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When I was a junior in high school I smoked weed and sometimes drank, but had never taken hallucinogenic drugs.  One night I was hanging out with my boyfriend in my bedroom, and my dad came upstairs to tell us he had made some food for my BF.  My dad was quite drunk (which was normal, at the time) and going through a kind of mid-life crisis where he was experimenting with all kinds of drugs.  We went downstairs, and I, not knowing that a pan of tomato sauce had been dosed with hallucinogenic mushrooms, proceeded to pour it on some pasta.  I sat down with the two of them, ate, and watched a horror movie (Red Dragon).  About 20 minutes into it, I started to feel like I had smoked weed.  I was commenting on the movie and giggling, and then realized I hadn't smoked at all.  I got paranoid and couldn't figure out what was happening.  Shortly after my BF told me he thought there was something in the food.
Most of the trip after that I don't remember, except for a few images of Anthony Hopkins' face melting off of the TV, and having some kind of issue while trying to fall asleep in my bed with my BF.
Over the past year or so I have developed a paranoia about eating food others have made for me, or anything that isn't sealed or has been out of my sight.  I'm prone to panic attacks, and have become pretty good at meditating them away, but the persistence of these thoughts (that i'm completely aware are irrational) is really unsettling.
I've also had a lot of trust issues in my relationships and with my family.  I want to work toward resolving this and being in a healthy state of mind.  I'm straight edge now except for an occasional glass of wine (mostly out of fear of being out of control). Any advice on dealing with this?
<bot>: was dosed 8 years ago by my father with hallucinogenic mushrooms.  just recently having issues with food/dosing related paranoia and trust. what do i do now?