<human>: Can you summarize the given text in a few sentences?

This has been a long time coming OMC.

Ever since I was sexually assaulted nearly two years ago, I feel like I have spiraled uncontrollably not only into depression, but also into being antisocial. I think I have introverted tendencies but I am very much extroverted at heart. I crave attention and a large group of friends, but I'm shy and feel as though I'm not a very good friend.

I do have close friends, but sometimes I wonder why they even bother associating with me. What about me is worth being friends with? We have some stuff in common but I feel like I really have to hold my nerdy side back sometimes (they affectionately call me a dork so they do know I'm a total nerd) my friends have always (without provocation) told me I'm intelligent, funny, and kind. I'm a very sensitive and empathetic person so I enjoy giving people advice and all of my friends come to me for it. I'm also what you would call an old soul.

Also, pretty much all of my close IRL friends are girls. I have trouble talking to guys and I get incredibly nervous around them. I feel like I always say the wrong thing and I'm not very good at putting myself or my interests out there. (Dating has been difficult for me, as you can most likely assume)

Online I feel like I can be myself because I'm in my comfort zone. I really enjoy gaming and movies, and I've found a good niche for that with my online friends. I have several that I talk to every day and consider myself really close with. I just wish that I had some friends IRL that I could be on this level with.
<bot>: 21 y/o socially awkward/nerdy/shy girl seeks new friends but has trouble maintaining and making them. Wondering if I'm even worth being friends with.