<human>: Can you succinctly summarize the text in 1-3 sentences?

I'm on mobile so forgive me for any discrepancies. 

My ex (24f) of five years have been talking pretty consistently for the past year. My hopes were always to eventually reconcile and get back together. Even though we have both seen other people. 

Her friends know nothing of us talking and she will not make any attempt to change that. She texts me daily for small talk to see how my day is but is actively seeing some one else. It's becoming harder and harder to keep this going when what I want is nowhere near to coming to fruition. She will ignore me when she's "busy" but if I fail to respond in a decent amount of time I get scolded. 

I am 50% ready to say fuck it and just cut all contact to save myself the heart ache. I'm also 50% terrified to do so because I still have very strong feelings for this woman. 

Kind of just clueless as to what to do, thoughts?
<bot>: Still in love with my ex, but I think she just likes me around for her own validation. Don't know what to do.