<human>: I've felt this way since a child. I was never a perfectionist, but I was always a dreamer. My dream was to be a famous singer. 

By high school I was acting and in singing groups. I sang and played piano solo for multiple events, usually to crowds of 400 or more. It scared me but I loved the attention. 

In college I finished writing an album and recorded it. I didn't really market it since I wasn't happy with the outcome. I finished college by 21 and am now about a year out. 

I don't have much to complain about. I have a steady job and make about $40k a year. I have an apartment in one of the nicest cities in the US. I have no debt/loans. I have a loving boyfriend and friends. I've travelled to 14 countries (and proudly can say I paid for it all myself). 

Everyone thinks I'm doing great but I'm depressed all the time. I'm trying to have a steady and successful life to fill the void of fame that I've wanted since a child. I'm looking to go to grad school at the university I work for since it will be funded, but it's a 3 year commitment which means I can kiss a music career out the door. 

I've never even tried to make it work. Something has always held me back. I get so frustrated seeing so many people have their 15 minutes of Internet fame and I can't even achieve that. 

I often want to isolate myself from my relationships to focus on these goals but it's tiring. I feel conflicted at all times. My dad lived in NYC for 12 years when he was younger and pursued being an artist. He put his life on hold and didn't achieve that so maybe that's why I'm afraid. Not sure. Really need some advice.

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<bot>: nothing is ever good enough for me. I've always wanted to be in the spotlight but haven't really tried hard enough