<human>: Summarize the given text in a few sentences.

I've just been missing her so much lately. I thought I was over her, I started another relationship shortly after but it ended within three months because I didn't want to commit my.lofe to her. Every time that subject came up, I just had this feeling that this girl wasn't the girl i wanted to commit my life to..especially so early. I decided to make do with the single life, I thought taking time away from relationships would be good for me. But I just kept getting more lonely and depressed. I tried thinking of happy memories to make me feel better, and everyone I did, I began thinking about my ex all over again. I then found all of our old messages, all of our old photos, I found an old video that I recorded of her and she sounded beautiful. I missed her voice. I just need to tell her that I still love her. That I want her back. Even if things don't go the way I want it to, at least I'll know I tried rather than constantly hurting myself with constant thoughts of 'what ifs'. And if she ends up rejecting, maybe it's what I need in order  to move on from her. I just can't take this anymore, I need to tell her. But I don't know exactly how to pop back into her life. How exactly do I go about doing this? I don't know where she works, I don't want to call her because I want it to be a surprise. I need to get her alone somehow but I just don't know how. I'm thinking the only way is to come at night throwing small rocks at her window and getting her to come out. do you guys have any ideas?
<bot>: I want to tell my ex that I still love her and want her back, but I don't know exactly how to go about doing it.