<human>: Wasn't sure whether to put this in r/sex so just decided this place was close enough.

Long story short I'm a 19 year old uni student and lost my virginity to an escort over the summer, and then I ended up wasting about a $1000 on escorts over the course of a month. Since then I decided to stop wasting money on them and it's been a few months since I had sex with one.

Truth be told I had hoped the experience of losing my virginity would finally give me the confidence to actually be able to approach women sexually. I have tons of friends, go to parties all the time, but more often than not I just find I don't know how to initiate anything with a girl even if she's drunk and wild or something. 

You could say I almost feel like I am still a virgin in a ton of ways. I've never been on a date, never kissed a girl, never held a girl's hand or anything like that. At most I've danced with girls at parties.
Even the thought of having sex again seems disgusting to me at this point. In my mind I can only associate it with the business-like model of simply handing money over to a hooker and then having sex with her.

 A lot of friends ask me why I never try to find a girlfriend or even do anything with girls at parties (let me say that I've had a lot of chances). Sex has become almost negatively reinforced in my mind from the bad experiences I've had with escorts. I can't even imagine what sex with just a normal consenting person is like.

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<bot>: I only have experience having sex with hookers and now sex in general seems disgusting to me. How do I correct the enormous fuck up I've made in my life?