<human>: Hey college. 

Here's the deal. I've always wanted to go to college... Just not the college I attend. When I was receiving acceptances in high school, my parents would only let me choose between two colleges, across the street from each other (literally) that were a 40 minute commute to my hometown. There was a huge news scandal the week I was choosing colleges, and felt I would be unsafe at one of the two options my parents gave me. Well turns out I made a mistake. Two years in, and I'm at wits end. I love my program, and I've gotten close with the dean of that department, but I am required to double major. My other major is PoliSci, but I'm a year behind due to health concerns. My real issue is that I cannot stand being in my collegetown, even to visit. I would frequently get panic attacks just thinking about going, and that has caused me to spend a lot of time off campus and at home. While the anxiety is gone, now I'm still left with anger. My mood is ruined the moment I find out I have to go back or visit. I've had a multitude of terrible experiences these past 2 years, and I no longer feel welcome in this city or on this campus. I want to continue on with my degree, but transferring isn't an option. My parents keep telling me to go to community college with all my friends back home, but I feel like a failure for contemplating that option. 

College I'm at an end. On one hand I love it here, and I want to be successful. Adversely, I feel so emotionally drained when I'm there that it makes me want to pack up everything and escape.

Can you give me a shortened version of the text?
<bot>: I have a love hate relationship with my college(town). I'm starting to wonder if its worth being constantly stressed all the time.