<human>: I have been dating my wife since high school and love her so much my heart might explode. We are also a couple months away from having our first kid. 

But I am plauged by reoccurring dreams about this ex (let's call her Kisa) and have been for years. 

These dreams are usually long dates between kisa and I and they leave me tormented when I wake up.  Kisa lives across the fucking world now even though her family still lives less than an hour from me. 

Kisa and I dated for more than 6 months in middle school and we were really serious,  only being broken up by my parents (who didn't want me dating,  just for stupid reason's.) 

I'm terrified to contact Kisa and know that's not the right thing too do but this happens 2-3 times a month and has been going on for years. I check her Facebook every once in awhile she hasn't kept a boyfriend for more than a couple months. 

I wish I could just forget her, but at the same time don't want too. 

Any advice reddit?

Can you give me the gist of the text in a nutshell?
<bot>: still having dreams every month of ex from middle school, despite having dated my wife since high school,  being married, and about to have our first kid.