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So I know when we started seeing each other in February 2007 it was a little wrong because I was 15 and he was 19. We were bf/gf but didn't begin our sexual relationship until I turned 16. We broke up for a little bit and got back together when I was 17 and our relationship was legal. We both had infidelities and he decided it was best we broke up at the end of 2009. I was devastated, heartbroken. Wanted another chance... We went no contact until 2011 when we hooked up once and we mutually went back to no contact.

Then in January 2013 we start seeing each other again. He wanted it to be a secret from any mutual friends and I agreed. After almost a year I told him I couldn't take it anymore because we were living a lie and we broke the news to our friends, apologized for hiding it so long. He started telling me he loved me again in July of last year. I was so happy to finally have my first love back... 

Well our relationship has never been all that great. He holds the past against me, accuses me of cheating and lying constantly. We're both extremely jealous and our relationship was toxic from the beginning. None the less this man, no matter what he says or does has my unconditional love.

Right now we are broken up and have been for a little over a week now but have talked nearly everyday. He broke up with me because he didn't want a closed relationship with me and I wasn't willing to open it. Now I wish I would have agreed because we're broken up and I still plan on continuing our sexual relationship once a week... He basically gets his cake and eats it too while I get to feel used and unwanted. I'm so distraught over this.
<bot>: off/on boyfriend / first love of almost 8 years left me for freedom says its permanent having trouble accepting it and can't stick to no contact without caving