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Side note : I go to a very reformed, Conservative evangelical church.
I struggle intensely with self esteem and feeling like I have value and worth and importance. I feel a little better about myself when a guy gives me attention and have sought that attention my whole life, so I can know I'm good enough. This guy happens to be the guy I'm using to make me feel like I have importance, my mentor found out and literally lost her shit. She thinks I'm going to compromise his purity and hurt him. She shares a very close relationship with him and so she cares very deeply for him.
 
I am really struggling because I need his validation and he told me the other day people were asking if something was going on between us and yet he still preceeded to be alone with me in his car. I have never dated, heck I've never held hands with a guy before, I'm hurt that people think we're going to jump into bed with eachother. I'm not that kind of girl. He's taking me to get some documents on Tuesday, so that may equal us being in his car alone together. I fear she may have told him by then, I don't know what that will mean for our relationship. If she doesn't tell him, I think I may have to ask him to keep our trip secret, which is so dodgy. I feel like I'm doing drugs and have to keep it a secret from everyone.  Side note being a drug addict must be work ! 

Can someone please give me a solution to my predicament.
<bot>: I've been using a guy at my church for validation, my mentor is threatening to tell him, what should I do.