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Hi,

I haven't spoke to my ex in months, but I still feel this paralyzing draw to send her the "OMG hope you're doing well!" texts.  I don't follow through with the urge because I am trying to move on, and the situation ended with my feelings being in far more deeper than hers.  She moved back to her to her hometown, and that was the end of us.

I have removed all that reminds me of her and connects me to her digitally/socially from my life, because those things fill me with unparalleled despair and self-loathing.

Still, the urge to communicate with her feels like the urge to relapse into some sort of drug addiction.  I know whatever she says will not satisfy me, yet I cannot help but feel the urge.  I REALLY would love to text her.  It honest to god feels like I'm coping with an addiction to heroine despite the fact that it has been quite awhile.  Is this normal?  Am I doing something wrong?

Thank you for your time.
<bot>: After months of NC, I still REALLY want to communicate with her.  Does/has anyone else feel/felt this way?