<human>: My girlfriend [20F] of almost a year found texts between me [20M] and my ex[22F] about how I missed our sex life. She broke up with me immediately after finding them.

The texts basically said that I didn't mind me and my Gf's sex life but that me and my ex explored alot more and that I wish I could do the same with my current GF. Towards the end of the conversation me and my ex decided we should talk in person, about it and it sounded like I was planning on cheating. We did end up seeing each other but nothing happened, we just went to lunch and caught up

I feel absolutely guilty and ashamed, even though I didn't cheat, and I wouldn't have to begin with, I completely betrayed her trust. She was heartbroken.

The next day I apologized in person and brought her a dozen roses and wrote her a letter about how I was completely ashamed of myself and that I really do care about her and that I should have talked to her instead of my ex. I told her I knew she needed her space but that I was completely committed to the relationship, and that I was truly sorry but I wasn't going to bother her until she was ready to talk to me.

I got a call from her the next night, which basically ended up in her saying that she can't accept my apology and that I need to leave her alone.

I don't know what to do, I miss her like crazy and it tears me up that I hurt her like I did. I want to call and text her all the time and am having the hardest time refraining to do so. Please help!

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<bot>: gf found texts between me and ex about sex life, breaks up with me and I don't know what to do!