<human>: I'm not sure if I'm in the right place or not. But this is my first attempt to try get any tips or help on this issue I have. Basically i met this girl online about one and a half year ago and I fell in love with her and eventually she got a crush on me too (after a while). 

Time goes on and this is my first ever time really having some kind of deep bond/connection with a girl. I didn't realize until I met her how jealous I can get. One time she didn't skype with me  and I saw her online on skype, and I actually started crying. That's how jealous I got and how crushed it made me feel. But things were nice and me and her talked everyday and we also met in real life, kissed and all that stuff. 

But eventually the guy she was always in love with deep down, comes back (her ex). This guy, she also only knows on the internet. So I get crushed and to this day after 6 months they seem to be doing fine together. 

So lets get to the problem.  Everytime I would see her online on skype or just on any other kind of social media. I'd just get so sad cause I know she doesn't talk to me and some other guy and that jealousy makes me insane. But I can't stop looking until she's offline, that is the only time I can find peace and relax. I constantly have my phone with whatsapp and skype open to see if she is talking to somebody and when she will quit. 

Its making my days so unproductive cause it makes me sad when I see her online. It feels like I'm just harming myself but the feeling of not knowing if she's talking to somebody or not is really frustrating to me. And eventually I will look to see if she's connected/online or not. This has been going on for almost a year soon.

This might be really weird, I haven't really found anyone with the same issue, however I'm sure there are some. Anyways if you guys have some tips, I would appreciate it.

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<bot>: Constantly check if the girl I used to be in love with is online on several different social medias and communication apps and when she is, it makes me sad. Only time I can relax is when she is not online.