<human>: You kno the old saying home is where the heart is ,well i feel as if i have no heart and no real home. My mom lives with her boyfriend ,my sister just got her own place with my nephew and my little bothers and sister live with there dad.  It feels like i don't have anywhere or anyone  anymore. I dont feel any real emotion anymore . I thought i had true love in my life but that only got me thrown in jail cuz she cheated on me and i broke some kids jaw. Like I'm too hopeful to kill myself and I'm too comfortable in my gloom. I'm desperate for friends I'm desperate to find someone to just care and to love. I used to have some really close friends brothers if you may. But you move away and everyone just fades away. I'm good to people like too good to people and i get looked at as naive for this but its easier to feel like a kid than to just change . I'm 19 btw but i look like I'm 25. I wish i could do some drugs to just feel like i don't exist ..... I'm lonely, really fucking lonely.  I'm such a nice person but that's just fading away to just being an asshole. I have no motivation to be better like i used to be ..... things were just easier when my family was just together in one house. It was easier being told what to do...

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<bot>: 19 went to jail came home to family being spread thin and poor to living with relatives and me being pushed out of home too soon and now moving along aimlessly not knowing who i am or where life is going.