<human>: Can you give me a shortened version of the text?

I've been in the hopsital, on pills, in therepy...but non of it seems to help. Ive cut. Serious depression, cutting, sucidal thoughts

Im taking a semester off from college where I hated the work but loved the play. Due to a situation with my ex-grilfriend. 

Im working full time being a sky bum less than an hour away from all my friends. Which ive wanted to do since senior year of highschool. No one my age is up here I cant go to the bars. Its getting lonely.

I cant visit and party for a while until the end of march probably because I am not emotianlally and mentally stabel to run into my ex again. 

My ex girlfriend and school were what was keeping going this summer. I dont have her now and I dont have school.

In May ill have an aparment with my friends and living in the college town where I will resume this school this fall. 

Life feels numb, and a countdown wantoing to not live life until thsi may, a countdown veiw are days arent enjoyable just long exhaustion and pain of waiting, which was my attitude on lofe this summer.

I was diagnosed bi-polar.

Everything seems unattached now, dont want to live life right now. Im only 19.
<bot>: Life seems unattached.Looking for inspiration, advice, maybve personal experiences feeling this way, even at this age. Just want to know im not alone and things will get better.