<human>: Can you condense the text into three sentences or less?

This is a super cliché scenario in which a young girl (me) has found herself with more than friends feelings in her heart toward a boy who probably will never look at her that way. 

I met him last summer through my best friend. They were hooking up for a couple months, nothing serious. I don't know if they really talk any more. In any case, he's become one of my closest friends. Mind you, I don't have many. So I've always thought dearly of him, even before I realized that my heart beats faster when I see him. He's someone super special and important to me, whether or not he returns my feelings. 

Our friendship is more important to me than I can tell you. I go out of my way to avoid any situation in which my feelings might become apparent to him. I don't sleep over at his house any more. There's never been any sexual aspect to our friendship, although I think at some point when we first became friends he wanted there to be. Neither of us ever tried anything, and we've never talked about it. I have a habit of getting attached to people I sleep with, so I don't want to turn this into a friends with benefits situation. 

Do you think I should talk to him about how I feel? I don't want to change anything about our friendship. I don't want a boyfriend. It's just a big burden to have these big feelings inside of me that I can't share with him. Or at least, I feel like I can't share them with him. I'm scared he'll be freaked out and stop talking to me. 

Should I risk it? Or should I keep my feelings to myself and let life progress as usual?
<bot>: Me (19 F) having feelings for my close friend (29 M). I don't want a relationship, but I want him to know how I feel. Should I risk it? Or should I keep this to myself?