<human>: My relationship with my now-ex girlfriend had been on shaky for quite some time until she recently told me it's completely over, she just doesn't have the feelings for me anymore.  
  
We had been together for ~1.5 years, I was 17 when we first got together. Naturally, as this was my first relationship, I had commitment issues paired with my inherent emotional coldness. I liked being with her - as friends. She wanted more and now thinking back about it, it's unspeakably painful to think about how much she commited to us being together.  
  
I rejected such ideas, thinking they weren't that serious or that I wouldn't regret them later. Around January, I really started thinking about commiting fully to the relationship. When I talked to her about it she told me she needed "air". I was obviously confused, but I gave her time, a lot of time thinking that's all she needed until now when I got dumped completely out of the blue (for me).    
  
It was the most devastating thing that has ever happened to me, I hadn't cried for years, yesterday I cried like a little *****. Not only because it was just over, but because I blew my chances with the most terrific girl I've ever met (I thought that even before developing feelings for her, which is why I can say that with the upmost objectivity). I desperately tried to fix things, but as expected they were in vain, it's too late.  
  
My question is - how can I deal with a breakup that's pretty much a complete sucker punch, completely one-sided and one where the girl is in my eyes completely perfect (again, I thought that even before developing feelings).  
  
And also, is there a chance for us to ever be together again? If so, what should I do?   
  
Any help is very much appreciated.

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<bot>: I got dumped by my girlfriend for not showing enough affection. When I finally did develop feelings for her I got dumped because it's too late. Some insight and possibilities of a recovery, please.