<human>: I hope this is a good place for this. The asexual subreddit and the sex subreddit both seemed like bad ideas, but I'll be happy to move this elsewhere.

Ever since I was little, I didn't really get crushes on boys or girls. When I hit high school, I started dating because that's what you're supposed to do. It was always super awkward. I didn't really like being touched. The first guy that ever kissed me, I never kissed him back. I honestly felt kind of gross about the whole thing. I thought porn was gross. I started researching it and identified with being asexual.

I met my ex when I was 15, and he was 16. That awkward feeling I used to have was gone. When we touched, it felt like fireworks on my skin. His scent drove me insane. We were each other's first everything (except my first kiss, if you want to count me not kissing back.) We literally couldn't keep our hands off of each other. I could go more into detail, but it will get me antsy, if you know what I mean.

However, we were not compatible at all. I broke it off around 3 years ago. I felt like we had only lasted so long because we'd fix all our problems with having more sex. Since then, I dated in college. I dated many men and women in college, but none of them lasted for any length of time. I wasn't attracted to any of them sexually. I honestly had forgotten about the asexual feelings I experienced when I was younger because I was with my ex for around 5 years. 

I'm starting to get lonely. No matter who I date, I just can't feel that connection with them. I have friends, but I crave sexual connection. It was so amazing, but it's now gone. I was okay with being asexual before I met my ex, but now that I experienced that connection I have a huge void that nothing can fill.

I guess my question is, what should I do now? I don't really know what anyone can say to help. It's honestly just nice to get this off my chest.

Can you condense the text into a few key points?
<bot>: I've only been sexually attracted to one person. Not having a sexual connection with anyone is starting to drive me crazy.