<human>: Can you give me a shortened version of the text?

I've recently been diagnosed with cystic fibrosis. Of course I'm upset that there are many new restrictions in my life, new dietary changes, new medications and breathing treatments, things I will never experience in my life because of this disease. 

I'm upset that I've had to quit an officer program that I was enjoying and excelling at. I'm upset that I only have a few years left to enjoy aggressive contact sports before my health begins to noticeably deteriorate. And I'm very afraid. 

But I'm not afraid of dying. I'm afraid to die alone. 

I'm afraid that I'll never get to experience a truly fulfilling long term relationship with another person. I'm so afraid that they'll think it's not worth the trouble to date someone who is expected to have serious respiratory issues down the line and is only expected to live to their mid fifties, even though I'm in decent health now and can bench an impressive amount for a woman my size (I'm >100 lbs and can bench 140!).

I completely ***decimated*** a relationship in October 2013 with the first person who really made me feel loved for a moment when I was struggling with serious health issues that had potential to end my life in a matter of months. I hid these issues from him and tried to make him hate me so that he'd leave because I was afraid that if I told him, he wouldn't be able to handle that. But I was just as afraid of dying alone and afraid that he'd leave if I told him how sick I was.

Now that I've been diagnosed with cystic fibrosis, I'm even more afraid that nobody will be able to love me in spite of how frequently I will continue to be ill as a result of this illness.
<bot>: After being diagnosed with cystic fibrosis, I'm afraid I won't be able to find a long term partner and I'm so afraid to die alone. Should I just accept a life of feeling alone and unloved now?