<human>: Growing up, I was always the shy, weird kid that everyone was uneasy around. I did have one or two friends in every school I went to, but I was never hugely popular, nor would I want to be really.  I went into the mental health system after becoming depressed and was diagnosed with social anxiety. A lot of psychiatrists wondered if I had asperger's syndrome but that was eventually ruled out. 

Things got really bad during secondary school; I began to avoid school because I had the bright idea of coming out in an all boys school in year 8. There was another guy in the year who had the confidence to pull it off it seemed, but I had no self confidence so I failed to brush it off. There was a lot of harassment (physical and sexual) and people would pretend to like me and touch me.

 I pretty much never went in for about 2 years and sort of fell out of touch with society. Instead, I exercised incessantly and developed an eating disorder for which I was hospitalised. In the clinic I actually was able to form a friendship group, although it arguably isn't the healthiest environment. But at least it was some form of socialising. 

The current situation is not great either as I'm not living at home and don't have much support from my parents, so I don't really have much contact with anyone. I live a completely solitary life and refuse to involve other people because I just don't trust people. I feel as if everyone has some sort of secret plot to undermine me. 

Deep, deep down I DO crave intimacy, but feelings of hate and mistrust prevent me from making friends. It's not that I feel that I'm better than others, I have very low self esteem, but I just resent everyone else and see cruelty in everyone I meet.

Obviously, I can't live my life alone because it's just not possible, but I don't know how to get out of this rut. Is there anything I can do?

Thanks.

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<bot>: Been out of touch for years, now have no friends and a chip on my shoulder, want to rejoin society.