<human>: Can you condense the text into a few key points?

So I have a perfect beautiful girlfriend who I love more than anything and who loves me more than life. So last night while we were at are mutual best friends house for a Halloween party who is a person who I've had/have really strong feelings for and was the first girl who I ever loved. At one point in the night after a few drinks we're taking alone about how we never got together and we both agreed if we did we would still be together and I wouldn't be with my current girlfriend or her with her current boyfriend.

It was a really deep conversation where she even joking said how she always wanted in my pants and the whole time I just wanted to kiss her which I didn't.I'm just confused I can't imagine life with out my girlfriend but at the same time I think about being with another girl and feel like did l shit for it.
<bot>: last night at friends party I talked to my best friend and couldn't stop thinking about kissing her even tho I love my girlfriend more than anything and can't imagine life with out her