<human>: Give me the gist of the text in a nutshell

I don't know if my wife cares about me anymore. We lose intimacy with every passing day.

This week we fought over me trying to teach my son to play chess. She was saying I should let him win. I wasn't playing for real, but things happened and he lost (he's 6). He starts crying which I thought was funny, she procedes to tell me what a bad parent I am, and we fight in front of him. WTF? The woman is irrational and yells at people if they don't do what they want.

I could have taught him about losing with dignity, now he's gonna think dad and mom fought because he's a loser. She won't even let me be a father to my son. This boy is going to be a pussy worse than his father some day. I don't know what to do to stop it from happening, life is going to eat him alive and I feel powerless.

Most of time I just want to be left alone. Playing chess with my son was one of the few good moments of my whole week. Overall I don't like even hearing his voice, it's so high pitched. I really love him but I don't feel I have the patience. I know this is terrible.

Also, my job treats me well and pays me well, but I'm unhappy. I'm a late 20's man wanting to switch careers. I want to do arts college and become part time artist, part time arts teacher. I'd make less money but I think I'd be happier. But things aren't working. I don't think I'll ever gonna make it. I'm getting old and lost most of my creativity after too many mental health problems and years of office work and being a husband.

I want to add I had a business trip to do, but I think I'm not going because if I go, I'll be the whole time thinking she's cheating me while I'm away, and this is going to haunt me for months after I'm back. I never caught her cheating, but I got suspicious once and never trusted her again since then.
<bot>: I love my wife, but I feel so lonely at home, and also very afraid my son ever ends up like me.