<human>: Can you succinctly summarize the text in 1-3 sentences?

My boyfriend and I have been dating for 4 months and before that, we were best friends since about this time last year. The relationship is long-distance.

I'm 17 and I have Asperger's and ADD. I've had a kind of rough childhood. My parents have always been good to me, albeit a bit clueless. I was bullied pretty badly from K-9th grade though and I've never seen a professional about it. (I want to though) 

Anyway, I've been noticing lately that out of fear and selfishness, I've been manipulating him. I've been sexually demanding. He and I call eachother mean names, but it's always in jest. I don't mind that he has his own life and friends and that he needs time to spend alone and with his family. I always want to talk to him though and I've caught myself checking up on him before. We normally skype before going to bed and sometimes have sexytiem. I've noticed though... He'll say he wants to go at a certain time or that he just called to say goodnight, and I'll guilt/seduce him into staying longer.

Additionally, he's scared to tell me things I'm doing that he doesn't like because he doesn't think I'll take him seriously... I find myself constantly wondering how he feels, or why he does the things he does, and sometimes even wishing I could control him.

I'm sweet most of the time, but I'm volatile and tend to find myself making a production out of stupid things. 

I hate acting like this and now that I've realized it, I feel disgusting and I have no idea how to stop. 

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<bot>: ]: I realized I have emotionally abusive tendencies, and I want to stop, but I don't know how to. What was your most painful realization about yourself?