<human>: hi everybody! i've never posted before but have read a lot on this sub and appreciate the thoughtful advice. :)

I'm not exactly sure what i'm looking for. I've just been really confused since my break up. Overall, i've handled it really well. I've gotten into new hobbies, have been seeing a therapist, and have allowed myself to grieve and process without just lying in bed all day or anything like that. It's just, I thought it would get easier as the months pass, not harder. 

we were together about 2 years and I ended it for 2 main reasons: 1) i started to realize that i was not fulfilled in myself. i was putting a lot of pressure on the relationship to 'make me happy.' i felt like he didn't understand me emotionally, that we didn't have a deep enough connection - and now i realize it was mostly because i was looking to him to fulfill me in ways he just couldnt. 

2) he has a kind of abrasive personality and could be annoying/arrogant in social settings. i was always nervous about this, if he would upset someone or say something crude. most people could just write it off and knew he didnt mean things personally so it didnt often become a real argument. but in the back of my mind i was always nervous and on guard about this. 
this second part is more specific to him, but i feel like the pressure i put on myself about it was unnecessary.

overall, i dont regret making the decision to break up because it helped me realize a LOT about myself and all the pressure I was putting on it. 3 months later though, im missing him so so much, and i'm having a hard time accepting that i ended it. i keep thinking i have the option to go back to him but i know that's not entirely fair and may even be untrue. he may not want me back.

this is my first serious relationship, so i understand it is especially tough to heal from. i'm feeling like he was really great for me in a lot of big ways and that i let something great go. most people say this is normal to feel, but that just doesn't make me feel better at all right now. :(

Can you provide a brief rundown of the text in within 3 sentences?
<bot>: broke up a few months ago mostly due to personal issues on my part. really wanting him back now that i've started to work on the problem