<human>: Throwaway account.

Recently it has become more apparent I'm unable to create an emotional bond/attachment to men I date. I've even been called out on it!
What usually happens is that I end up thinking "I'd rather be home than on this date." It has been a very consistent thought while on dates. I wouldn't consider the dates awfully bad, but I just lose interest after a few dates.

I feel sometimes they can be too overly attached to me and clingy. I end up feeling like eye candy to these men, and there's no substance to conversations besides them commentating on my looks. (I apologize if it sounds very vain, but I'm being very honest.)

Close friends say sometimes I can be emotionally distant at times, but I feel it's because of university, work and the fact that I'm a highly independent person.

What I feel are plausible causes to this problem:

1. My first ever "relationship" was with a man who was 23 (I was 19/20), completely broke my heart by saying he never loved me after a year of dating and asked his childhood crush out while we were together, (and was rejected! Ha!) This was the only relationship where I really had an emotional bond to him, and would be very affectionate. (It was like puppy-dog love.) 

2. This past year I've been hit with a difficult financial situation (unemployed parents) and have gone to being a sugar baby (read: sex work) to provide for my family and lessen the burden of student loans I take out for university. Note: actual dates I go on have nothing to do with the exchange of money.

Can you give me the gist of the text in a nutshell?
<bot>: I am capable of emotions, but haven't felt "butterflies" or the feeling on wanting to see the men I date more.