<human>: (english is not my native language) (throwaway for a personal reason)

I have known this girl for a long time and I've developed strong feelings for her in the last couple of months (I was definitely thinking with the right head that is above my shoulders (I made sure of it he-he)) .

I think she is interested in me since I catch her staring at me when I am not looking, she laughs at the stupidest jokes that leave my face-cavity, also she is really shy and talks only to me and her friend [? F]. We share many literature interests as well (we both absolutely love Clockwork orange and similar stuff) and I really like her personality: she is not arrogant, she has good habits and she seems to be a pretty smart girl (also she is cute :) )

So here is a problem - there is like 8 months left before we finish the school and leave to different cities miles away, going for our dream colleges and dream jobs. I don't want to start this relationship because I am afraid we will like each other too much and end up heartbroken when we have to break up and leave for the sake of our own future. Also I live in a pretty poor family (but I grew used to it, so I don't mind) and that does not help with resolving the issue

I need your help reddit! First love is really hard to contain, I am usually a VERY cheerful and happy guy, but recently I've been feeling depressed which is strange because I NEVER felt depressed in my life!

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<bot>: Have feelings for a girl, but we don't have time for a relationships due to different colleges in different cities. I don't feel good :/