<human>: At this point I've realized though that I cant trust my feelings. I went through a rollercoaster of emotions during the last few months of our relationship and this past month of being separated. And I love him, I know that. He has gotten his act together since the break-up and we are still talking and are good friends. He does now live about 4 hours away so we do not see each other.

Well... I think I want him back. But I'm not sure how much time I should give myself before making a decision like that. I'm not sure if this is a natural reaction to a break up or not. I don't know if I can trust myself. 

But here is why I think I can. Before there were lots of feelings of anger and rage and jealousy. I felt a bit irrational. I lashed out and kept pushing his buttons because I felt like he owed me since it was his fault we were on the rocks with everything. Well, now I feel like my head has cleared. I am just sad. I am heartbroken and I feel like I lost the most important thing in my life. The best description of how I feel is like I've been in an emotional coma for several months and when I woke up I woke up to a world in chaos. I want to love him, I want to be with him, I want to spend my life with my best friend. I tried getting past it by sleeping with someone else, so has he, and we keep returning to each other. We are both attractive people neither of us is under the impression that the other is the best we can do. But from what he says he still wants me too. 

But because I love him I don't want to give him false hope if this is just another stage of the breakup. I don't know how to really and truly assess my feelings. I am hesitant and I need outside opinions. My family is bias, they are not his fans right now because they've heard me cry too often. My friends are bias for the same reasons. His parents don't really know the situation, they aren't taking the breakup seriously because we are still very good friends.

Can you give me the gist of the text in a nutshell?
<bot>: I think I want my ex back, but I don't know if it's safe to trust my feelings since the breakup is so fresh.