<human>: Can you give me the gist of the text in a nutshell?

I 100% understand that she wants to see what it's like to be on 
her own, but at the same time she does and does not want to do
this, 

it is incredibly difficult for the two of us as we are so used to having each other there for each other. 

I really want to Marry her but I understand that she wants to see what it is like before we settle down I am so lost and confused and don't know what to do, 

She said she wants me to start my career and she said she will come visit me once I am settled on my own. 

I am so confused 

I do not want to lose my girlfriend/best friend
<bot>: she wants a break to find herself, completely understand but I can't stop loving her and don't know what to do.