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Met in College. Dated almost two years then moved together to a different state for my job after we both graduated. Lived together for almost a year. Fights and arguments became more frequent mainly due to my attitude and not truly knowing what the future held for us. Not my first serious relationship, and had other casual flings in college, but the first girl I can say I really loved. It took her leaving, after a big blowout (I was drunk and said some regrettable things) for me to realize that I truly did want to spend my life with her. Life went on and 3 months later are kind of on speaking terms again. Saw her a few days ago out in town one night and thought I would be okay. But as time passes all of the old hurt is just coming back. Have wanted to move on and meet new girls, but being so caught up with my career and things between us still feeling so fresh and recent I just haven't had any real desire to try and put the effort into meeting another girl right now. Just looking for some advice on how to move on and on how to try and push the hurt aside the best I can.
<bot>: Thought I was over my ex, after seeing her and being on good recent speaking terms, old feelings (and hurt) have resurfaced.