<human>: My mom worked as a sushi waitress and barely made enough money for rent/bills for our family of 3 (me, sister, mom)

She recently got fired and is currently looking for another job as a waitress, she has no qualifications/degrees and is stuck in this dead end lifestyle

I am a loser college dropout, all I do is smoke weed and hope to get hit by a car and killed, im too big of a pussy to kill myself and it is now impossible to be the loser leech that I am anymore

I don't know of any other options besides trying to join the service, but the problem being I smoke weed and have nothing to show for myself besides my high school diploma...

I'm 20, in debt, vehicle-less/jobless, and I have absolutely no idea what to do with myself, I don't know if I'll be on the streets by next month

I'm worried about my family and I curse the universe for letting me be the result of shitty decision making by my parents: for having me and my sister when they had absolutely nothing going for them and then deciding to immigrate to the U.S. when they had zero connections or language skills.

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<bot>: I'm poor, jobless, college dropout, thinking about joining the military, any advice? All I see ahead of me is unknown darkness and it scares me.