<human>: Backstory: I have been diagnosed with clinical anxiety and depression. I honestly don't remember the last time I was happy. I've been through 3 jobs since march 2013. I'm confused as shit on what I want to do for a career. 

I quit the first two jobs because I didn't enjoy what I was doing. I took 2 months off between job 1-2 and 2-3. Now I'm at a job where I get decent pay and they want to send me to uni in January 2014. 

Now here's where I need help.  I'm not happy and I know it. No one else knows because I try to hide it. My job just distracts me from my real problems and then I suppress my feelings until they build up, I freak out, and nothing gets solved. 

The way I see it is , I think I shouldn't be working until I figure out my life and actually become happy again. I'm not comfortable with myself, I feel so much pressure from everyone to succeed that it's got to the point where I smoke weed every day so I can escape these feelings and try to relax.

My question is, am I wrong for wanting to not work and figure myself and my life out so I can be happy and comfortable with again and then worry about a job when I'm not fucked up in the head?

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<bot>: am I wrong for wanting to not have a job until I figure out my life and deal with my anxiety and then get a drop when I'm in the right state of mind?