<human>: so long story short im 19 years old (f) and last year i started dating this guy, we fell in love and have had a blissfully happy relationship for the last 10 months. When i started school we decided to stay together even though it sucked to be apart for weeks at a time. Last night i went out with someone i thought was a friend to a concert in chicago. we drank a LOT, and did some E for the show. While we were on our way i noticed he was being a little flirty with me but i thought it was just the alcohol and the drugs working so i thought nothing of it (I was very inebriated also and at that point i was having a pretty great time) when we get to the concert we're rolling hard and drunk as shit. He started to dance with me which again i thought nothing of since my guy friends dance with me all the time and my boyfriend never seemed to mind too much. But then my friend tried to kiss me...i told him promptly that i had a boyfriend which is something i guess he didn't know (this was a group of friends i had only recently made) As the night went on though he tried again and again until finally i let him. the rest of the night was sort of a blur but i let him kiss me multiple times, and when we got back to the dorm we kind of 'snuggled' together. Now i dont know what to do, i am i no way attracted to this guy but i really dont want to lose his friendship because he's a really nice person, I dont want to tell my boyfriend because it would hurt him too much and i dont want him to hate me/break up with me because im still madly in love with him. The only reason i let him kiss me was because: a) i was getting lonely being apart from my bf. b) the mixture of drugs alcohol and the club scene, and c) the fact that he liked me caught me off guard and i was very confused by the whole situation i had no idea how to handle it.
what the fuck should i do???

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<bot>: i cheated on my bf, who i love dearly,  with someone whose friendship i dont want to lose. wtf