<human>: Can you provide a brief rundown of the text in within 3 sentences?

My bf [32 M] and I [25 F] have been together for a couple years and long distance for most of that. I have decided over the past few months that I don't want to marry him. He's done nothing wrong, I just know that's not where things are heading for me for a variety of reasons.

I know that the "I'm not ready to marry" convo is going to turn into a difficult break up convo. I'm willing to consider other arrangements, but I'm certain he is not.

Since we are long distance, we have several planned, organized, and expensive events planned over the next six weeks or so, and those are the only times we will see each other. All of them are with family.

I feel so awful feeling the way I feel and just like, going along with everything. We're not fighting, we don't hate each other, but its ending.

Is it wrong to KNOW I feel this way but stay with him for the sake of getting through these planned events? Is it okay to wait until August before really hashing this all out?

To compound matters, I've developed feelings for someone else. Nothing has happened and nothing will so long as we're together, but its just an added source of guilt on my end.

What would you all think? I've thought about it, and I'm not sure what I would prefer in his shoes. I've been on the receiving end of many breakups, but not a situation quite like this.
<bot>: Know I need to break up with bf. Is it horrible to know that and stay with him until we get through some expensive travel and family plans that we have BOTH invested in?