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I was in a relationship that ended in November.  It ended out of the blue on her terms (which included permanently deleting me from her life).  It's been so many months but I keep replaying the break-up over in my head.  I thought I was over it months ago, but I'm not. 

Thing is, we only dated for just under 3 months.  I know I shouldn't still be sad about this but I am.  I've never been like this before.  I know it's completely irrational.  

Compounding everything is I'm getting older and something kicked in, in the last year or so, where I'm looking for a partner/marriage/kids it seems.  The ex felt like she could be that, first time I've ever felt that.  It obviously didn't work out but it threw me into a depression/obsession that I'm still not out of.
  
I talked to a therapist for a month after it first happened, but my insurance ran out for that.  My friends, they all thought I got over this months ago.  

I guess I'm rambling-- I was just sitting on my bed re-experiencing getting dumped (re-imagining it, etc), and am feeling like WTF do I keep thinking about this?!?!?!

I've been dating for months now, post ex, and I've met no-one that excites me or that I really want to date.  

Ugh.  I'd post this on r/breakups but it really isn't about a breakup anymore-- I have issues.
<bot>: Not over a brief relationship that ended 8 months ago.  Keep re-hashing break-up mentally, re-depressing myself every single day.