<human>: Can you condense the text into three sentences or less?

My wife and I have been married for 6 years.  We have two amazing children, 2 difficult and fulfilling careers in the performing and healing arts and a history of sexual intimacy problems. Don't get me wrong, we are very emotionally intimate, but perhaps some early trauma early on in both out lives left us with particular ways of both addressing needs, and getting needs met. 

Our sex is so-so.  Sometimes hot, sometimes sputtering.  I dont have a tactile memory of it ever being really exciting.  But we are very tender with each other. 

She is open to having other partners, but not now.  
The kids, work all are too much at this moment. I am currently undergoing massive change in diet, activity, spirituality, and my sexuality and really, really crave physical,and emotional connection- an understanding if you will.

 

A few weeks ago, I met a woman in my profession that left me completely razzle-dazzled: She is beautiful, extremely intelligent, and I expressed attraction to her.  My insides were so shaking that I don't even remember her response!  Since then, I have been reading poetry, singing songs, thinking about her non-stop practically...this feels like love. 

I know that I'm/we're supposed to live our lives in a full way, but I'm not sure what that looks like.  To repress or not is a question. But to be true to myself and others is not, I don't think. 

Any ideas?
<bot>: I have an amazing relationship and family life, but want to explore some homoerotic and poly amorous feelings.  Am unsure if this can be integrated into my life in a healthy way. Any advice?