<human>: We've all been there, the "my life is never going to be a success and I should give up" thoughts you get as a college student. Here's my dilemma, I've been blessed and very fortunate to have a paid education education so I feel like every flaw I make is not on my own dime and it's not. I get constant pressure to do well in school and I don't receive any repercussions for doing poorly, which ironically is a problem. I feel like I should've joined the military to learn some discipline and then come back and use the knowledge I've learned. Ugh, this is a hard feeling to describe....I was considered a good student in high school, took AP classes, top 20% of class, but under false reasoning. I would study, do all my homework and excel in class until I realized that I could succeed just as easily by not doing as much work. Every time I received an A, which was often, I would question myself as to how I got such a grade without feeling like I learned anything. Am I a victim of high schools not preparing students at all? Now with college dominating my life, I try my best and feel confident, but the past amazements of my grades come to a reality. I can no longer exceed in college to the caliber like I did in high school. This matter brings so much pressure between me and my guardians because they think I'm a failure since I'm receiving mostly B's and a few C's instead of dominantly A's and they're blaming it on college activities (alcohol and weed consumption) that I know is not the overriding problem. I always thought I was a good student but now my logic is completely flip-flopped and I'm so insecure about how to succeed. My best effort is no longer good enough. 

And now as second semester is rolling on and I just got my first two midterms back, both C's, my motivation has been crushed and I keep persisting with more studying but nothing seems to work. I feel like a complete failure and see little potential of me advancing like I thought I was. Should I lower my standards? Has my intelligence dropped? I guess I'm asking for sympathy, but I need a change in my life.

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<bot>: my previous grade proficiency in high school filled be to the brim with confidence about how to succeed, but as college continues, I continually feel like a failure. How do I change this?