<human>: Sorry if this is better suited for another sub. I can't seem to find any general mental health subs that are very active.

Basically, I have a lot of mental health issues. I have a terrible self-esteem, I'm depressed, I have anxiety, I have ADHD. I have a lot of bad habits that I need to work on. I just need help. But one of my biggest problems is that I have trouble trusting people, and this is preventing me from getting the most out of my therapy sessions.

The thing is, I'm a perfectionist. I deal with a lot of feelings of shame and guilt. I'm paranoid about being harshly judged by other people and I'm desperate to be liked and accepted. And this is especially true with authority figures of any kind, whether they're professors, parents, or, well, therapists. 

So I've had three therapists now. And I feel like I've made progress in some areas. But some things are never going to get better if I can't open up. 

The problem is, the longer I spend with a therapist, the less I trust them, because the more of a rapport we have, the more I value their opinion of me. I like my current therapist but I feel like I spend half of my sessions just nervously rambling about nothing because there's so much I can't bring myself to talk about it. 

Has anyone else had this problem? And how did you overcome it?

Can you succinctly summarize the text in 1-3 sentences?
<bot>: my trust issues are so bad that I can't even trust the person whose job it is to help me with my trust issues