<human>: Can you give me a shortened version of the text?

So I used to have a huge crush on this girl in school. Long story short she wasn't interested in me so I hung around as a friend. 7 years later we're best friends and basically extremely close to each other. She thinks of me as a friend/brother/gay best friend and I think of her as a best friend.

Thing is, she sends me pics of boys and tells me about how much she loves this guy or that guy and me being me, I just listen to it. Not long after she is most likely going to have a boyfriend. I feel like someone stabs me each time she talks about boys, mainly because those are the boys she picked over me. Even though I want to be best friends with her it hurts me to stay friends.

I can't get away from her, or break the friendship because we really love each other in a platonic way and she has helped me through so much, I don't want to be selfish and just leave her. Both of us are depressed and each other's company is what keeps us going. If I stop talking to her I will feel empty because there is no one in my life like her, or even has the potential to be as close to me as she is.
<bot>: Have a girl best friend. Might still have feelings for her. Talking to her hurts me, not talking to her hurts me. What should I do?