<human>: My boyfriend and I have been off and on for three years. He has cheated on me a couple of times, once at a brothel and once with a girl who he stays in touch with. I have always been a curious, strong, happy person, but I am not that person when I am with him. I've stayed with him because he's an interesting, smart, funny person. He smokes a lot of pot, parties hard after work so much so he wets the bed on a weekly basis.

I went out for drinks with a new friend this weekend and i felt like I was my normal self for the first time in a while. I connected with her, I connected with a lot of different people that night. I haven't done that in years. I did get talking to a guy who I connected with immediately, it was like i could see into his soul. Talking to him I became the person I was at the happiest time of my life which was five years ago. With him I felt alive, at peace with myself, and everything felt easy. I cannot forget the way he looked at me, made me feel. It was real, the most real thing I have felt in years. Looking at him made me smile so big. Even thinking about it now, the things he said to me, I feel a warmth around me. He feels the same way. When I saw my boyfriend the next day it was like a wake up call - he isn't the one. I should not waste time. I should follow my heart, but leaving him would destroy him. He's a good person, he just has a lot of issues and I'm ready to settle down.

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<bot>: have always felt like my boyfriend isn't the one, met someone who confirmed the way I feel. Now I am thinking about leaving my boyfriend