<human>: Give me a shortened version of the text

Don't know where to post this, but need to express it somewhere.  I'm 44, female, and can't seem to succeed at a single thing in life.  I've spent most of my adult life taking classes trying to get a career going.  As time goes on, it gets harder and harder.  I can't keep a normal relationship together, I can't seem to move forward into a career that doesn't get the immediate reaction of (oh...so you're a nobody).  Because I spend so much on school, it's hard to get my retirement where it should be, so I can pretty much assume there won't be a retirement.  I'll work until I get put into a shitty nursing home, and the money I've saved will go to that.  While trying to work full time and keep up and stupid house that I should have never bought, I try to exercise and eat right, but I'm constantly blowing that as well.  I can only seem to do one thing at a time, and everything else falls apart, or if I try to juggle them all, they all just fall apart.  

Just flunked a midterm.  I just feel sick about it.  In earlier years, I wouldn't worry, but I'm 44 now, and everyone I know is at the peak of their careers, and traveling, and able to relax a bit.  Or else they are married and have kids, but then that's their only focus (and they wanted kids).  

I had so many hopes when I started out at 18, and after this many years of continuous failures.  I'm now old, fat, working a job that typically one sees 18 - 21 years old doing, have crap for knowledge, live in a shitty neighborhood, in a crap house that I'll looking at taking a 20k hit on if I ever try to sell (all my neighbors foreclosed which tanked my house value).  I'm about at the end of my rope.  

I can't talk to anyone that knows me about this, because they just don't want to hear it.  My support system is just a therapist that I can't really afford.
<bot>: I'm a hopeless loser, and my life has just been a huge waste.  Some days I wish I just would never wake up again.