<human>: I thought going back to school and really figuring out what I wanted out of life would make things better, but it hasn't. It's like I'm stuck in a rut and the worse part is, is that I'm the one who got myself stuck there. For example, there's a girl I like and even though I know I come off incredibly strong, I still persist. She through me a birthday party last year and how did I return the favor? I told her we couldn't be friends anymore. That's not even a joke! Like, honestly, who does that? Who tells somebody you can't be friends anymore because they were nice to you. Who? Me, that's who! The worse part was that I didn't even realize how badly I fucked up till several months later. I had somehow convinced myself she was the source of all my problems and that if we were no longer friends, all my problems would go away. After realizing my mistake, I apologized to her and how do I make it up to her? I stick myself back into the same rut I was in before all this mess started. Granted, there's more to the story, but that pretty much sums it all up.

Can you give me a shortened version of the text?
<bot>: I keep finding myself in the same ruts I start off in and I just want to get on with my life. How can I do that?