<human>: Hi. So I'm in a new relationship with this great guy. We started talking in April of this year, and started officially dating in September. Anyway, I really do love him. I connect with him and feel like he understands me on a certain level that most people don't.

I dated a guy, my first relationship, from December 2013 to October 2014. When he broke up with me, it was a complete surprise. That night, he had spent 4 hours in my dorm with me and my roommate, just being normal and shit. Everything was fine. Then bam, he brings me outside and breaks up with me. Tells me to go back to my room. We've never talked again.

I have absolutely 0 feelings left for this guy. In hindsight, I'm glad he broke up with me, because I felt like I could never be honest about myself with him. But... the way he broke up with me, so suddenly and out of the blue... I feel like it has affected me more than I realize. 

In my relationship now, I feel so skeptical all the time. I feel so... I feel like I'm living in constant fear/with the constant expectation that he's about to break up with me at any second. I've told him about this, and he's just like "Why would you think that? I'd never do that to you," etc. etc. And I know he's genuine, and he's so sweet and good to me. He drives 4 hours round trip to see me every week (he lives about 1.5-2ish hours away from me), we have a good time together... it's everything that a new-ish relationship should be.

But I feel like I can never have that blind faith and trust in someone again. It makes me feel so sad. Like, I view relationships as something with an expiration date now. Just like, "welp, wonder when he's going to decide to break up with me." I feel like I can't trust. It sucks. It makes me fucking sad and paranoid. 

What do I do?

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<bot>: After my first relationship ending badly for me, I feel like I can never trust in the same way again. How do I fix this?