<human>: For starters, I don't do any drugs (except drink). In January, I found my boyfriend's stash, where he also left all of his discarded baggies and such. For two weeks I sat and watched him, realizing that our relationship was based on lies. He was (and still is) lying to me EVERY single day about why he looked ill and was "just really sleepy." Of course, after looking up what powdered heroin looked like, and what they symptoms of heroin use were, I realized it was even worse than I thought. This had clearly been going on for months and months. He literally spends every single dime he makes on heroin. He lies to me about paying bills, even lied to me about losing his debit card, saying that was why he couldn't pay for anything. I finally broke down and confronted him (i hate confrontation) and it was horrible. He got mad at me, saying I shouldn't be in his business, etc... He told me he'd stop, though. I went with it. I believed him. Then of course I keep finding out he has ordered more and more every payday. He just keeps lying, saying he's been clean for like three or four months, but I know he's spent nearly $1000 in July alone on bitcoin. This guy must think I'm a damn retard. I recently graduated with my bachelors degree, really trying to make something of my life and every day I wake up, thinking I'm going to find him dead. It makes me feel absolutely helpless and alone. I've never felt so lonely in my life, because I can't tell anyone. Thanks for letting me vent, and please offer up any advice. I know I need to confront him again, but I know he is emotionally unstable and I'm scared of what he will do to himself. I really truly love him. Every time he runs out, he goes through withdrawls and I can see a little bit of himself, his REAL self come through... but then it starts all over again.

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<bot>: My boyfriend is a drug addict who is pretending that he is 4 months sober, and I'm scared to confront him because I am a weenie.