<human>: Can you give me a shortened version of the text?

so, we've always kinda had a thing, (at least for like, 2+ years.) and then we dated for 6. some complicated confusing shit happened, we broke up. then a few weeks later, i tried to be friends with her. we were working at things pretty good, but i mean, i just had no trust towards her. she's a spiteful person, knows just what to do to make you hurt. i already had trust issues with her (when we dated, we only got to see each other on weekends due to distance) and when i found out that while we were trying to work things out, she started "hanging out" with the kid i hate the most, and that she barely knew, and it was wrong imho. so i called her out, bitched her out, etc. pretty much ended it right there. buti still think of her every day, and of course i love her. thinking back on the relationship, i realized i was in the wrong. she was always there for me, helped me with some depression and shit, and towards the end i guess i just wanted to see what else was out there (i'm only 20, and i still have years left at uni) so i guess i'm an asshole dumper, whatever. anyways, she's still a terribly spiteful person, now every post on her reddit is (most likely) intentionally to hurt me. posting about her fwb's, saying that she's been on and off with a guy for a few years (like THAT makes me feel good about the trust issues...) and all this shit about her hooking up. i know she knows i'm reading it, but i can't bring myself to not check her page. i mean, i'm in love with her. i dumped her, but i feel dumped. i want to move on. i don't want to move on. every post of hers tears a whole in my gut, and i've started smoking cigs to ease my heart (totally healthy i know) i hate her. i love her. i hate loving her.
<bot>: my ex is a spiteful bitch, but i can't move on. i started smoking the occasional cig to help my hurting heart with anxiety.