<human>: Can you give me a shortened version of the text?

Sorry if my thoughts here seem scattered. I just don't know what to do with my life right now, and my anxiety has been causing all sorts of problems. One issue I have is the thought of networking.

It's just so frustrating to me. It seems like networking is how people get jobs or find out what career would be right for them. I'm supposed to go to these networking events and talk to strangers and come off as if I were a confident and interesting person. The problem is...I'm just....not. I'm a shy, weird person that cries a lot and has no real plans at the moment.

I cried during some of my presentations in uni. I was too afraid of joining clubs too; I would think back to my previous experiences with clubs and realized everyone just hung around the coolest, funniest people. Certainly not the person who always look like she's close to crying. I also learned in uni that I am just not as smart as I thought. I can't seem to have an intelligent conversation with people without stumbling over words, forgetting what I was going to say, or just not understanding certain things.

I just think of all the times I tried to talk to people with authority (e.g. professors). They all seemed to think I was just really strange.

I don't know... networking for me just seems too difficult and stressful. But now I've just found myself holed up in my bedroom, not doing much of anything either.
<bot>: I have had social anxiety for years, which makes it hard to network (or even enjoy life in general), which makes it hard for me to figure out what my next step is in life.