<human>: Can you summarize the given text in a few sentences?

This is a throwaway acct because the person I am seeking advice about browses reddit. 

I have known this girl for a few years now. We have been friends from the day we met, we enjoy playing video games together and talking almost everyday. We have a very complicated history, however. Ever since we've known each other she's been in an on and off relationship with another person. However, that do not stop emotions and feelings from developing between each other. Our feelings grew and eventually we met up. We never truly hooked up, but there was a fair bit of messing around. We had a long distance relationship for over a year, even though she lived with her boyfriend. Things got more complicated when he proposed to her and she said yes. And a year later hey got married. This was a few months ago. 

We've still remained friends, however, recently I was able to visit her and we spent the day together and a lot of old feelings came back for the both of us. I gave her a massage when we got back to my hotel room, but didn't do anything else. We both wanted more but she kept saying she couldn't but we still ended up touching each other, but only briefly. I can tell she felt very bad about it and so did I. And I was very forward with my kissing.

I know that I should move on and suppress my feeling for her. I feel super guilty about what happened and I have apologized to her and asked for her forgiveness. I know I have done what I can and it is up to her to forgive me. I am just here seeking words from other people. I know I have done wrong, thank you for reading this.
<bot>: had relationship with girl who is now married, visited her and things happened between us, now I feel bad for how I acted.