<human>: My boyfriend and I have had an up and down relationship for almost 6 years now. I love him very much and have been faithful to him. I honestly cant imagine my life without him. He is different when it comes to really "loving". He see's it as a weakness of sorts. I guess I'm telling this part of him because it has to do with intimacy. He really shows no affection at all unless during sex, and that isn't much, other than maybe rubbing my back, and that is rare.

When it comes to porn, I guess it really doesn't bother me, because he does have a much higher sex drive than I do. Also, I know it helps keep him at home and not out acting on his drive with other women.

 My problem with porn, is that it is on during our sex. Not only is it on, he completely concentrates on it. He seems to have no regard for what I am feeling. It is humiliating and hurtful. I have tried to talk to him about it, and he always gets upset as if I'm trying to change him. We have other issues too, I'm not blaming it all on porn, or all on him. I just don't know how to get past this. I end up crying a lot more than I want to after "meaningless sex", as I see it. It just seems so degrading. Is this normal for men to be this way? I have not been with a man previous to him that liked porn, so this is new to me.

And for the record, I do watch it with him. I've tried all I know of  to try to understand and get past this. I love him and want him happy. Am I crazy, or asking too much of him for him to concentrate on me during sex and not porn???

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<bot>: I would like help dealing with my issue with porn and my boyfriend. I don't want to loose him because of my problem.