<human>: NOTE: I'm sorry if this isn't the best subreddit to post in, please direct me to a better one if there is.

It happened a few days after my 15th birthday, he took my virginity.

I became Patricks (Different guy) girlfriend a few months after. He is really incredible to me and I care very, very much about him. We are sexually active, he never pressures me into anything and is caring and thoughtful when we have sex. I am careful about not triggering anything, I stay away from the position that was used and I find that keeping my eyes open and looking at him keeps me "in the moment". Of all the times we had sex I've only had one full blown panic attack. I told him that it was because I was having a really bad day and my mind wasn't into it.... a bad excuse I know, but he believed it. I think.

In times of stress it seems that I'm triggered more easily and frequently. I have a physics public coming up that I'm ridiculously anxious for, along with exams in other subjects. I've been turning down his advances a lot recently and I can tell hes getting suspicious. I don't want him to think that I'm losing interest in him, or that I have my eyes on someone else.

I think he deserves to know, but I'm really scared. He thinks that he was the one who took my virginity... not the rapist. I heard that taking a girls virginity means a lot to a guy, so I don't want to take that away from him.

I don't want him to be angry at me but I'm tired of hiding this from him. I have no idea how to bring this up, I really want it to be treated like its no big deal, but I guess it kind of is. Should I even tell him? Please help me :(

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<bot>: My virginity was taken away from me awhile ago but my boyfriend thinks he took it. I have no idea how to talk to him about this, or if I even should.