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I was so excited in the beginning to plan my wedding, but after 4 months I'm just so tired of it. My mom is super helpful when I need her to be, but that's about the only help I'm getting. (And I have a total lack of direction so I can't ask for much bc I'm not sure what I need!) I feel like when I ask my FH for his advice, he's just annoyed or frustrated that I have another question. But hello, this is the first wedding I've planned and I'm on my own! Of course I have lots of questions and a huge lack of direction. We've argued so many times over planning. I've come to the point of just saying fuck it and eloping 3 times now. After all of the stress of planning, and not even being half done, I just want to marry him already. And looking at our guest list, which got way out of hand, I feel like ... "why am I planning this huge wedding for all these people we never see or hear from?" Today on our lunch breaks we're going to meet up and discuss my parents' offer to pay for a tiny wedding (elopement style but with close family and bffs) and a honeymoon. I'm really leaning towards this option. It saves money, and FH has been between jobs until recently, while I have medical stuff going on that will need to be paid for. I just can't help but worry that I'll regret not having a "real" wedding. Has anyone else been here? What did you decide and how did you feel then versus down the road? Any thoughts or advice would be so appreciated!
<bot>: I'm just at my wits end here with planning and I can't help but wonder why I'm doing it all. Seriously considering a small elopement style ceremony, but fearing I may regret it later on.