<human>: So we were dating for about 8 months. And yes I loved her, but I'm now questioning if she ever really loved me.

Some background. We had alot of ups and downs. The relationship was filled with me doing anything I could to make her happy, and she appreciated it, but she was angry alot. Seemed like little things pushed her over the edge. In all honesty she wasn't a really great girlfriend, but I still loved her and alot of the things we had were extremely special. She broke up with me because she knew she wasn't a good girlfriend and she had alot of issues. She wanted to work on herself. She's lied to me before. Many times. She even admitted to having a crush on a co-worker and told me they cuddled a bit and that's all. She was never truthful with me, and tried to hide things all the time, which ended up making me more nosy and that just caused fights.

So here we are now, I'm normally the person to cut an ex girlfriend out of my life for good, but it's different with her, I want to try and be friends because I don't feel like I can deal with losing her completely. We have a 2 week road trip planned in about a week and its something we were both looking forward to. She still wants to go as friends, but I don't know what that will lead to. Yes I know I'm probably better off without her, but seeing her helps the hurting go away for a little.

I know if we go on the trip there will be alot of sex still and I'm not sure if I should cut all ties right now, or just ween myself off of her after our trip.

Anything will help right now as I'm stuck in a surreal state of mind. This paired with the fact that I lost my job on the same day she ended it makes me question what to do with myself. (Even though I lost my job I have more than enough money for the road trip still so thats not a factor)

Can you give me the gist of the text in a nutshell?
<bot>: She dumped me to work on herself after not being the best girlfriend. But I still love her and she wants to go through with our vacation plans in a week.