<human>: Give me the gist of the text in a nutshell

The husband and I have been married for 4 years and friends for almost 15 years. Sounds like a dream come true right?

I feel like I'm crazy, he's an attractive guy with a good job and is sweet to me.  But there is ZERO passion, no lust for life or adventure I feel like I've been compromising to the point where I've lost myself...I have no hobbies, because I do whatever he wants.  I practically have to beg for him to participate in something I would like to do. It's become a chore really.

I don't feel WANTED anymore...I do my damndest to make him feel good, I grab his ass/junk in public, whisper sweet nothings in his ear constantly, morning BJs, etc... It's a struggle for us to have sex. when he finally decides he does want some, his erection sometimes goes away before anyone is really done. I of course always try and get it going again. But he NEVER finishes me off. This is especially harder now because we're trying t start a family....sex is kind of a key point here, amirite?

I've tried talking to him, I ask if he isn't attracted to me anymore or if there is something on his mind that keeps him at a distance.  I tell him I feel like he's faking it....the love the care...it's all a front and he doesn't wanna break it off because he's just kinda gotten used to having me around. He says he loves me, he wants to stay married forever and start a family...I'm just not buying it.

I'm starting to resent him, just looking at him pisses me off. Which in turn makes me feel like a shitty person because I have it pretty good, so why am I not happy? I feel like I'm living with a roommate, not a husband.
<bot>: Husband is boring me to tears. There is no passion or motivation on his side to make ME happy, only him. I'm thinking about divorce. halp.