<human>: Can you condense the text into three sentences or less?

I've spent the whole day crying and I don't quite know what to say to myself to feel better. I got really drunk last night and had sex with a guy one of my friends recently had sex with. I kept telling him I didn't want to have sex, I don't know why I was there. I don't understand my behaviour when I'm drunk. I remember I started crying when he tried to have sex with me. Eventually I must of just given in and it was the most horrible painful sex ever. I Recently came out of a relationship (about u three months ago) and I can't lie I'm still in love with my ex. The thought of sex makes me feel physically ill since we broke up and I couldn't even imagine myself having sex. I knew this wasn't what I wanted. I wasn't looking for a rebound at all I knew it would only make me feel worse. 

I can't put into words how awful I feel. I feel like a slut and so disgusting. I feel so broken. People make mistakes but this is the second time I have drunkenly slept with someone and hated must the next day. I'm going to give up alcohol but that will never take back what I have done. I just want sosmone to love me again without the sex but i feel like that's impossible. I never wanted to have sex with anyone but my ex and now I have. I told myself I would only sleep with someone if we are in love. I'm scared because this has just made me feel even more physically sick about sex even more so because it was so horrible and painful. I feel like it was such a waste of a number. Sex is such an intimate thing I can't believe I did it with such a stranger. I also don't know whether my friend will be mad at me. She told me that night that she slept with him but she said it was just sex and didn't mean anything. I know she said that but I reckon she'd be pretty upset and think I'm a slut if she found out. I hate myself and feel cheap and dirty.
<bot>: Feel like I will never enjoy sex again. Hate myself. I can't undo the past so how do I get over my drunken mistake