<human>: We become neighbors six months ago, became friends and he was interested but I thought he was too young for me. After friendship of four months, I changed my mind, we hooked up, and it's been surprisingly awesome. We've ended up spending a lot of time together (easy when you live 12 feet away from one another), and it's my first lovey-dovey relationship.

I struggle with family issues - I'm not in touch with pretty much anyone from my family as of this summer. It's been really hard on me but I try to keep it together. This past Sunday I got really (really) drunk and cried like a baby to him about it, and was just a total mess. It sucked, I woke up feeling terrible, thinking he'd drop me for sure. He didn't, was really kind and caring the next day, but now I am riddled with insecurity. Fucking riddled.

We were supposed to go camping this weekend but this morning he bailed because he has work to do. He admitted that he could get work done tonight so he could go, but was very unenthusiastic about going. I obviously don't want to make him go, who would that be fun for? At the same time, I'm feeling all sorts of insecure and it sucks that he bailed. I'd been looking forward to this for 2 weeks and now he would rather not do work tonight (basically out of laziness) and sleep over the weekend instead of going camping, something that he said he had really been looking forward to before my breakdown.

My flight syndrome is kicking in hard. I feel really vulnerable and like I messed things up, so I should just end things here. I'm upset about him canceling plans but probably taking it to heart too much. I don't know if I'm ready to be in a relationship.

I guess I'm looking for advice on how to manage these emotions and stay in this and be healthy about it, or how to go about exiting this with least harm caused so I can get to a better place on my own.

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<bot>: I don't know how to be in a relationship to begin with and it's harder with him being my neighbor. I got really vulnerable last weekend and he cancelled plans this weekend, don't know how to handle it.