<human>: Can you succinctly summarize the text in 1-3 sentences?

So... i was really shy when i was younger. I used to be really social at my old city, and i became quiet once i moved. I never ignored anyone or didn't answer. I was just never a loud kid. I would sit and do my homework, and speak when someone was talking to me. After a year or two, (this being 3rd/4th grade) i began to talk but someone would always say, "WOW, you can talk?" Then would laugh. It would happen every time i said something. I despised everyone in my school. They continued to do it, even after i would stand up for myself. So i just didn't bother talking. I was the "shy" nerd. It's not like i was scared to talk, i just didn't want to.  Even in highschool, i wouldn't talk. My boyfriend asked me to go to a party with him near the end of high school and begged, "Please don't be shy... Please." It made me extremely upset, and when he left, his best friend comforted me and handed me a drink. I became drunk, and... well... i was what everyone was talking about the following Monday because of how crazy i went.  I go to camps with new people, and i always go with the mindset that they aren't from my school and they don't know me, so i can be myself. But i try to make conversation, feel awkward, and shut up. It's like i have a social disorder. Now, if i know someone, i talk perfectly fine like i would family. But i HATE that i have to be comfortable to be able to not be awkward.

Tomorrow, i'm going to a marching clinic for the college i'm going to. I want to be outgoing. I can't stay a quiet person if i want to do great things in life. I'm an introvert. i don't care if i have to PRETEND that i'm outgoing, i just want to be someone, unlike how i spent the last 12 years. But, i'm not good at keeping a conversation, or starting. Any ideas on how i can pull it off?
<bot>: I used to be shy. Bullying forced me to be shy. I want to stop since i'm going to college. But i'm a horrible conversation starter. Help?