<human>: Could you distill the essence of the text into 1-3 sentences?

My boyfriend and I met in uni, and thanks to our age difference we graduated at different times. We had a six month regular relationship, did LDR for a year, lived together for nine months, but a few months ago I had to move home (financial issues) and I'm a four hour trip away.

Moving home means I see my best friend Chris ALL the time. Chris is a very affectionate person, and when we talk about his crushes (I'm the wingwoman, not that he is often brave enough to actually approach these women) he goes on about how he wants to cuddle them, and doesn't say sexual stuff. One crush, he was full on "she's the one, I want to marry her and surprise her with puppies!" I wasn't surprised, as he has a new love of his life every month, and has done since we were 15. 

My problem is that I want to cuddle Chris. Nothing else. I have just developed a horrible habit of fantasizing about cuddling him. I've even dreamed about it and been disappointed when I've woken up. And in 2.5 years I've never fantasized about cuddling with my boyfriend, though I love it IRL.

It's not necessary to me that Chris find me attractive etc, and I don't want him to be /into/ me. I absolutely don't want to have sex with him. I'm not sexually attracted to him, and while I have a high sex drive, I'm not interested in cheating sexually.

I'm not stupid - I know I can't cuddle him. But is this symptomatic of something else? Am I displacing my LDR issues onto my friend, or what? Am I a closet narcissist looking for validation (I can crave this but why would it be from him specifically?) Do I fancy him but am repressing sexual feelings because we've been friends so long? Is this emotional infidelity? I don't know what my issues are and I have to fix them before I fuck up my oldest friendship AND my relationship.
<bot>: having frequent non-erotic cuddle fantasies/dreams about someone other than my LDR boyfriend. What the hell are my real issues?