This feeling of "I've gotta be me" especially when it is "at any cost" and especially when it is expressed as a strong motivator for self-growth is beyond the usual conceptualization ascribed to free will.
这种「我要成为我自己」的感觉（特别是当它是「不惜一切代价的」、被称作是自我发展的强烈驱动力的时候）超越了通常被称作「自由意志」的概念。