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I posted the other day about feeling like the loser sister between myself, my sister, and my brother. Not a lot of people commented, but I deleted it because I was worried they'd see something in it and recognise me. (I'm a chicken shit.)

Long story short, my siblings were awesome in high school, continued to be awesome. I was not awesome in high school, continued to not be awesome in adult life.

This is a little bit of an update, and a little bit of a request for guidance.

First off, I listened to the advice written, and I talked to my siblings about my feelings. My sister gave me an "are you insane" look, and told me that she always envied me growing up because I was such a mellow child and have what she described as "the best sense of humour ever". 

My brother sighed, gave me one of those hard stares, and told me that I was comparing apples and oranges. He said that I should only compete against myself, because I have no idea what's going on in the background of everyone else's lives. He added if I wasn't happy, then I needed to change whatever wasn't working. (We talked for a long time, but that's the brief of it.)

So here I am. With goals. I want to keep them pretty private because I'm scared of failing, but I wanted to ask the sub for some guidance in getting under way.

Any advice on how to begin working on the hardest relationship I've ever had? I've always treated myself like an annoying person that won't go away. How do I start to love and take care of myself so that I can be the best I can be?
<bot>: Talked to siblings about feeling like a loser. They both said I wasn't, and told me if I wasn't happy I needed to change stuff. I don't even like myself, how can I change?