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So my girlfriend and I have had a very "less than ideal" past. We dated for 2 years in a hellish relationship of roller coasters and emotion. We split up but acted like a couple for a long while until I found out she was seeing other guys, then I broke contact with her and after about 9 months we got together again. We've now been dating for a year and 3 months, living with each other for 10 months, and we're slowly realizing how incompatible we are. 

We Love each other but we want way different things in life, we have different ideas for what a relationship should be, and we both have unwarranted issues with each other's hobbies. She's done some things that have caused a lack of trust from me that may or may not be warranted. She has a fear of commitment and being attached to someone at such a young age while I am actually more happy with that. Bottom line is we aren't compatible, which is a shame because I currently feel like she'll always have a place in my heart.

I'm having a rough time with all of this. We aren't the people the other wants us to be and I so wish we were. Our lease is up in the beginning of June and we've agreed to be together for the next two month but essentially agreed that after that we don't know what will happen. Her exact words were "I don't want to lose you again, I'm going to hold onto you for as long as I can."

I'm at the point where, while I'm having a rough time, I'm optimistic that she'll become the person she wants to be when she doesn't have me to hold her back and I can smile at the thought of her traveling the world like she wants to, but I feel like these last two months are going to kill me. I don't want to break things off early but I feel like I'm wasting my time.
<bot>: girlfriend and I are calling it quits in two months and I feel like this is a waste of time but don't want to let go.