<human>: Summarize the given text in a few sentences.

So I've been seeing my girlfriend for one year now and I love her so much, she's the first person I contact when something happens and in so many ways I feel like she's my best friend. But at the same time she's my first girlfriend and she's so shy when it comes to sex and making out that it's making me question our relationship. 

I know I'm never quite so happy as I am when I'm with her, she encourages me to do so much and she's been amazing. Although we live two and a half hours apart and we want to move closer to each other, it all falls on me to move to a new city because she's tied to an apartment for the coming year and a half. 

When we first started dating I had just lost a lot of weight but lacked confidence, now I have confidence and whenever I meet girls someone starts flirting with me. It makes me think about the facts that if I don't leave this relationship I will never kiss a stranger, I will never get a blowjob, I'll never get to eat someone out, always have the same kind of sex and I will always have to handle her anxieties. Her anxieties are always the same, she's worried that I might leave her (ironically this makes me want to leave her), that she's going to die, that she's not in control of a situation or that someone close to her might die. It's nothing bad, but I'm growing weary of having to assure her that things are not as bad as they might feel for her. 

The thought of breaking up with her feels wrong, impossible even. But I'm also thinking that whatever happens we will break up sooner or later, because if I'm feeling this way now, will it ever go away?
<bot>: I'm in love with someone who I can't see myself loving forever and I'm about to move to a new (still relatively close) city to be closer to her. But in questioning the reality of my own feelings.