<human>: Can you condense the text into a few key points?

I remember when I was in high school, my first boyfriend was amazing. I also remember dropping everything and putting all of my focus and time into just him. It was a sore subject with my girl friends and I burned some bridges because I thought I was following my heart. This scenario has been on repeat ever since.

I have had 6 significant relationships over these past ten years. Obviously, none have worked out, as I am grieving over my most recent failure this week. I am alone now. No friends to turn to for advice because I alienated myself during the relationship and lost their trust. 

I feel like I have been slowly wittling away my own personality. I can't tell what I want in a SO anymore. I try to be open minded to the point where I think I lose any standards that could potentially help me avoid getting with people who don't actually care about me. 

I am already trying to think of ways to ease this feeling of lonliness, which scares me, because I think it is time I face this and try to enjoy my own company. I really have issues with being alone.
<bot>: I have issues with being single for any period of time and it has only affected my life in a negative way. Any advice would be great.