<human>: Can you condense the text into three sentences or less?

I ask because I miss her and care for her. 95% of the time we were okay, but I was always on edge incase we fought: 

She was inhuman when furious with me, those fights left me anxious and nervous around her. 

If she promises never to hit me again, *under any circumstances* and gets professional help - is there any hope for me to gain trust again and feel I can say what's really on my mind? 
Or are we now a lost-cause?

I've been out of touch from her, to avoid the panic and palpatations that come from the memories of our last big fights... I've started divorce proceedings and she's asking for us to sit down and talk.
In conversation, she has all the control - maybe without even knowing it from the conditioning I've created (possibly for myself) based on fear of another lash-out/attack.
<bot>: My wife would injure me in fights to get me to 'understand' her perspective on a situation, once she's tipped over the edge of frustration from trying to explain to me how I've upset her.