<human>: (Story time)

Hey reddit, I'm going to cut straight to the point. **I feel like my life is in a rutt and I don't know where else to turn**. 

I'm 20. I'm out of school. I was a good high school student, with good grades, but my passion was never in school. I'm starting a clothing company (trying). I think that I'm finally on the other side of a nearly 3 year on and off relationship with a girl who was manipulative and had many other issues that I will leave out of this post. It has changed me to the core. I feel spiteful. I tend to feel angry and unforgiving when friends bail on plans or "wrong" me in anyway. Money is a hardship, of course and I know I'm not alone in this. I suffer from anxiety on a regular basis in random occasions. I go from sad to angry to happy to hopeful to miserable within a matter of a half hour. I used to be happy, and careless. I was legitimately a happy person until the past year or two. I can go on but I will certainly lose your interest before we get to the end of my laundry list. haha. 

 I've turned to alcohol before, I've turned to weed, I find some joy in music, I've tried to get myself out and about to pick myself up. Sometimes it works for a while but I always find myself back right where I was. I'm not trying to make this a cry for help, even if it may sound like it. To be honest, I'm asking you for your stories, not just because I want to see how others cope with their life in transition but also because I really, really, really enjoy reading about some of the amazing things us redditors have accomplished. When the chips are down, and I'm not feeling quite like myself, I turn to reddit, now.

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<bot>: Tell me, what helps you through your toughest times? When you're struggling, where do you find the beauty in your life?