<human>: Can you condense the text into a few key points?

Dated this man for less than six months but the relationship has been really deep and intense so emotionally it's closer to a year. He's a redditor but I don't care if he sees this.

He's sweet, patient, kind, and shows me the most amazing and pure unconditional love. Much of the time I do the same but sometimes I've gotten into these moods of looking for problems, getting scared and pushing him away, and allowing my fear of commitment to create ambivalence about him (not in the sense of doubting how I feel - more in the sense of doubting that I am safe from emotional harm and need to abandon him before he abandons me). Not only that - it's like he loves me so much it scares me and I end up testing him because it's hard to accept (on one level) he could feel that way after the amount of time we've had together. Yeah, it's messed up. I love him more than I've loved anyone too.

I'm starting to control it all better but I need help with damage control. (I have gotten therapy for these issues by the way. I have started to redouble my efforts to apply what i learned there.) He needs to see that my level of attachment approaches his own. I tried to explain that I'm very attached or I wouldn't have put him through this crap in the first place. He deserves something more and better than that, though. 

I am better at nonverbal love communication but i suspect he needs it to be verbal. I have bought him cute gifts in the past related to inside jokes but he doesnt react very strongly, which makes me think he doesnt put much priority on receiving anything tangible from me. He seems to prefer to be the one doing things for me (except when he is frustrated with me, at which point he gets a kick out of me doting on him). Considering what he seems to respond to, how can I repair the damage?
<bot>: I've pushed bf away at times and he is understandably cautious now. I need help doing damage control and help figuring out how to not let my fears control me so much.