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I feel so stupid even writing all of this. My boyfriend and I have been together for a year now. Things in our relationship are great! I could not imagine myself with anyone else. 

Fast forward to the current issue: I'm depressed. My boyfriend and I like to have open lines of communication and have generally been great at this. I have struggled with depression for quite some time now. It has been on and off throughout my life. Lately it has been hitting harder. 

My boyfriend really prides himself on being able to make me feel good. Whenever I am down he gets really involved and concerned. It's great and all, but when he can't fix what's going on it really gets him down. I understand why because I do the same thing. 

Since I've been feeling down lately, I've been telling him about how my emotions have my down in the dumps. We are really connected and if I am down, he can't help but be extremely down himself. He mulls over all the different reasons for why I am upset and often will seek to see if there are problems within our relationship.

The thing is, our relationship isn't bringing me down. I keep trying to explain this to him but he doesn't seem to internalize it. I understand that it's difficult to at times to realize that when an SO is so down, but it's gotten to the point where I don't feel comfortable telling him my feelings because he takes it so hard and puts it on himself. I've started to pretend I'm okay when I'm not for his benefit. I am already so down and him getting down makes me feel so awful. I'm not sure if what I'm doing is selfish or not, but I know it's not good for our relationship.

I'm going to seek counseling, I think, because then I can work on my depression and all this will go away.

But until I get better, what do I do? Has anyone else been in a similar situation? I don't want to lie to my bf but I am really at a loss.
<bot>: I'm depressed and my boyfriend internalizes my depression on himself and it makes me more depressed. I don't know what to do except seek counseling. I've started to pretend I'm okay around him to not make him feel bad.