<human>: Long story short: My brother is 2 years older than me and since a very young age we started to explore with our bodies and sexuality. It was all very consensual and by the time i was 12 we began to have proper sex, with me being the 'bottom'. it lasted for a year or two, and then without explanations it faded away and we never spoke about it ever since. I grew to be a straight guy with occasional gay bottom fantasies, but those events somehow keep haunting me. I don't know whether i should talk to my brother, or tell my family, my girlfriend etc. i don't love him, or miss him or anything like that.. i just want to give this all story a sense of closure because for too long i let those events define me as a person, but i'm not sure whether anyone out there, especially those who love me, will be able to understand or cope with it

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<bot>: I had gay sex with my brother 12 years ago and although i'm way over it I sometimes still struggle to live a normal life and consider myself normal.. What are your thoughts?