<human>: Summarize the given text in a few sentences.

We dated for 3 years and we have a 2 year old son together. 

We had a nasty breakup a little before Thanksgiving, and it's killing me. All I can think about 24/7 is her. I see her everywhere I go. I wonder what she's up to. I wonder if she ever thinks about me. I wonder if this hurts at all for her. Probably not. 

I can't sleep, I can't eat, I can barely make it through work. I've eaten like 3 meals in the last 5 days. I just have no appetite, no will to do anything. I can't even sleep in my bed anymore because it reminds me of all the times we cuddled together in it. I've been sleeping on my couch ever since the breakup happened. 

It feels like this will never end. Maybe she was right to breakup to me, but I'd be lying if I said I didn't want to make up more than anything. I've made my fair share of mistakes, and it kills me that I've only now finally realized how to become the man and the father that she always needed. I guess I was too late. I guess sometimes you need to learn the hard way.

I stayed home while my family went out of town for Thanksgiving so we could spend the holidays together, so I essentially have been facing this whole thing alone, which sucks. 

Out of desperation, I made an okcupid account, thinking that it might help to see that there are other great people out there. My top match: her. She had already made a profile. It was incredibly detailed with numerous pictures and all her quirky mannerisms that I love and miss so much. All the "hahas" and smiley faces. Needless to say, I was devastated. Not only does she seem happy but she also seems completely ready to move on! I suppose I should be happy for her, I do love her, but at the same time it's so god damned depressing. What should I do?
<bot>: broke up with my first love, she's all i can think about, ran into her depressingly joyful okcupid account.