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Hey, not sure if this is the right place for such a problem, but let's see if people here can share some insights with me about the thing

So, I've always had some pretty abnormal fantasies. Things, that turn me on a lot but are absolutely NOT socially acceptable and common and I guess would be perceived as "messed up". But also things that dont include doing anybody any harm and dont involve anyone who wouldn't want it. (Just to clarify, based on experience from my last LTR, I dont need these fantasies and fetishes in sex to have a great and fulfilling sex life, but still I'm really tempted to try them out)

I'm single now, and in theory free to do as I please. But to be honest, as much as I would like to try my fantasies out IRL, I'm afraid to do so, because I know I won't be able to tell about any of them my future partners out of shame.

And here's the dilemma. Should I let go of arranging a realization of my desires now, and let dreams be dreams, or should I try things out and just keep it to myself for future. I dont want to have to have secrets before my future beloved ones. But also I really want to know "how it feels like to do it".

Technically I won't be cheating on anybody now, but (most probably) I will have to keep these things to myself in future relationships.

Any thoughts?
<bot>: I'm single now and have abnormal fantsies and I'm not sure if I should try them out IRL (though i really want to), as I know I will be too ashamed to tell about them my future partner