<human>: First of all, throw away and also I am pretty drunk but I have been feeling like shit about this whole thing. 

My friend, who I will call Ben, is currently in the process of going through a divorce. Ever since our mutual friend Ryan moved out of state about 2 months ago, we have become better friends. Ben's wife took off one day with his kids stating that she loves him but he needs therapy in order for her to come back. Ben is honestly one of the most sweetest, nicest guys one could ever meet. He does everything that he can for his children and was even more depressed after this little stunt was pulled. His soon to be ex has a history of mental problems so Ben decided enough is enough, he is filing for divorce and custody of the children. 

Long story short, Ben and I hang out almost every off day we have (we work together and I am his supervisor). Last weekend, we both got very fucking drunk and starting to mess around; making out a bit and basic touchy-feely shit until I told him we should stop. He respected my wishes, we passed out, then he went home. That same night, through text, he admitted to me had a major thing for me for a long time but never acted on shit because he was married. 

Feelings are not entirely mutual. I told him this and he took it well, I suppose. But, I can't help feeling like a fucking asshole. Like, he really is awesome; so why the fuck did I have to be a dick when he is already going through shit? I guess I am just trying to find an excuse for my shitty behavior. And to not make shit awkward when we both go back to work. Any advice is appreciated.

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<bot>: messed around with a work friend that was going through a lot while we were drunk. He admitted to having feelings for me when I do not feel the same. And now I just don't want shit to be awkward.