<human>: Can you provide a brief rundown of the text in within 3 sentences?

I'm a white male in my late 20's, I have the perfect job that pays me more than $100k and treats me well, I'm healthy and fit, I own a beautiful house that I rent out to some of the best people I know, I have great friends that are always there for me, but...

I've never had really any family and I divorced my ex-wife after about many years together. She was an absolute mess (and still is) and I always felt like I had to take care of her. My life is so much better now yet I feel completely trapped and I've lost all meaning. I've been with great girls since her but she's definitely still a thorn in my side. We had a great friendship but she was just an awful person and we had a terrible relationship... but the friendship and powerful love was and is there. I can't figure out why I love her and why I can't get her out of my head. I've tried everything. She's completely below average in a lot of regards.

I've tried therapy and drugs (both marijuana and prescribed) and exercise and nothing works. I can't shake this. I have everything I need but not everything I want. It seems that all I think I need is a stable woman that I love yet I can't seem to love anyone anymore. I just broke up with a girl (who had the hotest body and the smartest mind yet I felt nothing for her) after we had basically been living together for a year.

I'm so lost and trapped.
<bot>: I have everything that I need but love and there's something seriously wrong with me that I can't identify. HELP!!!!