<human>: Provide a brief overview of the text.

I have not delved into where my problems are sourced from, but I know I have crippling anxiety when even presented with an opportunity of intimacy with another person.

Let me start by saying I haven't had sex for 2 years. I am not lacking confidence, though self consciousness is a symptom of my problem when I am talking to people I want to be with. 

My problems can be summed up with:

- Around people I want to be with (sexually or otherwise) I have crippling anxiety.

- Desire to be engaged and not to engage

- Fear of rejection

Brief Relationship History:
I have had one year long relationship in High School with someone who, though they had a good sexual appetite, was not very intimate and suited me and my problems well.

A year later I had a one-night-stand with another woman both us super drunk. I frequently question myself morally in that decision and have doubted the encounter was even consensual (though deep down I believe it was).

That was two years ago. I have few friends since I moved to NYC a year or so ago. I find it impossible to reach out to them. I normally prefer to be alone or with a few closely knit people, but this is absurd how I can't even bring myself to talk to people who find me interesting and vice versa.
<bot>: Desperately want to be close to people and have a relationship, but I get super anxious when presented the opportunity and never pursue it. The problem feels like its reached a peak about 2 1/2 years ago.