<human>: Can you succinctly summarize the text in 1-3 sentences?

My ex-girlfriend and I broke up this weekend.  It was mutual as we both knew that our relationship had a ton of problems. 

She was mean, we fought all the time, she grew distant (both emotionally and physically).  I wasn't having fun anymore and we had definitely lost the spark that made me so connected to her in the first place.

Here's my dilemma.  I just can't stop thinking about her.  I've tried to go NC but part of me wants to salvage the relationship even though she treated me badly.  I know part of it is not wanting to see her with anyone else.

So how do I start the process of getting over her and not caring? I have her number memorized unfortunately and I've already deleted her on facebook. Also, why do I want her back? I consider myself a pretty rational person.
<bot>: Girlfriend and I broke up.  She was mean all the time.  I want her back though, but I don't want to want her back.