<human>: Can you provide a brief overview of the text?

Long story short: My farther was an alcoholic, I grew up disgusted and afraid of alcohol, seeing a drunk person on tv now became barley tolerable for me (it used to cause panic) Seeing drunk people in public makes me want to run, Its my one and only real problem, and I told him right at the start that I can not deal with drunkenness and why. I told him he should not date me if he is not willing to deal with this.

I told him that seeing him drunk would be the worst for me and a thing I could never forgive, I told him I would rather have him fuck another girl because it would hurt me less, I told him right when we started dating. I asked him to stay with his friends if he wants to get drunk and then dont tell me about it, and he has sometimes slept with his friends when he went out.

Not this time. He came home, completely drunk, lay in our bed tried to touch me, I panicked, spend the night on the couch crying, I had a drunk person in my fucking flat. I went through 1000 painful childhood memories, and this asshole decided that getting drunk is more important than this. 

Next day, he spend most of the time hangover in our bed, begging me to forgive him. I am just so done, so sad so mad, I hate him so much for this I want to hurt him. He was always so nice why would he do this to me. I dont want to leave him, but I can not imagine forgiving this aswell. I know I should be out there fucking his best friend now but I am not a revenge person.
<bot>: Boyfriend of someone with a trauma with alcoholism gets drunk, although its the worst thing he could have done. Op is unsure what to do next, take revenge, leave or somehow try to forgive.