<human>: So, it all started when i was about 16 and lost my virginity in a very short relationship that lasted quite briefly before she cheated on me. 

After that, i found out that i had a previously unnoticed talent for getting laid with a large number of women. It turned into a game for me, and sex with random hookups and partying was my greatest hobby.

After awhile i found a girlfriend who turned out to be quite unstable, and our relationship ended when she got pregnant with a child i did not want in any way whatsoever, but she did. She later miscarried but i never spoke to her again anyways.

After that i proceeded to mess around, having sex and partying to the point where i made a name for me. Sex was just fun, never emotional.

And now i am together with a girlfriend who is pretty much perfect, even though we have our different values. She takes things slow, is kind and values sex emotionally. I'm quite the opposite.

She is also smart, beautiful and hard working. And most of all perfectly sane. Overall a great girl. My parents love her and i know shes as good as a guy can get.

But she is an exchange student, and even though i went into a relationship with her i found it comforting knowing that out relationship had a time limit.

However now she have found a job working with cancer research here, and is staying longer and longer.

I am happy with her company and like i said she is as good as i will ever get. I'm very fond of her, even though i would not say i love her. But i just don't really feel comfortable in relationships to begin with and don't really know how to cope with this.

When i am in a relationship it feels like i'm stagnating. That i'm not pushing to improve myself. That i'm comfortable where i am. But improvement is what i live for. To become better all the time, physically and mentally.

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<bot>: I have a relationship with an amazing girl, as good as i will ever find. But i'm just not a relationship type and i don't know how to cope with it.