<human>: I grew up with an abusive father, and my first/longest relationship was abusive.

Now, every time I get in a relationship I drive myself crazy looking for warning signs. He likes something I like? He's trying to impress me. He called me pretty? He's trying to butter me up. He did something nice? He's going to guilt me with it. Called me babe? He's trying to claim me as a possession.

My relationships are always very short because I get too stressed out and break up with the person. I have gotten better at not showing my paranoia but it's still constantly screaming in my head. I'm so moody from going back and forth between "It's okay, he's a normal person" and "He's like all the others. Run away, protect yourself. This is badbadbad."

I'm scared my crazy-making will turn -me- into an emotional abuser. I think that people who date me get whiplash from my mood swings, they can't relax, and they can't do anything right in my eyes.

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<bot>: Raised with abuse, I'm scared everyone is abusive, I think my paranoia will turn me into an abuser too.