<human>: I've been victim to a long, long, LONG string of shitty relationships. Cheated on, unknowingly made the side bitch, had lies spread about me, had people date me just as a prank, sexually assaulted, the works. Now, just when I'd found a nice boy and things were going alright with him, I found out he likes another girl (who also likes him back) and it just feels like the last straw. I'm losing hope in ever finding love; as much as I'm aware of my youth and how much of the world I have yet to experience, I no longer believe love is out there for me.

This fear and anxiety of never finding love has bled out into my friendships too. I have a hard time hiding when I'm upset, and I worry that my mood and attitude when I'm upset will push my friends away from me forever. I worry that one day I'll take my anger out on them accidentally and hurt them too much. I need to change that about myself; my friends have always been so kind and supportive even when I'm angry or frustrated like this, not to mention the absolute most enjoyable people to be around, so they deserve better from me.

I'm starting to think that if my friends decide to leave me, I deserve it. If I'm not worthy of romantic love, maybe I'm not worthy of platonic love either.

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<bot>: Long history of toxic relationships finally takes its toll on me, I take out my frustration on my friends, worried they're going to leave me and I need to change.