<human>: Can you condense the text into a few key points?

I have been talking to a girl for just over two months now. I have fallen for her very hard even though we are supposed to just be friends now. We had sex after a few weeks of talking and continue to kiss and hold hands/sleep next to each other whenever we hang out.

I care about her now in a way I did not think I would allow myself to do. I had been engaged when I was 21 and I have never really let a woman into my heart again after that relationship. Yet, here I am with a woman that is as beautiful as she is smart. I talk to her daily about her relationships with other people, friends and men, and would do anything to have her be mine.

The catch is the way we both handle relationships. I am terrible at allowing myself to love someone and it seems that every time commitment is expected I start to overwhelm myself with feeling of want and over thinking. She is also not great in relationships because she often fails to be able to trust the man will not hurt her. This combo does not mix well and could easily cause us to falter even though we both go out of our way to show we really care for one another.

Where I stand now is the woman of my dreams is right in front of me, has even broken up it off with all of her potential "others" to pursue a real relationship only, and I am afraid to ask to be more with her because I do not want to lose her if we cannot be more then friends.

I will fully explain myself if anyone has more questions, but I am so lost on what to do because as a man who has never believed in marriage after an early relationship I would give anything to have her be mine without the chance of losing her forever.
<bot>: I am in love with a girl that is supposed to only be my friend and I need advice to make sure I do not lose her forever.