<human>: Can you succinctly summarize the text in 1-3 sentences?

My boyfriend and I have been together for a bit over 3.5 years now.  We have lived together for almost 2 now.  We are very happy together for the most part, but we do have some periods of "blah-ness" and periods of awesome awesomeness. 

I respect him immensely, I love him deeply and we get along incredibly well.

We have had several discussions about our future together and in the beginning, these did not go so well.  He was not ready to discuss these things and I felt terrible for bringing it up.  These early conversation have definitely adversely effected how I felt about our future at the time as I pushed away any thoughts of a proposal.  Well, now things have changed somewhat and we are definitely able to discuss our future more naturally.  These discussions, however, usually lead nowhere definitive, but generally strike a positive tone.

I am ready to make some big changes in my life career-wise.  I told him this much and said, 'I need to know where we stand so I can make the best decisions for myself and my career."  I am considering going back to school, and would consider an out-of-state school if we came to the conclusion that our relationship is not heading towards marriage.

In the past, we've had similar discussions but like I said earlier, they never really lead anywhere.  So this time, we decided that we would take 10 days and journal out all of our thoughts.  At the end of the 10 days we'll meet and share our thoughts and go from there.

At this point, I truly have no idea what is going to happen or what we are going to conclude.  I think it is a possibility that we will not make a decision, and continue to go on as we have.  Neither one of us wants to make a decision about our relationship!

So - question to y'all:  Over these next 10 days - what should I do?  What questions should I ask myself?
<bot>: Long-term boyfriend and I are trying to figure out if this is it for us - either marriage or break up.  We have 10 days to figure it out! What should I do?