<human>: I honestly am sick of myself, I've never had issues with controlling my temper before, It's only with her. She is very hard-headed like me and when we get into arguments neither of us back down. I think she is an amazing girl and I consider her to be my world, but It's like I can't help but argue with her. I've just gotten out of a extremley bad experience with depression and I'm still dealing with anxiety, and I feel like I'm messing her up too with how I treat her. I always say stuff I never mean and the other day we were in the middle of arguing and I said "Stop acting like such a self absorbed brat, just because you don't get your way doesn't mean you should hate them. Just be glad they aren't abusive." Then she said, "Well that doesn't matter when I have an abusive sister!"
and I realized she is right. I'm horribly abusive to her emotionally. I recognize that and I really *really* **really** don't want to be, but it always seems like I can't control my temper. I'd ask to go to anger management, but I've put my family through enough with all the depression counseling....
I also feel like I've brought down her self esteem. She used to be so bright and always happy and was everything I wanted to be, but I feel like I destroyed that. I've tried to blame it on her becoming a teenager, but I know it's me.
Can anyone give me advice on to how to make our relationship work, and make her feel like I love her again? 
Is there some type of counseling I can do online?

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<bot>: I emotionally abuse my sister in arguments and I feel like I made her develope a form of depression. how do I fix it and control my anger?