<human>: I (21) have been dating my boyfriend (20) for about two years now. We've had some ups and downs, mainly stemming from problems gained in my childhood. My father was incredibly abusive toward me, and when I went to college I cut my entire family off completely. That's when I met Boyfriend, and we quickly became friends and then more. Spring of my sophomore year at college I was diagnosed with PTSD and anorexia and things spiraled pretty quickly out of my control. Boyfriend and I broke up and I took a semester off and went into an intensive therapy center. 

Recently, though, I stopped going to therapy and taking my anti-depressants. Maybe this was a bad move, but just based on my bringing up I always felt like therapy was a sign of weakness. I've thought about going back on antidepressants, but it's always taken a long time to get into a new psychiatrist's office to get them prescribed, and I know they won't do any good without therapy.

I think this has affected my relationship. When Boyfriend comes over I feel incredibly clingy and needy but can't stop. When he tells me he loves me I have to have reinforcement that he means it, which I think frustrates him. He can't ever spend the night (light sleeper) and I have nightmares when he's not there, but I'm not sure how to reach a compromise. 

Anyway, the point of this is that I've just felt so anxious about the relationship lately (he doesn't love me, of course he doesn't) that I've considered breaking up with him "before he breaks up with me." I also keep looking at my sibling's facebook pages and seeing how happy they are and feeling like I'll never get better and so I should just kill myself, in which case I would want to break up with Boyfriend to try and minimize his pain.

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<bot>: PTSD and depression are affecting my relationship and I'm scared to go back to therapy in case they try to lock me up for the rest of my life.