<human>: Can you condense the text into a few key points?

Hi r/relationships. Please help me. I'd like some thoughts that aren't fresh off my own internal carousel of negativity.

I've been dealing with a mood disorder for pretty much my whole life, and all of my friends know that I have it. Recently I've been in a really bad rut and I feel immobilized (just graduated from college, confused about my life/future, you know the drill, even I think it's boring). I am in a pretty isolated living situation for the time being so I don't see anyone unless I go out of my way to make plans. I am getting back on my antidepressant medication, which I only take when I am in one of my bad places, so hopefully this should be a bit more manageable soon, but it's not exactly a silver bullet - things will still be difficult after being back on the meds. 

The problem, besides my lifelong struggle with a dysfunctional brain, is that I have been struggling with how to talk to my friends. Basically I haven't been answering their calls or keeping in touch, and because we are all pretty scattered around the country I doubt anyone is particularly worried about me, but I don't really know how to tell them what's going on. I don't want them to judge me, worry about me/try to help, think I'm crazy, or worst of all think that I don't want to be friends anymore - but I want them to understand that I'm not bailing on the friendships that have meant so much to me. I can't even really explain what's going on with me or bring myself to pick up the phone. Have any of you dealt with depression? How do you keep your personal issues separate from your friendships?
<bot>: I don't know how to explain to my friends that I'm struggling with a depressive episode but I still want them to know that I love them and want to be in their lives without being a burden.