<human>: Can you give me the gist of the text in a nutshell?

My ex and I got together when i was 17 and she was 14. At the time things were difficult, the age gap meant no one supported our relationship, her parents barely allowed it at first. As time went by things got better, her parents grew to like me and trust me, to the point that they said I could stay with them amy time.

This is important, my parents were very abusive so the offer was welcome, even though I personally didnt take them up on it.

About 8 months into our relationship I got a job offer in a regional community, working as a farmhand (my dream job at the time). I had to choose between her, a town that was never going to offer me what i wanted and my abusive home or my dream job in a new town with my independence.

I chose the second one and i broke it off with her, thinking it was for the best.

In the four years since that happened I've kept in touch with her, sometimes going over a month without talking. We both dated, both slept with other people but it never lasted, her longest relationship was 5 months, mine was three. 

We talked with each other about everything, family, work, relationships, sex. Now after moving We see each other once ever couple of weeks because we still live a few hours away from each other (shes inner city, i'm far on the outskirts) and we both work full time.

My issue is that i'm a pretty straight-laced, I've always wanted a cookie cutter, boy meets girl and builds a white picket fence around their lovely little house story. With her i dont feel jealous, when i was with other girls i had problems with jealousy, but when she'd tell me about her sex life i'd just feel happy she was happy or worried she wasn't. I'd envy the men she was with but it was never the toxic jealousy i felt with other women. 

This goes against most of what i believed was right for a relationship, and i've never really felt like i was in love so i dont know what i'm feeling.

Is this situation FUBAR? Or am i in love?
<bot>: i broke up with a girl because i had to move, now were reconnecting but i dont know what makes a relationship healthy.