<human>: I'm bad at writing so sorry for mistakes. 

My gf and I started dating a year and 10 months ago before that we were friends for 2 months. We moved in together 6 months into our relationship and had been living together ever since. Now she cheated on me. I can't move out neither can She. She is now dating the guy she cheated on me with. 

She wants to try and be friends which I could do I guess. We've been broken up for a week now. I have bad anxiety and get panic attacks super bad since we broke up and I found out she cheated on me. My family lives away and I have work so i can't just skip things and go there for few days either... Now whenever I have a panic attack I'm alone or she's there trying to hold me and make me feel better. While she's doing that all I can think of is her making out and doing shit with the guy she cheated on me with. 

Her mom came over to visit her today and I had a panic attack thinking of him going to her house for christmas and thanks giving and for all the holidays where I thought I'd be. 

I don't understand why I can't just not think about it, I know she cheated on me then why do I keep picturing myself with her in the future, thinking one day we'll be together. I don't say this to her but I actually want her to come to my room cuddle me and make me feel better like she used too. 

I used to have some college but she made me drop all contact with them and most of my highschool friends are in my hometown and I feel so alone.

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<bot>: My gf cheated on me and we broke up but we live together. I can't seem to put it in my head that she cheated and hate her... I keep picturing myself with her in life and keep thinking about her.