<human>: Hey guys. Okay I'll start off with this a few months ago I(17,m) posted here or maybe /r/relationships talking about problems I was having with my girlfriend (17). she broke up with me again in the middle of summer break and I was lost for weeks and soon after not seeing her I was feeling better.

Schools back though, I have class with her and I realized how much I miss her. I know i'm young and that there's so much more but I fell for her hard and quick. I love her still even after everything she put me through. Called me names like pathetic, mistake and a waste of time. They hurt and I'm actually letting them get to me. 

I went to the doctor for depression because I have plenty of other problems in my life. She was the only thing keeping me sane. We didn't date long maybe 5 months but I just can't do it. I'm trying to move on but its hard. I feel pathetic because i'm letting this short relationship ruin my whole life. I've started drinking, smoking and slacking in school. 

I play guitar, I skate, I play basketball. I have things to do to keep my mind off of things but its not happening. I feel like she just broke up with me yesterday still.

What's wrong with me? Why can't I seem to move on? I have other girls who like me but I can't move on because i'm so hung up on her. She's ruining my life, I want her back but at the same time I don't.

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<bot>: i'm hung up on my first love and its ruining my life. I don't know what's wrong with me.