<human>: This is my first really long relationship, and it's a four year long one at that. While me and my boyfriend of course don't always see eye to eye, we generally have a relationship full of love and respect. There's no puppy love left after all this time, but I'd definitely say I still love the guy and know he feels the same.

We're both working and there's a two hour drive in between us, with both of us living pretty close to our respective workplaces. This leads to us not meeting often during the weekdays (although it does happen a few times a month), instead spending most entire weekends together.

In turn, I spend more time in the weekdays with one of my friends from work. Not every evening of course, but we go to each other's flats often enough to hang out. This has never been an issue. My boyfriend isn't the jealous type, what's more my friend is gay. We may have grown incredibly close, but things are off limits by nature and this has never been a problem to me.

These past few weeks, my friend has started dating this guy he met on the internet. I was very happy to hear this, cause he's had a lot of problems finding somebody who seemed his type, but now things were turning out very well for him.

But while I am happy for him still, I can't help but feel jealous somehow. It feels weird that somebody will get to nab him. Somebody not me? A few days ago when he was showing me his and his date's text correspondence like he's done so many times before, I found myself being overly judging and critical of everything his date put. What's more, at one point I started getting some idea in my head to just grab his head and kiss his thoughts away. *"You're not leaving me"* I thought.

Leaving? He's not even mine. I'm with my boyfriend, and I feel happy with him. I have no idea what my head is doing at the moment and it's really annoying. Feels like some kind of high school drama I should have had many years ago. Is this what emotional infidelity is like? Am I cheating on my boyfriend?

Can you give me the gist of the text in a nutshell?
<bot>: my friend has finally found a potential future partner and I feel like crap about it, and I feel guilty over feeling like crap about it. Am I emotionally cheating on my bf now?