<human>: My wife and I've been married almost 10 years. We have three kids under the age of 10. I've been lying to her almost constantly about my companies' finances and my ability to provide for our family. 

I'm late making payments to our family bank account on a regular basis. I committed to provide $xxxx per month and have been providing around $2k less per month on various dates. 

My wife works full time, provides for our insurance for our family and makes a very good salary. We would like to move to a new house next year but are unable to save any money due to my mediocre business. 

I'm currently undergoing treatment for ADHD, which my wife feels I use as a crutch to underachieve. 

We've nearly stopped speaking and I am gutted. I love her with all my heart and have been unable to do important things to move my business forward due to fear/anxiety.

I don't know what to say to her as I've apologized 100x and told her I will change and things will get better. I've stopped talking because even I've gotten tired of hearing the same things come out of my mouth.

Can you condense the text into a few key points?
<bot>: I've been dishonest for years with my wife over our finances and it's coming to head. I want to fix it but don't know if it's too late and how to make it better.