<human>: I am not even a little bit okay right now. But I have no idea how to reach out for support. Or even who I would reach out to. I try to be really positive generally, but I worry that people see through that thin veneer to someone who's just fishing for attention all the time when the tiniest thing goes wrong. 

So many things are fucked up in my life right now, but all of my friends and family are distant (mostly my own fault where my friends are concerned), are super busy, or are dealing with far worse. I'm so damn sad, but I can't ask for help without feeling guilty or like I'm just begging for attention. And even then, what help could anybody really provide? The problems I have can only be solved by my own actions (financial issues, health problems, relationship ending, shitty job, etc. etc. etc.). I gave a few friends a three-sentence rundown of what was going on today via email as part of a longer convo, and it was ignored. Logically I know folks are busy or don't know what to say, but that hurt. 

I know y'all will suggest therapy, depression, etc., but I've been there done that. This isn't therapy-worth sadness, it's just tough. Besides, I couldn't afford therapy anyway. 

I'm not even sure what I'm asking or if this is the right sub. I'm just lost.

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<bot>: Everything seems to be going wrong and I'm sad and in a lot of pain, but I don't know how to ask for help, or even who to ask. What kind of support do I even ask for? And how?