<human>: Could you distill the essence of the text into 1-3 sentences?

I [21F] recently broke up with my boyfriend [32M] of almost 2 years, and it has really thrown us both for a loop. The reasons for me breaking up with him were primarily due to practicality. It was an unrealistic relationship in my eyes (age, he has a lot of baggage, fear of how my mom would react if she found out, etc...).

However, emotionally, it's all there. We both love each other quite dearly, so this decision of mine has been rough on both of us. It was one of those situations where my brain said to end things, while my heart stubbornly disagreed.

I've brought up the possibility of staying friends, but at the moment, he doesn't seem to have any interest in that. Sort of an all or nothing kind of deal. The thought of having him out of my life all together is hard since I'd also be losing a best friend.

Because of this, I fear that I'll be looking for grey areas just to keep him in my life (easing him into it, friends with benefits) which I don't think is fair to him.

Anywho, I'm curious about how staying friends after breaking up has worked out for you guys, as well as any advice you might have to offer in my situation.
<bot>: Broke up with boyfriend, I want to stay friends, he doesn't (as of right now). Has staying friends worked for you?