<human>: Could you distill the essence of the text into 1-3 sentences?

Since I first met him I felt a special connection. We two are closer to each other than with anyone else in our mutual friendship group. Months of nurturing our friendship and bonding has brought me to a point where I feel more strongly about him than I ever have anyone else. A strong physical attraction took hold quite quickly too. It feels like love. I absolutely adore him and go to great lengths to spend time with him which I enjoy extremely and am sad when not with him. I sleep and wake thinking about him.

His sexuality is uncertain. He has had some experiences with other males and a positive outlook on those. Claims to still prefer women - I don't know if due to having more experience (=being more comfortable) or genuine/genetic preference. Encounters with males keep happening so its really difficult to tell.

I don't know how or when or if to express my feelings to him. I've come close a few times but this was at the same time as him suffering rejection from females. So I really didn't want to potentially bring further trauma or complications but feel like I'm going to burst soon. He has also struggled with the "being in love with your best friend" problem and I have listened to and counseled him on this and other relationship situations - always encouraging him to pursue others and trying to stay impartial (being a "good" friend) despite wanting him so madly myself. It is tortuous and I'm not sure how much longer I can do it.

I'm very anxious with a low self-esteem. He has helped me tackle all of my issues in so many ways, but I obviously still greatly fear rejection and that my revelation could permanently damage our relationship. I feel so conflicted. I shouldn't be so emotionally dependent on him but can't help it. I also don't know how to talk about or "pitch" it to him so would really appreciate any advice or experiences you have
<bot>: I'm in love with my (curious) best friend and don't know how or when or if to express that.