<human>: My stepdad was my real father for about 7 years of my life (10-17). My real father was no longer in the picture and actually went missing and was declared dead recently. I couldn't shed a tear for him (he was an okay father just stopped being apart of my life too)

  

So it has been five years since my step dad kicked my mother out of his house. He fought for custody for me and my brother (14 at the time). When he had it he stopped coming for us. 

  

He never explained why he kicked us out, not to my Mom or any of us kids. I tried to go to consoling before my graduation because then there was nothing I wanted more then for him to see that. He skipped out on me twice with countless emails, texts and phone calls. 

  

This is where my heart broke I think... but it didn't bother me until today. My brother is turning 18 soon and stepdad has some of our Poppa's guns. I want to give them to him for his birthday he has had such a hard year...  

  

I called my stepdad for the first time in five years today. He answered and I instantly felt my insides cracking. I told him the short and sweet version of what I wanted and when I wanted it by. He told me that Saturday doesn't work to pick up and he doesn't know when would (brushing off my seriously important and time sensitive request). We hung up and I just started bawling I don't understand why or how to make it stop. Breathing is hard and focusing on other things doesn't work. 

  

I need these guns for my brother, I don't know how to stop being a child and take control of the situation. Should be noted I am not one to cry often and never in such a public way. 

  

Thank you for reading.

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<bot>: Called my stepdad for something that belonged to my Poppa and it broke me inside. How do I stop being upset with him and handle the situation with out crying like a child?