<human>: I met this boy 7 months ago and we quickly became close friends. After a month we began seeing each other every day. I admired his tastes, his gentle nature, his kindness, and found him very attractive. 

He doesn't talk about his sexuality very much. He has been with women before and knows I am gay. Only clue would be he uses the term "people" to talk about romantic instincts. He is very open minded. We often do drugs (molly and mushrooms) together and that blurs a LOT of boundaries. I would never do something or bring up the subject in an altered state, but really enjoy how substances bring about intimacy. After a drug experience together, we started playfully physical contact frequently. 

The longer we were friends the more it felt to me like it was a buildup to a relationship and I couldn't stop myself from fantasizing about being together. I made a promise to myself to tell him about my feelings before school ended for the semester. I couldn't bring myself to do it and don't think it will be different when we return in a month. 

I don't know what to do when I see him again in a couple weeks. It hurts me to think it's one sided and I know it's not fair for me to feel like he's mine. I have a year to wait for the situation to play out naturally but not sure how I can hold this inside any longer. 

Of course we would still be "friends" if he didn't feel the same way but I wouldn't feel as close. TBH it's never felt like a friendship to me.

Could you distill the essence of the text into 1-3 sentences?
<bot>: In love with my new close friend and can't decipher if the feelings are mutual. Have tried and failed to talk about it with him.