<human>: Not sure if this is completely fitting into this subreddit, but my relationships with others have a predominant part in this.

I'm driving my partner to the brink telling him every second day that I feel worthless or that someone I know doesn't seem to want to talk to me anymore. I'm secretly terrified that everyone is constantly deciding whether or not to ditch me...

 My boyfriend says I'm smothering everyone.... If I like a person I'll text them all the time because talking to them is what makes me feel relaxed and happy, and not scared that everyone hates me, but even then I'm picking apart our conversation to make sure I'm not annoying them. I can't help but feel that everyone is just tolerating me for some unknown reason even though I'm just annoying and uninteresting.

 I just don't understand. Why does the lack of a reply from someone I barely know cause a giant pit in my stomach and make me want to curl into the fetal position and ignore the world. Why do I care and why do I feel the need to constantly annoy people when they're obviously getting frustrated with me? I have no redeeming qualities so who can blame them f they want to push away someone who messages them boring drivel every day.

What the fuck I have no idea how to function or make friends. I know the way I act isn't normal, but what can I do:/ I feel like shit, and I don't how to take steps in the right direction.

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<bot>: I'm paranoid that everyone is just tolerating me to be kind, and have no idea how to make friends, or if I'm crazy or what...