<human>: Can you condense the text into a few key points?

Im starting to realize it's really holding us back and making it harder for us to grow together. We've discussed the balls off this topic in the past but all I get is a pissed off SO because she feels like its all I want from her. 

I can't seem to articulate the fact that it's a barrier for me from having a deeper relationship, and its not like a need blowjobs every day. I just don't known if I can marry a girl that won't give one ever. 

It's a lack of both a skill and willingness. She doesnt like receiving oral either which just baffles me completely. I feel like we just need to find that special thing we can do for each other that will make the other person want to go above and beyond for you so our relationship can flourish. For me that thing is giving and receiving head. I feel like this should just be a minor hang up but this has been a problem ever since we were first sexually active.
<bot>: I don't know if I'll be happy if I marry a girl that won't give me a blowjob after 6 years. It's really holding us back.