<human>: I've only been dating my BF for three months but during that time I felt a real connection, like he could be the man I would marry one day.  A few weeks ago I was called by an old hookup (28M) (that I really liked but he didn't want anything more so I ended it when I met the BF) who told me that he missed me, thought he was in love with me but still doesn't want anything serious.  I did a stupid thing and saw him.  We ended up sleeping together and it made me realize how much I miss him and feel so strongly about him.  Over the past few days I've come to realize that my BF kind of annoys me and I would break up with him in a second if the hookup asked me for more.  At the same time, I think I might be okay with being in a monogamous hookup with him without being his "girlfriend" as long as he wasn't seeing other people.   

I know I'm not being fair to my BF and it's not right to keep pretending nothing it wrong, but I'm having a hard time figuring things out in my head and was hoping that you guys could make me think about things in a way I haven't yet/use different words that will clear my head and figure things out.

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<bot>: have a boyfriend, hooked up with an old hookup and now have more feelings for the hookup.  any advice for helping me clear my head?