<human>: Give me the gist of the text in a nutshell

8 months have gone by since we both decided it would be better to have time alone. During this time, I have had a clash with reality and understand that cliche phrase "You don't know what you've got til it's gone". I'll admit I wasn't the best boyfriend but I certainly wasn't the worst. I was never abusive or a cheater (though I have a flirtatious personality I curbed as best I could) but I look back and think how careless I was with her and she always came second to my career which I could never admit until now.

We maintained contact with each other and spoke often for a while. A few months back she cut me off. Stopped answering my texts, blocked me on facebook and Instagram and even cut off my family. I absolutely can not stop thinking about her. It's exactly like if my best of friends stopped talking to me without any explanation.

For my first post on reddit I ask what the hell I should do? I have gone through this pain in the past but this is the worst it's hurt. It's easy to say "move on" and "forget about her". I know it all. I love this person too much to fictionalize her. I haven't made an attempt to contact her in 2 months. Do I text her, call her, send anonymous gifts, talk to her friends or none of it? Please help...
<bot>: Haven't seen or spoken to her in months. Should I attempt to reach out again and possibly get ignored... again.