<human>: me:23f him:30m

I had a very traumatic experience on stage at a talent show when I was in high school. I used to sing well (haven't in 7 years), and play piano. I was very ill/anxious and passed out on stage. I was there for minutes (according to my mom). People thought it was a part of the act ( I have been known to get a little... dramatic). I woke up dizzy and confused, stood up, and then vomited. There were at least 800 students/parents/teachers watching. I have not performed solo since.  I do burlesque but I cannot do a solo act, which is seriously holding me back, but that isn't what this is about.

My boyfriend loves karaoke. For some reason, I can't even get up in front of my friends and unleash my inner rock star. I sing flat now (which is kind of a concern, but not really), and at this point I feel like I have turned them down enough that they would all make TOO big of a deal if I did get up there. Plus, there is something about having a mic in my face that gives me flashbacks of being scared, confused, alone, and embarrassed. 

How can i get over this? I don't mind going, but there is something about him singing duets with our lady friends that sparks a jealousy inside of me, like it should be ME up with him and it's my own damn fault I am not. I'm not going to ask him to stop singing with our friends because of my phobia. He knows what happened, and is understanding. It's not a simple matter of just being alone with friends. I know they will not laugh at me and I am safe with them, but I can't shake that feeling I've had for so long. 

ANYWAY. His bday is coming up and I promised last year that I would do a duet with him by his birthday. He remembers, but doesn't push it. I want to be able to do this. Drinking makes my anxiety worse, so I don't do it period.

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<bot>: Phobia prevents me from karaoke duet with boyfriend. Promised to duet with him by this Saturday. Am I screwed?