<human>: To shorten the story considerably, I discovered that my current boyfriend has met up with men who posted in the casual encounters section on Craigslist in the past. These instances occurred before we started dating. However, I also found out that he has reached out to men on this website about 5 times since we have been together, but have no proof that he actually met with anyone since we've been together. 

He is not openly bisexual and admitted it out loud for the first time after I confronted him. I could tell this is something he has struggled with for a long time and did not want to traumatize him since he didn't exactly know how to process the feelings he has for men and also did not get to choose a time/way to come out. We have decided to work through this, and I do truly believe that he intends to remain faithful.

However. Anytime I am alone or think about the situation, an overwhelming sense of self-disgust overcomes me. I can't shake the feeling that I was not, and may still never be, enough for him. I'm embarassed and ashamed that the man who I am so in love with, and who claims to be in love with me, felt the need to reach out to strangers. It has nothing to do with the strangers being men, to be clear. He claims it has nothing to do with me or his happiness in the relationship. I throw up, shake, and just sit for hours when I'm left alone with my thoughts. 

I need advice from those who have been cheated on and tried to/ successfully restored the happiness and love in the relationship. Does this sickening feeling ever get better? It's been 2 months and I am realizing that I have started to really hate myself, but still feel only love for him.

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<bot>: Boyfriend tried to cheat with men from Craigslist. I am trying to heal and work through it, but cannot stop getting physically ill whenever I am left to my own thoughts. Advice/ insight needed.