<human>: Some background on the girl and I: we've been involved basically since the night she became my manager at our job in October.  There was instant chemistry between us but I never expected it to take us where we are now.  It has been a roller coaster of emotions and just so many ups and downs from almost the start.  We're both still dealing with the emotional aftermath from our last relationships, and it's definitely affecting whatever we (could) have.  I see every guy she talks to as a threat, and in turn I get extremely jealous and verbally aggressive whenever she mentions certain friends or a new guy friend.

It's so ridiculous of me to not trust her, but I can't help it.  She's been so open and honest with me about everything.  The only dishonest thing she's done is lie about not having feelings for me, which takes us back to her being scared of getting hurt and just not wanting a relationship in general.  It wasn't until a falling out we had almost a week ago that she admitted her feeling for me and realized that she does want to be with someone (but she feels trapped in relationships???)

Anyway, even before when we were just FWB and she denied her feelings for me, she never hooked up with anyone or was interested in anyone to my knowledge.  She's been very loyal to me despite y'know, not having to be.  I've been a huge pain in the ass with my jealousy, insecurities, initiating pointless fights, and running away every time things got hard.  It kills me to say it but I've been very emotionally abusive.  And she's been nothing but patient and understanding.

I want her to want to be with me, but I know that's never going to happen if I keep letting my insecurities and fears get the best of me.  I want her to feel free with me and feel like I won't hold her back.  She told me she wants to help me, but I don't know how she could when I don't even know how to help myself.  I want to get better and learn how to control myself.

Can you succinctly summarize the text in 1-3 sentences?
<bot>: I want to be with my manager, but my insecurities are making me aggressive and controlling and she's already reluctant about getting into a relationship with anyone.