<human>: I grew up Muslim, and I never really had a problem with it. I would see things and think Oh how God has made this world beautiful. when 9/11 happened and anything else significantly horrible came to my door, I would think that it was a test from God. I loved the stories I would hear about the prophets and miracles of faith. Yet, for the last couple of years, I have been looking at my religion, and I can't help but think how audacious it is at times. my prophet married a 9 year old? this train of thought is only 1400 years old? Surely the billions of people who aren't Muslim and follow other religions wouldn't burn in hell? What kind of "all forgiving" God would do that? what kind of "most beneficial" God would allow for this amount of suffering and woe to exist and continue for the people he loved? when i think about how large this universe is, the MILLIONS of galaxies, the TRILLIONS of planets, the idea of God seems to get smaller and more ridiculous. I have to ask the people on Reddit who have died and been revived, did anyone see anything that resembled eternal fire or paradise? anything that resembled angels or demons? God or Devil? And not only do I ask for honesty between us, I ask for bravery on your own part. yes, Atheists might ridicule you for claiming to have seen anything resembling such, and claim its nonsense. And of course! Theists might laugh and jest at your claim of anything else having occurred, but please, don't let that influence your response in any way. I need answers, and the ones I have just aren't doing it anymore.

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<bot>: losing my faith in my religion, wondering what comes next. cant imagine anything but what has been described to me, looking for other people's takes, and experiences