<human>: I've been married for eight years and things aren't the worst, but aren't the best. I'm notorious for having commitment issues and have been feeling very suffocated by the idea of being with one person for the rest of my life. Plus, I had some traumatic events happen right before I met my husband and I believe it affected my ability to have a deep, emotional connection with him. I love him, but I don't feel that soulmate-like connection. Still, I have a kid and don't want to screw things up by walking away from the marriage. 

Currently, I have a major crush on my (also married) coworker. He's incredibly good looking and fun to talk to. We've chatted after work events and exchange emails that have a mixture of business and non-business talk. I feel confident that we haven't crossed any lines, especially because I don't believe the crush is reciprocated. Also, I know my husband has my email password and I haven't felt the need to delete any of my messages to CW.

I don't have an open marriage as far a sex goes, but I do have permission to create close emotional connections with other men as long as I "don't try to replace" my husband. I don't want to end my marriage or threaten my CW's marriage, but I've been finding excuses to interact with him and do get excited every time I get to see him. I will admit, I do wish the crush was mutual and CW would attempt to flirt with me. Is it okay to get excited by the newness of this relationship and spend time with another man as long as I go back to my husband and nothing comes of it?

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<bot>: I'm bored and having fun developing a new (non-sexual) relationship with my CW. I want to know if what I'm doing is okay.