<human>: Can you give me the gist of the text in a nutshell?

I am at a serious impasse right now and I have no idea how i should be taking this situation. I know I have devastated her because of the breakup and that leaves me with such an uneasy feeling. I feel absolutely terrible.

On one side of the coin, she is a fantastic girl! She is really easy going, is very compatible and most important of all she is a good person that would stick with me through anything.  This year has been one of the worst years for me in terms of everything (loss of parent, loss of sister, have to manage and take care of my brother) and she has stuck with me throughout it all. On the other side, she lacks motivation/ drive and that has really bothered me for a long time. She still lives at home and works at a retail store, although she has finished education in accounting. She doesn't drive and has only started the process in getting a license. She doesn't help out when she is over and I am working on the house maintenance. It feels to me almost that I am taking care of her.

I have talked to her about these feelings before and nothing has become of it ( I have waited for about a year for her to show some initiative or the likeness ). I think because of these feelings, it has festered into a point where I  feel that we no longer want to same thing, but the problem that comes with that is I care for her. I want her to be all of these things: ambitious, outgoing, willing to try new things, and independent. I want for her to be the best that she can be, but she has no drive to improve or move forward in life.

I don't know if what I have done is the right plan of action. I just feel horrible about it all. It feels almost as bad as me losing my mother. Am I crazy for feeling this way?
<bot>: Broke up with my girlfriend, not sure if it was a mistake, and not sure how to deal with these onslaught of feelings.