<human>: Can you give me the gist of the text in a nutshell?

Ok so this is pretty embarrassing, I've never been able to tell anyone this (I tried bringing it up as a joke with my best friend but was chastised) so please don't be too harsh on me.

I don't really know where to start with this but I'm now a freshman in college and I have 2 male professors. One is in his 30s and is gay and one is in his 40s and married. I have another male professor that is online and I don't even know what he looks like. In middle and high school I had a handful of male teachers, those were mostly on the younger side mid20s-30s. 

I have been attracted to all of them. I imagine what would happen if we started a relationship and I wonder if they like me. It's really distracting from my academics because in lectures I'm literally sitting there fantasizing a relationship and I know that that's not normal. I even fantasize this about the online prof. I have, and I don't even know what he looks like, just his age/name/background. I can't talk to anyone about this because it's so embarrassing.

I'm in a field where I'll be continuing on after my bachelor's and getting a PHD...and from what I've heard, the farther you go on in academia, the more time you spend one on one with your advisor. I'm worried that if he's male I'll either be so distracted I can't focus or I'll try to pursue a relationship. 

Does anyone have any advice for me?

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<bot>: Have always been attracted to my male teachers/profs and it's making me feel really unfocused and guilty. What can I do to stop it?