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Hello, everyone.  I have been adamant for the past year about not being in a relationship, due to several bad relationships in the past.  I just wanted to be single and have fun.  However, I met this girl last summer and we've been talking everyday since.  She currently lives 2 hours away from me, and while that isn't too far, I've done distance relationships twice (both a long and short distance), and they put a bad taste in my mouth.

I've refused to be in a relationship, especially one with any sort of distance.  However, I've fallen in love with this girl.  She loves me too, and she has wanted to be in a committed relationship for months.  I for one, don't.  We've essentially been in a relationship, though, just without the title of boyfriend/girlfriend.

Just recently she told me she was with someone.  She didn't want to wait around for me any longer to be in a relationship.  And I think she has every right to do that because it is my fault we weren't dating.  However, I'm hurting really bad.  And it is all my fault, and I deserve to be hurt, considering all the struggle I've given her for not wanting to be in a relationship.

She would gladly date me if I said the word.  But my feelings are conflicted and I'm left with this knot in my stomach.  On one hand I love her and it would be a mistake to not be with her.  But I still don't want to be committed and in a relationship.  She won't go back to the way it was, and she shouldn't, because it was just selfish of me.  But I can't figure out what is going on in me head.  What is wrong with me?  Why am I thinking about not dating her if I care about her so much?  Help...
<bot>: Fell in love with a girl, adamant on not being in a relationship, she started seeing someone else, I'm hurt and confused