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I posted [here about 10 days ago](

Since then, we've sort of made up? He says he loves me so much and I say that too, because I do, but I'm realizing how messed up this "relationship" is. Even after our heart to hearts, I'm still checking his email, and he's trying to get hookups through online dating and craigslist. But he says he loves me? And I realize that what I'm doing is wrong too. I'm not even sure if I have a right to be mad at him since we're not officially together. I'm also not sure if that's my codependency issues talking. He's perpetually high or drunk. I can't stop crying.
<bot>: I know I'm an adult, but I guess I need to hear from strangers on the internet that what I'm doing/what I'm involved in is completely idiotic, toxic, painful and wrong.