<human>: Hi guys. I'm about to turn 16, 5'8'' 118lbs and I had never taken part in any real physical activity before I started running track at my school in November. For the first three weeks I burst into tears as soon as I got in the car I even had a huge breakdown in front of everyone while we were running hills. My mother; although she had not forced me to start forced me to stay... I noticed some improvement in the sense that I no longer keeled over (literally) after two laps around the track. I only ran the 55 in one meet and I got some awful time along the lines of 10 seconds. That was just the indoor season. 

I thought outdoor was going to be the same and that I could handle it but I'm slowly coming to realize I really can't. I'm just awful in general. I ran the 200 last week and I got a 36.02. I hate the feeling of being last... very very last. Maybe sprinting just isn't my thing? I don't foresee myself getting better at all and I am a very weak person mentally as well as physically. 

I dread going to school everyday because of practice afterwards. My grades have suffered because I come home drained and mad at myself. I might have to start doing my homework during lunch or something...

Part of the reason I haven't quit yet is my coach. He is an Olympic athlete, professional photographer, and amazing person. I hate to quit on him as well as all of the amazing people on the team. Most of them are beautiful (also part of the reason I am still there) straight A students. I just don't see how they do it. I want so badly to do well. I want to be amazing. I just don't think I have what it takes. I don't know if I can handle all this embarrassment and I don't see how this is going to help me in the future because I don't think I'll want to run in college (nor do I think I will be good enough). I make jewelry on the weekends and sell it on my Etsy, I love Doctor Who, video games, etc. I'm very different from most of the people on the team in general. I wish I could be like them.

Could you distill the essence of the text into 1-3 sentences?
<bot>: AKLDJLKGDHFLJK I suck but I won't let myself quit. I want to do well but being so bad is making me very sad.