<human>: Can you provide a brief overview of the text?

I was in an 8 year marriage that fell apart pretty amicably, and I entered into a new relationship pretty quickly. I was emotionally closed off, but the new guy was so patient and kind about everything. He's flawed, but I was very lucky. 

And... I fucked it up. 

He put up with my wishy washy bullshit, and I realized-- too late -- that I do want a long-term relationship with him. The whole nine yards. And now he's so hurt that he doesn't trust me when I say that's what I want. I can't blame him. I tried to pour my heart out to him but he's stubborn and hurt... He has asked for 8 weeks of radio silence to take time apart and hopefully focus on ourselves, but I am a mess. I am dealing with depression (actively getting help) and I didn't realize how much my depression and anxiety was influencing my fear of commitment. 

I know I want him, and if there is even a sliver of hope, I'm hanging on to it. I'm trying my best to respect his boundaries, but in the meantime I miss my friend, my lover... the person who could make me feel so loved with a word or a look. I want to do the same for him, but I know it's too little, too late. I asked for so many chances, and I'm so scared that at the end of the 8 weeks (if I can even manage to make it that long without falling to pieces) he will have built me up to be this monster in his head. 

How do I get through this? It sounds so silly, but... I am lost. I don't know how to go 8 days without saying hi, or giving him a hug. How can I go 8 weeks? I want to prove to him at the end of that time that I'm good. That I can be what he needs. I also need to get good with myself, FOR myself. Any advice would be appreciated.
<bot>: My fear of commitment hurt the person I love, and I lost him. He has asked for 8 weeks of radio silence -- how do I fix things while respecting his needs/boundaries?