<human>: My wife and I separated a little over a month ago after a 2-year-long downward spiral that began shortly after our son was born.  We're currently in marriage counseling and there are moments of hope amidst the seemingly constant stream of steps backward.

Frankly, I'm not dealing with this well at all.  I cry almost constantly, even at work (luckily I have a cube in a corner with a really nice view so I can usually avoid attention and look like I'm just looking out the window).  I have faith that ultimately things will work out for us, but I'm having trouble being patient enough to let it happen, mostly because I'm just tired of being so sad all the time.

So my question is this, how do you find peace in situations where you just can't cope with what's happening.  I'm being extremely careful not to drink when I'm sad because I know for a fact where that will end up.  I've been a musician for 20 years, but even playing music doesn't bring me the comfort it used to.  I do work out pretty consistently, but it's such a momentary escape and let's face it, I can't work out all the time.  I see people going to religion in times like these, but to believe in a "higher power" at this point in my life would require an ability to lie to myself that I just don't possess.  Thank you in advance, and as this is my first post, I also apologize for any reddiquette I inadvertently violated.

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<bot>: My wife left me about a month ago and I'm an absolute wreck.  My atheist ass is looking for ways to bring peace to my life that don't spit in the face of everything I believe.