<human>: Could you distill the essence of the text into 1-3 sentences?

I had known that she had problems with an eating disorder in the past, so I wasn't surprised when about two months ago she was committed because of it. Beyond that, our relationship has been fantastic. Both our families love us together, we share interests and the sex was great! This is surprising, as she told me, because she had never enjoyed sex at all, with anybody else.

Until, of course, the ED started wearing out her sex drive (so we thought). That was okay, I was happy to work with it. It hurt seeing her go through all of it, but I did and do love her, and I just wanted her to get better. A couple weeks of treatment in, she drops a number of bombshells on me. The two most important:

1. She has "gone back" to before; she hates being a woman, hates sex, hates the way it feels, and hates worrying about pregnancy.

2. A week before we started seeing each other, she was raped. She refuses to tell me any details, except that she hid it from the world and herself, and that she has made up her mind in not reporting it, and

3. The only reason she was interested in sex was because, on some, subconscious level, it was her way of "getting back" at her rapist.

My first reaction to hearing that she was raped was uncontrollable sobbing. The staff at the hospital were very friendly and led me to the waiting room so I could cry it out. Eventually, though, it set in how fucked up it is that all the wonderful sex that we had was caused by a rape.

Selfishly, I feel, I worry about the long term effect of this. If she doesn't want to have sex, it won't be long before I feel undesirable, as I've always needed that in a relationship. If she couldn't become intimate because of trauma, I would understand, but in fact, the only only reason she ever was able to do so was because of the trauma. She's still in the hospital, and since she's told me she knows it may be hard for me, I've told her I reserve my judgement until she is recovered.
<bot>: Girlfriend was only having sex to block out trauma, and says we probably won't have sex until if we get married. Every which way is fucked up, so where can I turn?