<human>: It's been four months since the breakup.

She had found someone more suitable than me.

Yet instead of being honest, she blamed me for hurting her over something minuscule to get out of the relationship.

She was an adorable, innocent little sweetheart.

She turned cold.

I've been pissed off to no end at her for the past couple months, but recently it's changed to something else.

See, a couple days before the breakup, I was finally breaking my Madonna-whore Complex. I requested some of my sexual fantasies to her (facial, tying up, swallowing, etc.) She was down for everything.

Our sex had been entirely "vanilla" before then.

I never got to do any of it. *That's* what's now bothering me mainly, along with the other shit.

I don't think I'll ever find someone so cute and so willing.

I've sunken back into my pit and my dreams about her have returned, just like when it first happened.

Help meh.

Could you distill the essence of the text into 1-3 sentences?
<bot>: Thoughts about ex-GF haunting me again. Now, it's more about the sexual stuff and the yearning rather than my anger at her.