<human>: Give me the gist of the text in a nutshell

I recently have accepted I am gay. I dated a girl for a couple years and it didn't work out. 

I have a few friends that I'm really close with, mainly straight men. 

I think they are all decently attractive and like one of them a bit more a bit in a crush kind if way. 

I know it's never going to happen. I just don't know if my current friend behavior is helping me or if its normal for me to be like this. 

I'll talk to one of them everyday over text and the others every couple days. I see them all about twice a week maybe three separate or together. 

I'll go for dinner, movie, pick them up from work when I'm in the area at night since they don't drive, talk about things happening in our lives. 

Compared to other male/male relationships it seems a bit more intimate. But its not romantic or sexual. 

They don't care and ask for the same activities and things back to me. This isn't one way. 

I just don't know if this along with those feelings are a healthy combination.

I don't know if when I get a boyfriend this can keep up with my friends without it a problem for my partner. I'll have less time, but I mean relationship wise. 

I asked on /r/askmen and they seem to think I'm trying to make them my boyfriends or something and its a bit weird.

If I was a girl and my friend was a girl no one would bat an eye. My ex and some of her friends would hug and dress in front of each other but it never seemed weird.  Close male friends and its weird. 

I just really enjoy being good friends and having important people in my life. I mostly worry about my male friends, but I have one female I do the same with. 

Thoughts?
<bot>: I am gay and have close straight male friends that I fear I am too close to for me to be emotionally healthy despite us getting along great. What do you think?