<human>: I (25F) don't think I really want to have kids. They stress me out and terrify me, and are annoying! (Phrase that comes to mind: "Just go be quiet in your room.")

Perhaps I'm just young, but I've never had that emotional urge to have kids. Sure, when my friends have babies, I get a feeling of "am I behind?" but never do I envy that situation. Babies are up every few hours, stealing sleep and energy. Toddlers are chatty and needy, constantly getting into trouble. Teens... well at least they are somewhat independent.

I'm pretty controlling, I like things a certain way. I like clean and quiet. I think if I lose that, I'll resent the child. This is clearly a flaw in me, but it is what it is. Moderately OCD with a panic disorder and moderate depression. 

I'm dating someone very seriously who wants to have kids. I've put it off as "well maybe in 5 years." I feel guilty now, feeling as selfish and strongly as I do about the simple annoyance of children. He has a nephew who is just the loudest and unruly child. Obedience is not in the vocabulary; I understand this is their child and they can raise it how they want, but things are always just WILD in the presence of this kid, and it makes me feel annoyed and on-edge all the time.

Is that what I have to look forward to if I decide to reproduce? A life of chaos and noise and mess? Will I get older and just get over it and suddenly feel the need to have a baby?

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<bot>: I'm feeling guilty that I just might not want to deal with the bother of children. I haven't been super honest with my SO about this. He wants children in the next few years. What do I do?