<human>: Ok a little background: my last relationship ended 4 years ago, and since then, it's been really hard for me to open up to someone else. So I've been using online dating sites, mostly okcupid and howaoutwe. Well, I met a guy on Howaboutwe the other night, and the date went really really. We even made out a little at the end. So we get together yesterday and watch Shutter Island, and make and get hot and heavy. 

Well, we're getting hot, and he pulls out his dick. I say ok and start to suck on him, well I haven't done anything like this in awhile, so I'm alittle nervous. So I go at it, and end up going with mostly hand. Well that kind of turn him off, so he puts his pants back on and says "I don't if this is going to work out".. "pitty, you're the most awesome girl I've met".  So we talk a little, and he starts touching my boobs again, and of course it turns me on; and him as well. So we try a bj again, and I totally blow his mind, which I guess confusing him. 

So he walks me to my car, tells me he'll text me, and gives me a very passionate kiss. I guess I'm wanting to know is did I totally ruin his expectation because of the first bj attempt, or is he maybe trying to figure this whole thing out. He did say he wants to see me again, but I feel kind of like a fool.

I know he wasn't just wanting a bj, but I feel like there's nothing I can do.

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<bot>: met a date, hung out, gave bj for the first time in years, went bad, but redeemed myself, but doesn't know what the guy is thinking.