<human>: I really enjoy the classes, though I've only just started and find the style a little odd compared to my old martial art. I also planned only to attend for one year, while at the university, before finding some other place with a different style that would be near where I am moving to.

I've already paid in advance for the year, so I'm not saving any money by stopping.

Now to **what actually happened**: We were practicing kicks and I wasn't "HAH!"ing. My instructor came over to tell me to make some noise. He then said something like (it's been a couple hours) "why not try words you would shout like STOP or NO or DON'T". In my past I've ended up having sex that I heavily regret and didn't really want because I felt unable to say anything like that. (Not rape, just a lack of self-respect or the ability to stand up for myself at the time). So hearing him complain that I was unable to say even that just really got to me and as soon as it was sensible, I left the lesson and cried.

I'm not sure I can go back and face him. I hate that part of my life. I've moved on. I won't ever ever ever go back to being that person. I put so much work into putting it into my past and I thought I was past it.

Can you give me the gist of the text in a nutshell?
<bot>: instructor told me to yell "STOP or NO or DON'T" when kicking and it brought back a lot of bad memories. Unsure if I should woman up and go back to lessons or just leave*