<human>: So I feel like I'm in a pretty bad place right now.  I'm  so so lonely.  Coming home to my empty apartment seems like the most depressing thing in the world.  

There is someone, let's call him Alex, that I'd really like to reach out to.  I'm just worried he will see me as a drama queen. 

A little back story:I've known him for 3 years. We aren't 'officially' dating because I work a lot and he is in grad school (in another state, no less).  He will probably be moving back to where I live in a few months. We occasionally (maybe every few months) visit one another.  When I am with him it's intense, mind blowing.  He is the kindest, smartest, sexiest man I've ever met.  But long distance, he acts like my boyfriend one day, and the next pretty much ignores me.

Anyway, I have found myself completely floored with depression over the past few days.  I've gone to work, but the moment I get home I can't stop crying.  I crave reassurance from him, not even about 'us' , but about myself as I'm feeling pretty insecure.  I'm worried that if I do, I'll find its an "off" day with him and will be even more depressed over his cool demeanor.  This makes him sound like a bit of a jerk, he isn't - just very busy and very self contained, I guess.

I have other friends who are in town I can talk to, but can't get him off my mind.

Can you succinctly summarize the text in 1-3 sentences?
<bot>: Want to reach out to long distance 'friend' but he might just be a 'friend' cause he doesn't have time for this type of stuff.