<human>: Give me the gist of the text in a nutshell

There's this girl (20F) who I've (20M) been pretty close friends with now for the last few months. We're a lot alike, we're going to the same college, we like the same things, we hang out with the same people. Life is pretty good. 

Then I fell in love with her. And I mean I fell HARD! Problem was, she is NOT looking for a relationship right now (damaged goods thanks to her ex) and she just wanted to enjoy being single. Ya know, live life like Archer. That bothered me for the longest time. I was jealous of the guys she was seeing, I was paranoid that she was gonna stop being friends with me because I wanted to be in a relationship. Things just got out of hand. 

Now, just tonight, after torturing myself over this woman for months. After wanting nothing more than to be her boyfriend so desperately. After crying myself to sleep countless times. I've just stopped having these feelings towards her. I don't feel like I want to hold her against myself anymore. I don't feel the urge to kiss her or even hang out with her anymore. It's like she just ceased to be interesting to me. 

I think she does have feelings for me. She's admitted to having them but not wanting to express them at this time (again, she's hurt). And I get that. I totally get it. It all seems so clear now. The problem is, I don't WANT to not have these feelings for her. I WANT to love her. I WANT the desire to still be there, but now I think I've lost it. 

This is really bothering me right now. How could this happen? Am I really that fucked up? I don't want to be indifferent towards her. I'm afraid. Hell, I'm terrified. She's the only person I've met that I've ever felt that I truly loved. I'm so confused. Can someone help me out with this?
<bot>: Loved girl, she can't reciprocate (even though she probably does have feelings for me), cried a lot, now I don't feel anything towards her and I'm PISSED! Is this normal? Help!