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F24 1.5yr LDR with M24
 Ive got a major issue- my boyfriend is gorgeous, brilliant, successful, and staunchly independent, and says he loves me.

Doesnt sound like a problem right? Possibly relevant background: Historically, ive been an independent, high-self esteem woman, and so far its happened that Ive been(unintentionally!)..less invested than my male partners in previous relationships. I am not remotely a closed-off nor easily hurt person- ive been happily open about very real feelings, but theyve always eventually faded (and usually paled initially compared to my partners.) Ive previously had no issue accepting love.

In my current relationship, ive realized I feel more strongly (for him) than I thought *possible*. And its such a positive relationship! yet for some reason, I cannot escape a growing, (and I think toxic) insecurity about his affection for me. I feel like i need to impress him, i constantly expect him to leave me, i worry about being too ugly for him, too untalented, and i *thirst* for compliments he never gives, (but words arent his style). Im POSITIVE that this, if it hasnt already, will manifest in ugly ways that would make him understandably LESS attracted to me! needy behavior, compliment fishing, jealousy, god knows. Where did this come from and how do i KILL IT? And how do i tell whats in my head, and whats real/reasonable? Is this a sign of a poor relationship and im missing it?? Is it just a me problem??
<bot>: After 23yrs of confidence, ive developed major insecurities about being insufficient, unnattractive and unloved by my wonderful bf- is it a bad sign, or a me problem? How do I fix it?