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Im new to a school and iv'e made quite a few friends to hold onto.The bad thing is i like one of them (For some reason i really don't know.).But i have a really bad past when it comes to liking a friend out of the blue.Story of that is we were best friends who always were around each other ***all*** of the time,When all of a sudden i liked him for some mysterious reason and he abandoned our friendship as soon as possible which left me to be very insecure with who i like and who im friends with.I get the reason why people say "*Don't hold grudges!*" because nobody is the same.I have a mix of butterflies and a pain in my stomach about being worried.
<bot>: I have a major crush on a best friend and i don't want it to turn out like the last crush i experienced.