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My SO's grandmother has been in the hospital since Thursday, and while I'm typing this, her time will probably be up by the end of the night. I love her to so much, even though I've only met her a few times. She's the most badass grandma I'll probably ever get to meet. I saw her a few times Thursday and Friday, but now I play the waiting game.

I hate, hate, HATE waiting around for the bad news. What makes it even worse is that I'm the kind of person that will throw myself under a bus to help someone else. So, naturally, when I'm forced to be at home all weekend instead of trying to help my SO, my useless-levels completely skyrocket. My depression, which had been pretty under control for a little while, came back full force yesterday. I'm kind of better now (maybe from sleeping so much last night), but I guess the awful anticipation is making it linger.

Another cherry on top is how different we reacted to this. I've never been in a situation with him like this, where one of our lives is dramatically hit. Anywho, point is, I'm used to seeing him every day, and, as I said before, I want to take care of him. Him, on the other hand? He wants to be completely and utterly alone. (Which I have no problem with, but it was so dramatic I guess I'm still shell-shocked from not seeing him right now.) I'm left feeling so goddamn useless and I can't stand to be so fidget-y. The only thing I've been able for him is make him a sweatshirt and bring him food when I saw him a few days ago.
<bot>: Waiting sucks. Being useless sucks. I wish I could just hug everyone and everything and make the world all bright and shine-y again.