<human>: Could you distill the essence of the text into 1-3 sentences?

I recently came to college dating my high school boyfriend because we were going to try long distance. I loved him so much when I first came and it was so hard leaving him, but when I came to college I was so taken aback by how new everything was. I realized I didn't really know myself and I wanted to discover what I liked and who I want to be. However, I felt sort of constricted by having a boyfriend back home, so when I went back one weekend I told him I wanted to take a break. It was something we had sort of been talking about for a few weeks, and it just seemed necessary. It wasn't because I was interested in someone else or wanted to see other people, it was just because I wanted to figure out what was truly best for me.

 We still talked every day, but it felt like the pressure was off of me and, for a while, I felt better. But about a week or two after I started to face incredibly low self esteem. I started feeling like I made a mistake and wanted him back, and that feeling still lingers, a month later. I had it in my mind that when I came back for Thanksgiving, we would get back together. But today he told me that last night he and his friends got drunk and played "spin the bottle" and "truth or dare", where he ended up hooking up with a total of five girls (as far as I know, they only made out). I'm heartbroken and I feel so hurt. I haven't hooked up with a single person here and I just can't believe that he did this. 

I don't know what to do. I feel really hurt but I still love him. I feel like it's not ok to forgive him but at the same time I still want him to be my boyfriend, it's just that I don't trust him as much. I've remained faithful because I still felt tied to him but I don't know if he's on the same page as me. What should I do? I'm coming home in a few days but I don't know if I want to see him anymore. Any advice?
<bot>: My boyfriend and I have been broken up for a month and last night he made out with 5 girls. I still love him but I don't know whether or not we should get back together because of this.