<human>: Apologize for wall of text. 

When I was about nine or ten, my mother had an affair. She would take me to his house and leave me in the living room, and they went to his room and locked the door. Sometimes we were there for several hours. I was kind of used to it, as I would get taken to her friends' houses when they played cards and sometimes stayed overnight, so I didn't really complain. Sometimes though, I remember getting really tired of it and I would beg my mom to go back home or if I could stay at home while she went, but she would yell at me and take me anyways. Back then I didn't really think anything of it, but a couple years back (I am 17/F) I thought about it more and realized that she was cheating. I asked my dad about it, and he didn't confirm, but I knew immediately that he knew. My dad is the absolute definition of the perfect parent.. He is strict but trusts me. He cares about me, but doesn't drown me in attention. He's ALWAYS treated me as an adult and allowed me to make my own decisions. I can't even fathom how he could have stayed with my mom after that, especially since she is someone who is extremely erratic with emotions and takes it out on family members. I've always had a deep rooted hatred (yes, hatred) for my mother, but I always thought it was just because of how she treated me and my brothers. Considering my feelings towards her, I've always taken her shit and not done or said anything back. I just treat her with respect and "love" because I know that's what my dad would want. I'm wondering if that has affected my ability to connect with others, especially in relationships. I've had plenty of things with guys but haven't been able to really connect with anyone. Do you think it's because of my mother?? Thank you in advance.

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<bot>: Mom had affair & took me with her to man's house every time. I have trouble connecting with men. Do you think these are related? Is there anything I can do to fix this and the emotional damage left by my mother?