<human>: "Dimitri" and I have dated for during over a year and a half. We are both of Russian descent. We have talked about finding an apartment together but for the now we each have our own place. I have a studio, he has one bedroom. He works in international finance and I work as curator of a small Eastern European gallery of art.

He is often to take a two or three day trip at a time during the week, and during this time I miss his body.

I like to have sex with Dimitri nearly every time I see him and when he is not around I am climbing the walls of my apartment going crazy.

My girlfriend says she maked a porn film with her boyfriend who is the same business as mine, and when he is gone she watches their film and is satisfied in this substitution manner.

I find this intriguing and will like to bring it up with Dimitri but he loves and respects me and I do not want to make him think I am dirty or crazy to want to film him doing it with me. I will involve no one else in this plan I just want to set up the computer or iphone to record us.

But I just feel sick when he is gone. Maybe it is the missing him a lot that is the problem and I must get help from professionals for this, but the simple solution is to just masturbate myself into a coma and I like this idea too.

Is this a bad idea?

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<bot>: My boyfriend always leaves town on business. I miss him and want to make a porn to masturbate to when he's not around. Am scared it will make him think I'm crazy.