<human>: Give me the gist of the text in a nutshell

I just wanted a little bit of advice and to share to someone what's going on.

She called me 3 days ago to tell me she thinks we should break up. We were very much in love and I still love her and she possibly still loves me too.

The reasons confuse me and here's why, they've been bouncing around in my head so much they've lost any meaning to me, I don't understand.

First she's moved to uni and she can't deal with the long distance, which it has been for 2 months. This tells me she doesn't want to be alone.

She's also said she wants to be single, since we've been together from a younger age (she was 14) we've known nothing else but each other. She wants to see what she's like on her own and she feels she doesn't know who she is. If he's alone she can "find herself". This tells me she wants to be alone.

She does or she doesn't?

To me the few years we'd have to get through of her being in uni are worth it. In my brain I was looking forward to building our future, moving in together, getting married, having children. Obviously the wait wasn't worth it to her. There's no one else I would ever want to do those things with. No one.

I'm really struggling to deal with this. All I'm doing right now is existing. I go to work and I tend to be the "joker" but I won't speak unless spoken to. If someone throws a joke my way I give the weakest smile possible and that's it. Sometimes I just completely ignore people. I know I probably shouldn't but they know what's happened and probably know why I am being like I am.

I don't know what do or what to think.
<bot>: she doesn't like that our relationship turned long distance and also wants to be alone to "find herself" because she doesn't know who she is.