<human>: Could you distill the essence of the text into 1-3 sentences?

I recently is started questioning how i was getting so far in life and the answer was simple. I have no empathy. No love towards people. No hate for anyone on a personal level. I've never been in love but have been in several relationship and don't feel anything towards anyone. This includes family, friends and any asshole i'd hurt for fun. Its helped me get real far real quick. I've been promoted 4 time in the last year without hurting anyone mentally or physically, but as i work more and the more i love my job I'm starting to feel more.

Then this weekend i told my mom i love her. This brought her to tears as i've never uttered those words towards to mother. Not even once. Even when i was a young piece of shit. 

Now i've never fallen for anyone in my life. Not the woman i dated. Not the people i screwed. Or the funerals i've attended. I feel nothing towards people or anything living. I could easily watch people i know die in-front of me but this is sadly changing. The more i work. The more i love my job. The more i care for these shitbags. I've even fallen for a someone. But i can't tell anyone that i wouldn't give a shit if they'd die. Or if i fucked there loved one. But work is fucking changing me. I've even started helping people. 

Before when i didn't feel anything I didn't have any hatred towards people. I'd just use a motherfucker and get to where i need to be. But now i can't. I've also developed a fucking moral compass. Its fucking bullshit. With all this ball ass love its slowing me down as i don't know what to do. 

So i decided to get some help which was fucking useless they'd just relay they same shit i spew back to me, here i am now writing this post on reddit. wooo!
<bot>: I've never been able to feel love for over 20 years and now its slowly seeping back into my life and killing me.