<human>: Hey guys,

So this is my first time posting here and I'm hoping for some advice.  I fell for this one girl about two years ago. I want to move on, I am tired of being stuck fawning over her. I want to get out there and date new people.

To make matters worse, she is one of my 2 suite mates (I'm a junior in college). I know I have this problem where I have put her on a pedestal and I'm making things worse.

The biggest problem though is I have little to no self worth. I don't feel like girls are attracted to me. I'm about 5'6''-5'7'' and so it doesn't help that I'm short. I'm terrible at small talk, where the conversations usually go:

"Hey, my name is TryingToForget, whats your name?"

"Hi, I'm X it's nice to meet you."

Then I do the normal things, like ask what major they are or where they're from, but after those questions are answered I just blank. I have nothing else.

I know that under all this timidness and lack of self worth there is a very attractive/interesting person but I can't get him to come out when I need him to.

The only time I ever truly feel like I'm the fucking man is when I'm talking to the one girl that it will never matter.

So, I turn to you Reddit. Help me make myself awesome. Help me move on from this girl and kick ass at dating and life.

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<bot>: I want to make a change in my life to start fixing things but I have little to no self worth and I fell for my one of my best friend and roommate of 2 years.