<human>: We've been sexually intimate for a while now through exchanges such as oral and dry sex however, not penetration. I do enjoy the intimate side of our relationship and do not feel the need for penetration. I acknowledge that penetration could add even more spice to our sex life.

I'm satisfied with where we are at this stage although my BF is urging that we have penetrative sex (understandably, because it has been almost 2 years). I feel pressured by this and I'm simply not entirely ready for it. Penetration is a daunting move because fingering has felt extremely uncomfortable and slightly painful. Both my BF's finger and my own have caused this discomfort so I've never had even half a finger inside me. On some of those occasions, I've been very wet and it has helped ease the discomfort, albeit only slightly. I understand this causes distress and disheartens my BF very much. He has been patient but is now placing pressure on me. It's unfair for either parties, I'll attempt to finger myself but I can't lie, I feel reluctant when I do try.

Also, I've been raised up with conservative values which are still reinforced to this day. "Saving myself until marriage" has always been the valued and only option in my parents' eyes. I don't like this idea at all, I feel it's an outdated tradition - unreasonable and controlling on females, in my context anyway. I definitely think these 'values' have added to my discomfort, if not the main cause of my discomfort, both psychologically and physically. Since I've had other forms of sex, I dont consider myself a virgin.

Can you give me the gist of the text in a nutshell?
<bot>: penetration is so daunting that it's weighing down my relationship with BF of 2 years. I've been raised with conservative values and have been feeling a lot of discomfort and slight pain when attempting fingering (even when lubed).