<human>: All my life, I have had anxiety. It usually arises when new things come around. And at this point, well, getting handsy is definitely a new thing.
I've been dating a wonderful guy for a year and six months, Both of us are virgins and plan to have sex some time soon. Anyway there've been plenty of hot makeouts, etc. and him touching me, and recently he's been gently egging me to touch him back.
I just feel like I can't do it, even though I really want to. It's so awkward and weird and NEW. I've explained this to him, and he says he understands completely, but he would like to see me at least try, because it's not THAT big of a deal. it's frustrating because I WANT to be intimate with him, but that little voice in the back of my head that freaks out about social cues and flooding the kitchen sink is now also freaking out about groping my boyfriend.
I have no idea how to begin to get rid of this dumb anxiety.

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<bot>: I have anxiety and its making me too nervous to give my boyfriend a handjob, much less grope him, wat do?