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My boyfriend (24) and I (20F) have been together for a year and a half, we live together, but lately every little argument leads to the thought of breaking up. When he asks why, I say because I think I deserve more. (he doesn't have a job, drinks often and is usually  short tempered) He then says that it's just my mood swings leading on these arguments, I'm crazy, manic depressive etc... I often look up bipolar disorder because sometimes I feel like I am going insane by how often I am told this. I love him more than anything and we have an amazing time together for the most part but I just really need help, I can't afford to see a doctor Is it over? Should I work at it even if he says there's nothing for him to improve on?
<bot>: my boyfriend thinks I'm manic depressive for asking him to be "better" I guess I want to know if I am being unreasonable.