<human>: Give me the gist of the text in a nutshell

I had a relationship with another girl that lasted about 15 years. It was the only serious relationship I've ever had (and it lasted my entire adult life). Important info (i think): I lost my virginity with her.

We broke up last year and I've been living a single man's life ever since. Had my fair share of xvideos moments and stuff and I'm kinda happy with the way I'm living. But I met this girl about 2 months ago and I'm getting butterflies in my stomach. I'm really really liking this girl.

The problem is: In my last relationship I was loyal until the end. In those 15 years I didn't even kiss another girl. But since I had lots of experiences in this past year I'm starting to doub if I can stay loyal. In fact I have doubts if the regular monogamous relationship is the right thing for me.

It's not that I'm addicted to sex or anything like that. I'm not even trying to find other girls to hang our with since I started seeing this one (we have nothing serious yet, just knowing each other). It's more that I don't want to lose a chance of meeting cool people and having fun with them, if (when) it happens.

I'm 100% against cheating, but I'm not against polygamy (as long as it's consensual it's not cheating in my opinion).

Honestly I'm just a bit insecure about trying to have a serious relationship after having one that lasted for so long and I want to hear from more people that maybe experienced the same thing. This girls seems like a keeper but If I'm not ready I may screw things up and maybe hurt her, and I don't wanna do that.

Thanks in advance and sorry If my writing is a bit messy and confunsing, english is not my first language.
<bot>: Living a single man's life, met an awesome girl but I don't know if I'm ready to have a serious relationship.