<human>: Okay so, to start things off, I am polyamorous and have been for quite a while. Monogamy is something I have become accustomed to, but I am not happy with it and am constantly guilt ridden when I start to like other people. 

When we first started seeing each other (4.5 months ago) it was a monogamous relationship, and I was relatively happy with it. Things fell through for another reason, nothing related to this. 

After we broke up though, my poly feelings started to surface and come to a head again. I now have more than one person I love in that way, and it confuses me greatly. 

Which brings us to where we are now. He wants to try being poly with me, because he knows it makes me happy. If it falls through, which I'm terrified it will, I've said I'll try monogamy again. We need to find a happy middle and a compromise so that were both happy, so that I can see and be with other people that make me happy, and so that he still feels like he has me and his jealousy doesn't tear him apart. The last thing I want to do is hurt him, and the last thing he wants to to is make me unhappy. 

If anyone has any advice on how to be poly or how to be monogamous it'd be really appreciated, I love him a lot and don't want to lose him like this.

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<bot>: Boyfriend is monogamous, I am poly, we're trying to find a way to make it work for both of us