<human>: Can you condense the text into three sentences or less?

So I've been with my amazing boyfriend for a year. We just recently started having sex, and he feels really happy that we lost our virginities to each other. But the thing is, I lied to him about being a virgin. About two years ago, I had sex about once or twice with an ex. I wasn't emotionally there and he was a terrible guy so I really didn't count it due to how long ago it was + I didn't feel emotionally intimate (which I really need to enjoy sex, I just realized) + we did it once/twice. He doesn't really talk about it, but I know he does enjoy being my "first." Should I tell him about what really happened or just let it go? Or am I telling the truth because of my definition of virginity? (When I do it with my current bf, it feels amazing because of how much we care about each other.) Or does the whole idea of "virginity" not even matter? I'm worried about telling him because he's really insecure and I feel like it would cause hostility since lying is something that really bothers him. Please help, I'm feeling so conflicted :-(
<bot>: Told bf I was a virgin when I physically wasn't-- should I tell him or just let it go and move on?