<human>: Can you succinctly summarize the text in 1-3 sentences?

So I started dating a girl for about two months before we both started our study abroad programs in different countries. We intentionally tried not to "date" or call it that. Oh yeah, I was a virgin at the time.

Our plan was to be open and not "date" until we got back. That is still the plan actually. Basically we are free to fuck whoever we want. I visited her recently in her country. Lost my virginity to her there. Felt great, loved seeing her, we were both happy. Planning on traveling together for like 3 weeks in the near future as well.

Neither of us have done anything with anyone else yet (2 months in). I feel like I'm supposed to have done so. I forgot the exact phrasing, because I was too preoccupied doing dirty things to her at the time, but she basically suggested that I should be intimate with other people. It might have been an attempt to avoid inhibiting me while I'm here, but still she said it.

I hate this shit. I try to act like I'm over it to other people including her. I've even come close to hooking up with other girls when I was drunk on a few occasions, but damn. I feel like the mentality I'm supposed to have is, "Oh I really really really like you and love spending time with you, but other than when we are physically together or when we get back... you're just another friend and NOTHING more."

About the sex with others thing: I don't feel guilty about it; I just only want her. The problem is that I actually do want to fool around while I'm here, because I feel like it's part of the experience, but I just can't be fucked to make (or let) that happen. Everytime some girl comes on to me, I just think "I'll see her in a few weeks, so I don't need this." I guess I'm just confused by myself and wanted to get that off my chest.... fuck.
<bot>: Girl and I are in different countries and supposed to be "not dating" but I am confused about whether I want to take advantage of the open situation we have or not.