<human>: I have always had an interest in BDSM which my boyfriend catered to sexually when I would tell him about specific things. Yet I was embarrassed by many of the things I was interested in. I decided to try talking to an online dom to talk and figure out what I may or may not be interested in by posting in /r/BDSMpersonals.

I didn't tell my boyfriend until he found the post and got very angry with me. I had gotten over 30 PMs from guys wanting to talk to me and it made him very angry especially because I replied to about 6 of them. I didn't give away any of my info to the guys and I only exchanged 2 messages tops with any of them.

He stormed out of the house and I chased after him and after a while of us both crying out in the cold and me confessing all of my sexual desires to him he carried me home and said he'd give me another chance.

When we got home he made me read all of the messages and posts repeatedly for about a half hour while he showed me pictures of us doing fun things together. This whole time I was crying and I believe this was his way of punishing me for what I had done.

After this he said he was done with me and hates me and he began sobbing profusely and collapsed and then left, still sobbing. We have been together for six months and have been hanging out almost everyday and we both knew everything was going pretty much perfectly.

I really don't know what's going on or what to do? Do you think he could ever trust me again? Did I really mess up that bad for us to break up? Is there anything I can do to remedy this?

Can you give me a shortened version of the text?
<bot>: I was going to talk to guys online about my BDSM sexual preferences because I thought my boyfriend might be disgusted by them. I wanted to get my preferences sorted out before I told him. Is it over?