<human>: I told my (f/23) friend I wanted to talk to her and open up about a few things. She asked about what and I mentioned I wanted to be direct and honest and share my appreciation for her as one of my closest friends. I was trying to be clear I wanted to do it in person.

I've lost some good friends in the past because I took them for granted and never told them how important they were directly and we slowly grew apart. I thought it'd be a good idea to try and change that with this one before the same thing happens. That's how important it is.

So I told her I wanted to open up and explain some things and she asked again what about. I then went against my own advice and sent a fairly long text message highlighting part of what I wanted to say and about how I wished I had done this with some friends who had moved away. She didn't respond to any of it all evening last night. 

I woke up this morning and apologized by sending another long text (again not what I wanted) trying to simplify what I was trying to say. Now I'm sitting here all day losing my mind. I never got a response as of this post.

Is it selfish to want to cement a friendship like that?  

I'm paranoid that she thinks I am developing feelings, but knowing her for years, I've avoided ever crossing that line. I just need to get a chance to explain it & with her going silent, I have no idea what to do.

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<bot>: I told my close friend I wanted to talk and open up about things, it was important for my friendship due to past experiences. She hasn't responded to any of it and I am not sure how to handle it.