<human>: I've been with my husband for 4 years. We married in December.

Our sex life only improved with time. I've had no complaints until recently. 

It seems like I've been bitten by the "baby rabies" and my body *craves* giving something maternal attention. My logical brain knows my husband and I are not ready for this step. We just bought a house, and need to get back in good finances before a baby could be brought in. There's many other reasons I could come up with as to why it's not the time.

So with cravings for my own flesh and blood to be a heart beat I can hear and hold, trying to rationalize a... New Emotion is hard. It at first came in phases. We could still enjoy sex. 

Now, I can't even think of sex without thinking about a baby, and its an extreme turn off now. I can't have one sexual thought without feeling disgusting after. Without a small sadness inside that I can't have a baby. 

I expressed it to my husband why I hadn't really been as lovey as normal, was my brain at war with my emotions over the baby thing. 

He understood, and has been very understanding and patient. 

Though I discovered if I get drunk enough I don't think about babies, but that's not the kind of sex I want to have every time with my husband. 

People have suggested we get another dog, but we have two that I already fuss over. They still, are not my blood. And they are not children. (Despite my often affectionate of referring to them as such) 

I'm angry at myself that I can't get past it. I just want it to go away... Or figure out some way to deal with it.

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<bot>: I can't stop wanting a baby so much that it's effecting my sex life with my husband. I don't want to feel this way but I can't make it stop. What can I do?