<human>: Can you succinctly summarize the text in 1-3 sentences?

I'm 27 he's 25, been married 10 days short of a year.

So this is an ongoing issue. I've looked everywhere for advice. 
I'm a fatty, so I can't help but think that has something to do with it.

Just this morning I went into our bedroom to wake him up. And it embarrasses me to even type this but I was rubbing on him like a cat in heat. After a few minutes of talking about random stuff, I told him "I'm horny honey." His immediate response was "Don't tell me you woke me up for some dick??"

He wants me to be more aggressive in sex. Like "rape" him is our euphemism.  But this kind of stuff here, happens all too often. Why would I get aggressive at all if he barely wants it any way, and when I initiate... well it never really goes anywhere often.
<bot>: my self confidence is GONE, but hubby wants aggressiveness. Too many rejections for sex = fuck this shit.