<human>: I actually originally came here to post about my current girlfriend. She's passive and doesn't have a lot of ambition and is basically just trying to force me to give her direction in life. We got in a fight because she told me she felt like I wasn't being supportive enough, because she wants me to lead her and build her up and be her tree trunk and all this stuff. I started typing this up and describing how unhealthy I think it is and how it makes her less attractive to me... and then I realized... **HOLY SHIT. THAT'S ME**. IT'S LIKE I'M DATING MYSELF. The way I'M behaving is unattractive and pathetic. 

I'm a floater. I am constantly procrastinating things I need to do, and I try to avoid responsibility as much as possible and lose myself in video games. The last few girls I dated were controlling, jealous, and bossy, and I not only put up with it, but I now realize on some level I depended on being told what to do. Anything anxiety-inducing, even stuff like a course project, I'd always wait around for my girlfriend to support me and tell me she believed in me and so on before I would start doing it, or I'd be motivated by her telling me to stop procrastinating and so on. In retrospect, it's almost like I'm subconsciously looking for a surrogate mom to pack my lunches and tell me to do my big boy homework. Literally, while writing this post, I typed out the sentence "I don't want to be a manchild anymore, I want to become a man, but I just wish I had someone to hold my hand and tell me what to do." WTF!

I gotta fix myself somehow. I don't want to be like this anymore! I want to learn responsibility and take charge of my future and become the kind of badass, take-no-prisoners person I always look for when I'm dating. But how? Do people like me change? How can I wake up tomorrow morning and start being a fucking adult?

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<bot>: Came to post about my dependent girlfriend, realized while typing it up that I'm even worse. I need to grow the fuck up. How do I start?