<human>: Throwaway here, I don't want anyone knowing I'm having this episode.

I have trouble approaching people, I have trouble when I meet people new and the people that I know I feel they don't really care about me at all or just feel sorry for me. Whenever I try to speak to anyone they usually have someone else they'd rather talk to and I'm just shoved on the sidelines and any attempt I make (and there is always an attempt) to engage in conversation I'm ignored and excluded if it includes more than two people. If it is just two people then I eventually run out of things to say and just freeze, I'm horrible at small talk and  can't keep up a conversation, I'm a boring person with nothing interesting about me.

Moving on to girls, I am a wreck when it comes to them. I've never had a girl-friend because I've never had the balls or anything to say to them. I'm told I look decent and well groomed, but I just lack a fucking spine to do anything about it, who wants a boyfriend who can't even mention they like the girl? I'm more afraid that if I was to become emotionally close to a girl then I would just bore her to death with my personality.

I've only started worrying about this recently and it's been on my mind for the past month. I've heard all the advice from similar posts of "you need to improve yourself" and such but how does one go about improving one self? People try to make it sound easy but for someone on the other end of this it's not. I can't force myself to try make friends without feeling insanely uncomfortable and all I can do is just sit here and pity myself like the bitch I am.

Can you condense the text into a few key points?
<bot>: Can't make friends, people don't want to be around me, girl trouble, I'm boring and is starting to become a bit frustrating and depressing.