<human>: We've broken up twice in high school before college. She broke up with me once because her mom found out we kissed (i cried like a baby), and the second time I did (cried a couple of days later). Everything was pretty smooth until senior when stress started to consume us (SAT, TAKS, College). I took on a lot of stress and her mother added to it, which led me to make my decision. We're both freshmen in college now. A month ago she started texting me again except she had a different number, so I didn't know at the time it was her. For some reason I decided I had to randomly chat this person up (my ex). Some time pass and I learn that it's her and I'm ecstatic about it! We meet up for coffee and started chatting like old times and pretty soon we're like we were before. Very flirtatious, sexually aggressive, and it feels like we connect. Now this is were you could say my ego and selfishness comes in. I feel like I don't want to commit to just her. I want to explore around and have fun. At the same time I feel like I won't get anyone like her again. I've told my friend about this and he said "it's because she's your first, so that's why you feel she's the best". I've also complained to him about how I wanted her back before this. Now I told him about this and he said "you wanted her back, and you got her back. Don't fuck this up." I blame the hormones and my boyish nature.

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<bot>: Had a history with my ex. Can't decide to officially move on or stay with her. Afraid of commitment and wanna have fun with other young women.