<human>: So, as the title explains, I was adopted at birth from a mother who was 15 or 16 (my adoptive mother knew very little of my mother or didn't bother to tell me much about her) in my hometown. I have no information on my father, not even how old he'd be and honestly I don't care much about him. But I always catch myself thinking who they were, if I should find them and at least let them see I made it this far. I don't know what I'd expect from the interaction, aside from the good things I know that would happen. So the good I'm talking about:

A lot of non adopted kids probably take these things for granted but they are anxiety inducing and have created a lot of complications. Let me explain, I have no idea what I may look like when I'm older, which sounds like a very silly thing to worry about, but I want to know my genetics. I'm not sure if I'm prone to balding, prone to weight gain, diabetes, cancer, heart disease, all these things keep me up at night. Now we get to the bad part:

I'm a socially awkward person, obviously with people who I don't know or haven't known for a long time, but thinking of talking to, having a conversation (a meaningful and intimate conversation at that) with someone I both haven't know a day in my life and have known about every day since I was born. To think of talking to someone who hasn't seen me for 21 years but knew I was alive, not how I was doing, not what I was doing, maybe never gave it a second thought, I can't tell if this troubles me more than the negatives of not going.

So, back when I was in high school I did some research, found her maiden last name, learned she was currently living somewhere in TX as an RN and had other children (mostly half siblings). But that was years ago, and even if I did muster the courage to do so, I wouldn't know where to start as far as finding her. So /r/relationships what should I do in this situation, is it worth going, or should I stay in ignorant bliss?

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<bot>: I've never met my birth mother, and can't decide if doing so is a good idea or not, so I want *you* to decide, yes *you* out there.