<human>: After my boyfriend broke up with me like 9 months ago and ran with another girl, i was very bad, depressed, hurt, in pain. I was fired from work not being productive, had suicidel thoughts etc.  

I tried to date boys. They all liked me. I m a pretty girl and i had many opportunities but i couldn''t open myself up to any of the boys, and some of them were truly amazing. 

Now i am better, still some pain linger in my chest and some days i fall down again in depression but most of the time i am good. But the problem is still there, i can't open myself for love again, nobody looks attractive to me, i dont want to date them. It is like i am dead inside. Also in bed, i am awful, i dont feel anything. And i want to move forward, i want to fall in love again more than anything but i can't. 

Also i am working in a creative field in architecture..the passion for art and design i had once is dead . I stopped even listening to music, which before was the most important thing. It affected me in all the areas.

Prob i still have feelings for my ex, he hurt me soo much like nobody else and i know i need time to recover but still it s almost a year now. He fell in love with somebody else even when he was with me, saying that he never loved so intensily someone like he loved me and voila ..he started to love again. I just don't understand how some people can fall in love so easily while others linger in pain for months/years. 

I dont want to be a fool and cry for years..i want to love now, as i am still young, but i can't. Should i see a therapist? What should i do?

Can you succinctly summarize the text in 1-3 sentences?
<bot>: After the break up, i dated people but can't seem to fall in love, i m not attracted to anybody. I feel dead. I want to move forward.