<human>: I should be using a throwaway for this b/c my s/o is always on here, but whatever. I'll be as detailed as I can be while staying as vague as possible.

We've been together about 2 years and we live together. My sex drive fluctuates greatly and his is pretty consistent (shocking, I know). I've never been much of an initiator, as I find it quite awkward and fear rejection. I don't even think he expects me to initiate at all anymore, so its basically understood that if we're gonna have sexy time, he's gonna have to get it started.

Apparently he's most horny in the wee hours of the morning. Usually, its when he's randomly woken up around 2-4 am, sometimes its around the time our alarms go off for work. No matter when, it always starts the same- me blissfully sleeping and being awoken by his hands on my body or mouth on my lady parts. Waking up to sex may sound awesome to most, but I find it increasingly frustrating for a few reasons. 

The main reason, and why I come here today, is because I'm starting to get insecure about his sexual attraction to ME. If he's only (mostly) compelled to fuck me while I'm asleep/sleepy (and NOT sexy at all), then his horniness isn't a result of his attraction to me, but more that he's just horny and using me as a blowup doll.

I want to bring this up, but I have no idea how to convey why it bothers me. I'm also not at all prepared for him to confirm my lack of attraction theory.

Advice and talking point that could help me talk to him about this would be awesome!

Can you condense the text into a few key points?
<bot>: bf only wants to bang while I'm asleep. don't think he wants to actually fuck ME and is just using me to masturbate.