<human>: I met my ex at work and we was together about 9 months, we broken up afters she came back from a family holiday. I don't think anything happened on holiday, sheh just decided that she doesn't want to be with me anymore.

I was heartbroken but we was still close friends and stills sleeping together. This lasted about 6 weeks until I decided I couldn't take being used anymore. Plus she was getting very close friends with her ex again (who she has a 4 year old daughter with). I could deal with that if we was still together but we wasn't.

So I decided to make up a story about me writing a email to here ex telling him all the bad stuff that she did when they was together. I told her I almost sent it but didn't in the end because of her daughter and the damage it might have done. I did it because I couldn't be the one who went no contact, I loved her, she was my best friend too. After that things got very nasty between us.

Two months have gone by since then with very limited contact, even at work. She can't even look at me anymore, she walks around like I don't exist. I've sent her a few texts messages with nothing really back.

I really want my friend back because I miss her, I really do love her still even though I don't want to anymore.

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<bot>: I hate the way things are between us now and I want to make amends with her but I really don't know what to do? I'm so confused!