<human>: Can you give me the gist of the text in a nutshell?

It's been about 4 months now since she broke up with me. I've spent the first month in no-contact, broke it a few times, but have kept it up for at least 2 months now.

I've been doing everything I should be doing: Having loads of fun, trying new things, going out with friends, working out, critically looking at my life and what I want to do in the coming years (and made some major changes that should've been made months ago).

I really do have the feeling I'm on the right track of my life at the moment, and at times I really am convinced this breakup was a good thing for me: it got me out of some kind of sedated lifestyle and got me critically thinking about what would make me happy again.

Yet even now I catch myself thinking "Once I see her again we'll patch things up", "She probably broke up with me for how I was, she'll see how much I've changed and will warm up to me again" etc. I realise these are not healthy thoughts to 'move on', and logically I know I should shake them off, but emotionally they keep coming back.

How on earth do I get rid of this ?

I'll be seeing her again in a month or so because we're volunteering for the same project*, and I'm afraid I'll still be in this mindset by then and her not reciprocating those feelings are going to hurt me all over again :-/

*) (I'd hoped she'd have bowed out knowing I'd be in charge, but she hasn't, so not much I can do about it)
<bot>: After 4 months after break-up, 2 months no-contact, doing everything I should be doing, yet still can't shake the hope of getting her back. How ?