<human>: My boyfriend and I have been dating for almost a year, and for the past 5 months or so have lived 4 hours away from each other. His grandfather, who I never met, passed away very recently, and I've only texted with my boyfriend since. I've tried to be supportive and mention that I'm always there to talk but since we have spoken on the phone or skype (which is difficult due to our work/living situations) I'm not sure how he's really dealing, he's never super expressive of his negative feelings.

A few weeks ago, before his grandfather passed, we were discussing me possibly visiting this weekend. Once my bf learned about his grandpa, he texted me saying he was no longer sure about me visiting since the funeral would be on the weekend, then quickly added that I could come anyway and participate in the service. I felt very uncomfortable with this and said so, but also mentioned that if he really wanted my support I'd be there. I now regret this, as in thinking about the situation I've only gotten more uncomfortable with it! I've never met any of his relatives except his mom, and now I'd be attending a funeral for a man I never met full of his grieving (and according to my bf very likely quite drunk) extended family and introducing myself for the first time. As someone prone to anxiety this sounds like an absolute nightmare to me, but I previously mentioned I would go if he really wanted me there, and I'm not sure what kind of relationship fallout might happen if I say no?

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<bot>: Am I being a bitch by not wanting to go to my boyfriend's grandpa's funeral? I feel super uncomfortable with it but should I go anyway to be there with my bf?