<human>: This username throwaway is ironic because I wasn't ready to leave for college - up until now. The thought of leaving has been really poisoning our relationship for the past few months. It caused him to pull away and try and make it easier for me to go, which of course caused me to try even harder than before to make things the way they were. 

Yesterday, I told him that if he couldn't put the same amount of effort in as he used to and couldn't handle our relationship anymore, than I'd rather know that than live in a limbo state of dating but not seeing each other as much. 

The part that kills me is that getting plans made to see him was always a pain in the ass (we are both very busy and have completely conflicting work schedules this summer), but once they were made we were always so happy to be around each other. Knowing that we still love each other and still want that is killing me. 

That aside, our friend groups basically came together when we started dating eight months ago and formed one big group. Though everyone knows we have broken up, they are continuing to make plans (as they should) for tomorrow/Thursday/this weekend. I know my ex will want to go, but I'm not sure if I can be around him for that long right now. Does that mean I should just avoid my friends for the next month?

It's not that I'm angry, but I don't know how to be around him platonically. We were never friends before dating - we met on a Friday and went on our first date that Sunday - and though I want to be eventually, I don't know how I'm going to get through the next month before I leave. How on earth do I act normal around someone that I still want to be with?

Can you give me the gist of the text in a nutshell?
<bot>: My ex and I broke up on good terms but the thought of seeing him at parties/group hangouts is freaking me out.