<human>: Could you distill the essence of the text into 1-3 sentences?

**Disclaimer**: After writing this, I realized it's just a long rant about my 20's. I don't have any questions, but feel free to offer any advice. I'm not very open with this kind of stuff with my friends, so I decided to type it out and put it here.

At the end of High School and the first few years of college I ended up going on a miserable streak of rejection and failed relationships. I have always had the problem of trying to take a relationship from 1 to 100 (emotionally, not physically), way too quickly. I won't go into many details, but all these failed relationships that I went through over the course of 4 years really fucked me up. It affected the way I looked at myself, and sent my self-confidence into downward spiral. Every time I fell for a girl or felt myself getting close to them, I would tell myself that I'm not good enough for them and that it's not worth putting myself through anymore potential emotional pain. I lived like this from the ages of 21-28, so a better part of my 20's was spent distancing myself from the women I liked.

About a year ago I decided that I had enough of feeling bad about myself and I deserve to be happy. I got it together, lost a bit of weight, started dressing better and started exerting a more positive/confident demeanor. 

I decided to sign up for online dating. Met a girl, waited a month to kiss her despite already going on 10 dates. Was pretty awkward about things, but she liked me and we're together now.

This is the happiest I've been in over 10 years. It's also the most stressed I've been in a long time. I spend so much time trying to make sure I do this right, and don't end up scaring her off. Putting myself out there, and trying to get over my issues is taking it's toll on me. All I've ever wanted out of life is to find someone that I love who feels the same about me, and I've finally decided that I deserve this and it's time to get it done.
<bot>: Decided that I wasn't going to pursue relationships anymore. Left me with insecurities and intimacy issues that I am now trying to get over. It's just a long fucking rant.