<human>: Today my boyfriend mentioned that he would be unable to accompany me somewhere this Saturday because his father is in the hospital and he must go visit him.  I have met neither his father, nor his mother.

His father developed a virus several years ago that has him under 24 hour care.  He cannot speak or walk, and occasionally he is so far gone that he cannot comprehend his surroundings in the first place.

He invited me to come along with him, but I fear this is a wildly inappropriate time for me to meet his family.  Already, I know this is something I know I need to do as a serious girlfriend.  It would be a scumbag move for me not to. 

But my trouble is this: I suffer from anxiety.  It runs in my family, and has been growing on me more so in this past year.  Only recently have I come to terms with the fract it is something I am going to need to seek professional help with eventually.

I have no experience with death or sickness of a loved one as a self-aware adult.  There have been several times in the past few months alone where I have cried and been sick over the *idea* of being put in this kind of situation, whether it be someone close to me or a stranger.  I dread the day I lose someone dear to me (or myself, for that matter) so often that it dominates my thoughts.  It's terrible timing.

I know I need to be strong and supportive of the man I love, but I fear that I will have a panic attack or break down and make things much worse for him and his family.  It would be an awful way to meet their acquaintance, and I honestly don't know how I should handle this situation.

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<bot>: I want to be the girl who can share and lighten my lover's burdens, but I fear I am not emotionally stable enough right now to be a supportive figure when it comes to diving into the situation myself.