<human>: It's an occupational health assessment for a nursing course at university; it's more so they can support you rather than a test you have to pass (although they are making sure you aren't an axe-murderer, obviously) but I'm still unbelievably anxious about it.

I have to admit that I once tried to kill myself (I absolutely cannot lie or get out of it at all) and they're going to ask why, and I'm going to have to explain on some level about being raped by my ex and sexually assualted by some colleagues and CSA for any of it to be "justified" so they can see I'm sane and will be able to do the job. 

Every time I think about this, though, I want to just lie down and have the floor swallow me whole. I mean, I could have to talk to some old man, I have no idea who it's going to be, and I had one for my last job where the doc totally felt my boobs, then I had to pay him and I've never felt more like a prostitute in my life.

How the hell can I get through this? I don't think they can reject me if I'm honest and demonstrate that I'm able to function normally, which I totally am, but I have never spoken about this stuff ever and the thought of doing so makes me want to cry. I can't remember the last time I actually cried.

Can you give me a shortened version of the text?
<bot>: Have to talk about past abuse in order to pass a psychological evaluation, and the thought makes me want the floor to swallow me with shame and fear.