<human>: Can you provide a brief overview of the text?

I've never been asked out or even to dance at school dances and I was bullied from grades 2-8, and it's finally stopped somewhat. 

I actually have friends now but one of them just entered a relationship and even though I am super happy for her and I've become friends with her boyfriend (not to break them up, we just both like the same stuff) it just made me really envious. 

I do have crushes but I've been shot down too many times in too horrible ways to have any self esteem left to ask them out. 

Here's where it gets scary. 

I've changed who I am as a human in order to get attention. I dress more formally, I wear more makeup than I usually would and I act differently around those who I have a crush on. 

There is one exception, I do really like one guy but he just started dating someone of valentines so that's not an option, so I subconsciously act like my old self around him. This is what made me realize I had a problem.

I am trying to go back to my old self but it's hard. 

So here's my main dilemma; do I ask more people out or just coast for a bit and see how things work out?
<bot>: I'm so desperate that I act completely differently around those whom I like. Should I ask more people or just stay low for a while?