<human>: So it's been over a month since my ex-gf broke it off with me. God it hurts to even just think that. If you've followed my other posts, you'll know that my ex had a crush on her close guy friend just weeks after we broke up. After I found that out, I just feel so unloved (I know people have been in much worse situations, but it still sucks nonetheless). I'm mending issues I've had with my friends, but I feel like because I don't speak up, my friends just trample all over me all the time. I'm just so weak right now and am in no position to "not give a fuck and walk away" because I don't want to loose more people from my life. I'm trying to do right by everyone, but they're slipping away. I have also joined the gym and am feeling good when I go. But once I'm back home and have to get on my computer and start studying again (I'm in my penultimate year at Uni), everything just comes crashing back down because I don't have that person to go love and get love from anymore. I don't have that person to whom I can go and be 100% open anymore. I don't have the person who says "it's okay, I'm here for you" anymore. It all sucks more because I know I'm the bigger reason for why the relationship ended - it was my insecurity and jealousy.

I spoke to my gf again recently - hoping that after a month, she'd start to see past the problems we had and see the good things we had, see the crazy deep love we had. But I found out that she cannot do that anymore, because she's been scarred. I found out she's excited about new guys in her future. I came to realise, she doesn't love me anymore, that the possibility for that again are insanely tiny (enough to be safely assumed impossible). In fact she doesn't even hate me anymore. It's just painfully cold indifference that's left. It hurts so so much to see I'm just a stranger to her now. When will this rain stop? When will the clouds clear? It's all too painful.

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<bot>: I pushed my ex-gf till she broke it off with me. It's been a month now. And she's happily over our relationship and I'm heartbroken and in excruciating pain.