<human>: I've been with my boyfriend a few years now. We've not long bought a house together, looking at starting a family... Things are generally really good but he made a really fair point the other day that he's always the one to initiate anything when it comes to sex, and it's true really because in all honesty I find it awkward and I don't know why. It's not that I don't enjoy sex. I really do. And I want to enjoy it more, I don't want things to get boring and routined with someone I want to spend forever with but its like I can't muster up any sort of confidence to initiate anything, to suggest new things, shit the idea of talking dirty sounds great but thinking of ME doing it makes me cringe. It's like a very specific form of social anxiety and i get so annoyed at myself but every part of my confidence goes when it comes to sex.

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<bot>: I'm not confident enough to initiate sex or be more open during sex with someone I've been with for years and own a bloody house with. Help :(