<human>: I am a 23-year-old currently single female. I've only ever been in monogamous relationships, but they've all ended after I get to a point where I realize I'm interested in meeting other people. In my last serious relationship (which ended about a year and a half ago and lasted just over a year), I developed feelings for two other people (27M, 22M). The first time, I didn't act on these feelings and didn't tell my then-boyfriend (22M). The second time, a few months later, I was hanging out with the 27M guy I had developed a romantic interest in, and we kissed. I immediately felt terrible and told my then-boyfriend about it the next day. Soon after, we ended up breaking up because of a combination of me wanting the freedom to meet other people and because I'd essentially cheated on him. 

Now that I've been single for about a year and a half and have been dating around casually, I've been thinking about/processing what I want in a relationship. From my previous experiences, I know that I'm not a huge fan of monogamous relationships because they make me feel trapped. On the other hand, I don't think an open/polyamorous relationship would work for me either, because I'm not a huge fan of the idea of a SO having sex with/feelings for another girl. 

There's got to be other people who have been in the same boat. What's worked for you? What have you learned about yourself? Advice? Please and thank you.

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<bot>: I (23F) am somewhere between monogamy and polyamory but can't seem to understand/figure out what kind of relationship I want or would work for me. Help.