<human>: I [19M] told a girl [18F] that I didn't like her, but I actually do.
I've known this girl for a few months now, we were just friends at first and didn't go out on any dates. We seemed to connect pretty well, and we got very close recently. I eventually started to like her, and I had a feeling she liked me as well but I didn't say anything. 

Recently at a party we both made out, and she confessed her feelings for me, but I told her that I don't have any feelings. We were both drunk, and she even said she wanted a relationship later on in the night. I didn't say anything to that though, and we both went home, and I haven't seen her since. I also told a few other people that I don't like her after they asked me what's happening between me and her. 

I do have feelings for her though and actually would want to start a relationship. But at the same time I am very reluctant, and I'm not sure why. This would be the first proper relationship I would be in as well. It just feels like everything's not 100% right. I'm honestly so confused, as I've been dying to be in a relationship for a while but I'm still reluctant to jump into one.

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<bot>: Told a girl I didn't like her but I actually do. Reluctant to start a relationship for unknown reason.