<human>: I've been trying to end this relationship for years. If i disagree with him, or have an opinion he doesn't respect, he calls this "provoking" him.

Every argument turns into a dangerous episode (he throws things, hits walls, slams doors, spits at me, has broken my things and "accidentally" hurt me physically a few times because I tried to stop his destruction).

Since making it clear that I will have to walk away,  he sends me threatening texts about how I will be sorry,  he will make my life hell,  ect. Throughout the years he has called me countless names (crybaby, cunt, bitch, weak) and since I've said its over this has gotten worse.

He says I am the problem and no one will ever put up with me. Of course I know deep within that this is the classic profile of abuse, but its been so long I have started to believe him-that no one will ever truly love me.

Does anyone have experience with this? How can I feel better about myself, or make sense of what I've been through?

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<bot>: i feel psychologically damaged from my past relationship, and lost my sense of self worth. Will I ever love/be loved again?