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My boyfriend and I have been together since freshman year of high school. We were each other's firsts in just about everything, including sex. Since then, he's always had a fondness of blowjobs, like most dudes, and I wanted him to be happy so I'd do it. I've always hinted around that I'd like the favor returned, but he always laughs it off like it's a joke and I'm usually too embarrassed to push the issue. It's gotten to the point where it's my biggest fantasy to have oral performed on me, solely because I've never experienced it, which is sad considering I'm giving him oral on a near daily basis.

I kind of always figured that my boyfriend was just shy and was afraid to do it because he had no experience with it. But it's been years. I've tried to coax him into just trying it once, but he always tells me it's weird and that he's not into that. But I'm not necessarily into blowjobs but I do it because I love him and I know he enjoys it. It makes me sad he refuses to extend that courtesy to me. It's making me resent him and I know it sounds silly but I feel kind of hurt by it. I've tried refusing giving him oral but I always cave because I love him so much. We don't have sex very often as it is.

Our relationship is otherwise fine! I do care for him deeply, and maybe it's silly of me to be worked up over something so trivial. I don't know, r/relationships. Is this something I should just get over and forget about? I can't force him to do something he doesn't want to do.
<bot>: I perform oral sex for my boyfriend regularly, but he refuses to return the favor and it makes me feel neglected and resentful.