<human>: Give me the gist of the text in a nutshell

These past 2 months or so my husband has not had a lol of sex with me. We used to do it about 3 or 4 times a week and now maybe once a week.

He is depressed. So these last few weeks whenever I initiate ssx he says 'Nooo go away!' or just groans and says 'no doggy down' as a joke. He often starta to touch me and them stops.

He says he feels pressured because I want sex, and that makes him not want any. I feel so terrible. 

He will be telling me how bored he is and I just think to myself 'huh maybe bang your wife?'.

I told him that the constant rejection hurt but he gets reeally mad and says it's not 'rejection' and me seeing it that way makes him more unwilling.

I cry myself to sleep now sometimes. I never ever ever reject him. I just wish he'd be into me again :\. 

And yah I probably come off as clingy but I keep this to myself most of the time. I've tried to talk about it. He says I just need to stop pressuring him.

He keeps making gross jokes about shit or farts loudly. He will grope me and then just get distracted by his video games. 

I dread going to bed at night cause I fear it is going to be another sexless day. I just wish he'd fucking try to get in the mood but he's just pissed. 

Idk how to stop feeling like shit and accept this.
<bot>: = husband barely fucks me anymore. I need to stop pressuring him. I feel like the ugliest piece of shit in the world. How can I let go of this?