<human>: Give me a shortened version of the text

I lost my virginity considerably later than the vast majority out there. I was 23, and I regardless of that I feel as though it happened too early even as an adult. That sounds ludicrous, I know. I've sobbed off and on for the past few months over it. I'm not into religion but even so, my wish was to wait until I fell madly in love with a guy. That never happened for me, so I lost it to a friend. He's a decent man, not relationship material but a companion and drinking buddy nonetheless. The actual act didn't last long at all, maybe 4 minutes?? Then it was over...and I mulled over it like "That's it? That's what I've obsessed over for so many years? ....what do I do now?". I didn't mention my disappointment to him, but after we parted ways I felt disgusting. I felt like I threw something tantamount to my identity away. I've experienced everything from depression to anger that I wasn't lovable enough for someone to snatch me up and give me a beautiful debut into my sex life. Instead I gave it to a random friend because I found myself seething with a crazy amount of lust and felt I had to find an outlet before I lost my mind.
<bot>: I lost my virginity at 23 to someone I wasn't in love with, and it was mediocre at best. Feeling depressed,sad, and angry at myself.