<human>: I can't seem to avoid relationships that don't end up in abuse or manipulation. I've been cheated on multiple times and I've been in abusive (including physical) relationships. I've continually told myself that I just need to find better partners, but I can't seem to find people that won't end up hurting me in really twisted ways. It's affecting me in a really negative way. I was raised in a loving family with a wonderful mother and fantastic sisters, but I can feel myself starting to get more and more afraid of women and relationships. Lately I've been having bad thoughts about using others and getting into relationships for sex or power. It's a cold dark feeling, and I hate it. I've tried meeting girls irl as well as online dating, but it seems like the only women I can get to enter into relationships with me turn out to be really hurtful people. 

My question is what should I do at this point for my overall health and quality of life? I've thought about going to therapy but I'm not sure if this is an issue that warrants a therapist. I've looked up life coaches online but still not sure if that's what I should do. This isn't an issue I can go to the doctor and take a pill for. I've had people suggest books to read, but that seems fruitless.

I can't help but believe that there is something about me that is causing me this drama and pain, but I can't identify it. What should I do at this point?

Summarize the given text in a few sentences.
<bot>: I'm having a lot of bad thoughts about myself, women, and relationships, and wondering what steps I should take to get help.