<human>: Can you provide a brief overview of the text?

I'm slowly feeling more and more detached from people around me. I don't know if this purely psychological but it is making me feel very alone. I am a bi-polar, with serious social anxiety, trust issues, and a general depression as well. As a kid I was mentally and physically abused my Mother and Father, and was molested/beaten up by my brother. And the one real girlfriend I had cheated on me with 3 people and turned it on me whenever I confronted her about it. So that is probably what has caused the significant amount of mental upfuckery in my life. This is also something that I am slowly coming to terms with (I am medicated and have a therapist).

So after years of just being in fear I'm trying to get back into the whole dating world; because I really like the idea of that connection/bond of having a best friend that you're romantic with. But I just can't seem to connect with anyone or bring myself to even open up in the slightest. The only person I have had that kind of connection with is my friend [22 M/F] and that's not gonna happen so I'm getting over them. I've tried OKcupid, talking to people, meeting people, putting on a smile. But, it just doesn't work, and it's never them, it's not some "nobody likes me *friendzone*" bullshit, it's just me. I'm just very frustrated and exhausted about feeling this way. That chain of feeling very misunderstood, then guilt for having that feeling. I hope this is the right place to put it, but r/depression hasn't helped me too much (used another throwaway). I just wanted to know if there's something I can do to just bring myself out there? Without just completely forcing 'cause that has yet to help me.
<bot>: Was abused to hell as a kid, and now I feel disconnected from anyone that I try to date/create a connection with. Any ideas of what I can do to fix this?