<human>: My SO (m/17) and I (f/17) are 'taking a break'. 

Lately, I've been unhappy. I don't know what it is or why, but I haven't been content with my seemingly perfect life. Partially because I'm bored and partially because, I'm not sure. I'm unhappy. The relationship between my boyfriend and I has been strained and, for lack of a better word, strange. I love him, but I can't seem to shake the uneasiness of our relationship. I keep pushing him away. I couldn't feel more distant and I think he's getting tired of it all. I want to be with him and I want us to be happy together. I feel as though he could find someone who makes him happier, but I can't bare the thought of life without him right now. Tomorrow is our 6 month, but earlier today I texted him and told him I think we should 'take a break'. It seemed like the only thing to do to keep myself from pushing him away any more or fucking things up further. 

Anyway, I suggested we did and he agreed. Now I feel lonely and stupid for suggesting it, but I still think it could be good for us. I honestly don't know what to do. The idea of talking to him makes me feel nauseous. I just want him to hold me and tell me everything is alright.

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<bot>: I suggested to my SO we take a break until I can be happy, I realized I don't actually want a break, and now I'm worried of the potential outcome.