<human>: This is a long story but will try to condense it. Me 24 he 25 and a foundation year doctor who now lives 2 hours away. Spent 2.5 years seeing each other almost every night though he had just come out of a horrible relationship and didn't want another, just fun at university. But we really couldn't face being without each other, as periods of cut off communication showed. he moved away 6 months ago and I found a boyfriend so stopped talking to him (made it too hard to commit to anyone else) but ended up breaking up with the guy and that period of loss made him determined to enter a serious relationship with me (which I have always wanted, and if nothing else need to get out of my system before I can consider anyone else).   

  
  It isn't easy with the distance, but would have been very manageable emotionally had he not accepted a position in New Zealand for a year starting in 6 months. I think he should take it and it will be great for him, but I don't think we can stay together when he leaves, at least not initially, because mentally he needs to have a big adventure to learn to be satisfied by the little ones. with this looming deadline, he is finding it difficult to continue in our loving committed relationship because he is petrified of leaving the country and losing it as a support and dealing with the heartbreak then (rather than now?!? boys are dumb) - stupid to borrow trouble I feel, but once the mind worms are in, the doubt can gnaw away. But whenever we discuss breaking up now (since he sees no future), we both end up crying (which is a huge deal for him, especially in public) and cannot face the idea of it being over or being without each other.   

    
What do I do?! Has anyone else faced a similar situation? I am trying to carry on as normal, although keep blowing things out of proportion as a sign he wants to break up, which leads to me upsetting him and therefore myself.

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<bot>: boyfriend is struggling with doubt over lack of immediate future due to year in NZ fast approaching, but we can't break up due to pesky love, how do I stop sabotaging things so these are the best 6 months of our lives?