<human>: Basically i think ive been suffering from emotional abuse. I have low self esteem and a low point of view of myself. I never used to have that. Weve had ups and downs the past few years and ive tried my hardest to do everything to make it work and to make him fall back in love. But he only loves me as a friend and isnt in love with me after 10 years together. Hes kicked me out 5 times now and i want this to be my final straw. For the past month we didnt talk much, but he started coming around again calling and texting me. Today though he did nothing but yell at me and call me stupid and told me to go fuck myself after a financial decision made by both of us, as i include him in all things, has gone slightly wrong, meaning only one part of it went wrong. Ive put up with this blame, and basically feel that anything that goes wrong is my fault. I always take burdens upon myself and try my hardest to fix them. I walk on eggshells so to speak constantlya nd i already have an anxiety disorder. Ive spent most of my day crying and sobbing over not only the loss but his treatment and attitude towards me
 Ive do e everything with both of us in mind, and reflecting back he does things mostly with only himself in mind. Reddit what do i do? Anyone else expirience this? It went as far as us trying for 4 years to have a baby so its a serious relationship and been a significant part of my life. Im so sad confused and at a loss, and im just blaming myself for whatever is wrong constantly feeling guilty as in i dont make enough money, i got ugly, i cant concieve a child etc. Any advice welcome please.

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<bot>: ive done alot to save a relationship im afraid isnt savable, and i feel like im at fault for everything.