<human>: MY first love, and really my first relationship (minus one that lasted a few weeks) and the only girl i really ever hooked up with, except for a few kisses when i was 18.

I was my fiancee's first love, and she never kissed or hooked up with another guy.

We broke up, it was kind of mutual.... wtvr that means... slightly more coming from her. We both still have in the back of our minds we might get back together... we've been broken up for 2 weeks now. We both still love each other but there has been problems we can't get over.

Partially due to the fact that I have human instincts, partly due to the fact that i was supposed to marry this woman and STILL LOVE HER, and partly due to the fact that i feel some weird feeling regarding the fact that she never hooke dup with another guy, but if i found out she hooked up with someone right now it would DEVASTATE ME.

Given that feeling, I think it is safe to assume it would devastate her if she found i hooked up if someone. Basically, I don't think i can hook up with someone bc i know it will kill her, and ill feel too shitty. Also, i feel like it would kill the little chance we have left of getting back together. I am fairly positive, the advice would be just to do my thing and I can't worry about her feelings, but am looking for some thoughts. Is their any reason not to hook up with the first girl that interests me?

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<bot>: dont wanna hook up with someone else post-breakup bc it would devastate my fiancee and kill any chances of us reconnecting... help