<human>: It's been harder for me to deal with relationship issues than it has been for me to deal with my father's death. 

I loved my father, and I lost him this May. Right before my graduation. It was hard, but I've only cried two or three times. Everyone asks if I'm allowing myself to grieve, and as far as I know, I have. I'm just not normally emotional, and haven't felt compelled to cry or sit around and mope about it. 

What I have felt compelled to mope about is a year old breakup, the regret of never telling this guy that I saw every day for two years that I think he's incredible, and the fact that I keep letting myself get played by the same douchebag.

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<bot>: I throw myself pity parties about non-relationships rather than mourning the loss of my dad like a normal human being.