<human>: Can you summarize the given text in a few sentences?

So I dated this girl for about 8 months.  She was my first girlfriend, first time having sex aswell.  When the relationship started I could kind of tell I didn't want to be with her forever, but as we progressed I saw how well we got along together and how happy we made each other.

However, there was still some feeling inside of me that it wasn't going to work.  Being that it was my first relationship, I didn't really know how to handle break ups so instead of talking to her about it first, I just straight dumped her.  I know it was a bad move but that's in the past now.

So basicly, I felt like there was this perfect girl out there for me and I had to leave my girlfriend to go find her.  There were some of my favorite interests that my girlfriend isn't really into, but she supports, and this perfect girl I imagine will be into this stuff with me, and I can be with her forever.

Now that I've been away from my girlfriend for about a month, I'm beginning to think that this perfect girl doesn't exist and I've given up something really special with my ex.  Maybe I havnt given it enough time but I really miss my ex.  

I'm currently thinking I want to tell my ex that I may have made a mistake but I need more time to figure it out.  Maybe I'll keep looking for this girl and maybe she doesn't exist and I'll go back to me ex, because she really is a great girl.  Or maybe I'll find this girl I'm looking for.  Going back to my girlfriend now, I may regret not looking for this other girl. Or maybe I'm just naive and I should just keep what I have, or had.  

I've talked to my ex a little last week and I know she would take me back if I wanted to. I just don't know if I'm ready yet.

Thanks guys
<bot>: I broke up with my girlfriend to find some perfect girl that may or may not exist, but I feel like I have to at least try to look. Or maybe this girl doesn't exist and I'm being naive and stupid.