<human>: Can you condense the text into a few key points?

So my girlfriend and I had been dating for a little over two years this past month. For about a month I had been contemplating breaking up with her solely because we are headed across the country next year (college) and I always hear that a) long distance never works, and b) people who waited until fall to end things regretted their freshman year.

It was very much a "grass is always greener" scenario, but I never truly realized that until now looking back on it. I thought it would be great to have the summer to myself and get on with my life (for whatever reason I thought I was too good for her). She was always there in the background helping me through everything (I'm not the most stable) and so when I eventually got the nerves to do it (as this is the second time I've actually broken up with a girl) after a week I realize how depressed I am without her. 

Of course I pathetically go crawling back only for her to tell me she realized how nice things are not dating me but that she still wants to be close. So we still talk a ton and occasionally hang out, and it's not weird but it's not the same as before, obviously. She seems not to care as much, and I take the slightest things the wrong way and become extremely emotionally distraught. 

I can't tell if I'm being led on or if she still cares. We still have deep conversation but I feel as if she just does it to appease me, not because she actually wants to. I've tried cutting off communication completely but that is even worse than being manipulated in the way I am.

I want her back but don't know what to do.
<bot>: Ex and I are still close, can't tell if she still cares about me as much as I do her. Don't know what's best for myself.