<human>: Could you distill the essence of the text into 1-3 sentences?

So first off, this is entirely my issue. My best friend Elaina has never said or done anything to contribute to this, it's just me. In fact she's always been supportive, complimenting me when I get new clothes or if my make up looks nice.

Elaina is super pretty, like she's incredibly cute. I'm overweight, with messy hair and glasses. Every time I'm around her I keep comparing myself to her and I feel terrible about myself. 

It's even worse because we often hang out in public and I compare who gets more attention from other people. Or if she's telling me about how a guy at work hit on her or asked for her number I get jealous especially because I haven't been asked out since last year. (She's a waitress so she often meets new people.)

I'm trying to work on fixing myself--I've improved my makeup, I try to dress better and get contacts. I joined a gym and I'm trying to eat healthier. I just don't know how to improve the way I'm thinking, I'm worried that it's going to lead to resentment on my part, even subconsciously and I don't want to ruin our friendship.
<bot>: My friend's incredibly hot. I'm not. How do I fix my self-esteem so it doesn't ruin our friendship.