<human>: Give me the gist of the text in a nutshell

i (m18) have slowly been realizing someways my ex (f18) was treating me, i'm slowling realizing that i was so naive, all the bad ways in which she treated me or slowly but surely coming into my mind, but i still have feelings for her, she dumped me almost 2 months ago, and told me a week later that she was interested in one of my good friends (i don't see him as a friend anymore and they avoid me and i avoid them)

anyways things have come to my mind, such as her insulting me once when she basically asked me why i wasn't more like him and another time when we were joking around about somethings and she made a comment that he was insecure about his dick size

honestly, i can't stand that she did and said these two things, i hate her for doing them and i just still have feelings towards her
i really really just want to get over her but she keeps coming back into my mind argghhh

this week i'm gonna try asking a girl that i've seen at the gym at my school if she wants to hang out a bit afterwards (there is this time where everyone doesn't have classes), i just need a new friend, because all my friends are really good friends with my ex and ex-friend too so i basically can't hang out with any of my good friends anymore because of them
i really need to get over her, my school grades are suffering because of everything
anyways, i just want a new friend because i think it's going to help me get over my ex

sorry for the rant guys
<bot>: I still have feelings for my ex even though I'm realizing how badly she's treated me. I just want to get over her and will do anything I can to do so.