend zone. My heart sank. I realized how much I'm apparently leading him on (we keep going on friend dates and I try to double dutch everything and it never leads to anything! Not even a peck! he patted my back once and I was like... eh?). I feel terrible. Maybe selfish? I don't want him to go, he's fucking awesome! But thinking of being romantically involved with him at all really repels me. What the fuck do I do???

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<bot>: I think I found my ultimate best friend, didn't realize how far he was in the friend zone. Don't want to lose him, don't know if I should try it out or not. Am I a dickhead?