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i feel SO guilty.  I honestly dont know what to do we have been dating for 4 years.  my best friend got cheated on and i think that is what has spurred my paranoia.  i have not found anything that has to do with cheating but there are other things.  like I found out he has lied to me a few times.  Nothing big but he will tell me he can't hangout because of school and instead he goes out with friends.  I want him to see his friends!  This is a burden on my shoulders and I need to either STOP RIGHT NOW or fess up to him and have our relationship end.  I know it's wrong but i feel so paranoid because of my friend and then me finding some lies he has told.  he is signed up on some sex websites but i think it is just for viewing.  that isn't a big deal to me. i know I'm an awful person for doing this in the first place.  what can I do? please be brutally honesty.  I don't want anything sugar coated i know i've done bad i just feel like i'm fallling apart.  i would just rather stop then have him find out  Has anyone ever been in this situation?
<bot>: my friend was cheated on and i snooped through my boyfriends email and found some small lies and i am super paranoid.