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Here is my story:

I dated a man from 2010-2014, moved in together, talked about marriage, and at the end of the relationship, he moved away and told me that he just wasn't ready for marriage.  I was very hurt, thought he was the one and he just...left.  I've been to a lot of therapy about it and started dating a friend who I ran in the same circles with for years, who is very aware of my desire to get married.

We've been dating almost a year.  Recently, two of my friends got engaged (one who specifically said she never would get married again), and all my insecurities have cropped back up and I suppose I am looking for a reality check from other people who have been there or who just don't think marriage is a good idea.

I've always wanted to get married, have kids, the white picket fence.  I've got a great job, I'm college educated, I work out, diet, have a social life, etc.  For some reason, the one thing I seem to want the most (a marriage and kids) is not coming my way and it's really killing me.  

What makes some men get married?  Am I doing it wrong?  I've been in two long term relationships before my current one (a 6 year one and a 4 year one) that have basically taken up my entire adult dating life.  

If anyone has any insight at all on how to relax, how to chill out about it all or simply be happy without these things, that would be great!
<bot>: I think I'm obsessed with marriage.  It's getting harder to be happy for those around me who seem to move their relationship forward and if anyone has any advice at all that would be great.