<human>: Can you give me a shortened version of the text?

So, I should probably make this on a throwaway, but fuck it.

Six weeks ago my boyfriend passed away in a car accident. He was the only man I've ever been in love with. He was my first everything. He was my best friend for years. And even though we are kind of young, (20/19) we both believed that our relationship would last and we often talked about our future after college graduation.

I am aware that many people don't know how to approach me in this time of grief. But I am struggling, because one of my friends has particular trouble in being the person I need her to be right now. All these weeks of dealing with her culminated up to one phone call. I started discussing just how frightening and awkward it is going to be when I finally decide to get back into the dating world (which will be a long ways off). So she empathized a bit, but then she goes on to express that it has to be a bit exciting to think about dating someone new and starting the whole relationship thing again. I was stunned. It's not like my SO and I broke up and it's not like I was unhappy with him; I thought I would never be single again. I wanted to yell. I wanted to cry. I wanted to make her realize that the man I believe to be the love of my life is never coming back. But I couldn't. Because this situation is hard for everyone. Each person in my life is trying so hard to help and I don't want to throw my grief in everybody's faces, but I just get so frustrated sometimes. 

Oddly even typing this tiny anecdote about the past month has made me feel a bit better. Thanks for letting me get this off my chest.
<bot>: One month after my SO passed away my bestfriend thought some part of me should be excited to start dating someone new.