<human>: Can you condense the text into three sentences or less?

So I already feel like I know how this is going to go, but I want to vent I guess. 

I've been dating a girl for a few months now, and I'm not entirely sure of the longevity of it. She'll be moving away in the next year and the chances of us being together after that seem pretty slim. I do like her, but I'm very interested in other women as well. To be honest it seems like we're together because we're both just so lonely.

This is where I come off like a jerk. I've been texting/messaging a few other girls recently to flirt. I've always been faithful and I've never cheated on anyone in my life. Unfortunately, now I can see that part of myself slowly going away. My self control has been really poor lately, as I've also been drinking heavily (while on antidepressants), taking painkillers, etc. I have pretty serious depression and anxiety issues and tend to self medicate a lot.

Anyway, I just don't know what I'm doing anymore. I feel bad going behind her back with this type of behavior, but I do it anyway. I don't want to hurt her, but at the same time I want to feel fulfilled sexually and emotionally--which I'm not quite feeling from being with her. 

Another thing that is concerning is that I feel like others' perception of me is changing. I have always felt respected, and now it seems as if people are put off by me. 

I don't know if I want advice or what. There are a million more things I could say about this but it's all me trying to justify my behavior. I'm just so sad and want to feel love and acceptance. 

What do you all think?
<bot>: Basically, I'm in a relationship but have an overwhelming urge to be with other women. Very depressed, using drugs and alcohol.