<human>: We've been together two and a half years in a serious relationship, so it isn't like we're not used to this. This is the fourth visit we've managed to do, and it's been an amazing two months.

But with my work, I can't see him over Christmas, and with his school commitments carrying over until May next year, you get the picture. A 10 month gap between visits.

... It hurts. I'm condensing my stuff down so it can fit into luggage, and quietly crying whilst doing it. I don't have much at home. A few pets, my mother, and a retail job that's been the only reason I've been able to get visits done. He's here, his loving family's here, and I in general feel more at home in America. 

I know I'm going to fall apart and be inconsolable for a week or so. I thought that condensing stuff now with a few days left would save us some grief, but it hasn't. 

I have depression, and I'm sick with hypothyroidism, and that's not making things any better. I feel so worried, and *sad*. Separating from him is always the most painful thing ever. Eventually I can get into a groove, settle into it, and just go on with the life I have in Australia, but it gets harder each time. 

I'm scared that with the depression (diagnosed late last year) I'll spiral badly, to a point of no return, and hurt the relationship.

... Anyone have any experience? Any advice? What I can do to help ease it? The only idea I have is to drug myself to sleep, which is... not the best idea.

Can you condense the text into a few key points?
<bot>: Not coping very well with having to be separate from my boyfriend for 10 months, any advice to help make the emotional impact lighter?