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**back story:** ive been talking to this guy for almost a year and a half. hes the best friend ive ever had, and possibly ever could have... we had made it obvious that we were attracted to each other, but because im not turning 18 for another 6 months we had kept friendly and PG 13. it has been stressful for both of us, being so far apart (cross country to be exact), but the benefits of our friendship along with the future possibilities outweighed anything else. 

**until** i met this other guy on the bus. instant attraction. me being a virgin as well as pretty damned inexperienced with relationships i was deeply intrigued with the prospect of dating this guy. i want to make it clear that i had not promised the first guy anything, we were friends, *however* we had both implied that we would wait. so yeah, im already an ass for even thinking about doing that.

so i sit and talk with the bus dude for a while and hes kinda shady, has a background, possibly playing me just to get what he wants. i give him my number. we meet up the next day and talk some more. next thing i know im underneath him. i really enjoyed myself, and ive seen him/talked to him since then, but in the back of my mind i still wonder if hes using me and ive thrown away mr perfect because of mr one-night-stand.

ive noticeably upset my friend. i told him i wanted to see where things went with this guy before i met him the second time and although we both knew this might happen i still feel like shit for doing what i did. HOWEVER, at the same time im enjoying the little mess ive gotten into with this other guy.
<bot>: lost my best friend and possible mr perfect because i wanted to "see where it went" with another guy, lost my virginity, in a shit storm, confused and somehow enjoying it.