<human>: Can you provide a brief rundown of the text in within 3 sentences?

Was a 7 month relationship, she ended it. I went a month NC and then decided to see if she wanted to get drinks. So we did last night. I had planned on playing it cool and staying relaxed, but we both ended up having more than a drink...and both cried in a public place. Ugh.

We spent five hours just talking. I got too drunk and said some things I wasn't planning on saying -- not that they were bad, but I just didn't want to spill everything. I did though. I told her that I still loved her and she didn't know what to say, and I told her she didn't have to say anything, which I meant. 

I know ultimately that I want someone who wants me as much as I want them. My ex is a great person but not a great girlfriend right now. I wasn't the best boyfriend either, admittedly. I thought a lot of our issues could have been worked out, but she doesn't agree.

I guess I'm asking what's next? I'm not going to pine over her or beg for her back. I asked about it last night sort of in my drunken state, but I realize the answer is "no," and if it's ever going to be a yes it has to be her idea only. I'm going to go NC but it's tough because we get along so well. I've been working on me, trying to better myself. But I don't really know what else to do. I'm still in love, you know? Or at least in love with what I had.
<bot>: met up with ex. drunk convo that got teary. she doesn't want me back. I've been working on myself and I'm just in a weird spot with my life. I'm not sure what to do.