<human>: So I'll start out by saying that we have been in a solid relationship now for almost 2 years although we have a longer history than that. We also have a child together that is almost 3.

My boyfriend recently has told me he doesn't see anything special about marriage. He doesn't think it actually means anything and has provided several examples of failed marriages from people we know. We were making plans to get married but my lack of planning abilities and my ability to get easily overwhelmed put it on the back burner. I asked him to propose to me officially and he said he would. Now though, he says he was only going along with it because it's what I want and it means nothing to him.

To me, I don't want to force him into something he doesn't care about. I'd like it to mean something to both of us and if it doesn't it isn't the same for me. I didn't think this was a deal breaker and told him I could get over the idea of being married one day, however I cannot seem to actually get over it. 

The thing that really blows my mind is that I got married when I was a teenager and had a real wedding. I don't know why all of the sudden I feel like I'm missing out on an experience I've already had. I can only conclude that I got married for the wrong reasons before and this time I am in love and want to commit myself and my life to my partner. 

Lately, whenever anyone has happy news I find myself resentful and envious. We have friends getting married next week and I'm trying anything I can to back out because the thought of going to someone's wedding is just awful. I've never been like this before. I'm usually happy for other people and their accomplishments. I've always loved going to weddings.

I'm not going to break up with my boyfriend. I do not want this to be a deal breaker for me. I love him and we have a great happy family together. We actively work on ourselves and our relationship and generally have great communication. I have talked to him about this but he's at a loss as well. How can I get over this?

Could you distill the essence of the text into 1-3 sentences?
<bot>: My boyfriend doesn't believe in marriage and I can't get over it. Any advice on how to move on from here?