<human>: I go red at everything and i always feel to shy to tell him things that might show affection cause i get embarrassed and when he comes to my door as well i go red and feel panicy and all heart racing. Here is an example, He could tell me he is going to come in for me and i will be fine but as soon as i hear the door and i know it's him, BOOM Heart races and i look at my self in the mirror and i'm red and because i'm red it makes me embarrassed.

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I can't even do little things like sing in front of him or play my guitar, or make a funny noise Because, I get embarrassed if i sing my voice won't be good and i'll sound bad or i'll play guitar and i will muck up or if i make a silly noise it will come out even worse than it already sounds there are other things as well but you get what i mean.

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I've known him since i was 9 and i am now 17 almost 18.
I don't know if this might have anything to do with it but i have kind of liked him since i was 9 and When i 1st seen him (in Primary school) i tried to speak to him but i was too shy and other people in my class was already surrounding him anyway because he was new in the class.
and i guess to tell a long story short i have tried to get him ever since i was 9.

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We have been going out since July but had been "seeing" each other since February.

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This problem is really annoying me and kind of upsetting me that i just can't be my self around him, Can anyone help?

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<bot>: I can't be my self around my boyfriend and it is upsetting me because it is only him i am unable to be my self around..