<human>: Can you give me a shortened version of the text?

I have this female friend that we've been friend for about a year now. I never any love feeling for her that was clear for me. I always suspect the contrary about her toward me. But I felt awkward to discuss that with her. Two weeks ago, she express her feelings to me. I felt kind of happy for her to find the courage to do it, you know? But we drink a lot this night in we kind a sleep together. It's still cool between us because she said live happen and it's all good, or something like that. But I feel like I'm not honest with myself and I feel really bad about myself in this situation. I feel like I'm using her and I could do anything and she would because she loves me. (I'm french speaking sorry for the my english)
<bot>: Do I have to talk about how I feel with her and I'm a monster? Is it possible to stay friend if we talk about it?