<human>: Can you give me a shortened version of the text?

I am a testament to abandonment; every group I've been a part of has fallen apart because one or two people can't get over a grudge and realize why that's stupid to think. I've invested in one-sided potential relationships that later only turn out to be one-sided because they were just unsure of me if I was who I am or perhaps they were afraid that I am too good for them, viewing me through some pessimistic light.

I've wasted months and years being myself with people only to find I was never wanted or they lost interest. 

If it's anything I know in life it's that I've been real and I've had to pay the price for it, big time.. I have standards, ethics and manners.
Everyone expects you to be something they expect and know, what's familiar to them, what they think makes sense... what's "fitting".

I've been hoping things work out, that there's some higher being out there that loves and cares for me or maybe life's just one big fucking lottery, genes and upbringing and where you are make up what you get and the only absolute is chance. 

And the last and only thing I am really holding onto is that little will in me, that just says : "keep going, you deserve to be happy and you will be".
<bot>: What's the point of living if you're not sharing the life you live with somebody else. I.E. a significant other + friends + family. Also, how do I stop making them a priority and just care about myself?