<human>: When you are more or less to blame for a break up, is it supposed to suck ass for months....its been near half a year and i feel gutted, grieved and fucked over by mostly myself. It's always easier when the other person fucks you over i guess. 

The thing is, i'm no good at screwing over other people, i feel terrible when i do and sometimes, we really fucking fuck up, and i really really fucked up but good.

If anyone actually read this, thanks.

some want back story :
Some yes, i more or less became addicted and a slave to a drug, and this fucked things up badly at the end, i did all sorts of shit things. I was great for a # of years, then bad. I've not forgiven myself, and to make matters worse i've kind of been handed a semi terminal illness, and i doubt i'll ever make things right with her, shes never once replied to any of my requests, which were pretty simple, i just wanted to say i'm wrong, and i'm sorry.

Can you give me a shortened version of the text?
<bot>: i fucked up became addicted was a dick, she also did some fuck up things i guess, been given a terminal illness, can't forgive myself, she wont listen.