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"Jackie" and have been dating 2 years and its been great. We never fight or yell or hardly argue.

However, I struggle with displaying emotion and having feelings. I grew up in a very dysfunctional family where my mother was always gone and my father had Borderline Personality Disorder.

I learned how to deal with this by becoming by own best friend (narcissistic) and only relying on myself (not letting anyone get emotionally close). I also had some anxiety issues until the psychiatrist helped solve those. But because of my father's temper and extreme display of emotion, I learned to not be like him as well and am very calm.

I've been with many women and have no issue getting a new one. It's just when they fall for me, I leave. Now my current girlfriend for some reason stuck with me and for some reason I did the same. I'll be starting therapy in a couple weeks to figure out how to solve this but at this current point I don't think I know what it is like to love. I told this to her and she walked out, possibly for good.

Do I let her go, fix my issues, and move on? I really do care about her, I just don't have the overwhelming feelings of love I know she has for me. I just don't think I can love anyone because I've never really felt it before. I can spend all day locked in a room and be completely fine because that's how I grew up. I just don't want to lose such a good person over my emotional issues. She told me she loves me the way I am but I always feel like she expects more and I can't give her any more.
<bot>: childhood issues are surfacing, do I stay with someone I don't feel truly in love. But I've never truly felt what most people describe as "love" so how do I know what it is.