<human>: Can you condense the text into three sentences or less?

Guy is 4 years older than me, asked me out (i said yes), asked me to be his girlfriend (i said i wasn't ready), told me he loved me...fast forward to now, we barely talk but we decided to take a break (even though we were never officially gf/bf). Main reasons for my hesitation: im going to be leaving town for grad school, he drinks a lot (and would come to visit me drunk...so I would spend time making sure he didn't drive home drunk), he's sort of manipulative. I like him, and care about him, sometimes even think i love him...but I have a future, he really doesn't and doesnt seem like he'll change anytime soon. I'm in college and sort of want to be free to go to parties and chill with my friends. However i know i miss him and he's a big part of me, but when I think about it there's just so much. I miss just being close to him, not the conversation, just hugging and whatevs.
<bot>: Even though we're on break, I want to see him but I don't want to pick up the relationship after, just continue the break...is this acceptable? am i just playing with him?