<human>: This account may end up being a throwaway 

My boyfriend and I have been dating for 2 years now. We met when I was a sophomore and he was a freshmen. Our relationship has grown and changed dramatically since then, he went from my crush to love to my bestfriend and lover. 

I started off the relationship very sexually shy. As embarrassing as it may sound I didnt even want to hold his hand. He had two girlfriends prior but for me he was my first everything. It took three months before the first kiss and months later for feeling one another up. 

About 10 months in we became more sexually involved and I loved every bit of the interaction. I was becoming confident in myself and trusted him more than ever before.

A little under a month ago we had sex for the first time. Our relationship became stronger and we became very clingy with one another. 

The only problem is that while we are happy I noticed something was lacking on my side of the relationship. The more sexual in the relationship we became the more addicted I felt to being strictly sexual with him. He's extremely genuine and cares about making me laugh and smile all the time and I'm a cutesie person who just likes to have fun. (generally in a not sexual way) . 

Even though I want to put my heart fully into the relationship the first thing on my mind now is always sexual satisfaction. I'm starting to turn our spontaneous hangouts into a day of sexual activities and nothing else. It hurts him and frustrates me. What do you think I should do?

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<bot>: I want to continue having a loving intimate relationship with my boyfriend but I'm obsessed with the need of sexual satisfaction. It's hurting him. What do I do?