<human>: Can you succinctly summarize the text in 1-3 sentences?

Its happened before about 5 years ago during a bad period of depression, and we separated for almost 2 years and my downward spiral got worse and worse. Somehow I picked up the pieces and got back on track and got marriage back together, and now I am back in the same place. My depression is bad with avengeance, I am breaking down on a daily basis and causes tension due to generally feeling miserable and on edge and defensive.

My last 3 appts with a psychologist ended with being told I couldn't be seen because of paperwork except for a brief 15 minute courtesy chat because I was so distraught after the last time this happened. Cant see anyone else for another month, doctor cut me off from medication until then to sort out the best option.

Im waking up in the middle of the night with panic attacks and sweats and get them randomly throughout the day. I cant hide my physical or mental symptoms from my wife no matter how hard I try and keep going. I don't feel like I have a support network that I can reach out to anymore and I think the inevitable will happen again. I will keep pushing through as much as I can until I inevitably break down to the point of not being able to go back. I cant stop, I cant get help that is helping and I cant keep going how I am going.
<bot>: I don't know what to do anymore, I cant handle another marriage breakdown but I can barely even function in a relationship right now.