<human>: I like to be romantically emotionally connected. It was so intense with my first relationship, so I have experienced it and I know what it is like.

My boyfriend is not. He doesn't need to know every feeling I feel, nor does he want to be baby-ed. He is quite emotionally stable, i.e. needs me rarely to make him feel better about himself. Which is great. For him. He keeps busy. Plays. Works. Spends time with family and all that. 

I on the other hand, am forever emotion-hungry. I want to feel/share/express every emotion. We have broken up because I felt I was expecting too much from him. But he always wanted me back and I went back because I love him. He's a nice guy who loves me.

We have never been around each other much. It was always long distance. We meet twice a month on average for the past five years. We will be engaged and married soon.

So, over the last year, I have been emotionally cheating on him. I vent out my emotions with other guys. They are real people or people on reddit who I talk to. Guys who want to listen to what I have to say. They comfort me, listen to me and vice versa. One guy at a time and I stop before we get attached to each other and it actually makes me feel like I have a bad secret. I think I like the initial high of a relationship. 

If I stop this, it is going to emotionally frustrate me as I cannot tell my BF about these things. He is not  a good listener and doesn't like to listen to what I studied in class and who I hung out with. Not everyday anyway.  I am going to be pent up and take out my anger on my him again.

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<bot>: Getting emotional support off and on from other guys for almost two years. How to break out of the pattern (not the relationship)?