<human>: Give me a shortened version of the text

So, this is going to sound/be extremely shallow, but I am truthfully asking for some advice.

I dated this girl in college, for 3 years.  We broke up and got back together now that we're in out late 20's.  Everything works together, happy relationship. 

However...I love mouth > genital playing. She loves it when I go down on her, but finds it degrading to give me a BJ. This is because of all the "suck my dick" talk we were engrained with growing up.  

We are talking about our next steps.  Seriously everything else is great...but I honestly have a hard time whenever I think to myself...I will never get a blow job for the rest of my life.  This cuts to my core, almost as much as it cuts to hers on how much she is against doing it.  

During our break up, I was with a lot of women, got some pretty good lays, had some awesome BJ's.  what do I do?!
<bot>: GF won't give BJ's bc its against her morals. Having trouble seeing myself never getting one again. We've talked about it - don't think she's budging.  What do I do?