<human>: Okay I'll try to make this as short as possible. I met this girl online playing video games. I live in CA she lives in AZ eventually she drives here to meet me with her friends. We instantly clicked hooked up n pretty much fell in love very quick, which is unusual for me because I'm not big on relationships. Typical grew up in a broken home story. So I'm very afraid of relationships.

She always came here the 7 months we dated. She got pregnant about 3 months into our relationship. We had an abortion and that's when it started to all go downhill. I have always blamed my problems on my shit upbringing and unlucky life situations and my pops dying when I was younger. I became content with not reaching my potential n blaming everything else but myself. That, with the abortion, her wanting me to move there added up, and she left.

I did the typical beg to come back even went to AZ to see her. Basically made a complete ass of myself, lashed out emotionally and she cut off communication. Before she did that though she still told me I have so much potential and I need to get my life right. I was being immature and childish.

Now it's been about a month. I'm cleaning up all these personal issues to better myself. Moving to AZ in February(not because of her I want to get out of LA start over and my best friend lives there). I have never had someone make me realize I need to do this for me. She completely made me change my outlook on myself. I don't need to blame my life on my past I need to be better because of it and it made me love her more. I would obviously love to fix this once I get my life in order. We had amazing chemistry and love a lot of the same things. I was too busy thinking the world owed me something and not moving forward. I'd like to show her I'm becoming the man she saw in me before I did.

What I'm asking is I won't be in AZ 'til February or March should I not try to reach out til then? Should I even bother trying to pursue it at any point in the future?

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<bot>: I was being a piece of shit and lost the woman I would love to marry when I can fix myself. Looking for advice on where I go from here.