<human>: A few weeks ago my boyfriend wanted us to make a deal, he told me that we can involve sexually speaking, with another person just for pleasure, the only rule was that we cannot involve sentimentally in any way.

I know that he did that just because we're having a hard time in our sex life as a relationship, and i am sure he won't do that with another girl, the thing is that i am alredy involve with my ex, i have feelings for him, i dont want him as a boyfriend or something but i do really want to be with him sometimes and he told me that he would love to be with me just for sex.

i am conscious that is pretty fucked up. Please let me know what you guys think.... don't judge me.. i do love my boyfriend i really do, but i want my ex.

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<bot>: my ex and i broke up 5 years ago, since that we still see each other time to time. I am with my actual bf aince 2010