<human>: Can you succinctly summarize the text in 1-3 sentences?

So I probably watch more porn than the average girl and so I was scrolling through a page and clicked on one that looked good. To my shock the guy in the video was my cousin. I texted him and asked him if he does porn and he reluctantly said yes. He said that he started getting low on money at uni and that he didn't want to bother his parents as they were already having money issues. He said that after a while he started enjoying it and so carried it on. He told me not to tell any family members as he'll tell them when it's the right time.

I've had a small crush on him since last year but I thought that would fade. But since I've seen his porn videos and seen him naked it's only increased the desire. I know that some people will say that having sexual feelings for your cousin is wrong but I just can't help it. Do you think that I should stop thinking of him like this or should I tell him how I feel.
<bot>: I found out my cousin is a porn actor and I've developed feelings for him. I want to start a relationship but I'm not sure about the whole cousins thing.