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21F dating 21M 8.5 months

We've just gone through a rough patch and he's resolved to put more effort into our relationship. In fact, he broke up with me out of stress and I wasn't going to ever talk to him again given how much he hurt me but after many attempts to get into touch with me (which I ignored), he eventually found a way. He seemed really sorry so I decided to give this another chance in spite of how paranoid I was feeling. Please don't tell me that "getting back together is always a horrible idea" -- I agree it generally is, but there are exceptions, and in this case the breakup was for stupid reasons which he really regrets. So far I'm feeling relatively good about this, however --

When he does things for me like drive two hours to come see me (we are semi-long-distance now because he just graduated and I'm still at school for another year), I feel really special. In fact, when he drove two hours to come see me yesterday and take me out to dinner, I had a great time -- except for one minor detail: he brought up that he's driven down two hours to come practice with his ballroom partner (who is also a friend of his), and I felt a little dumb then for feeling so special. When he makes favorable gestures, I feel special, but then he tells me that he's done the same for a female friend, and I wind up feeling a little bit dumb.

Another example: he takes me out to dinner sometimes. The downer: he also sometimes takes out his female friends to dinner.

Yet another example: he flew for 5-6 hours to come visit me during one of our breaks when I was back at home. Downer: he also flew to come visit his female friend alone during that time.

I guess I just want to feel like he does special things for me that he doesn't also do for his female friends. I'm not sure how to approach this without sounding stupid (am I being stupid?). I do nice things for him like cook him epic meals that I don't do for my male friends. I'm going to take the train to see him this weekend and I haven't done that just for a male friend.
<bot>: Boyfriend makes favorable gestures that I feel happy about, and then reveals that he also does said favorable gestures for some female friends. I end up feeling stupid/a little disappointed afterwards. How to deal?