<human>: A little background history on me. Throughout mid 2013 and 2014 I've reached the lowest point in my life where I was diagnosed with a mental disorder and illness late 2014. Since October I've been receiving therapy and treatment to overcome this and hopefully get past it. This problem left me extremely emotionally stressed and unsettled. I am extremely awkward now and panic in social situations with my peers. 

Now on to the main objective. I seriously am crushing on my coworker. He's cute, funny, and easy to talk to. Unfortunately I know very little about him because I can't strike a conversation with him easily about anything relating to his likes and dislikes. I'm more awkward around males than I am females. The past relationships that I've had (one where the guy ended it because I was being too distant and the other because the relationship was too soon) left me turned off by dating and having a romantic relationship with males. I know this is infatuation but I do want to get to know him better and I do want to try a relationship with him. it sucks even more because I had a previous crush on a coworker who ended up turning me down because he thought of me as a sister (I got over it but boy did it hurt like hell). I want to tell him that I'm interested but I feel like he's not interested/thinks of me in an unromantic way. I'm terribly shy and awkward as well, not to mention I have a fear of rejection and disappointment.

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<bot>: really want to try a relationship with my coworker but I'm so shy and awkward to express my interest to him as well as deathly afraid of rejection