<human>: Summarize the given text in a few sentences.

Before you think I'm abusive (seriously, am I?) let me clarify. I've always been physical with my best friends. I grew up mostly being friends with guys, and we were always pushing and shoving each other or calling each other names. That's carried forward into my marriage, and I can't shake it. I'm always poking at him or calling him some new nickname, it's extremely juvenile, and he doesn't always like it, and has often asked me to stop. I make every effort to, but it always comes back to it, so here I am asking for advice.

Also, I've never been good with intimacy. I'm not a hugger or a 
cuddler, and I hate making out and foreplay. When I want sex I just want sex.  These things combine together to make my husband think my feelings are wavering, despite the complete opposite in my head.
<bot>: I treat my husband like my best buddy, not like a lover, and it's hurting him. Help me please.