<human>: In November of 2012, my mom left me and her last words to me were "Make me proud". It's my senior year of high school. I just came back from my internship in San Fran this summer, I have 2 AP courses, I'm a TA, an school internship, college applications and a job as a junior web dev in which I get to work from home. 

I'm finding it incredibly hard to be motivated through all of this. I know it might sound like I have "senioritis" but the truth is I don't even know. Trying to juggle everything has left me incredibly unmotivated. Instead of thinking about the good things that come out of something, all I can do is think about the bad. What if I don't get into this college? What if I fail this test I have tomorrow? 

Everytime I feel like giving up, I hear my mom's voice and I hear her say "Make me proud". My mom gave me everything. She made me into the person I am today. Up until now, it's been all the motivation I've needed but it's getting harder to stay on task. I only think about the negatives. I know before I succeed I must fail. After numerous failures and I succeed will I know what success truly is. 

Lately, I've just been having a "fuck it, I don't care" attitude towards things. Homework is due tomorrow? Fuck it. I don't care and I won't do it. I don't like being unmotivated and not productive at all. The rush and feeling I get from being productive and motivated is something I want to feel everyday. 

I was just wondering if someone can help me out. If there's a way I can stay on point and not fuck up.

Can you give me the gist of the text in a nutshell?
<bot>: I'm slowly becoming unmotivated and I hate it. I'm looking to do something about it so I can stay motivated and finish things through.