<human>: Give me the gist of the text in a nutshell

I'll keep it short. My boyfriend is amazing, family loves him, I like his friends, he treats me really well, we laugh all the time together, etc. 

We've had lots of it and downs and he's forgiven me for a lot, as I have him. Last January I found out he had been taking other women on dates and telling his friends he was breaking up with me. He apologized, we made up, but now (5 months later) I still feel just disconnected from him.

I want to break up but I'm afraid I'm making a mistake. He's good for me in so many ways & I do honestly love him, but when that happened I think I shut down and I don't know how to get that lovey feeling back.
<bot>: I'm having trouble forgiving after some past indiscretions, but we have a good relationship otherwise.  should I end things?