<human>: I had a best friend (let's call him Jude) for like 3 years and then we started dating. People told not to but we loved each other. We had completed more then three years together when we decided to try an open relationship. That's when we met Taylor, and we both fell in love with him. So we started a three way relationship (I believe that's how people call it in english). We had a nice time together, serious business. We even moved in together. So two months ago Jude, my first boyfriend, said he did not want it anymore. The next day Taylor told me that he thought we should not be together also. So all 3 of us broke up. Next week I find out they had sex. I get mad, the most because  Taylor said he could not choose one of us over the other, and also when I went to visit him the day before he said it would be better if I did not try hugging him. Well, I got mad, we all talked about and decided it really was over. Then Jude started seeing another boy, Taylor got not mad, but insane, and told Jude he could not live without him. So now they are together, as couple. It's been like a month or more now. 

I am broke, destroyed. Really, I don't know what to do. Jude was my bestfriend and my first lover, we had, considering the time we were only friends, a 8 year relationship. Taylor was the person for whom I've had the most intense passion of my life. I have never had a break up before, they both were my first and second boyfriends. Also, I live alone in a city 600km away from my family, and I don't really feel like I have friends here. Most people I know are, like, acquaintances (and their friends). 

I don't know what to do. I feel I will never fully recover from this. And I have no one to really talk to. Please, I need help. I'm lost.

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<bot>: had a threeway relationship and now they left and are together. I am feeling very alone since I am not at my hometown. I miss both of them even though I feel betrayed