<human>: Summarize the given text in a few sentences.

The story up until now:

My ex has borderline and I turned into a 'yes-man'. I was always afraid that every time it didn't go as she intended, she would switch moods from extremely happy to wanting to kill me. I adapted by reading every little signal from her and became very skilled at keeping her happy. She always threatened with breaking up and I became a weak person.

Two years after the break-up:

I meet a girl, sparks fly. I can honestly say I haven't felt like this about a girl. She's down-to-earth, has her own friend, does her own thing and as far as she tells me, she is really into me. We become a thing, everybody loves how we are together and most importantly, I and her are very happy together.

Then I need to move to the Philippines (I live in the Netherlands) from the 14th of September till January 22nd. She brings me to the train station. We cry, we kiss and I'm off. For the first 3 weeks, I miss her a lot but am able to maintain calm because I'm simply enjoying the fact that I have a perfect opportunity to experience a lot of new things. We skype nearly every night and all seems fine. I have my usual annoyances and bad mood moments, but nothing to serious.

The suddenly I start seeing different behavior. Please note that this means MY feelings, not necessarily the actual situation. This is were things become difficult for me. I have already told her about my situation with my ex and how it has scarred me. She understands and she says still likes me a lot.

I notice how she doesn't end her sentence with a usual kiss emoji and my mind start making incredible jumps. Every time she doesn't reply, every time something is different or I have the feeling she's not interested in the conversation, my heart starts racing and my thoughts of not being able to keep the relationship till January crosses my mind.

I explain this to her and although she understands, I have the feeling she now sees me as a weak person. Not the person she met.

I keep falling into this pit and I am afraid she notices and wants to leave me.
<bot>: This is a call for help. I want to treat her as a new person that compliments my life, but my scars are acting up.