<human>: (Throwaway Account) I am just wondering because my childbearing years are fast coming to an end and I never got the "baby fever" that I've seen all my friends go through. But in reality, even my younger cousin is settling down and making babies. She's 6 years younger.

In my 20s, I thought to myself, "How lucky I am not having kids. I can do what I want, I can travel (and I did), and I have plenty of time." Now I'm starting to wonder if I messed up. I am married to a guy who wants to have kids, and I thought I did too, but I'm not sure if it is worth all the horrible changes that will come with it. It seems that the more I read about having kids, the less appealing any of it sounds. My research has left me with the impression is that you lose control of your body, there are tons of risks for you and the baby, and potentially your relationship and sex life are ruined. Not to mention the expenses associated with raising the kid.

So I'm left wondering if it is really worth it in the end. I haven't maintained friendships with my female friends who had kids. Some were rude to me or criticized me for not being a mother. Others quit talking to me because we didn't have anything in common anymore. At this point, I have no female friends for a support system and it has been too long to just call them up and ask how they feel about having a family.

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<bot>: I'm past my 20s, married, and wonder if having a baby is worth it. Are all the changes to your body and relationship worth it? Is it better to just live a comfortable life instead?