<human>: I've had to unfollow people who are friends with him on FB. 
I've had to block him, delete his number, get rid of his stuff. 

But sometimes, a little peep peeks through on Facebook. A picture. A mention. It makes me feel so ICKY. 

He is really successful. He's doing his PHD at an ivy league school. He has a new GF who seems cool. I am worried that I will always have to hide from him. I will always be afraid to hear his name. I don't want him back. (In fact, I'm currently pining over someone else entirely. That's currently the more painful thing. This just came up because I saw his picture on FB and it was like instant stab of emotion)

But our relationship was long. And he was great. (And his family was even better.)  And I don't think I'll ever be in a place in life where I'll be like, "Yeah, lets be friends again. Okay." 

Will this ever go away? I'm over him in the sense that I will never want him back. But I'm not over him in the sense that I have an overwhelming desire to "win the breakup". Because I'm never going to win this breakup. I will never be as successful as he will be.

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<bot>: How do I make this desire to win the breakup go away? Will I ever be in a place where I feel like we can be buddies again, or will he always be that person I desperately desire to avoid?