<human>: Can you provide a brief overview of the text?

We're both in our early 20s (I'm a guy).

Other than extreme anxiety and depression I'm feeling over my ex of 3 years completely breaking off contact after blindsiding me with the breakup, I'm dealing with 2 major issues:

On one hand I would like to have a serious conversation with her if nothing else than for some closure.  On the other hand, I kind of want to talk to her about reasons she broke up with me and ways I can address those problems.

I was not expecting the break-up at all.  I think part of why she dumped me is she was tired of me not having a job.  I have since gotten a job (more for my sake because I needed one than because of her) and I really want to talk to her about the ways I am trying to improve myself not only for me but in a way that could help our relationship if we were to get back together.  

The break-up was pretty amicable considering the bad timing, and I never got the impression that she felt any significant resentment toward me, but she completely refuses to talk to me now. I know it's probably unreasonable for me to expect to have a chance for us to get back together, but I feel like I at least would like to talk to her - we haven't really talked at all since the break-up.  I'm respecting her wishes in not trying to get in touch with her or see her, but I'm constantly fighting the urge to ask her if we can talk sometime.  

I don't know exactly what my question is - I guess in short it has to do with whether or not I should try to get in touch with her or should just accept she doesn't want to have any contact with me and move on.
<bot>: Amicable break-up but she refuses to have any contact with me and I desperately want to have at least one real conversation with her.