<human>: Provide a brief overview of the text.

I am a 30 year old guy, never been in a relationship.  Most of my life, I was focused on my studies and career.  But a few years ago, I've really been trying to get into a relationship.  Asking friends, online dating, even just approaching interesting looking women.

But nothing really works out, and the constant rejection and loneliness is really getting to me.  I am having a very difficult time dealing with it.

I have friends that I spend time with, a family that lives far away but loves me, a good career, hobbies.  I work out, not awful looking.  Very nerdy.  But most nights, I just feel incredibly alone.  And I can't get it out of my head.  So much so that it paralyzes me from doing anything else, and I just feel like crying.  And I am pretty sure all that is bleeding over into my dates and romantic interactions with women.  

I know the advice is just "Wait for it to happen", and I can keep that mindset for a little while.  But then I start to wonder why it hasn't happened.  If there really is someone out there for me.  If I'll end up like this forever, and there's just something wrong with me.  And this oscillation between getting motivated, trying to meet women romantically, it not working out, getting lonely and depressed.  It keeps happening, whatever I do.

Or the other thing is "Fake it til you make it", but I really just can't anymore.  It's so stressful trying to put on a happy facade when you truly believe that you will end up by yourself.

I don't know.  I am not really sure how to break it, or what I should even be doing.  I've tried ignoring it, distracting myself, embracing it and letting it pass, fighting against it.  I don't really need any advice on how to improve my dating.  I know all of it already.  I sort of feel like giving up right now.  Nothing seems to work.  I feel absolutely terrible today,  and I didn't know where else to turn besides here.
<bot>: Lonely guy having relationship troubles.  I don't really need dating advice, I just need ways to deal with being alone.