<human>: I think I have chronic depression and disassociative disorder (talked with a shrink for the first time and while she said I seem pretty normal given my past/life, I do show signs of disassociation). I am very logical, "successful" and stable but numb and detached. Everything is muted. I have a heart condition (very low heart rate) which also makes me somewhat tired/aloof all the time (trying to treat it but don't have the money nor conviction to get a pacemaker). I am also genuinely scared I might be trans as I feel much more comfortable in the male identity, fantasize about having a male body, do not like having a female body, and realize that I am most likely bi and watch lots of porn.

So there's a lot I have going on. I have told my man about some of it and his answers are a bit trite and unhelpful. I prefer to keep my mental issues separate from "us." At the same time, I feel like by not divulging my mental "illnesses" he doesn't fully know me. And I strongly believe he doesn't want to know the real me (and I don't want him to either). Is it wrong of me to feel this way? He's happy with how I present myself (which is still me--minus the issues) as I am high-functioning, and I get the satisfaction of having a companion who is good, handsome, nice etc. and prove to myself I can be "normal." But it seems deceptive. I just don't trust any man enough to open up and I figure that's a job for a shrink, anyway.

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<bot>: i have lots of issues and don't open up to bf since i think it is my own personal issues to be dealt with with a shrink only, if anyone. is that okay?