<human>: I am about to graduate college this May, and instead of being excited about moving out of my college town, finding a job in my career field, and building my resume towards a decent job, I feel like I am now stuck on a ladder I don't want to climb. I have lost my direction, my motivation, my goals, and I have no clear career path. I am nearly $80k in debt from loans, and there is no way I could drag this debt out any farther by simply changing my major or going to graduate school for something I enjoy (and I don't even know what I enjoy at this point.) 

I have a great deal of pressure from my family. I am a first generation college student, and both of my parents have the mentality that anyone who goes to college is guaranteed a well paying and respectable job, and my mother routinely bad mouths and mocks my fellow classmates who settled for 'average' jobs after graduation (such as vet tech, petco, nannying ect.) and says things like "I don't understand why anyone would waste their time in college just to end up working at blah blah blah. 

I feel myself in the grips of a panic attack whenever she says things like this, because soon enough, that's going to be me. 

There is one thing in my life that I found that does make sense, and that is my University's Martial Arts club. I am a green belt in Taekwondo, and I can continue to be a member of the club after I graduate. I became involved with the club my final year of school due to the fact that 1.5 years ago I was 100lbs heavier. I feel like I owe it to myself to stay in my college town for another couple years to complete my blackbelt, because that IS one dream I do have. But by that time, I will be 26 or 27 years old and still no closer to 'being an adult,' and in the end, what really matters more? Getting what I want or getting what I need? 

I just want to be happy...

Can you succinctly summarize the text in 1-3 sentences?
<bot>: Hate my degree, pressure from family to find good job, would rather avoid growing up by not moving away from college town and finishing my blackbelt Taekwondo.