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So almost 1 whole year ago I broke up with my high school girlfriend of 1 year (we were together for 5, and did long distance for the rest). The relationship was almost all sex and she was very pretty manipulative and emotionally abusive. When I broke up with her my friends all saw I was clearly happier and I felt much much better too. At the time I was a freshman in college and began seeing another girl who I really liked but I kept in contact with her to be nice. Anyways somehow we end up talking more and begin suggesting that we should see one another again over the summer, etc. Soon however she finds out I've been with another girl and freaks out and pulls out some nasty shit including some pretty weird online posts, and starts dating another guy instantly. The other girl and I take a break and remain friends, and I feel in over my head with confusion and insecurity.

I try to talk to her to apologize and move on with my life, but she either doesn't accept it or makes me feel really shitty. Over the sumer I think about her constantly to the point where it makes my head hurt- they aren't good thoughts either. This pattern continues until I speak to her and somehow make them stop by putting the girl in her place (it almost feels like we're breaking up again), but somehow I end up inadvertently speaking to her again and the thoughts start back up.

Fast forward to now and it's one year later. I feel as though my life has been on autopilot for this entire time and I haven't had any long lasting happiness. It's gotten in the way of everything over the past year and I don't know what it even it. I've been with other girls before but I've experienced nothing similar to this. (Also I didn't love her)

Please help me reddit, I've even tried taking prozac to stop the thoughts and I'm talking to her now to try and make some sorta sense of this and learn from it yet again. It's messed up to much of my life, please help!

Apologies if this isn't the subreddit for a post like this one, I'm new to the site. Many thanks!
<bot>: Broke up with my old girlfriend 1 year ago, saw another girl after, she found out and it made me feel really shitty. She/ the breakup has been in my head for a year and it's destroying my life and relationships