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40 year old divorced male here. My ex wife and I had zero chemistry together and for the last 3 years of our marriage we would have sex about one every four MONTHS. It was a horrible and very boring existence. Our relationship was so screwed up I never felt the ability or even the urge to share my sexual desires with her. Fast forward to now and I'm with a very nice gf who is always willing to have sex whenever I want but I still find desire lacking on my end. I realize I'm the only common denominator here and it's my own fear of being completely upfront with my significant other that is stifling me.

When I look at porn I enjoy watching FF, group, MFM, FFM, shibari, and mutual masturbation videos and I find me wishing and fantasizing about all the stuff I've never done.

My gf (34) has hooked up with another girl about 10 years ago and also did a FFM once or twice but didn't seem keen on doing that with me and she says she got all her experimenting out of the way when she was younger.

In my marriage I kept my desires bottled up and find myself not sharing all my desires with my current gf. Almost seems like I'm walking down a similar path.

Are you completely upfront with your SO about all your sexual desires/fantasies?
<bot>: when married I was never satisfied sexually, now dating someone but still not completely open about my sexual fantasies and the importance of having certain experiences come to fruition.