<human>: Give me the gist of the text in a nutshell

So it takes great effort for me to write this, as I am writing how much of a failure my life has become.  This is a throwaway account btw.  

I have come to the realization that I have significantly fucked my life up basically.  I am 23 years old and am currently going to a community college about to graduate with a 2-year degree in Math.  I went to two undergraduate four year schools before this.  My first was a top ten engineering school which I got suspended from for a long time for disciplinary reasons.  The second school was a local school that I got expelled from.  Both of the times I got kicked out of school, my diagnosed severe depression came in relapse and affected both outcomes.  

I went to a local community college which I am currently about to graduate from.  I hid the transcript from the school I got expelled from and transferred credits from the college I was originally suspended from which does not show up on my record.  

So basically, I have no clue what step to take now.  I want to go to a four year school and graduate with actuarial science but do not know how to approach this.  Should I say I got expelled??  What are the chances they would even take a student who has been expelled from another institution?  Should I hide my transcript from the school I got expelled from and wish for the best like it never happened??  

I do not want to take a low-wage paying job as I feel that would be a huge insult to my intelligence (not too smart obviously seeing my behavior problems).  I did very well in my engineering classes and have full capability of doing something very successful (3.6 GPA).  (Honestly, taking these classes at community college, I can tell the caliber is sub-par and I feel disappointed).  

So Reddit, what advice can you give me??  Should I bite the bullet and realize my past mistakes have doomed my once potential future??  Or are there options that I am not seeing in my current state of mind???
<bot>: Suspended from top-ten engineering college, expelled from four year college for disciplinary reasons.  About to have two-year degree from CC, what to do now???