<human>: Can you succinctly summarize the text in 1-3 sentences?

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Hi All,

First of all, been 6 weeks now since she broke up with me, I felt better around week 3 or 4 and now I have plummeted again.

She was my first love, I keep dreaming about her and replayed all the happy moments in my mind, the first date, the first sex, the first time she said "I Love You"

In fairness, I am not replaying any of the arguments, diminishing sex life which was weird after 11 months, the seeing less of each other... etc

Just finding it very hard, I went full NC at first, blocked her on social media... but every now and then still checked her Instagram as you can't really block on that... but now unlocked her on FB and stuff, she has deleted ALL pictures of us every together which absolutely devastated me.

So what I am thinking is... I was going to write her a letter, telling her how I feel, where I think it went wrong and if she would like to fix it... I want to do it more for me if anything, to know I have tried all options to fix this situation, I miss her so so so much, we are very different, me very affectionate and loving but not so good with words and she more cold and distant but very expressive with writting and really conveys her love when she writes me cards and whatnot.

I know it's my first love and I have always been very closed before... but I honestly think she might be the one, her leaving my life feels like my life has just gone down the toilet, I am unmotivated to do anything work or social wise but I am pushing myself to do it but I honestly feel like a zombie.

What to do???????
<bot>: thinking of breaking no contact to send her a letter saying I miss her and want her back, good or bad idea?