<human>: Hey reddit. 

I'm 20, been in 3 relationships and one half relationship (we didn't want a relationship with each other, but we recognized the exclusivity of our feelings? it was weird). 

Basically, my problem is that for the first month-three months of a relationship, I'm loving it. I like the person, like hanging out with them, the whole shebang. You know, the honeymoon period. But when that period ends for me, I don't just start to settle into the relationship. The sparks disappear along with *any semblance of feelings.* I then spent the next couple of months starting to get more and more distant until I inevitably break things off because I'm just not a good girlfriend anymore.

What's wrong with me? It's not like there's no desire to continue the relationship. I can remember all the reasons I liked the person and why I still desperately want to have feelings for them, but it's almost as if my brain is subconsciously forcing me to push them away. I've never had a relationship last more than six months, and I know it's an issue with me.

How do I fix this? I don't want to hurt people, and I hate dating people or getting romantically close to them now because I'm so worried I'm going to shut off without a reason one day.

Can you provide a brief overview of the text?
<bot>: My feelings for people disappear after a couple of months. I don't want the honeymoon stage to last forever, but I don't want to actively try to get away from people anymore either.