<human>: The thing is I have no idea where I fall sexually and I know its not all black and white. It just seems like a bad idea if I come out as gay when I can secretly be bi and date women to compose my image. I just have no idea where I stand, I've never been disgusted by women or men. I have had one weird sexual experience with a man twice my age and I've been with women around my age. Neither were amazing or horrible. 

Sometimes I feel being bi is harder than being gay since people understand it more. If i told a girl I was bi it would be a lot different if a girl told a guy she was bi. I just dont know how to figure out where I stand without letting the cat out of the bag to everyone I know. 

This problem has led to some self harm and destructive decisions in the past year. I was up last night just crying out of sheer depression, confusion and stress. What if I get older and can't figure it out and im left alone forever. What if people find out and that puts strains on my current relationships? I want to just wait it out but how long do I deny part of myself. How can I deny something I haven't even figured out. How do I figure it out without acting on physical attraction?

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<bot>: can't figure out sexuality, was depressed and self harming, realized my inner conflict, still depressed and dont know what to do.