<human>: So me and ex split up about six months ago and just recently started talking to each other again in the last few weeks. When we first saw each other I ended up skipping classes all day, taking her to lunch and generally having one of the best days of my life. I had forgotten how it felt to be with her as in the last few months of our relationship I had taken her for granted. I nearly cried every time I opened my mouth about our past or my feelings, and it was right then I realized that I want her back, but for keeps. I want to marry and have kids with this women, I want to make her happy again.

The trouble is I'm scared. Since we've started talking she's made it abundantly clear she isn't ready for another relationship (with me or anyone else) but is open to casual dating and even sex with me. She frequently tries to seduce me and when she has it's absolutely mind-blowing sex, by far the best I've ever had. I've only succumb once with the mindset of using sex as sort of a carrot to starting to re-date me. She wants to wait, which I'm willing to respect, but I realize that my window is small. If I want things to work between us I have to learn how to be comfortable with myself and be a strong, confident man, not a trembling young boy riddled with insecurities.

I realize I'm sticking my neck out and risking getting hurt, but I'm okay with it. I would regret not trying or not giving this girl everything I've got more than another broken heart. I Love Her to bits and want to do everything in my power to make her happy because I know I can, but not before I take care of myself.

So what are some tips, strategies and ideas to help me to Love myself & continue to mature and grow? What are some things that show I've matured and still care about her?

Can you condense the text into three sentences or less?
<bot>: Want my ex back, she's not ready atm, need strategies/ideas/plans/ways to grow/ love myself & ways/ideas/plans to get her back