<human>: Hey reddit! So I need some advice. I've been with this amazing guy for about a year and a half now. He's 20 and I'm 19. We're both virgins.

 A couple nights ago we were getting intimate in my bedroom. Our sessions usually include oral sex, fingering, and everything that isn't vaginal intercourse. Anyway, things were heavy and we hadn't seen each other for a couple of weeks. He turned to me and said that he wanted to "go all the way this time". I mentioned how we didn't have any protection. He suggested that we go out and get something. I began to say that I didn't think it was a good idea, I told him that I was afraid that he'd lose interest in me and leave. He said he understood and that there was no pressure.

He said that he loved what we already did and that I he's not going anywhere. I may have changed my mind in that instant if what he said next didn't leave me with doubts on how ready he was. I asked him why he wanted to have sex and one of his reasons were because he feels bad about ejaculating in my mouth. Also, he thinks that sex would be no different then what we do now besides the sensation. He doesn't see the difference.

Is there a difference? I want to have sex with him but I'm also just worried that he'll leave me. Any advice or thoughts guys?

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<bot>: boyfriend wants to have sex but I said I wasn't ready. I'm afraid he'll leave me and I am also doubting his readiness because he sees no difference in what we do now as compared to vaginal intercourse.