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I'm not a physically affectionate person. Never have been. Especially not in public. I know it bothers my wife (she's very unreserved and can't get enough of physical affection) and I've tried to be better about it. We've had arguments about this difference in the past and we've reached compromises where I've tried harder and she's lowered her expectations.

We spent last week at my cousin's beach house and long story short she got upset I was cutting her off when she initiated hand-holding, hugs, or cuddling. We got in a fight and I said some things I shouldn't have that are somewhat homophobic but I didn't mean in it that way. I was mostly angry and wasn't thinking about what I was saying, I was mostly throwing words out there to defend myself.

I know she feels devastated by what I said and I apologized so many times but she still believes I have inner homophobia that I'm repressing (my parents are homophobic which my wife is very well aware of but she also knows I've defended her multiple times against their homophobic views) and she thinks we should take a break until I stop being in denial about it. I'm 100% sure I'm not innerly homophobic. She also brought up that I "held a grudge against her" for wanting to go to pride but that's only because I don't like those kinds of festivals.

I don't want to take "a break". We've been married for 9 months. I love our marriage, I love being married to her, I love who we are. I'm scared I'm losing her but I don't know how to convince her I'm not a repressed homophobe.
<bot>: Wife thinks i am homophobic and repressed, she is very upset and wants to take a break, I am NOT a homophobe in any way