<human>: Summarize the given text in a few sentences.

My history's a weird one. 

Ever since I was a kid, I've been a sucker for romance. I always wanted to fall in love with a person and treat them to things, settle down and whatnot. Barring a 4 year childhood "relationship" (however two young kids classify eating lunch together and holding hands), I didn't really date until college. I fucked up a couple chances in high school bc anxiety and naivety didn't help. Long story short, I was alone for awhile.

Flash forward to right after college (2 years ago), I cave in and start online dating. For some reason, I developed what might've been natural charm and have had dates all over the place since then, which turned out to be a lot of fun. Two dates of which, over time, turned into meaningful relationships. As of right now, I could be on the cusp of another.

The catch here is that eventually, I lose interest in everyone without knowing why. As a guy with deep-seated anxiety who considers himself boring unless talking about music or comics, the case should really be vice-versa. I have an old fear of not being interesting and thus have to be "on" at all times. This, coupled with my tendency to succumb to physical urges, puts me in a point where the other person gets attached to me before i feel like I'm ready for it. I ended two relationships because I couldn't love someone back and felt weird about it. I hate that that's the case bc I wanted to reciprocate their feelings.

That said, my want for a healthy relationship seems to conflict with how much I like just dating and thus hurts myself and everyone else. I'm on the cusp of something really positive here with someone but I just don't know what I want or should do.

Am I a shit person for being this way? Is there any way to kick this habit and just settle down? Any advice at all?

Thank you dearly.
<bot>: I want to settle down but am far too indecisive and date-happy to lasso it in a logical, mature manner. Help?