<human>: I've been through a lot but I used to walk through hell with a smile. I've dealt with emotional abuse, an undiagnosed condition that screwed me over for a while, and unstable parents growing up. However, I always tried to stay optimistic and poke gentle fun at my life so I don't take everything extremely seriously.

Now my life is miles better than it's ever been. If I told my 12 year old self how things are like now my past version would think I'm crazy. I have a job, close friends, and the body of a god. To top things off, I put in 50-65 hour weeks pursuing crazy stuff I'd normally enjoy

But lately I've been feeling horrible for no reason. I have days where I'd wake up, crying my eyes out quietly while feeling irrationally guilty. Also taking care of myself is suddenly tough. I was on the paleo diet which satisfied me, but often I can barely look at a slice of bread and some oreos

There's this crazy train of thought about how much effort goes towards so little. My notifications are piling up like crazy because it's a chore half the time. I practically download textbooks into my brain when I study but now it seems irritating and I'm about to fall behind in that aspect.

Why is this happening? My life is fine objectively speaking but everything feels pointless and I'm experiencing the emotional equivalent of doing nothing but watching paint dry. I've talked to my friends and they sympathize, but I'm on my own for this one. I've vented to my folks, but they think I'm just acting like a little child who wants attention

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<bot>: Bad stuff happened, but I was fine. Now everything's perfect, but I can't stand myself and don't know why.