<human>: First things first, I want everyone here to know that I love and care for my girlfriend very much. She is very important to me. 

We met a year and a half ago and at that time I'd say she was maybe 20 pounds above average weight. I was really attracted to her and she was working out pretty consistently.

Since then however, she has really let herself go and is always complaining about her weight. She's about 5' 9" or so and weighs about 185(she told me). She keeps complaining yet she keeps doing stupid stuff like ordering appetizers before a meal and it's annoying me!

At the same time I really put an effort to look good for her and I. I don't work out a ton but I watch how many calories I eat.

So now, if I see an attractive woman, then I just get incredibly jealous and annoyed for a split second. I keep this all internally, of course. I wonder "Why not me? Why can't my girlfriend look like that, or have the discipline to look like that?"

So now I'm at a point where I have a girlfriend that I love very much, and is very important in my life, yet she's way overweight and she keeps complaining about it, and isn't making the necessary changes.

It makes me feel like a JERK saying this stuff. I promise you I'm trying to keep a sound mind and level head. 

She knows that I think about her weight even though I keep it to myself, she can read me. I honestly wish at this point "love was 100% blind" because I hate that I find so many other women very attractive, yet it's a struggle to find my girlfriend whom I love very much attractive.

I feel like as a man who cares for her, I can't judge her this way. I honestly feel that if I ever decided to make a change based on attraction then I'd feel like a HUGE jerk, and deserve it.

Anyone ever been in this situation? Thank you for reading.

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<bot>: My girlfriend has gained a lot of weight, isn't making changes, and I feel guilty for finding other women much more attractive than her