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Couple of my friends were planning on going to a holiday for a week and they asked me if I am 100% certain and I kept saying yes. My dad is supportive but mom is really scary about everything and kept saying no but then she said I'll think about it. So yesterday I had to tell one of the friends that was organizing the thing if I'm 100% confirmed, but that "i'll think about it" turned out to be a no. She just spills reason after reason after reason for me not to go and it pisses me off. I had to tell the guy i probably wont make it and he sounded as disappointing as me. I am pissed off because i feel embarrassed, everybody is letting the other guys go but not me. Sure they are one or two years older but its not that big of a difference. And now if I am not going the group will be probably smaller than expected because couple of other guys also can't make it due to different reasons. I kept telling my self I will go to this no matter what, and I probably can despite moms will but I know this will make things worse and I will basically be coming home to a battlefield if it happens. I am so stressed and pissed off right now I feel like breaking everything around me. I am certainty not going to be talking to my mother for the foreseeable future. I'm just thinking what to tell the other guys who plan on going (if they are even gonna be going, because as I said a lot of people backed out and with me too I dont know whats gonna happen) so I don't look like a fool. Any thoughts and advice is welcome.
<bot>: friends plan to go on holiday, no problems with their parents, but my protective mother wont let me - me embarrassed mad and dissapointed