<human>: Can you condense the text into a few key points?

This is going to sound really whiny and self-indulgent. I apologize in advance.

I really feel like I shouldn't be at my school, or any university at all. I mean, I know I need to go to college (I'm studying international relations and have no intentions of changing that), so dropping out isn't an option. Besides, I can't afford to drop out, as I worked so hard to get here, and have a huge scholarship + financial aid package. It would actually be more expensive for me to go to community college and live at home. (I also come from an abusive household, so going back home would also be really dangerous.)

But, despite all the things keeping me at uni, I feel like I don't belong here academically. I have good time-management skills and a decent work ethic. However, time and time again I've noticed my skill isn't enough here. I think my acceptance might have been a mistake made by the admissions committee. So far my grades are pretty good and I'm not feeling absolutely hopeless in every class, but as you can tell I'm not coasting either.
<bot>: I haven't even finished my first semester of college and I already feel like I don't deserve to be here, because I'm too dumb. What should I do?