<human>: Give me a shortened version of the text

At first, I (25m) agreed to let things run their course and to completely avoid any kind of interaction with her (34f), even though it meant basically giving up happiness we've never encountered before. During the break up, on that cold evening, we both understood and agreed that it was the end (we were together for a little over a year). 

She cried, but I held my tears and kept it all inside. I just hugged her and kissed her as if there was no tomorrow... Ever since, I have choked up a little and my eyes have turned watery with each song and memory that remind me of her; however, things are going backwards for me, because although i started off great, each day I seem to miss her more and more. 

I wonder how she is doing, if she's thinking of me, and if she also has considered contacting me. Today, I want to call/text her so badly! But fear itself, fear of rejection, and pride, are (thankfully) in the way. 

The very same night after the break up, as I was driving home, she text me and said "wth! and sent me another text with a video link to a goodbye song." I want to use that as an excuse and send her one more text saying, "you broke the rule once, so I have the right to do the same!" and tell her I still think of her every waking minute. :'(
here's some cold water, she is married, and so am I...
<bot>: after a year of being with her, she (34f) and I (25m) ended things agreeing to end all communication. A month later, here I am DYING to talk to her. It was a forbidden love.