<human>: First off, this is going to be a little complicated. This whole thing started 3 years ago when I became friends with James (Obvious alias, he's my now ex-friend). We were "best friends" for 3 years, and he was later my boyfriend for a few months. He emotionally abused me for the majority of the relationship, and most likely never actually had any romantic feelings for me. I have Borderline Personality Disorder. This means that I have an extreme fear of abandonment, which causes me to occasionally (like once a week) have mental breakdowns. These breakdowns are usually caused by the fear of abandonment. I left James about 3 months ago, and told him I never wanted to talk to him again. I held true to this, but he's still a friend to my best friend, who I will call Steve. Steve tells me all the time that I'm a much more precious friend to him than James is, and he demonstrates it all the time. The problem comes in with the fact that he operates on a first come first serve kind of mentality. James always beats me to talking to Steve, because of our time schedules. This means they spend severely more time together than me and Steve do. I always feel like he's drifting away from me, and so I do one of three things. I sit down and cry for a few hours, I tell Steve that I never want to talk again and break the relationship off for a few days or weeks, or we have a falling out and end up even closer. I can't continue to do this, and I want to tell him it's me or him. Do I have the right to do this, after all that James has put me through, and how much his actions still terrorize my daily life, or should I just cut my connections with them?

Summarize the given text in a few sentences.
<bot>: I have BPD and it makes it so I need to either cut myself off from my friends, or tell my best friend that it's either me, or my ex-boyfriend