<human>: I haven't seen my father since I was about 8 years old. We just recently got into contact, and we'd talk occasionally, mainly he'd just send me game invites. 
I am in constant contact with my cousin who lives near my father, because she has a daughter the same age as mine. 

My father had two sisters that I would talk to maybe once or twice a year. 
I also have a half brother that I see a couple of times a year. We're pretty close, and it seems like he's feeling the same way that I am about this situation.

My father died unexpectedly, and now all of my family members on his side are calling me, hysterical. They have a gofundme account set up and want me to help, and they want me to attend the funeral halfway across the country. I have two small children of my own, and they want me to bring them. 

I know they're hurting, but I barely knew my father. I feel terrible saying that, but it's the truth. I don't want to burn bridges and upset them by not attending, and it's so difficult to answer the phone every time they call.... they just keep saying "I'm so sorry about your dad... he loved you..."etc., while screaming and crying into the phone. I don't do very well with communication, so I feel like I'm being cold. 

I don't really know what to say or do. I do care about my father, but there's a lot of mixed emotions there because I feel like he's already been dead all of these years anyway. I barely knew him and it never felt like he wanted anything to do with me.

Can you condense the text into three sentences or less?
<bot>: My estranged family wants me to be involved now that my father has died unexpectedly. I feel like I'm being emotionally cold and distant. Help?