<human>: I've been friends with this girl since the very first day at the university. We've been hanging out and helping each other right up until our graduation. Now we live in different countries and occasionally talk on skype, but I still enjoy those conversations a lot.

So my problem is that I've always felt kind of competitive with her, about everything. It bothers me because I have no reason to feel that way. We've never been rivals at anything, we have completely different outlooks on life, we like different types of men and pursue different goals. I want to just enjoy her company because she is funny, witty and always has good stories to tell, but instead I try hard to refrain from belittling her efforts or decisions and/or brag about mine. I sometimes tell her that I think she's not going the right way in her life, but I admit to myself that I say it not only because I care about her (which I do), but because part of me wants her to feel bad.

Even now that we don't see each other often I still feel like I have to prove something to her, and I don't know why. I've never had a reason to be jealous of her over anything. How do I get over this need to validate myself in her eyes?

Oh and I must note that she is very very much like me in terms of background and general ambitions, we even look somewhat alike, maybe that has to do with it.

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<bot>: I constantly feel the urge to treat my friend like an asshole, although I know she doesn't deserve it and I would like to put an end to it