<human>: Can you give me the gist of the text in a nutshell?

So a few years ago I decided I wasn't happy with my life and decided to lose it. As of now I'm 30 lbs down from when I started, but what irks me is that I was 40 lbs down but regained the 10. 
I got to 160 (40 down) last march, and I posted pics to bb's website asking for a bf estimate which was agreed to be 12%. I must have slight body days morphia because I thought I was like 18% and I let it get to me and I thought "hey this is awesome now I can relax my diet and eat maintenance"
Long story short I'm up 10 lbs or more since because I have no mental strength or moderation. This wasn't a 10 lb nice bulk for strength but an up and down low cal binge fest. I've always had binging problems but it used to be like 1k cals over maintenance 1 time every week or two, but during this increase it's become 3000 cals over maintenance more than once a week. I understand it's all mental but I just really suck at keeping strong.
<bot>: I used to be at my goal weight and didn't know how good I looked, have binged back to a 10lb or more fat increase since March and can't seem to win mental battles stopping me from getting back to 160 lbs