the next president of the united states was born in queens. the next president made his name in real estate in manhattan. the next president began his campaign at his new york city skyscraper, cast his vote at a nearby public school and celebrated his victory at a midtown hotel. and the next president lost at the polls in all those places on tuesday. new yorkers overwhelmingly voted against donald j. trump , one of their own, went home and woke up with him as the winner. feelings of hometown pride in the republican nominee<u+2019>s victory were generally absent on wednesday, the city<u+2019>s mood framed by a shawl of gray clouds. <u+201c>i don<u+2019>t think any new yorkers slept,<u+201d> said maye le<u+00f3>n, 39, a hair stylist in east harlem. the feeling of loss was magnified by the shock of it, not just for new yorkers but for all those who voted for hillary clinton , the democratic nominee, and believed her victory was a sure bet, even as the sun set and polls closed on tuesday. that her victory proved to be an illusion, so much smoke, left many <u+2014> mainly in new york, along the east coast and on the west coast <u+2014> wondering how they could have gotten it so wrong. were they that locked in an echo chamber of the like-minded? <u+201c>i never even considered the possibility that hillary would lose,<u+201d> said shirley wu, 26, a student at new york university. <u+201c>because i didn<u+2019>t know a single person voting against her.<u+201d> as a construction worker, eve galarza, 39, put it: <u+201c>they elected him. it says a whole lot about america.<u+201d> as if that were some strange land. michael moran, 65, an artist who used to live near the former home of mr. trump<u+2019>s family in jamaica estates, queens, said the surprise of the result depressed him. <u+201c>i feel funny about the country,<u+201d> he said. <u+201c>i feel out of touch.<u+201d> the last new yorker to be elected president rode <u+201c>a political cataclysm, unprecedented in the nation<u+2019>s history,<u+201d> according to the new york times the next day. that was in 1932, and his name was franklin delano roosevelt. on wednesday in new york, the new political cataclysm felt to many not homegrown but like something that started someplace else and washed up here. <u+201c>i don<u+2019>t really understand the country as well as i thought i did,<u+201d> said tristan chirico, 32, a student in the crown heights section of brooklyn. <u+201c>i feel gaslit, like i<u+2019>m going crazy. i can<u+2019>t fathom how this is possible.<u+201d> another crown heights resident, alison benko, 23, said, <u+201c>i felt like i woke up and my country was stolen.<u+201d> and yet, it was not. for all the talk of a <u+201c>rigged election,<u+201d> there has not been a hint of impropriety regarding the actual voting. what was actually stolen, perhaps, was a portrait of the country that many people carried. <u+201c>new york city is liberal, and i think people weren<u+2019>t seeing beyond that,<u+201d> said rosalie kaufman, 71, at a museum in mr. roosevelt<u+2019>s former home on east 65th street in manhattan. <u+201c>they saw what they wanted to see.<u+201d> she added: <u+201c>i love new york. i will always live here, but it doesn<u+2019>t represent the united states.<u+201d> a student at hunter college, hector lorenzo, 34, of washington heights, leaned on a wrought-iron fence outside the 32nd president<u+2019>s former home and considered the election of the 45th. <u+201c>i<u+2019>m shocked,<u+201d> he said of the results. <u+201c>i guess you figure there will be some division in the country. but this is more widespread, and scarier, than i thought it was.<u+201d> like many, holly rilinger, 42, a fitness trainer in manhattan, posted about the election on facebook: <u+201c>i woke up more upset with how blind-sided i feel,<u+201d> she wrote. <u+201c>how insulated i have allowed myself to become. how in the world have i become so completely disconnected from the rest of the country? i have mid-western roots.<u+201d> kristina blaine, 36, from rego park, queens, saw both sides of the election within her own family, spread around new york, ohio and florida. she visited trump tower in manhattan on wednesday holding a sign that read: <u+201c>some of my family voted for trump. i am sorry america.<u+201d> she regretted not trying to change minds: <u+201c>instead of rocking the boat with my family, i didn<u+2019>t,<u+201d> she said. <u+201c>i could have done more.<u+201d> early in the presidential campaign, ted cruz<u+2019>s derogatory accusation that mr. trump was a symbol of <u+201c>new york values<u+201d> was roundly mocked in the city itself. now, with his victory, mr. trump, for better or worse, really is the face of new york in the white house, a born-and-raised son of the city representing the nation to the rest of the planet. new yorkers reflected on his new york values, some with praise. <u+201c>in this city, you have to be respectful of everyone,<u+201d> said luis estrella, 63, from elmhurst, queens. <u+201c>he<u+2019>s from new york, so i think he<u+2019>s going to be tolerant of everyone, even though he has said the opposite. that<u+2019>s just noise.<u+201d> rafael gonzales, 66, of washington heights, said he had jumped up and hugged his television when the election swung mr. trump<u+2019>s way and shouted, <u+201c>s<u+00ed>, muchacho!<u+201d> <u+201c>he was born here and who are you if you don<u+2019>t do something for your people?<u+201d> he said. <u+201c>he<u+2019>s going to do well because new yorkers get along with everybody.<u+201d> others suggested the new new yorker in washington would not be representative of his roots, but more of a city caricature. <u+201c>he<u+2019>s always so negative, always criticizing everything,<u+201d> said margie rivera, 61, who lives in east harlem. <u+201c>that<u+2019>s not new york.<u+201d> enissia rivera, 23, speaking near trump tower, twisted it the other way. <u+201c>he<u+2019>s not a new yorker,<u+201d> she said. <u+201c>it takes morals, and he doesn<u+2019>t have any.<u+201d> marcin perkowski, a foreman at a hotel construction site in manhattan <u+2014> a job seemingly near and dear to the president-elect <u+2014> suggested it was too soon to pass judgment. <u+201c>i think we will see after four years,<u+201d> he said. <u+201c>right now it<u+2019>s been less than 24 hours and nothing has changed.<u+201d> and yet, for many, everything had. correction: november 9, 2016 an earlier version of this article misstated the given name of a foreman at a hotel construction site in manhattan. he is marcin perkowski, not marafino. sharon otterman, noah remnick, nate schweber and jonathan wolfe contributed reporting. find out what you need to know about the 2016 presidential race today, and get politics news updates via facebook , twitter and the morning briefing newsletter . a version of this article appears in print on november 10, 2016, on page p17 of the new york edition with the headline: among new yorkers, dread and confusion outweigh hometown pride. order reprints | today's paper | subscribe
new yorkers baffled and anxious after trump, one of their own, clinches election
michael wilson