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I am 24. 

Somehow by the weird works of the universe I got a job offer as an Assistant manager at a retail store. Knowing how much math was involved, I wanted to pursue that job. 

I can add, subtract and divide (with a pen and paper depending on how big the numbers are). Anything else above division I can not process in my brain. I don't know how this happened and even in high school they weren't able to help me.

I am a fucking special ed student trying to be a manager of a fucking retail store. I thought I was stupid with my learning disability, but seems as though I am just as stupid making common sense decisions. 

Think about feeling so frustrated it hurts, so frustrated you just want to die. 

Why'd I decide on this job? Why did I take it? WHY CANT I FUCKING LEARN?! 

I also just recently told my boyfriend about this issue I have and he is supportive, but he just plays it cool. The kind of cool where you know that person is thinking of you differently. 

He's a 4.0 college student. He's so fucking lucky.

I'm like the scarecrow from Wizard of Oz... if I only had a brain. 

Compared myself to a gotdamn scarecrow.
<bot>: Wanting to give up, feeling this hopeless about something I've been working on for 20 years and seeing no break through will probably kill me.